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A/N: This Chapter was fun and then sad to write, I hope you like it. Read, review, and enjoy!
Last Chapter

"Thank you." It was the only thing I could say that fit the situation. She did something then, that I'd never thought she would do, she walked over to me and hugged me. The moment didn't last long, but it showed that she was trying. I hugged her back and then went downstairs to Edward. He already knew everything that had been said and was waiting with a crooked smile at the foot of the stairs.

Chapter Nine

Calumniation

Saturday was nearing and every time I even closed my eyes, my dream flashed before my eyes. I couldn't take the thought of hurting Edward, but which one would hurt him more? I sighed. I'd never been so indecisive. The only thing that ever calmed me was seeing Edward, but this was my twilight as a single lady and we weren't seeing each other at all until we said our vows. I groaned and sighed loudly. I was lying in bed, I couldn't convince myself to get out of it. I was tossing and turning when I heard the doorbell. My heart skipped a beat it must be Edward! I jumped up, a little too quickly and my sock caught on my comforter causing me to fall onto my floor, before I knew it, pair of ice cold hands was holding me centimeters from the ground. It wasn't the cold hands I was familiar and accustomed to, I looked up to see Rosalie standing there. Beside her was a smiling Alice. I didn't want them here, not now, I needed to think. Rosalie quickly lifted me up and set me on my feet before backing away.

Alice's smile deepened. "It's time for a bachelorette party! Woot!" she squealed.

"Edward and I never discussed this… I don't think it's a good idea."

"Relax, Emmett and Jasper already have him at his on bachelor party."

"Well I'm not really in the mood for one, really, it's unnecessary."

"Nonsense. You're getting one, at least you can drink for yours, I never got to have that experience." I was surprised when it was Rosalie who was insisting now.

"Fine," I exhaled loudly. "Just so we're clear there aren't going to be any male strippers or anything like that is there?" I asked terrified. They glanced at each other with a wicked smile and turned back to me.

"Time for hair and makeup!" Alice yelled.

"That doesn't answer my question!" She ignored me and pulled me out of the bed and threw me into the bathroom.

"Shower." She demanded before leaving. I sighed and jumped in. This wasn't how I planned my day going, at least I wouldn't be debating on whether or not I'd be leaving him. I sighed at that thought. Should I go or should I stay? What's the difference between right and wrong anyhow? Urgg I groaned loudly and squirted the last of my shampoo into my hair. I wanted to stay with Edward forever, but I wanted him to be alive forever. I didn't want to think of an Edward free world that was too much pain to bear. He was certainly way too great not to exist in this world. I tried to push the thought away from my head, I should just have a fun night out with the girls. I decided that's what I would do until I got safely back into my bed so I could rationalize my thoughts.

"Hurry up!" Alice groaned as she banged on the bathroom door.

"I'm out already!" I hollered as I wrapped a towel around me, Rosalie and Alice busted through.

"A little privacy?" I blushed.

"No! You need to wear this ooh and this!" Rosalie handed me a short skirt, a halter top, some tights, and a sash that said 'Kiss me I'm the bride'. I giggled as I slipped the clothes on. Surprisingly I looked amazing.

"Makeup and hair!" Alice shouted as she jumped up and down. I let out a defeated sigh as Alice worked on my hair and Rosalie began the plucking and prodding of my face. Within thirty minutes I was done. I laughed at a tiara that matched my 'I'm the bride' sash.

"You look amazing!"

"Where does Charlie think I am going?" I asked, hoping he'd get me out of this.

"We're having a girl's night!" Alice explained. I looked at her and she was absolutely beaming.

"Alright, let's go." I trudged down the stairs with Rosalie and Alice laughing behind me. We were in Rosalie's red convertible in no time heading out of town.

"Will someone please tell me where we are going?" I pleaded.

They looked at one another and then just turned up the radio. I sighed. I wasn't going to get an answer until we were there. "May I remind you that I'm not twenty one? I can't drink legally!" They turned to look at me and giggled again.

"As if we need IDs!" Alice laughed at the thought. Rosalie laughed louder than Alice and I just lowered my head in defeat. There was no way I was getting out of this.

"What does Edward think of all this?"

"Well he was hesitant of course…but all in all Emmett and Jasper will make sure he has some fun." I was shocked that Rosalie was the one that answered my question. She quickly added, "Well not too much fun." I could tell she was thinking about Emmett and a stripper getting a little too close. Alice and I quickly started to laugh at her obvious jealousy; if she could blush I'm sure she would have been as red as me.

"We are here!" Alice beamed. I looked outside to see a cowboy strip bar. I groaned.

"Please no strippers!" I blushed. The thought of someone dancing around in a Speedo and a cowboy hat almost made me redder than a tomato. They just laughed at my redness and dragged me into the bar.

I turned bright red when I saw the whole bar had little penis' everywhere. I laughed hysterically when Rosalie and Alice put a giant penis necklace around my neck. A waiter wearing a black thong, cowboy boots, and a cowboy hat, handed as all shots of tequila.

