Here is the next chapter of For The Past, thanks so much to my reviewers – Gemz, Elz, Becca, SP-always, Woody2792, Laura, Lynsey, Sam and Amy!. I was overwhelmed by how many reviews I had for that last chapter! I was going to finish this story with the thing that we all love the best Sam and Phil together and that would be the happy Huxon ending in the park, however I am going to keep this one going for a little while longer! Not sure when the next chapter will be up though, because I have my final uni exams soon!
Chapter 10 – Regrets??
Sam looked at Phil, waiting for an answer to her question. He hadn't said anything, he just had that look that Sam knew he had when he was deep in thought.
"No, I don't regret telling you that I loved you. Perhaps the timing was wrong" Phil said quietly
"That you loved me" Sam repeated to herself, he had used the past tense, he didn't love her anymore and now she had embarrassed herself in the worst possible way. Phil didn't love her anymore, she had missed her chance and now she had kissed him, basically admitting that she had feelings for him. Suddenly Sam felt like she had to get out of here, she had come to this place to think, but this had just made her more confused.
"I'm sorry Phil, it was wrong of me to kiss you. I need to get back to the station" she said quickly and stood up, turning to walk away back to her car
Phil watched as Sam started to walk away, it had taken him a moment to work out what had just happened. Not for the first time, he didn't understand Sam's reaction to something that he had said. Then suddenly it became clear, he was an idiot. He had said that he loved her, not that he still loved her, no matter how hard he had tried to hate her again, he had failed and now she was walking away from him again.
Sam pulled her coat tighter around her as she headed towards her car, the station now seemed the best place for her. Her quiet office which she had thought was an annoyance this morning had now become very important to her. She wiped the beginnings of tears from her eyes and then reached into her pocket, looking for her keys.
"Sam wait" Phil called loudly as he ran after her, he wasn't going to let her go this easily. He wasn't going to give up on their relationship like he had last time, just watching her walk away from him, he perhaps should have followed her then. He certainly was going to follow her now, even if it did mean another interesting car trip like the one he had taken to follow her here.
"Can you see them?" Jo asked Zain as the two of them walked through the park. Every so often one of them would stop, thinking that they had seen either Phil or Sam. But so far they hadn't had any luck.
"Nope" Zain said with a groan "Perhaps they aren't here"
"That was Sam's car. So she must be here"
"But is Phil here? I mean he could have gone anywhere" Zain said his voice laced with sarcasm
"Sam is upset, her cousin insulted her. Phil was the one who arrested him. If Sam is here then he is here somewhere that is for sure. He wouldn't have not followed her"
"I guess not, so we just keep looking then"
"Yes we do, a bit of a comedown from a Columbian drug operation isn't it?"
'Very funny Jo" Zain said trying not to laugh "This is safer though"
"I wouldn't be so sure of that, if the two of them are in the middle of an argument and we turn up then it could get ugly" Jo said as they turned the corner and reached the river.
"Sam wait" Phil called again, Sam continued to walk away from Phil.
"Sam please stop"
Sam could hear that Phil was calling her, but she didn't know whether or not she should or even could turn around. She pretended to ignore him, but all of a sudden she felt someone grab her arm and spin her around.
"Jo, did you hear that?" Zain asked he looked around the park
"Hear what?" Jo asked, she hadn't heard anything
"I swear I just heard Phil"
"Where did it sound like it came from?"
"Over here I think" Zain said as he walked towards where the sound seemed to come from.
"I can't see anything"
"Wait a second, look there they are" Zain said as he pointed towards Sam and Phil
"Good work Undercover Boy"
"I do try"
"Come on, let's get closer. I want to hear what is going on" Jo continued as she headed towards the two of them, stopping and hiding behind a tree
Sam pulled her hand away from Phil and stood there looking at him.
