Make Our Love Last Forever - Booth and Brennan
Chapter 9 - What Our Love is Worth
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It was a cold windy night in which made the trees freeze and the love in the air even more peaceful. The snow packed every square inch of land, cars, treetops, and buildings. Among the quietness of nature, there was only the sound of the hissing wind off into the distance, the engines of cars, the bristling of trees, and the beautiful sound of romance and love.
Being an FBI agent, Booth knew that Bones was hiding something from him, but what was she hiding? The way she kept looking at him this morning indicated that she was keeping from him. The way her beautiful blue eyes looked deeply into his brown ones made him smile every time he brought her up. He laughed softly bringing his coffee cup to his mouth.
'Bones why are you so secretive today?' he asked still keeping his eyes on the road.
'You'll see Booth.' she said laughing into the background.
He shook his head back and forth trying to figure out what she wasn't telling him. Was it about what they talked about last night? Was it about their anniversary this weekend? Alternatively, was it just something else?
"Excuse me sir?" the server said holding pad of paper against her right arm firmly.
Booth dragged himself out of his daydream to look at her. "Yes?" he said calmly.
"Can I take your order?"
Booth didn't want to start eating without Tempe here he just couldn't do that. "I am waiting for my wife, she should be here any minute."
"Oh," she said dumbfounded. "I'll check over here again when ever she arrives?"
"Alright, thanks." Booth said watching her walk away.
All Booth could do was to laugh, he knew what Bones was keeping from him. The Rico case. He won it little over a week ago let alone finally getting his chance at glory. He knew she wasn't good at keeping from things from him or let alone keep things this long from him. He knew that she was trying to do something nice for him. 'Bones.' He thought warmly. He thought of her beautiful brown hair, her crystal blue eyes, and her soft skin. He had to admit that having her in his life had changed him. She drove him crazy, but he loved her unconditionally. 'Where are you? I need to see you.' he thought closing his eyes for the longest moment thinking of nothing other then his wife.
'Come on Bones, we are going to be late for our wedding! Hurry up, Hodgins and Cam are waiting for us!' Said Booth, running toward the bathroom door.
'I can't Booth....' She said leaning her head against the wall.
'Cant do what? Get married?'
'Yes...' she said mutely.
'Why not Tempe?' Booth asked leaning his forehead against the door.
'It's just....' She could feel her tears rolling uncontrollably down her face, possibly ruining the mascara she just put on.
'What?' He said calmly waiting for her to answer.
Brennan looked at the door knowing he was standing no further then two feet away from her. 'My father just died not that long ago and I don't think I can go on....'
'Bones.....' Booth whispered quietly holding his breath.
'Booth, I can't do this without him. He promised me he wouldn't leave me again, you promised me he wouldn't leave-' she didn't get to finish her sentence because Booth opened the door and came to her side scooping her up in his arms. She rested her head on his shoulders, hoping never to let go of him.
'Temperance, everything is going to be alright. I promise.'
'How do you know that Booth? You can't promise that-' Booth's heart was breaking along with every sob that escaped her fragile heart. Her fingertips dug into his skin; she never wanting to let go of him. He knew from experience the only thing that was going to make her feel better was his presence and more importantly the love he had given her.
'Bones, I know, I cannot promise something like that but just hear me out, alright.' He said rubbing her back gently. She nodded, slowly wanting to go deeper into his soul.
'I know you loved Max, I know you did alright. I am not going to lie I loved the guy too, even though deep down I disliked him for leaving you.'
Booth's words entered her heart strongly. Even though she had no idea what to do he was right, deep down she wasn't too scared to live a life without her father, she was scared to marry Seeley Booth.
'Bones what I am trying to say is your father wanted you to be happy. He wanted the best for you, and you know what, I think he showed the most of that.'
Brennan broke away from Booth and looked into his eyes. 'What do you mean?'
'He told me to always look after you and to love you for the rest of my life. Well and he said if something happens to you he is going to haunt me for the rest of my life.'
She smiled leaning in to kiss him softly on the lips. The kiss was tender and so loving that she wanted to get married to him now more then ever. The first time in her life she felt like someone wanted her no other then her best friend.