"I've never drunk before…" I told them. They beamed and handed me all three of the shots. I chugged them down and let out a loud burp. They laughed at me and then a stripper came on stage and Alice immediately began to tip twenties. I tried to hide my face, but it nothing but bring the stripper too me the minute he saw my tiara. I groaned out loud and looked at Alice and Rosalie hoping they'd stop him they just giggled and got more drinks for me. I sat there while the cowboy started undressing to "It's raining men."

Alice handed me five more shots and I chugged them each down. My dance was over and I was starting to feel a little woozy.

Another song came on and Alice and Rosalie quickly dragged me on my feet to dance with them. I was so nervous. I was sure I'd fall, but surprisingly the alcohol had a reverse effect and I walked with ease. I was dancing around just like an idiot with both of them. "Girls just want to have fun" came on and another round of drinks for the woozy human entailed. I was surprised at how much fun we were having. Finally we opted to sit at the bar because I was feeling more than a little woozy.

"Emmett plays around too much sometimes." Rosalie complained. It had been ten more shots for me and we were now sitting around listening to a bunch of woman empowering songs and we had decided to start complaining about our men.

"Jasper is just the opposite! He never really plays around. We connect, but on a different level, sometimes it would be nice for him to just play around. Every once in a while would it kill him to do some role playing in the bed room?" Alice sighed.

"You mean you want him to role play? It gets so old, that's all Emmett likes to do nowadays! Sometimes it'd be nice if we weren't dressing up like Darth Vader and Princess Leia."

"Humph. I wish Jasper would be interested in being Darth Vader!" Alice groaned.

"So…what does Edward do or not do?" Rosalie looked at me.

"Well…umm… he's too perfect! He never does anything wrong, it gets old, me always making the mistakes." I sighed as I took another shot.

"Oh come on, that's not a complaint!" Alice said.

"Well…hmm…he's way overprotective, but I mean I understand it…"

"Bella, I don't think you know how this works, we've given out a complaint, so you give one a real one, not one that you 'understand'!" Rosalie demanded.

"Urgg… umm okay…well he has too much self control! I was hoping that we'd have been able to…you know… and every time we get close to…you know… he always stops!" I was too drunk to blush and I quickly downed another shot. They both laughed.

"You mean to tell me, that your only complaint about Edward is that you haven't had sex yet?!" Rosalie laughed.

"Well… he's perfect in every way, I told you that can get a little old, but then again I just love him and everything about him, I even understand his whole self control, he's so worried about hurting me, it's kind of sweet." I smiled as I thought about my perfect Edward; tomorrow he would be mine forever.

"I guess that's why you're marrying him, huh?" Alice asked, immediately I knew what she was asking, she wanted to know if I planned on leaving him at the altar. I felt my stomach aching as I thought of my dream. My stomach started aching more and more and I realized I was about to throw up. I quickly rushed to the bathroom and Rosalie hurried in after me.

She held my hair back as I let all the alcohol go down the toilet. I was redder than ever.

"I'm so sorry Rose. I didn't mean to start…" I started puking immediately again.

"Bella… Shh…its okay just let it out." She was soothing me. I was surprised that it wasn't Alice in the bathroom with me. When I was done, Rosalie felt my forehead, wiped my face, and carried me out of the bathroom.

"I think it's time for the bride to be to go to sleep." Alice nodded and they both helped me to the car.

"Am I going to my house or yours?" I managed to stammer out.

"Will you be okay at your house?"

"I don't want Charlie to know I've been drinking." They chuckled.

"He's working late. Will you be okay at your house?"

"Yes. It'd be better for me to be there anyways, I'd sleep better without worrying about Emmett laughing at me." Rosalie and Alice giggled.

"I don't think Edward would be comfortable if we left you like this, alone." Alice said. I was worried that she wanted to interrogate me. I needed to think about that, with out her asking me questions.

"I'd be fine, really." I said. I was already starting to feel less nauseous anyways, I'm sure I could make it by myself.

"I am with Alice on this one; I don't think it'd be a good idea. I'll stay with you until you go to sleep." I looked at Rosalie as she said this. I couldn't believe this was the same girl who was glaring and hissing at me the night before. We were at my house.

"Really, I will be okay." I said as I staggered out of the car. I nearly fell over and Rosalie quickly jumped out and helped me before I fell.

"I'm staying at least for a couple of hours." She wasn't asking anymore, she was telling me.

"I'll take the car back and you can call me if you need anything." Alice said. She wasn't at all surprised that Rosalie wanted to take care of me. Stupid future seeing vampire I thought. Rosalie helped me into my room and threw me some of my pajamas that Alice had recently bought for me. I dressed quickly and lay down. She sat in my rocking chair obviously confused; she must not have known what to do.

"You can leave you know." I whispered as I closed my eyes. I knew she heard me.

"Alice won't ask you this straight up, but are you planning on leaving him? I love my brother to death and if you plan on hurting him then do it now and not later." I couldn't believe she was saying this. This was exactly what I was hoping to avoid.

"I love your brother with all of my existence. I don't want to leave him." I said all the truths there were.

