New Chapter. Hope you like it.
It took me the whole day to write it, since I have a huge cold, It actually helped writing this chapter of Bella. But she doesn't have a cold, don't worry. lol.
Well, R&R.
"I tasted, tasted love so sweet. And all of it was lost on me." She sang along with the lyrics quietly from the song All We Are from Matt Nathanson. She finally had her mind clear from the story but not from Edward. He seemed to linger ever so often, slinking in her thoughts. Her lust and passion toward him felt like it was growing every single minute. She changed into her comfort clothes and climbed under the sheets. Immediately fatigue took over and she fell asleep.
I couldn't explain him. Even if I tried, I couldn't explain everything about him. Whispers taunting from all the things he said, stuck in my thoughts replaying in my mind. Shadows of fate slinked inside my body. A smile from the devil himself. A mystery from neither a guise of nor a demon and nor an angel but both themselves. Louder and louder, voices taunting. In a blink of an eye my mind pictured Edward. Here he was, it was him, himself. Forgetting everything around her. My dream took over. I didn't know. I couldn't see. Never thought I forgotten I was actually dreaming.
I went up to him, my hand lingering on his torso.
My mind wouldn't say what to do. It was my heart I needed to trust. But I wasn't sure anymore it was just so hard. What will I do when I wake up and go to school and find he never existed? I'd admit I would rather die than not see his face again. Despite the lies I told myself, my love was mine for the taken, I needed someone's love to turn my life into roses. I wanted his. But as I imagined it. Roses, I'd imagine in a valley, would crumble into a dark shade of gray.
I had too many broken days, too many waste of time and too many mistakes, with too many betrayals. My mind only lingered at those thoughts for a second then my mind was completely on him. Now it was just him. I had walked the road of my life, the only road I walked but now I'd taken another path.
"Don't cry, Bella." I touched my cheek and felt the wetness from my tears. I hadn't noticed I was crying. "My dear love, you're home now."
For most of my life, my shadow seemed to be the only heart and soul that knew how I felt. I had been lost for years, broken in deep thoughts. Lairs surrendered me; my insecurities took over, my mind still on my future that seemed like there wasn't one and eternal prison that forecasted my life. I hadn't thought about first, words I used to underline spelled LIFE. And it also reminded me about a song I heard from a couple of people at school from a song by Lil mama called life. As I thought about it, thinking about it, it sounded so much like a verse from the song. I felt like I lived on quotes now, using words from other people's mouth to explain my life. I felt dumb.
"I need you, Edward." I whispered, feeling my heart break as he didn't smile. But for some reason my heart didn't actually break. I was hoping for an answer but the only answer I got was a tender kiss on my neck and he vanished. Then his voice echoed through my mind as I fell on my knees, brawling on the ground.
"Wait for a little while and everything will be alright."
When she woke up she was crying. Her heart ached, pounding against her chest. Her arms felt limp and were tingling because she was lying on them while she slept. She whimpered as she quickly sat up. That was a big mistake for her head had started to pound against her skull. Her body slowly moved to the window. The October snow drizzled on the ground, and wind barely brushed the trees. She opened the window and the let the cool air come in. Her body gradually became alive, the air waking her up.
She wiped off the sleep off her eyes. In the horizon, the sun was gradually rising, filling the sky with a light shade of pink. By for long, this was the first time in weeks since she saw the sun. A small tugged on her lips. Something caught her eyes by the trees, it was quite conspicuous as something shined and sparkled behind the trees. Then suddenly it disappeared.
An hour had past; she ate, took a shower, dressed and brushed her teeth. She knew deep inside her, something wasn't ready for today. She slowly climbed down the stairs, whimpering as her head begged for her to stop for her head pounded as if her head was being smashed against the hard cement.
Her father must have noticed, for he helped her down the stairs. "You sick, honey?" He said, as they made it down the stairs. Bella nodded, as she leaned on her father. He placed his hand over her forehead. "You're burning up."