'Booth, I've loved you for a long time but I don't think that marriage is a logical path for me to get into right now. I don't think I am going to be a good wife or a good mother-'
Hearing those words come out of her mouth made him very disappointed. He knew right from the start she'd be a wonderful mother, sure, it would be difficult at first but she would be an ideal mother figure. 'I really don't want you to put yourself down like that Bones.'
'Why Booth, its true.' she said putting her head down with distress. Deep down she wanted Booth to be right, but she wasn't too convinced about marriage, kids, a big house, a dog and a new life.
He moved his hand close to her chin lifting it up with his forefinger. 'It's not true Bones. I know that because I know you, I know there is a woman inside of you that wants those things, you just can't be afraid.'
'Yeah, but I don't want to be like my parents Booth, I don't want to leave or anything-'
Booth cut her off my touching her cheek firmly with his right hand. 'You won't be like them Temperance, I'm here and I will never leave you. Alright?'
She looked at him passionately, still wondering what to think about being a wife and mother. 'Ever since Max died I haven't had the time to think about the future. Its just with Angela in Pairs, us always apart in cases I just figured that maybe it wasn't a good idea to get married yet...that's all....' After that her heart nearly broke, the distance between them had changed. Brennan couldn't even look at him without seeing the sadness in his eyes. Her tears fell down her face, as well as her grief. The only thing to do now was wait, wait for a perfect moment that would arise from the surface to change everything that they said to one another.
'Bones....'
She didn't say anything, she didn't even look at him yet, and she thought their love was a mistake but she didn't have the strength to convince Booth that it was a mistake. They worked separate cases, had different partners, and had almost different working positions that they both hated. She hated it, and she wanted the old Booth and Brennan back, she wanted only their love as friends. 'Booth I think we should just be.' She just couldn't say it because she loved him unconditionally, she never loved anyone so caring, protective, loyal, friendly, and loving; she wanted to marry him with every ounce of her heart, but she was just scared of what the outcomes were if something would happen to either one of them. With those tears that fell down every inch of her face, she looked at Booth hopelessly. She shook her head violently as her heart ached with every sob that made her feel even worse. 'I can't marry you.'
Booth looked at her with disbelief and with discontentment. His eyes became wide with horror and with agony. His lips became hard and lifeless while his heart was ripped out of his chest. He looked down to avoid eye contact with her, not because he was angry, he sort of got the idea that maybe getting married wasn't a good idea, but he was determined to marry the woman he was destined to be with. 'Bones....' he said while fighting the tears that filled his eyelids.
'I can't do this now.' she said getting up with every sob that escaped her lifeless body. Without him who was the one that was going to be there when she needed a shoulder to lean her head on... Who was going to be there to scoop her up into his arms and promise her that everything was going to be all right... Who was going to be there when she needed someone to talk to...... All of those thoughts pointed to Booth; he was the only person who she allowed to get close to her heart. He was the only man for whom she had chosen to spend her life with. She didn't even make it past the door because she couldn't leave him, not ever or now.
"Seeley." Brennan said happily walking over by the table to sit by him. She had the biggest smile on her face since getting everything ready for the party.
Booth snapped his head upright hearing someone calling his name, by a voice so warm and familiar. He shook his head back and forth trying to see the woman who was standing right in front of him. When he saw Tempe right there standing a few inches from him, he couldn't believe how beautiful she looked. "Hello Bones." he said warmly.
She smiled while looking deep into his warm gaze. "Hey." When she sat, she wondered what he was thinking about just before she interrupted. "What were you thinking about just now?" she asked picking up a menu.
Booth looked down and laughed. "Our wedding day." he said simply.
She looked at him for a while before opening the menu. "Yeah?" she said warmly.
'Please don't go I know we can make this whole thing work.' Booth said standing up moving closer to her.
She just stood at the doorway, not moving, not talking, and maybe not even listening. She thought of those times when he was always there for her, saved her, held her, and kissed her softly; she wanted that forever, she wanted to be with the man standing right behind her.
'We belong together, I've known it since I met you Bones and you know.....we were always ready to get married and spend the rest of our lives together. Its just.....I'm sorry if I rushed you into this whole thing.....I just love you so much....I couldn't keep my love for you inside any longer........' Booth felt his own tears roll down his face. He tried to pretend this whole love story was a mistake and it was just a dream. The love between them grew stronger with each touch, with every glance, and with every gesture. They did love each other but their love was destroying them. He put his head down with distress and with a great deal of guilt. He felt guilty because for telling her he loved her; he was crazy about her, she drove him crazy but he loved that about her. If she wanted to leave, he would let her leave this time.
