Low in his seat, he glared at the broken window.

' I don't wanna do it but...' he frowned.

Slowly he cocked his head to the side peering into the dusty backwindow. Rin was sitting in the back of the truck, her head laid against the window, her braids swaying against the wind. Inwardly he seethed, his eyes ablaze, still alive with fury at her.

' She knows something...'

Rin tiredly sighed staring up at the vast blue sky. She grabbed her polaroid camera and snapped a picture of the sun.

'CLICK!'

Sesshomaru lowly growled rolling his eyes for the hundredth time. He was wobbling on three large boxes and a tiny stool.

'CLICK!'

All morning he didn't speak to Rin and neither did she to him, all morning he worked with one good arm while Rin took pictures. Pictures of him. Anything he did Rin took a picture of whether it'd be strainfully with one arm shutting the heavy gates after Kasama released the animals in certain enclosed areas, trying to pitch fork hay, or uprooting weeds.

Or reaching one arm to grab a can of paint from the top shelf in the barn.

' What could she find so possibly amusing by this?' he grimaced failing to stretch his good arm far enough. It was definately getting on his nerves.

He turned around careful not to fall.

"Look will you cut that out" he irritably replied. He gasped at the sudden wobble but retained back to balance.

Rin stared hard at him like he was at her, "Why should I?"

"Why?" he squated down off the stool and gingerly slid down the boxes. As he approached Rin, like his sullen demeanor- his long silver hair whipped left and right like the tail of a tested cat.

"Because it's annoying!"

"Then let me help you" she calmly asked.

"No" he flatly answered and turned around. Rin tossed her head, groaned, and swooped to his side.

'CLICK!'

This time strands of his silver hair stood up and he swerved around at her more angry than before.

"I told you ta cut it out! What are you!? Some stalker in training!?"

Biting her lip didn't stop Rin from raising her voice back at him.

"You won't let me help you! What else I'm I supposed to do!?"

"Uh here's an idea..GO AWAY!"

"I'm sorry Sesshomaru but I can't do that. As of right now I'm your guardian and if you won't let me help you then I still have to watch you. Dad's orders."

Sesshomaru threw back his head and let out a laugh.

"Don't you seriously have better things to do than watch me!?"

At that moment an instant memory shot in my brain of how you were plagued the weird girl at school so mentally I thought otherwise.

"Or do you always do what Daddy says?" he mockingly teased and turned his back on her.

"Yes because I love him" Rin honestly admitted with such valiance in her voice as if she were a martyr.

"Pah Daddy's Girl...this place..y'all make me sick!" he spat and walked to the boxes.

Rin's face now grew redder than a hot tamale. And when Rin was really mad she got real stubborn.

"What about you Sesshomaru!? Huh?! Yea MOMMA'S BOY!"

Before he even touched a box Sesshomaru swung his head to Rin, his eyes large, his eyebrows raised, his mouth dropped, and every hair on his body stood up.

"Wha-what did you say?" he asked hoarsely as a knot developed its way into his throat. A slight tremble quivered up and down his body as the beating of his heart had slowed alittle.

"Geez don't you rememeber!? You were screaming bloody murder! You were screaming for your mommy!"

Sesshomaru frowned unable to digest what he just heard. The feeling gave out in his legs, he leaned himself against the boxes to help keep him from falling.

"Don't you remember Sesshomaru!? Ohhhhh MoOoooOOM!! Where's mom!? Moooom! Oh mommy please come back! Mom!!" Rin wickedly gushed.

He was now white as a ghost and had an asthmatic's breath. He looked up at her, "...Sh-ut up..."

"Oh mommmy please come back!! Mommm pleassssse saaaave me from these 'baaaaad people!' " she fluttered her eyes and held her hands together dramatically.

"I said...shut up" Sesshomaru mustered his chest hallow and heaving, he began to push himself up.

Rin's eyes then grew heavy and she dropped her hands at her sides. "And then I had to save you from killing yourself."

He blinked now on his own two feet his hand still on the box.

"You were lucky I was out riding that day or who knows what could'a happened" she replied more softer now fixated on the last photo she took of him.

Impatiently he shouted, "Whatta yea mean what could'a happened?! What did happen!?"

Rin stopped looking at her picture and stared up at him. "You mean you really don't remember?"

"Only bits and pieces and what so far you've told me. You say I was screaming and I broke the truck's window with my arm and I remember Kasama yelling and then I was all hot...running and then ..." Sesshomaru turned and pointed at her. "You."

Rin stared intently at him.

"And that's all I can remember...I wanna know more and..I wanna know why. Why it happened..." he felt his warm forehead and glanced up at Rin. Immediately he returned to his usual cold posture.

"You gotta tell me."

Rin crossed her arms, "No."

He growled trying to be cool, "Look I'm not playing around."

"Neither I'm I."

"Tell me now!"

