Disclaimer: *curses* I don't own Criminal Minds, I just like to put them in situations we'd all love to see acted out =)

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The news came later that day that the three female victims were nearly exact lookalikes of Penelope, JJ and Emily, that would mean the second to Penelope and Emily's name and the first to JJ.

Finding herself in a new room Penelope found herself ever more agitated, whoever was out there wanted her and she knew if she could get everyone to think about it then she could just make Bishop think she was his and then the cavalry could come and save the day. Of course she knew that the plan was simple in her head but wasn't so much so in reality.

She'd kept quiet the whole way up from the ICU, she was mulling over how this would all roll out and nothing seemed to be making sense. All she wanted was to get into her computer, run a few searches, find out about Clive Bishop's past, look into his latest cash withdrawal, look at his online activity if any and just follow him. For once she wanted to get the nitty gritty on someone, actually sort out searching their life but that was only because she was the victim and the people she loved most were there in heart of the problem too.

'Hey BG Morgan.' Derek said as he sat down, only he and Andy had stuck around, the others went for food. 'Gonna get some food in you.'

'Solids?'

'Yup, now you're allowed them we're gonna get you to eat them.'

'I'm not hungry.' She told him and put her head to the side. 'I miss our big bed.' She spoke softly, almost reminiscing. 'I miss it, and Clooney.'

'He's missing you too but for you to get out of here you need to eat, deals a deal.'

'What about my deal?' Derek raised an eyebrow at her. 'New room, my laptop.'

'Oh it's on its way.'

'You actually didn't just fob me off.'

'Would I ever?'

'Never without a doubt.' Penelope told him smirked. 'What you gonna do with yourself all the while your wives recuperating?'

'Look after her.'

'Oh yeah, no sex, no rough handling, you sure you gonna cope?'

'I want my wife all healed up so we can continue as we were.' Derek said leaning in and kissing her. 'I'll wait however long I have to, to see you better.'

'Oh and trust me I'll be better.' She told him almost seductively and laughed.

'You're terrible you know that right?'

'Oh and tell me you hate it... go on, I dare.' Derek laughed a little and shook his head. 'See you can't because you know that when I'm all better I'm going to make you bed rock and your head spin.'

'My bed rock?'

'Can I call you Mr Flintstone too?' That induced a full bellied laugh from Derek. 'What?' She asked innocently. 'Am I not allowed to use lyrics in day to day life?'

'How much of those lyrics do you want to follow through on then?'

'Depends how many you want me to Fred.' She responded with a twisted grin, her eyes glinting at him. 'Look I'm bored in here, give me some fun.'

'I've never been able to stop your motor mouth, I'm not even gonna dare and start now Wilma.' He replied and took a grape of her plate and ate it. 'You can make my bed rock all you like if you eat.'

'That's a lopsided deal handsome, not that I'm complaining, you're getting easy.'

'Ha! Easy me? I've never been easy; you're just use to me.'

'Well maybe we need to heat things up.' Penelope suggested.

'Even as an invalid I can't get you to stop being so seductive.' He retorted at her and she couldn't help but be amused. 'You need to rest baby girl and all you do is proposition me.'

'And your ego and sex drive just hates it I bet?'

'Oh it loves it, but big Derek hates trying to keep some control.' He said and then kissed her again before standing up and pulling the table closer to her. 'Now eat and you can do you techno goddess work and show us some power.'

'Mm sounds good.' Penelope said as she prodded at someone on her plate. 'What's that supposed to be exactly? It looks ready to walk off the plate.' She asked scrunching her nose up at the food. 'It's no Derek Morgan food a la love.'

'Nothing in a hospital's supposed to be remotely near anything nice. Eat the fruit and I'll get the guys to bring you something with them.' She shrugged and took the grapes, she then watched him leave.

However much Penelope was in pain or hurting, what hurt her most was to see the look that flashed on Derek's face every now and again when he looked at her. To see the pain and hurt on him at her suffering twisted something in her. She knew that for a brief moment in his life he'd thought he'd lost her and she also knew that by Derek Morgan's normal behaviour he wasn't in reality completely yet.

So when he walked back in she caught him unaware. 'Wanna talk about anything?'

'Like what?' He asked confused slightly.

'You woke up in the middle of the night handsome; I just wanted to know what was up.'

'It's nothing.'

'Saying it's nothing makes it something. Now get that sweet tosh over here and sit and talk to me about it because otherwise I'm gonna turn it on you and spank you so hard.' Derek knew from her tone to listen so he went over to her and took a seat. 'Talk.'

'I just think back to that night, how it started and how it ended.' He looked down and Penelope's hand came into view and took his hand in hers, the light glinting off her wedding ring that she still wore with pride, he looked up. 'I can't help but wonder what if you're brother's hadn't been there, what if the next passerby was just too late and then I can't help but blame myself.

You were out there for so long and I just carried on drinking, carried on having fun while you were working. I told you years ago to trust your gut and it ended with you in a hospital bed and me thinking I'd lost you but I never took my own advice, I just left you out there even though I felt something was wrong I didn't bother to go out to you. I had this feeling that something was wrong but I just rang your phone to see if it was still engaged.' She saw the tears on his cheeks and she knew she had to jump in.

'You need to look at me and see me as I am, alive, Derek I'm not gone, far from it and you aren't going to lose me, I'm here for a very long time believe me. When you said in your vows that you wanted to create the stereotypical view of an old couple sitting on their porch I believed you and I want that. So I know to hold on just a little bit longer and love a little bit harder because it pays off. I'm still here because I waited for someone to find me; I made them find me that night. I could've given up but I threw stones and cried because I knew help was no more than 4 metres away from me.' She lifted up her hand to his cheek and wiped the tear away. 'Now believe in me when I tell you that you have nothing to blame yourself for, you took me out of work when I really needed it, you bothered to take me out knowing I was on call and I was on call so hear me out here when I say that I was still on the call even when Bishop pushed that knife into the first time.

No one's to blame here but Bishop, we are all innocents in this and I know that there are more than just us two out for blood now. So you dare close off or digress with what if's and 'I sat in a bar drinking's and I'll make you sleep on the couch for a year. Don't think I'm joking, I'm glad you were having fun, I mean I was too. We did it in the toilets and didn't feel guilty for it, we danced and drank and if that'd been it, I'd have gone out on a high.' Penelope smiled at him gently as something brightened.

'Pen, I just can't live without you.'

'Same with you my hunk of burning love.' She replied at him. 'Whatever happens from here on out, just know that I will never blame you for this, I know you and you were my hero when I needed you that night and ever since you just keep proving it to me.'

'Thanks baby girl.'

'No thanks needed but come here and give me some love.'

'Sure thing mamma.' He said pulling the table away enough for him to wrap his arms around her and kiss her.

'Now tell me one thing you're feeling right now?'

'Guiltless.' Derek whispered as he took in her scent.

'Good boy, you learn fast.' She teased and flashed her eyes to the door as everyone entered, her eyes looking directly at her laptop bag and she knew she was going to get dirty with work now.

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A/N: It's been a while I know!! I gained a life and a bit of break from life and my muse must've stayed behind an extra day! BUT I gots an update done for you!! =)

Lemme know as ever!!