"Arthur, you sure about this?"
Alfred's voice pierced my ears. It was loud from the screams and laughter outside, but I could hear the unease in his voice after I locked the door. I thought immediately of my time with Agnus, but I wasn't forcing him to do anything. I have to make sure he wants to do this though, I don't want to be forcing anything upon him. We've done this millions of times before, but here, we're in a public place. With the threat of Jace or Liz opening the door.
"Do you want to do this?" I asked, kneeling down next to him. He already had his legs open, so i'm guessing he did in fact want me to jerk him off, he was just nervous about someone coming in.
"Of course," Alfred nodded, "I'm just worried about someone coming in."
I bent further over to kiss Alfred on the cheek, "Me to, but I bet we'll be fine. Everyone's to drunk anyways." Alfred nodded and smile, leaning into my lips. I pulled away quickly, though, I needed to make this as quick as possible so no one could catch us. Jen is here to, and god knows she'll be looking for Alfred once she figures out she is gone. I cupped both of my hands and started to slowly rub the small bulge in Alfred's sweatpants. He arched his back and made that facial expression that I absolutely adore. His brow furrowed, eyes glued shut, and his mouth slammed shut in a small frown. I really wonder if he realises he is this handsome. At first he was just making small whimpers, but he let out a small scream as I started to speed up.
"Quiet, Al!" I hissed, stopping. He bit his lip and thrust into my hand, as if not caring that we could get caught now. I sighed and continued to rub him. Alfred had turned from worrying about getting caught into a shaking mess begging for more. This is usually what happens anyways, he gets excited easy. I started doing small 'C' motions on his crotch, which got Alfred shaking and squirming underneath me.
"Arthur, I think i'm coming," Alfred said, the sentence barely grazing his lips. I sighed again.
"We've only been at this for five minutes," I murmured, continuing to jerk him off. I don't think he was lying though, I could feel him twitch under my hand. I like to try to work the mood up with saying hot things or turning him on with small touches , but Alfred usually trashes all of that.
"Arthur, please man i'm really going to come," Alfred whimpered, literally sounding like a puppy begging to go outside.
"Alright," I said simply, a small smile turning my lips up. I heard Alfred let out a sharp sigh, and his body went still. I'm pretty sure he's trying to hold back from coming, because that means we would have to leave the party. I sighed, taking the hand that was rubbing him and slid it up to his cheek. I felt bad in the least, I really wanted him to come, but he really didn't want too. I kissed his lips quickly. The best day of this so far was one when we both came, I even had a chance to work up the mood, and he allowed me too.
"Kiss?" Alfred said after swallowing down, I smiled and we started to kiss in the dark closet. I licked my tongue over his lips and he shivered, but his tongue was in my mouth within seconds. I thought maybe he would come because of the kissing, but his erection seemed to disappear as I continued kissing him.
"Maybe when we get home, I can eh," Alfred paused to grind his tongue against mine, "I can rub you."
"Yes please," I murmured. Our tongue's began to dance for dominance. I felt a small amount of spit dripping off my chin, it was probably Alfred's. He pulled me closer to his body, our tongues now swirling around each other. Damn, this felt so good. It made me get butterflies in all parts of my body, and the best part was the both of us could handle kissing without shaking or making a sound, and we could both stop controllably. I love it, and these past four weeks have been some of the best of my life. I don't want it to end, I can't think of it ending. Alfred's hands went up to my hair, tugging on some strands. I winced, it hurts bad when he does that, Alfred being so strong, but I continued to kiss him just as powerfully as before.
"Maybe we should," I took a breath, "Maybe we should join the others. They're probably wondering where we are right now."
Alfred hummed and nodded, but extended his neck to give me a quick peck to the corner of my lips. Alfred got up and assisted me on getting up, basically pulling me up with no effort. It made me feel embarrassed he could pull me up so easily and it took me ten seconds to get up. I stepped forward to unlock the door, since Alfred showed no interest in actually doing it.
Upon opening the door, the both of us came face to face with an angry looking Jen.
"Where were you?" Jennifer forcefully pushed me to the side, and I stumbled and almost went face first into the floor. I watched as Jen took Alfred's earlobe in her fingers like a mother, and pulled Alfred down to her eye level.
"Yow!" Alfred whimpered, and continued to say 'ow' as Jennifer pulled him away. This, of course, got me really mad. How dare she control him like that, why doesn't Alfred fight back?
"Excuse me!" I hissed, angrily stomping next to her, "Let him go!" I grabbed Alfred by the arm and yanked him away from the angry female. Alfred whimpered from the sudden movement, but thanked me silently with a nod. "You're not his mother for godsake!"
I had no idea Jen would react so, violently.
"He's mine!" Jennifer hissed loudly. I don't think she knew we had been kissing, but the anger alone emanating from her words surprised me enough to step back. "And you've been trying to take him from me since day one!"
I exploded.
"Take him from you? You've stolen him from everybody!" I yelled, stomping my foot into the ground.
"Guys?" Alfred's voice reached my ears, but I ignored him completely.
"That was his choice! He loved me until he started disappearing places with you!" Jennifer stepped towards me, putting her face right into mine, her brown eyes burning with an intensity.
I heard a small purr from behind the both of us, and I recognised the accent immediately.
"Looks like we have a cat fight on our hands," I turned to look at the red head, his green eyes glaring at me mischievously. He sat on the back of a couch.
"Angus," I growled, clenching a fist. My face grew hot, as I know could feel more people staring at us.