"What is it now Phil?" she asked quietly
"Thank you for stopping" he replied with a smirk
"I didn't have much choice" Sam said sarcastically "Someone stopped me"
"To tell you that you weren't wrong to kiss me"
"I wasn't?" Sam questioned, she wondered what Phil was going to say next
"No you weren't" Phil said as he leant in closer to Sam and kissed her softly
Sam felt Phil's lips touch hers and his hands wrap around her, suddenly she felt calm again. His kiss became more passionate and soon his tongue was probing her mouth and his hands were running up and down her back. She kissed him back, wrapping her arms around his neck.
"Ouch" Jo complained
"What is it?" Zain asked
"You just stood on my toe" Jo said as she began to hop up and down
"Well this wasn't my ideal hiding space" Zain said, holding out his hand to her and looking at her with a smile
"Shush we will miss something" Jo said as she turned towards where Sam and Phil had been standing and talking a minute ago. But they weren't talking now, they were locked together in a passionate embrace.
"We have missed something" Zain said disappointed as he too looked towards Sam and Phil
"Now this is interesting"
"Best Samantha and Phillip show of the day?" Zain asked
"Best one of the year" Jo said laughing as she poked Zain in the arm
Sam felt Phil move away from her, she felt breathless. Her eyes were still closed and without even realising she whispered "I love you Phil"
"I love you too Sam" Phil replied as he took hold of both of her hands
Sam opened her eyes and stared at him "You do?" she asked quietly
Phil just nodded back in reply "Of course. I never regret telling you that I love you. Perhaps I should have waited a week or two though" he continued trying not to laugh
"Yes maybe" Sam replied as a smile crossed her face, one of the first for the day
"I love when you smile Sam. I haven't seen it enough lately"
"What have I had to smile about?" Sam asked as she held onto Phil's hand tightly as she wandered towards another seat and sat down
"Getting rid of Flash Harry" Phil said as he went to sit next to Sam
"Well that is one thing" Sam said trying not to laugh
"Where did you send him off to then?" Phil asked, he had wanted to know ever since Stuart had left
"Barton Street"
"Lucky Barton Street then" Phil said laughing. Then all of a sudden he became serious "Why didn't you have me transferred Sam?" he asked
"I don't know. Perhaps I enjoyed yelling at you"
"Very funny, I am glad that I provided entertainment for you at work"
"Speaking of work Phil, we had better get back to the station. They will be wondering where we are. I don't suppose that you told anyone where you were going" Sam asked
"No. I didn't" Phil replied smirking
"Phil" Sam said as she moved to lean on his shoulder "I want to talk to Derek"
"Sam are you sure? After what he said to you earlier"
"I need to find out why he is like this. What has happened to the cousin that I knew" Sam whispered as she looked back up at Phil
"You're not speaking to him alone though. I will be there with you" Phil said as he leant down and kissed Sam again
"Thank you Phil"
"You are always welcome"
"You had better ring Zain, they might be looking for us"
"Yes Guv" Phil replied reaching into his pocket and dialling the number
"What is that vibrating noise?" Jo asked
"Shit, it is my phone"
"Well just answer it"
"It's Phil"
"Well answer it then, just be quiet about it and for heavens sake don't give it all away" Jo said angrily, she didn't want their hiding place found now
"Hello"
"Hi Zain, have you sorted out Derek? Did you get him back in his cell?"
"Yeah, everything is fine. He has calmed down a bit, I think"
"What is that echo? Where are you?"
"Bathroom mate"
"Right"
"I will be back in the station in about fifteen minutes. I will need to talk to Derek alone"
"Alone?" Zain asked, he had heard some of Phil and Sam's conversation and really knew what was going on
"Yes alone. See you then" Phil said quickly as he hung up the phone
"Everything alright?" Sam asked Phil
"Yeah I think so"
"Where was he?"
"I'm not sure, he sounded like he was closer to us than just over the phone"
"Come on then, lets get back to the station" Sam said as she stood up, still holding onto Phil's hand tightly, then kissing him softly on the cheek
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