I know you are all mad at me but I had a lot of fun on Vacation and I hope you enjoy this

Disclaimer: Shut up, I wouldn't be writing a fan fic if I owned the story (Stephenie Meyer owns the whole freaking' series)

"What is it baby?" James sneered at me. I looked around the hallway and didn't see anyone. He could do anything and nobody would know.

"N-nothing" I stammered.

"Of coarse not. What else would you be doing?" he laughed at his own wit. Suddenly his face turned grim and his eyes burned with rage. I slammed into the wall as he punched me in the stomach. I saw stars as my head made contact with the hard cement walls.

"You disgust me. Go fix yourself before anyone notices." He said as he shoved me back into the bathroom.

I carefully lifted up my shirt to see a bruise already forming on my already pale skin. Why the hell did everything happen too me. No, only the bad things. I thought about it. I had had a perfectly normal childhood. My parents were still together, unlike most of the world, and I was a very happy only child until I fell in love with him…

I walked out of the bathroom and made my way to class. I didn't have any classes with James so I didn't need to worry about seeing him, although I did have this class with the one person I didn't want to see right now. The person who ruined my life. The person who-

"Watch it Swan!" To make my great life even better, I walked into Tanya making out with Edward in front of our classroom. I kept on walking strait for the door. I didn't yell or shout or be the kick ass Bella I had been working on before James, before James hit me. Why was it that I could say "James hit me" but not Edw- Edw- his name? They both hurt me. In fact James hurt me a lot more then he ever did. What was wrong with me?

I sat down at my seat and waited for the devil himself to join me. When he finally sat down he looked a bit embarrassed but I don't know why he would. I knew for a fact that he had slept with Tanya tons of times.

FLASHBACK

It was after the first party that we went to as a couple. I was headed to my locker with Edward's arm firmly wrapped around my waist. I was in utter bliss. Edward was the guy of my dreams. Behind his popular disguise was an actual intellectual person who deeply cared about me and loved me.

When I pulled open my locker, thinking about the dat4e Edward had planned for us that Saturday, a bunch of DVD's fell out. I picked one up and read the title that was scrawled across the front: EDWARD AND TANYA #5. I turned to face Edward.

"What are these?" I said deadly sweet.

"Umm….you see well when Tanya and I were together….she would…er…..make a tape every time we did it so she could prove to her friends that she…er did it." He rushed the last sentence as if by saying it faster he would get it over with more quickly.

I looked at the mess of DVD's on the floor. There were at least ten.

"Well at least you're experienced." I snapped as I stormed off to first period.

END OF FLASHBACK

"You have some lipstick on your face," I snarled at him without meeting his eyeline. Although he did it less frequently now, his glare still scared me.

"Erm…thanks?" he grunted wiping it off quickly.

"So how are things with Tanya, I'm sorry I broke some of your earlier DVD's, you could have used them to improve your form." I giggled inwardly as remembered crushing them under my feet and burning the remains…I think I'll stick with the less violent verb "breaking".

"I'm taking it slow with Tanya actually." I was so surprised that I laughed out loud. Still not meeting his eyes I said:

"Are you serious??? Taking it slow with Tanya?"

"Is it so surprising to you that I might actually want a relationship with someone." His words stung as I knew they were meant to. I had been his first real relationship and blowing it off like that hurt…a lot.

"Yes it does, I woud have placed you as more of a 'bam bam thank you ma'am' sort of guy." I was never good at insults and I doubt that he was even vaguely phased, but he didn't talk to me for the rest of class so I have no idea what he was thinking.

I had driven myself to school that morning and I was relieved until I remembered that today was my second to last day working at Edw- his house. I almost started crying at the thought of the beating I was going to get if I was late again.

When I got to his house I expected Esme or Emmett to open the door, but I was startled when it was Edward's face I saw opening up the giant mahogany front door.

"Esme and Emmett aren't here" he said as if reading my mind.

"Oh" I didn't ask why and it would have been pointless anyway seeing as he had already moved on.

We were only alone for a few hours. Esme came home first and immediately started preparing dinner. I looked up at the clock to see that I had one more minuet. I knew James would be waiting, just like I knew he had stolen my car key and had already driven my car back home. I knew he would be mad at me, but it would be worse if I was late. Either I leave now and be perfectly on time, or stay to the end and not make Edward think I was being wimpy. I decided that I couldn't take anymore pain.

I was right. James was there and James was mad.

"I know you were there alone with him. Think how much could get done in an hour" He purred in a deadly seductive voice. I knew there was no save answer so I said nothing. He slammed me against the car.

"Answer me" he growled. It was amazing how inhumane he looked at that moment. I wouldn't have been surprised if he grew fangs and lunged at me…

"We were just studying, he doesn't love me" I sputtered.

"Who doesn't love you Bella?" he taunted me and suddenly I couldn't take it anymore. I lunged at him, I didn't have a plan and there was no way I could hurt him but I tried. He growled again and threw me to the ground and started hitting and punching every part of me that he could reach. The pain was unbearable. However a very strange thing happened as he was beating me. It was as if every blow to my small body was attacking the wall in my head. Each hit tore a hole and let my memories out. The good and the bad.

Being with Edward

Laughing with Edward

Dancing with Edward

Crying with Edward

And the harder he punched me the more complex the emotions pouring out of me were.

Learning to trust Edward

Learning how to be myself with Edward

And just pure Edward

I was almost unconscious when I finally opened my eyes and looked into the bright light coming from one of the Cullen Windows and saw Edward standing there. I met his eyes for the first time in a long time without him glaring, and I knew he had seen the whole thing.

Will Edward help Bella or walk away? I need your ideas people!!!! REVIEW I am going to do Edward's POV from the whole story now before i say what happens next unless you guys don't want me too. please tell me what you want. I love you guys so much, your support made me write this now after a long and tiring day (and made me miss dinner!!!) so please please please REVIEW