Charmed... the other way around ::: The Drama Chapter 10:
Late Autumn 2002 Part 10

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Several hours, a lot of white furniture and a meal later, I fell onto the couch, feeling like I'd drop dead any second. Andy got all the stuff upstairs and placed everything in the corner our working space had been at and some handyman would soon install walls to create a little room. Andy walked around the wall and leaned onto it looking at me with a smile

"Want something to drink?"

"Oooh ya!" I told him smiling back. He leaned down and kissed my stomach before walking to the kitchen and getting something to drink, while I got rid of my jacket. He returned with two glasses with juice and let himself fall onto me

"Ouch!! Andy!" I laughed slightly, then he wriggled behind me and held me. I took a sip of my juice and smiled as he kissed me.

"Want me to carry you to bed?"

"Please" Andy laughed and climbed over me again to get up, he took my glass off me and then carried me to bed, where I immediately fell asleep.

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Andy was pacing impatiently along the living. Prue still was asleep and Patty was going to be around any second now and he just wasn't so sure about the 'plan' they had made up. Or better he had made up. He just wasn't sure how Prue'd react on seeing Patty. He honestly was kinda panicking, that maybe, there would be something affecting the baby this time and so, really wasn't so sure, if inviting Patty over had been such a good idea. But before he could pull out of it again, the doorbell rang

"Why am I doing this again? Holy Christ... just stand by my side" he mumbled running down the two pair of steps to get to the front door of his parent's house, opening it.

"Hey..."

"Hi Patty" he said stepping aside to let her in and then noticed Piper close behind her "hey Piper"

"Hi..."

"I think Abbey's in her room" Piper nodded and looked at her mom

"Go already... this is something I gotta do on my own" Piper sighed and hugged her mom before going upstairs "sooo where is she?"

"Upstairs... still taking a nap..."

"Ohh..."

"nono... I intend on it that way... come on" Andy said and started to lead Patty upstairs. He took her coat form her and hung it up on the wardrobe

"Over there's the bathroom..." he said pointing at the door and then at the office space

"ex-office, future baby" he said and then lead her further into the little apartment "kitchen and living" he pointed and then moved for the bedroom door "bedroom..." he explained and took the plate she had with her from Patty

"Sit down already... I'm just gonna make some tea... or you want coffee?"

"nah... tea's fine" Patty answered sitting down

"Good... cause I'm trying to get Prue to not drink coffee anymore"

"Hard task?"

"Kinda... belongs on how moody she is" he answered, laughing slightly

"Sounds like her hormones are already running loose"

"Some days are better some are worse..."

"How's today?"

"Worse, but... I think I got her into a better mood with shopping for baby stuff" he told her and then set the cattle on the stove and after adding some tea stuff into a big can

"Well I'm gonna go wake her now..." he said and took the plate he had set the pie and cake on and took it over to the living already. He placed it in front of Patty and then went inside the bedroom, closing the door and sitting down on the bed, starting to stroke her gently

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I woke with Andy softly calling out my name and him stroking my face and back, as I was lying on my stomach. I opened my eyes a little, moaned, turned my head into the other direction and closed them again

"c'mon... there's someone who wants to see you"

"Not interested" I mumbled

"Baby... pleases..." I turned sleepily on my side, rubbing my eyes and looking at him

"Brian?"

"Nope..."

"Who?"

"It's a surprise... now c'mon"

"Not before you tell me who's there." I argued, having immediately a weird feeling about it. Andy closed his eyes and bit his lip, before sighing heavily. That didn't mean anything good and I looked at him, a slight panic rising in my chest "Andy..."

"Why don't you see yourself?"

"Why are you not telling me?"

"You won't like it."

"Then tell me one reason I'm supposed to go out there"

"Because of the nightmares you've had?"

"I don't know what you're talking about" I told him, sitting up and pulling away

"Prue..."

"Who is it?!"

"Patty"

"No!"

"Prue please"

"No way!!"

"Stop acting like a kid"

"Stop acting like a kid? That's what you're saying after you betrayed me like that?! How could you get her here? Wait a second... you took off because of that? You went shopping with me because of that?"

"Prue..."

"Stop prueing me!!! Did you or didn't you?"

Andy sighed

"Ya. I did"

I felt my head shaking as I got up of the bed, but immediately a huge dizzy spell hit me and I sat back down

"Honey?!" Andy asked in a panicking voice, rushing immediately over to me

"Don't you dare touch me!" I hissed, shrugging his hand off right away

"I know you don't wanna talk to her, but I also know you're... suffering. You have nightmares... almost every night... you need to talk to her. You need those answers to go on with your life. I don't say go in there and say I love you, mommy. I'm not expecting anything like that of you. All I want you to do is, go out there and talk to her. Find the answers to all the questions you have and then decide whether you want your life to continue with or without her. It's your decision. But, please just talk to her. She's part of who you are and to understand who your are is important for you AND for Roxy, cause she's also a part of her. Just talk to her. Please"

I didn't answer. There just was this huge conflict inside of me. One side knew Andy was right. That it was part of me getting over everything, but the other just denied this woman even existed. Andy sighed and kissed my temple

"She's outside and if I have to I'll drink some eat and have some cake alone with her. But she's not gonna leave any time soon. It's your decision. I can't make you. Come out or stay in here. I'm not gonna be mad at you either way. I just want you to consider going out there and talking to her." he told me and then left the bedroom and closed the door after him again.

I closed my eyes tightly and felt myself shaking a little. The mere thought of seeing her again, threw me into a panic attack. I didn't know if I could do it. Maybe I even wanted it myself, but I couldn't. I hid my face in my hands starting to cry.

"What am I supposed to do?" I asked looking at the ceiling. I reached down to my tummy "what shall mommy do, huh?" I sighed deeply.

I knew it wasn't a question. I knew I had already an answer for it. I knew, Andy was right. She was my past. Talking to her and getting the answers was something I needed. I forced myself to get up and went to the bathroom I washed my face and then looked at myself in the mirror

"Don't cry, you hear me? You're not gonna cry out there! Don't you dare cry out there!!" I starred for several more minutes into my reflection before moving back to the bedroom and to its door. My hand was shaking madly as I reached for the handle. Once I finally had my hand on it I felt like all strength was gone and I just couldn't push the handle down to get out. I felt like rolling up in a ball and crying my heart out. Maybe I should have.

"Not crying" I whispered instead to myself, took a big breath and pushed the door handle and with that the door sprung open