"No, I'm fine." She whispered, moving away from her father and went into the kitchen. She clamped her hand over her mouth and coughed, causing her to wince as the cough scratched her throat. "I left the heater on last night, and I was sweating when I woke up. And you know how my throat is always dry when I wake up." She said nonchalantly. She knew she was sick, she just didn't want to stay home and sleep till it was tomorrow. All she wanted to do was go to school, but sleeping till tomorrow sounded such a good plan she almost gave in. But she didn't. She slipped down on the chair and grabbed the box of cereal on the table, poured milk, grabbed the spoon and ate.
Her father came in with a thermometer. Bella groaned and dropped the spoon by the bowl. "Your boiling, you look green and look like you're about to pass out." He gave her to thermometer. She put it in her mouth and let her tongue hold it. After a minute, it beeped. He took it and looked at it. Bella waited for what her father had to say. "It's normal."
Bella narrowed her eyes. She snatched it out of her father's hand and looked at it. It was normal. Her temperature was normal. Why'd she feel like hell though? Twenty minutes later Charles took Ewan and left, leaving Bella in the house alone. Before he left he said something about leaving town for something in Port for the weekend and that she had to pick up Ewan after school. She nodded, hearing the door close. She stood and walked over to the sink, placing the bowl in it, her head started to pound. She gripped on the edge of the counter, her hand clamped over her head. She hissed, and then everything turned black.
"So you see working out five hours a day really helps." Jacob rolled his eyes as a jock brushed past him with two girls clinging on each arm. He glanced at his arms, which were a lot bigger than the cocky jock. He glanced at himself in the glass window and stared at himself for a brief moment. He was much bolder and much slender than the jock. It hadn't bothered about him for a long while but now, it seemed that he was huge for his age. He was a freak. Was he? He was a monster. He did kill. But that was another story.
"Hey." Renesemee jumped on his back, making him loose his balance for a brief second. She wasn't heavy or anything, he just wanted it to make it look human. He was human after all, but not all of him was human. He was a shape-shifter. He smiled, setting her down on the ground and gave her a peck on her forehead. She must have noticed something was bothering him for she asked what was wrong. He didn't answer at first but he said something she couldn't pronounce and hear for he just mumbled. "What?"
He sighed. "It's nothing."
She haltered and grabbed his wrist. Her hand brushed his cheek and she searched for something in his eyes; but she found nothing. He gripped on her hand but not hard enough to crush it. She pulled him aside away from the people around them. She leaned on the Impala, pulling him close. Her hand lingered on his cheeks, and then they dropped to his torso. "Is it about Bella?" He whispered a no, causing Renesemee to wonder more. She could ask, even if it would hurt her and she couldn't help but ask. "Is it me?"
"No. Of course not." He whispered his chin on her head. Renesemee gripped on his arms. Her eyes fluttered open, and to her surprise the girls around them were glaring at her. Renesemee invisibly smirked, and placed a kiss on his neck. He sighed, pushing a strand of hair behind her ear. "It's about..." He didn't finish it, but she knew what he meant. She pulled away, glowering at him. "Nessie, you know you have to tell him."
"I will." She started to panic. She wished Jasper was here. Where was he when she needed him? She felt herself shake. Her hand reached for Jacob, but he didn't move. He just simply stared at her, his expression guilty. "I need time, alright. Can't a girl wait until telling her father that she almost killed her best friend and developed vampire venom unexpectedly after almost killing another boy?" She gripped on the roof, feeling herself fall. He wrapped his arms around her waist, holding her up. "Tell me, Jake. How can I tell my father, that I turned some random guy on the street and that we're practically running for our lives?" She whispered, hoarsely. "It's bad enough; I turned for my father, risking his life but this is much worse, Jake."
He inhaled deeply, smelling the disgusting vampire scent he inhaled for years. He winced as he felt her tense. She moved away from him and sighed. He ran his fingers through his tousled hair, sighing. He was angry, but not angry enough to phase. "At least you didn't kill anyone. I had to kill all the witnesses, Ness. Innocent people!" He hissed. She winced. "Now tell me, how is that worse?"
"Involving your safety, my family's safety and my safety with the Volturi!" She screamed. Jacob glanced around, luckily no one was around. But something much worse happened. It surprised them that they didn't see him. Edward. He was standing only a few feet away from them. Renesemee flinched, and then tears streamed down her face. She glared at Jacob, and said, "You had to bring this up, didn't you?" through her clenched teeth.