She felt her own world crash down with every word he said. Deep in her mind, she hated everything that led to this stupid discussion. She turned around watching him, his back turned away from her and he had his left hand on his hip. She inhaled sharply letting out another sob that was building up deep within her soul. She slowly made her way towards him silently crying with every tiny hiccup he made. She remembered when he told her he didn't think he was good enough to be married to someone. He was wrong, wrong because she longed to be married to him from the moment she met him.
The first time they met, they really didn't get along too well; they always fought, bickered, and never took the time to know one another. But now they were close, because they allowed themselves to become close, they always shared things with each other, always shared every second together, and look how far they've come from bickering and fighting to flirting and falling in love.
'Seeley, I love you.' She said while taking in another sharp breath. She rubbed his back hoping that he would forgive her for saying all those things to him. 'I'm sorry for hurting your feelings it wasn't rational. Sometimes I just get scared about taking risks with what we have.... I just don't want to loose you like I've lost my parents, Angela, Zack, and even Sully... You are the most important person in my life and I just don't want to loose you.... I love you so much that I don't want to loose the only person that understands and wants me for who I am.' With that, she rested her head on his back and wrapped her arms around his waist. She closed her eyes and sobbed but softer this time more then anything. With every tear that fell down her face it was becoming easier to tell him just how important he was to her.
'I love you too, but...' Booth said carefully removing her hands from around his waist. He twisted his body around to face her and when he did, they just looked at one another for the longest time. He wiped her tears away from her sore eyes and spoke directly from his heart. 'You'll never loose me, I will always be here..... in addition, I admire you for letting me know the real you Bones.... You make me want to wake up every morning and work on the cases, and to actually see life the way you do.'
Brennan chuckled and looked down again before looking back up. 'Promise you won't leave me?' she asked warmly.
'Cross my heart.' he said wrapping his arms around her body. When their noses touched, they both knew just how much they loved each other.
'I don't know what that means.' she said laughing.
'It means I will never leave you, I never will, and you know that...' He said with his tears falling down toward the bathroom floor.
Her own tears fell down her face as she rubbed her nose on his. 'I love you.' She said kissing him softly on the lips.
'I'm sorry for rushing you into marriage-'
Brennan stopped him by placing her finger on his mouth. 'You didn't rush me, I rushed myself.'
'What do you mean, I rushed you-'
'Seeley please don't blame yourself again.' She said warning him at once. 'I did, I thought of everything that could go wrong in our relationship. I just never thought of the positive things that we already have until now.'
Booth looked at her for the longest moment before replying. 'Then think of everything that's good.'
She smiled leaning her body to meet with his. 'I always wanted to get married to you.' She said kissing the side of his face.
'So, you're ready?' he asked while her arms were going around his neck.
'To do what?' she asked becoming confused.
'To get married?' he said raising his brow.
'I'll always be ready to marry you.' She said kissing him passionately.
"Happy anniversary Bones." He said picking up his coffee cup again.
She smiled for a long time. "Happy anniversary to you too Booth."
While eating their meal they discussed what they were planning on doing for Christmas. Booth brought up how Parker was going to spend it with his mother while Brennan brought up that Cam and her husband are going to go to the Caribbean next week end. Angela was going to see her father while Hodgins' was going somewhere with his girlfriend. Everyone at the lab seemed to have an ideal place where they were going to venture off to while Booth and Brennan weren't going to go anywhere.
"Bones I have an idea," Booth said while he put his hamburger down. "let's go ice skating tonight."
Brennan smiled while chewing her salad in between drinking her glass of diet coke.
"What?" Booth said while his wife just kept smiling.
She swallowed and said innocently. "Nothing."
"Temperance." He said noticing that she kept shaking her head back and forth.
She looked at him with wonderment. "I have something important to tell you."
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I just wanted to give a little insight on what happened to them before they actually got married. Again, I'm sorry I made you guys wait this long for the next chapter. My life is getting too involved with my writing world. lol Please enjoy this chapter and I promise the next one will be the party!