Forever is About to Start
Chapter 10 - The Kiss - Part II
It was tentative at first. That taste was long time missed and now it was as it was as if they did it for a lifetime. Her soft lips, her sweet taste, the goose bumps he had, everything about her was perfect and he missed every feeling rising on his soul in that moment. For a moment life seemed to be complete again. For a moment he felt he truly belonged there and nowhere else. Nothing could distract him from all those emotions. He felt her hands softly caressing his hair, on his nape. The touch of her hands sent winces to his spine. It was impossible to explain all feelings that were running through his body. His manhood immediately responded and pressured her waist. His hands reached her hips and never left from there. He held her closer because he wanted to make their bodies only one, merged with love, attraction and pleasure.
It was totally unexpected, she didn't see it coming, now in that moment, nor ever. The past weeks Dan made it clear how he felt about their parents' relationship and avoided her the best he could. In the flat, in her house, in the school. He barely greeted her and every single time after a half smile he looked to the tip of his shoes and excused himself to go.
She was hopeless she would ever fell again this arousal and the love they share in a single kiss. He kept a slow pace that she didn't dare to speed up. She wanted to cherish that moment as it was her last breath of life. Millions of thoughts crossed her mind but she quickly dismissed them all. She only wanted to feel her body responding to each movement of his lips, to his hands loosely hanging on her hips. She felt the urge to touch him and resting one of her hands on his chest, she moved the other to the back of his neck. She remembered how much he liked her to caress him in that exact spot. She knew everything about him, about his body. His scent on her nostrils and his hot breath sweetly kissing her made her wet. His innocent and pure moves had always turned her on. He didn't need to chase her tongue or do kiss her just below her ears to let her crazy. The electricity they shared when their lips touched was more than enough to make their bodies beg for each other. She felt even wetter when he suddenly pulled her closer and she felt his hard member on her belly. It seemed like nothing had changed and that their bodies, their lips and hands were still a perfect match.
Feeling her slow and almost imperceptive movements that made her brush softly against him was more than he could resist. Pushing her against the wall, he didn't care if anyone was looking at them, he didn't know if the act has finished or not. There wasn't time or place, only the two of them. Tightening the hold of her hips he pressured himself against her really hard. His tongue asked for entrance, which she didn't deny and their tongues started the hot and wet dance that always seemed to be rehearsed for all their lives. The temperature of their bodies rose and the desire was now taking the best of them.
Trying to keep his mind he loosened the grip and slowed down again the pace of his movements on her mouth.
Feeling that the kiss was coming to an end she held him tight and they broke apart.
"I miss you" he muttered with his eyes still closed and their foreheads almost touching
"I miss you too" she said leaning on him
He embraced her and breathed her perfume. She smelled strawberries, the same smell that unmercifully seduced him once.
Feeling her heart beating fast against his chest he realized what he has just done. Guilt took him and he felt like he was kidding with her feelings. He had no right to ignore her for weeks and suddenly just kiss her like that. He had lost track of time but it was a quite long kiss.
"Serena" he whispered against her hair
Recognizing the serious tone of his voice she knew what was coming next.
"I love you" he surprisingly said as his eyes was filled with tears he was fighting against them to fall. She only nodded and held him closer
"I want to be with you, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I wish you were my wife, the mother of my kids, I want to grow old with you and to take care of you every single day, until the end of life" he confessed as the first tears finally rolled
Sensing that he had more to say, she squeezed his arm softly, letting him know she was listening to everything he had to say before saying anything back.
"You are the kindest person I've ever known. Forgiving, understanding, lovely and with the greatest heart in the world" he said against her hair
"I am so selfish, so judgmental, so stubborn, so undeserving of you. I wish I could be different, I wish everything was different"
"Dan, you are a great person, you changed my world, you changed my life for good and for better. I love you, Dan"
"Serena, I can't, I am sorry. I shouldn't have kissed you" he said releasing her "I am sorry" he said one more time as he left her there, the tears now rolling over her porcelain face.
He was now running, he needed air, he needed to go outside. He didn't care if he was losing the opera or that his father and Lily were waiting for him to come back. When he finally was outside the theater he bent his back and held his knees with both of his hands trying hard to breathe, just breathe.
He never felt so happy and so miserable at the same time. Hold her and kiss her was the best feeling in the world. He could only remember how perfect was to make love to her. She was more than his muse. She was his soul mate, his half, she was it for him. He wanted to have a life with her. With the end of their senior year coming all he wanted were for them to share an apartment and just be happy. Maybe if they both get into Yale things could change. They would live away from their parents, somewhere where it would be only the two of them. She was the only thing he needed in his life, she was everything he needed in his life.
Walking down the street, with the cold breeze blowing in his face he felt warmed. The warmness of her lips was still on his, or at least this was how he felt anyway. Her touch was like magic, it changed everything not in gold, but in joy, happiness, fullness and life.
Is it really worthy? Why should I give up on the only thing that really keeps me alive? I don't want to simply survive anymore. I can't just walk through my life as if I didn't know how it really feels. I can only feel it with her.
Not realizing where he was heading he found himself unconsciously walking to Central Park. When he finally arrived there, he realized it and the memories just rushed his thoughts. Her smile, her giggle, her eyes, the wind on her hair, their hands locked.
How could he live without it? How could he go through life without her? Who was he kidding? And who cares if their parents were dating? It didn't make them siblings it could be weird but their love was definitely bigger than anything else and it would survive it. Finally coming to the conclusion he heart pleaded him to take, Dan decided to come back to the theatre and finally give in. He couldn't live without her no matter what happened. Even if somehow they proved they were brother and sister, who cares, what they feel for each other are definitely not fraternal feelings and he was tired of fighting against. Drained. It was like the life in him was took way and he was now just surviving. He loved Serena and they already wasted too much time and nothing would keep him from her. He just hoped that she still felt the same way, he just hoped that the words she said to him almost an hour ago were still true. He knew he might have hurt her when he left her there, all by herself, rejected by his stubbornness.
Almost running he made his way back the faster he could praying for the Opera have not ended but when he reached there , the empty building said it all. She was gone but he wasn't giving up. He took way too much time to finally take this decision and he wouldn't give up, no matter what.
He quickly took his cell phone as he waved to a cab.
"Jenny, where are you?" he asked as his sister answered
"Heading the penthouse, we got tired to look and wait for you and Lily had an announcement to do" she answered showing all her annoyance on her brother
"Is she with you?" he asked shyly
"What did you do to her this time? She was also missing and when she finally showed up, she looked like a train wreck, her eyes puff and red. In fact the only reason she is here is because Lily really insisted. By the way dad is really mad you didn't pick your phone" she said rolling her eyes
Looking at his cell phone he realized he had 15 missed calls and all of them from his dad and Lily
"Tell them I am arriving in 10 minutes" he said and hung up and giving the driver the directions
His heart dropped at his sister's words. He felt horrible for making Serena cry, she didn't deserve to ever drop a tear. She was his angel, she was his soul mate and his job was to protect her and make her happy. Making her cry her eyes off wasn't the plan and now he was mad at himself.
AN: I am so sorry I couldn't keep my word and give you an update sooner. The good news is that I am working on the next chapter, which will be called The Brothers and will be posted way before than took this one. I hope you liked it and I really thank you for the reviews. Keep them coming.