"But you're thinking about it?" She questioned me.

"Rosalie…" I started, but I heard Charlie come up the stairs. She looked around and didn't know what to do; she quickly dashed into my closet. I turned over and pretended to snore. I had never been so happy that Charlie came home unexpected. I quickly drifted off into sleep and had my same nightmare.

I woke up to see I was alone. Rosalie must have left the minute she realized I was asleep. Today was my wedding day and I still hadn't decided on saying 'I do' or not saying it. I got up and took a shower, I was sure Alice would be by in no time to do my makeup.

I got out of the shower and was dressing into my sweats when Charlie yelled for me to come down the stairs. I gasped at what I saw. It was Renee and Phil! I ran down the stairs and hugged my mom.

"Like I would miss your wedding day!" She was beaming. There were a dozen freesias on the table and instantly I knew they were from Edward. I read the card.

I can't wait to spend forever with you. I'm ready for this to be the twilight of my single life as long as I'm with you.

Love,

Edward Cullen

I beamed at the flowers, could I really leave him? If it was the right thing to do, then surely I should do it right? But when he left me he thought it was the right thing and he'd never been more wrong. I couldn't cause a war if I'd end up dying anyways. I let out a sigh.

"If you don't want to go through with it you don't have to!" Renee worriedly said.

"Mom, I'm fine. Let's get me ready!"

She grabbed a bag of makeup and headed up the stairs with me, leaving Phil and Charlie alone.

She took longer than I was used to on my makeup and my hair. I showed her my dress and she started to cry. She thought I was utterly gorgeous in it. I was surprised to see an extra bridesmaid dress in my closet. Alice must have known she was coming. I laughed to myself as I pulled it out of the closet. She looked stunning in it, I didn't know how stunning she'd look next to Rosalie, but she looked beautiful nonetheless. It was like all of my other bridesmaid dresses, except that hers was a halter, Rosalie's was spaghetti strapped, and Alice's, who was my maid of honor, was strapless. The dress was black and went to my mom's ankles; it had a nice pink bow around the waist. They would all look stunning.

We were getting into a limo—which Edward must have sent over—and we were driving out to the meadow. A pathway was made and rose petals were all down the walkway. My lullaby was playing softly as Charlie walked me down the aisle. I was getting more nervous by the minute. I looked over and I saw Jacob sitting with the rest of the pack. I looked over and saw Esme, Carlisle, and Phil smiling at me.

I looked straight ahead into my lovers eyes. He looked so good in black. I could tell he was admiring me in my wedding dress. I loved him so much and I couldn't believe what I was about to do. Alice turned to me with a frown on her face, I had already made up my mind and she knew that I wouldn't be saying I do. I looked at Edward trying to soak in the last bit of him that I could, this would be the last time I ever saw him, the last time I ever saw any of them. Tears started to slide down my face; I just wiped them away and put on a weak smile. I looked at Emmett he was beaming at me, obviously happy that I was joining his family. I turned to Jasper who was questioning my feelings.

The service began and it came time for the vows. Edward lovingly looked at me and said "I do." The priest turned to me and I looked down at my shoes. I looked up at Edward and uttered the words I would regret the rest of my existence, even if it would be a short one, "I… I don't." I heard everyone gasp and Jacob was smiling. Edward looked more hurt than I'd ever seen him look before. I kissed him passionately, longingly, and spoke again, "Edward, I don't love you anymore, I'm sorry." Without waiting to see Alice or Rosalie's face I turned and ran. I ran through the pathway and all the way home. I was tripping constantly over these damn heels. I threw them off and tossed them behind me, I wouldn't have a lot of time.

I rushed into Charlie's house and I wrote on a piece of paper.

Edward,

I had to leave. I'm so sorry, but you see, I kept having a dream of starting the war, of you and Jacob dying and then the Volturi came to kill me anyways. I can't stand the thought of hurting you and your family, or Jacob and the pack. I just couldn't let you guys start a war over me for no reason at all. I love you and when I told you I didn't it was the worst calumniation I could ever say. I'm terribly sorry. Please don't try to find me and don't do anything stupid, I'm doing all of this to save you, don't make my efforts wasted.

Love you forever and always,

Bella Cullen

I ran upstairs and grabbed my sock full of money and I quickly changed out of my dress. I left it on the bed and wrote a note to Alice.

Alice,

I'm sorry I lied to you about everything. I can't take this dress when I know that you paid for it and everything. So here it is, it might need to be dry cleaned, but I'm sure you can return it. Please don't try to see my future, or stop me, watch after Edward and tell everyone I'm sorry, even Rosalie.

Bella

I folded Alice and Edward's notes and tucked them inside the dress. I took out another paper and left it on the table for Charlie.

Charlie,

I needed to get away. I can't stay here knowing the pain I've caused Edward. I'll call you soon. I love you; none of this is your fault, or Edwards for that matter. Tell Alice to take the dress back I can't keep it.

Love Bella

I didn't want to leave my ring; it's the only bit of Edward I would have left. I quickly got into my truck and drove to the airport.