Rin's brow furrowed unphased by his anger, "I'm not telling you a thing unless you agree to let me help you."

He couldn't believe what he was hearing. He just couldn't. He shook his head, "No no no no no!"

"Sesshomaru" Rin sighed.

"No..no fuck you alright. I don't need you or your fucking help, it's your damn fault why I'm here in the first place."

"Oh right" she frowned. "It's my fault you and your friends decided to trash my family's cemetary."

"It's your fault for tattling!"

Rin's eyes widened and she let out a small gasp.

"What!? You didn't think I wouldn't have figured it out by now!?" he drew closer to her. "You didn't think I wouldn't have guessed that you snitched on me and my friends when I found out that your dad's last name was Kasama!" he shouted growing closer into her face.

She winced trying to back up some to give alittle room inbetween their faces.

"Why?! Why did you do it? You could have just left us alone! You could have atleast been a "normal" person and not said a word to your parents!"

He now backed her up into a corner.

"So why did you tell!?" Sesshomaru shouted louder, he wanted to scare her.

"I don't know!" she confessed sinking her head back up. "What you were doing was wrong, so I just told!"

"Grrr!!" he growled and whirled around away from her. He really wanted to punch something hard at that moment but turned back at her.

"If it wasn't for you snitching I wouldn't even be here! I wouldn't be working on this stupid farm! I wouldn't have a bloody arm! I wouldn't be flying out of moving trucks or windows!"

Rin clenched her teeth, inside she felt back stabbed and hurt. "If it weren't for me you'd be dead Sesshomaru! Did you ever think of that!?"

'All of a sudden it was completely quiet, I stood there still and nothing in the world could have made me turn away from you...until you started talking again.'

"Dead! Stone cold in the ground dead! I was there! I saved you! I was there for you! I mean...doesn't that mean anything to you?!" Rin exclaimed trying to search for a hint of regret upon his face.

Sesshomaru stared her in the eyes and said, "I would rather be dead."

He turned around, leaving.

"Don't you dare say that."

Sesshomaru stopped. He didn't turn back around.

"Don't you ever say that! Don't say that to me or anyone!" Rin's shaky voice began to scream.

The tension in the room rose to a new level. He could feel she was on the verge of longly overdue tears.

She didn't wait for an answer, she knew he wasn't going to try, "You don't mean it! No one truly wishes to be dead! It's just a lie!"

This time he did turn around. Rin straightened up her posture, her stick legs shook like a new born lamb. She took a few deep breaths her nostrils moist.

"Obviously you've never met a crazy person."

"Oh yes I have! And even then she didn't want to die!" Rin barked back.

' Damn...she has an answer for EVERYTHING! '

Sesshomaru inwardly groaned growing tired of her. He turned around to face her.

"Well...whoever "she" is, is a moron. Everyday I pray for something to come and just kill me."

Rin narrowed her eyes, "That's a horrible thing to pray for."

He only shrugged hoping she would finally shutup, "Like I said, I'm crazy."

"Look! Just stop! Stop it alright!"

He raised an eyebrow, "Stop what? You started it."

"Just stop saying you're crazy! Right now I'm starting to believe you're not as crazy as you say you are."

' What?'

"What!?" Sesshomaru stared at her in outright shock. She wasn't bluffing, she was serious.

"Rin! Look at me!" he angerly shouted raising up his stitched arm. "You've seen me! You saw what happens when I go nuts! That isn't enough for you?! Why else are you here right?! So the "looney" doesn't fuck himself up again!"

"Okay Sesshomaru, you can call yourself crazy..." Rin looked down thinking back to how scary he had looked when he let go of the bedsheet rope.

"...And maybe you are but..." she turned her eyes upward into his.

"I'm beginning to think there is more to it than that. And whatever it is I'm going to find out."

Sesshomaru frowned, "Why are you doing this?"

"Hmm?" Rin slanted her head at him, surprised at how soft his voice had changed. She blinked shaking herself from his gaze, "Um, because .."

"Why are you and your dad and everybody else here doing this to me!? I just want to get this shit over with and leave! I don't get why no one won't leave me alone! And if you think I call myself crazy just to get attention than you are dead wrong!" he shouted kicking his foot so hard against the box that the stool and other box toppled over.

"It's real!"

"I didn't say you use it as a way to get attention!"

"Then what then!?"

"I'm just saying sometimes you use it as a way to seperate yourself from others, especially from the people like me or my dad who are only trying to help you" Rin gingerly said so she wouldn't come off too harsh.

"I told you I don't need anyone's help!"

"See! There you go again!"

"What?! What I'm I doing?" he sneered shrugging his arms up.

Rin groaned and almost laughed, he was the most argumentive and venomous person she had ever met.

"Sesshomaru don't you see!? You're in DENIAL! It's like you can't let anyone get close to you!"

Sesshomaru crossed his arms and gruffly blew at his bangs. He raised his eyebrow as she drew closer to him.