"I would love to see Arthur throw a fist at someone," Angus said, sipping his beer. Liz sat below him, glaring at him. She said something to him, but I couldn't hear, "How about a fight?"
"Well, I am not going to hit a girl," I said, trying to calm myself down.
"But i'll hit a guy!"
Since I was facing Angus, I had no idea the tackle was coming. Jen caught me off guard immediately, and I fell face first into the smooth floor. It didn't hurt to bad, I landed on my cheek, but the fall was able to knock the breath out of my body for a few seconds.
I felt a sharp, stinging sensation burn across my cheek. It almost brought tears to my eyes, but I saw my way out as Jen was leaning to one side on top of me. I rolled, the girl falling off of me, and out of pure anger I pinned her body to the ground with my own.
"How dare you?" I spat, and I took a breath to continue to speak, but I felt arms wrap around my stomach. Alfred picked me off of his girlfriend with little effort.
"Okay, thats enough," I heard Alfred grumble in my ear. I squirmed angrily, trying to get out of his grasp.
"I'm not done yet!" I hissed loudly, bending an arm back and smacking Alfred gently. Alfred let out a sigh before quickly throwing me over his shoulder. I whimpered from the sudden movement, but the wrath inside me came back quickly, "You are not the boss of me!"
"I know that," Alfred said with a heavy sigh. I could tell he was frustrated, but he definitely wasnt taking my anger seriously.
"Let me go, you wanker!" I punched his back, but Alfred only twitched from the movement.
"Wow, they can go to kissing it up to this."
Alfred and I both froze. I had the opportunity to jump out of his arms, but i was so shocked from the sentence that I relaxed.
"You really thought you could have done that in private?" I heard Angus's laughter followed by his words, "Looks like Al really is a cocksucker."
Alfred dropped me to the ground, "Am not!" I watched his face turn bright red, and mine probably did too. "Where the fuck would you get that idea?" I could hear the stutter in his voice, the unease. He was a terrible liar. I watched as Jen's anger turned into a upset confusion.
"We call this backstabbing, Arthur," Angus smiled, his view turning to me. I felt my heartbeat quicken. Backstabbing, apparently Jace is a backstabber according to him. Angus has to be talking about Jace, he looked at me with that mischievous stare. Jace couldn't have told him, that isn't possible! I trust Jace, I know he wouldn't do that. He couldn't do that... "You finally let Alfred know the big secret?"
I was incredibly angered by this, but my anger disappeared when I felt the warm hand on my shoulder. "Secret?" Alfred looked down to me with a glare,a glare that made me sweat all at once as if on cue.
"Eh, um," I muttered, avoiding Alfred's eye contact. I think he knew what it was, he just wanted to hear me say it. Fuck, shit, ah.
"Ever since Jace told me, Al and you have been disappearing lately," Angus trailed off, tapping his chin. I heard Jennifer start sobbing. She knew, Al knew, Angus knew.
Fuck my life.
I heard Angus start to speak, but he was interrupted by his own girlish scream. Alfred and I stopped staring at eachother and watched Liz beat the crap out of Angus, the both of them now on the floor. I would have laughed, but the pressure in this situation kept me from doing so.
"Ah, Liz!"
"You little fucker! Why did you go that far?"
Why did you go that far? Liz must have had something in this, so did Jace. My other two friends were gone. Alfred probably was too. My anger had turned into a frustrated sadness, and I felt tears sting my eyes as Liz threw another punch at Angus.
Alfred's hand left my shoulder. I turned to look at him, but he had already turned around and was exciting the home. Alfred let out a sharp sigh, followed by the word said in a sharp hiss that had burnt a hole through my heart; "Faggot."
I stared at the door, minutes after he left.
There is no point in following him.
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I spent that night crying in the bathroom.
I expected Alfred to knock on the door and ask if I were okay, just like he did with my dad. But he never came.
Same thing in the morning. I was cuddled up with London, expecting him to come over and talk and tell me he was sorry, but he never came. Again.
I didn't want to talk to anyone. Alfred hates me, Jace told fucking Angus I had a crush on Alfred, and Liz had something to do with it.
But, Alfred can't just stop being my friend. Thats impossible, we live together. Everytime I see him though, I just want to kiss him really bad, let alone wanting to talk to him. I want him to hold me and I want to say i'm sorry for ever crushing on him, and I want him to apologise to me for calling me a faggot. I still can't beileve he did that. It hurts so bad. He know's i'm hurting too, why doesn't he care? Why does he suddenly hate me because he found out I was crushing on him? Alfred can really be an asshole.
I can't find a reason why he'd just start hating me like that.
The only person i've been talking to is London, well, he's a cat. But, animals are good ways to vent stress, and he's damn adorable. Francis hasn't noticed him yet, he always leaves the house in the daytime but comes back at night. I'm glad he's around at night, it's hardest getting to sleep now. I usually either jerk off or sit it the shower all day now. How the hell did I survive before without Alfred and his friends? How did I survive without a social life, this isnt easy. Singing helps a little, but I can't really do it anywhere now. I wish I had a soundproof room like Alfred.
It kinda sucks knowing your best friend lives with you but you can't go talk to him.
At least I have a cat now.
Authors Note_
Sorry another short chapter. I've been busy lately, well, writers block. With Catching Fire coming up soon i've been way too involved with it to write.
So maybe next week i'll post the next chapter... I don't know :P
opps sad chapter sorry