Renesemee brushed past her father, clutching herself as she stomped toward the school. Edward called her, but she didn't stop nor said anything. Jacob watched Renesemee enter the school and went to follow but Edward had stopped him. "Edward." Jacob said in a warning voice.
Edward squeezed Jacob's shoulder and eyed him. But let him leave. Edward watched him, and looked away as Jacob went in the school. Edward resisted looking into their minds, of what they were talking about. But he wouldn't dare to. He respected their privacy. But he couldn't help but linger at the thought of what his daughter had said. Involving their safety to the Volturi, repeated in his thoughts. What did she mean about that?
Edward gripped on the Impala, not hard enough to make a dent. Something was going on, and he needed to find out what. He moved across the parking lot but haltered as he began to open the large door. He turned around, and smiled. Bella. "Bella," He stepped down the stairs. She looked confused, scared but not of him. Her eyes shifted and locked on his, a tug of a smile pulled on her lips. "Hey."
She moved toward him, her hand reaching for him. "You're here."
He breathed out a short laugh, but hadn't left her eyes. "Of course I am." Then suddenly she was confused again, looking around. Edward swallowed. "Hey, what's wrong?"
Bella looked at him, still confused. She realized her hands were on his torso. She blushed, tearing them away from him. "Nothing. It's nothing." She smiled, reassuringly. He could've asked again, but he didn't. He held up his hand. She looked at it for a second, biting her lip. Then cautiously slipped her hand into his.
The next thing Bella knew she was sitting on the chair in the cafeteria. She looked around. Edward was sitting beside her and Kyle on the other side. Renesemee wasn't anywhere in sigh. Jacob was sitting by Emmett, who seemed like he was glaring at his food. Edward looked weary, and surprisingly scared. She grabbed Kyle's wrist and looked at the watch. It was in the afternoon. But wasn't it in the morning just a moment ago? What happened?
Then everything went black.
"Bella?"She groaned, feeling her head pound against her skull. She felt a cold hand touch her cheek. She didn't flinch but she did groan. Her hand gripped on the hand. Something rushed inside her body between each breath. "Bella wake up."
Her eyes fluttered open. A bunch of silhouettes leaned over her. She shot up, luckily avoiding hitting anyone's head. She glanced around, seeing everyone even her brother beside her. Her brother! Ewan! She remembered she had to pick up her brother after school. She looked up at the clock and saw that it was two hours later since school ended. But she was having lunch before. How was it already after school? She was sitting on the couch, covered in a wool blanket. She was shivering. Her hands were wrapped around her arms, shielding herself from the cold.
"What happened?" She gasped out.
"You fainted in Biology class." Alice said, moving toward her. "Luckily Edward was there to save you from the dreaded school nurse." She teased. Alice gently pulled her down and Bella placed her head on her lap. She pulled the blanket to her chin, shivering. Her eyes met, Edward's who was standing by the corner. She smiled, seeing him smile before she closed her eyes.
She felt a cold touch as she was picked up. Her eyes based and looked up at her carrier. It was Edward. His strong arms holding her bridal style, carrying her up the stairs. "I could walk, you know." She said, weakly. He looked down, smiled then shook his head. "It's okay." She moved around his arms.
"Bella, go to sleep. Alice will be here to take care of Ewan and you." He said as they entered her room. He gently placed her on her bed, pulling the comforter over her. She snuggled in her cozy bed, feeling herself blush at what sight he was seeing. He smiled, and then laughed. He sat down beside her, looking around the room. "Nice."
She rolled her eyes, and giggled. She had just moved a month ago, and she hadn't really quite unpacked everything, leaving a couple boxes by the closet. She felt a sting of disappointment as she remembered he said that Alice was going to be here and not him. She sat up. He slightly shifted on the bed, facing her. "What happened today?" She said, her eyes locked on his and her face expression suddenly serious.
"Like any normal day, school." He said, narrowing his eyes. "Why?"
"I can't remember most of it."
Don't worry, I'll explain more of Renesemee and Jacob's secret. I know it was unexpected, but I couldn't keep writing "Their secret" all the time. It had to be expose sometime. but hell, hope you liked it. Well, Review please. And oh, I do not own anything of Twilight. Just plot and Kyle but not the Newton part. lol.