"Your point?"

"Sesshomaru don't you get how much easier it will be to stop acting crazy and tell someone how you feel? Stop playing the loner, so come on tell me what's wrong? I'm here for you" Rin did her best to smile and raised her hand to touch his face.

Sesshomaru's breathing increased, taking a short step backward.

It had felt so much like being in all those psychiatric sessions I had since I was six.

His eyes darted left and back to Rin's approaching hand. He stared at it, Rin's palm was small and white, her knuckles actually looked bigger than the rest of it and her fingers were so long and so thin it reminded him of a spider's legs. Long, hairy, and feely crawling all over his face. He clenched his teeth as absolute disgust took over his face.

"Ew don't touch me!" he grimaced and slapped her hand away from him.

"Ow!" she winced rubbing her hand and looked at him scornfully.

"I don't need your pity! Not from you! So why don't you just go make yourself vomit in another toilet you bulimic anorexic!" he hatefully shouted.

Rin gasped her mouth wide open. Her whole body felt weak, especially her heart.

"I keep people like you away from me because I don't like you not because I'm hiding anything and if you haven't noticed I'm not such a loner I do have friends. I'm not like you! Using some illness to get people to feel sorry for me so they'll like me!"

Rin tried to breath as the air around her was getting hotter, bad memories flashed before her and wouldn't leave her alone like she so desperately pleaded them to. Sesshomaru wickedly grinned knowing he had hit her in the right spot. He began to recite a nasty school yard song all the kids in their class used to tease her with.

"Rin! Rin! Has no friends..."

'No please stop it!' she closed her eyes and pressed her hands tight over her ears. But she could still hear all the other kids chiding in.

"Thin Rin can't eat 'cause she's got no friends!"

'Stop it!'

"She's skinnier than a tooth pick!"

'Stop it!'

"Eat Rin! Eat! Eat Rin! Eat!"

" I AM NOT ANOREXIC!" Rin screamed at the top of her lungs.

She stared at him flushed face and glossy eyed but no tears, she had learned long ago that crying wouldn't save her.

Sesshomaru mean spiritedly chuckled. "And I thought I almost forgot how that went."

"That wasn't funny" she angerly replied.

"Well I suppose you're right. After all anorexia and bulmia are no laughing matter."

She became increasingly erratic, "I'm not anorexic or bulimic!"

"Save it. When Mary Sheller caught you throwing up in the girl's bathroom we all had our suspensions. I mean why else would you be so skinny? And then a teacher found you passed out againsted a toilet in another bathroom so it we all knew it had to be true!"

"Shutup! Shutup!" Rin screamed.

"You know Rin it really is a sick problem you got" he bitterly remarked.

Rin stopped screaming and shaking, her body felt like it was going back to normal again. Her eyes blazed angerly at his sullen gaze.

"Oh you wanna know what your problem is Sesshomaru?!"

"Humor me" he barked in a bring it on tone.

"You live in a DREAMWORLD."

"Oh I do, do I?" he growled.

"Yes! You can't face it when something real happens you day dream hoping it will all go away! Well it's not!" she shouted.

He snarled now at the end of his leash with her.

"Rin? Sesshomaru?"

Sesshomaru and Rin tore their faces from eachother to see Mr. Kasama arriving into the barn. He soon spotted them and quickened his pace.

"There you are. Sesshomaru you get that paint yet?"

"Uh, no" he mumbled. "I was trying to reach for it" he pointed over to the very high shelf.

"Well Rin why didn't you just show him where the ladder was" Kasama walked over into a thin wooden door right beside them and came out carrying a ladder.

Sesshomaru shot her a glare, she glared straight back.

"Sorry Dad, guess I forgot."

"No matter here Sesshomaru" he pushed the box aside and propped the ladder up.

Sesshomaru continued to glare at Rin as he walked up the ladder.

' Two can play at this game.'

"You know she shouldn't watch me. She tried to shoot me with a rifle last night" he quickly said and pointed at Rin. Kasama looked bewildered at him.

"Oh man Sesshomaru you must have really been blazed last night! That was just a toy!" she sneered with a laugh.

Sesshomaru sucked his own breathe back into his lungs, dropping his jaw. Kasama now looked bewildered over to Rin.

"Blazed Rin?"

"Oh you know Dad, blazed! Means he was really tired" Rin replied staring at Sesshomaru with a bratty smile. He narrowed his eyebrows wanting to break her face in.

First Chapter Where Sesshomaru Calls her Rin look for that sentence! lol

Okay my fellow readers thankyou so much for being so loyal and patient. Please give me some credit here (reviews) this chapter was awfully hard to write so it took me a whiiiiile but I really really hope you like it. And like I said before I'll be updating on my own time so don't expect a new chapter so soon but don't lose your faith in me or this story especially you Krazi3-AnimeLover! Your message made me laugh. I will finish this story! Thankyou! Good night