Sasuke couldn't sleep. It was almost three in the morning and none of the guys were even back yet. He rolled over to keep the clock from smugly reminding him how long he had been there. He scooted closer to it and pressed his forehead against the cool wall. It felt almost comforting for a moment as it interrupted his train of thought long enough for him to calm into another level between sleep and consciousness. But it didn't last long enough. Naruto's words came back to the front of his focus and cut in deeper.
"I don't wanna love you, if love is this alone."
Sasuke understood what it was like to be depressed and feel alone even when he was around people but Sakura and Naruto being there for him had always in some way created a comfort zone for him in the sense of not being alone emotionally. They all had had their fair share of distress growing up. He sighed and rolled onto his back. He didn't want to think about his childhood. Not now. Not when there were more terrible things on his mind and it was this late. He didn't want to wander down a bad path and not have anyone to pick him up off it. It was Naruto who helped Sasuke not feel so alone after his parent's deaths. It must have been the same for Naruto, growing up alone and different. He liked to at least think that his aggression and teasing had always been a sign of affection. It's hard to have feelings and not know how to show them. Or have anyone in your life to teach you.
He grunted as he threw his covers off of him. He threw open their closet and pulled a hoodie on then slid his into his shoes. It was time to go find them. He pulled up his hood and forced his hands into his hoodie pocket as he made it down the three flights of stairs then into the brisk night. The moon was out and causing the trees to almost glow as if a presence was in them, guiding him along his way. The cement itself was sparkling from the traces of limestone as it pulled him towards the girls clearing. The female housing was set up in a quad formation with a large fountain in the middle of their court yard. The girls were far less trusted then the boys. They had a strict curfew of when all male visitors had to leave and had cameras stationed around their dorms, for their own safety, they were assured. Sasuke had to crouch down and sneak across hedges that lined the building to get to the door. From the safety of shadow he entered Sakura's code on the keypad and rushed in after the buzz of the lock. Sakura's room was lucky enough to be on the ground floor. Not so luckily, she shared a room with Ino and Temari, who were normally only slightly unpleasant to be around but at three in the morning it was going to be a whole other side to them. He used to key to unlock the door but rapt four times quietly before opening the door. He brushed down his hood as he stuck just his head in the door crack to assure a quite getaway if he ran into roommates before Sakura, but he wasn't prepared for what he saw first. The boys had most defiantly gone over to the girl's dorm, but not for the reason that Naruto had suggested. In the five hours that Sasuke had been laying in bed, he never put all the points together of why Naruto suggested they go there. Temari was Shikamaru's girlfriend. Ino was Kiba's girlfriend. Lee had always had feelings for Sakura. Then there was Hinata. Who was in the corner. Naruto was using his arm to prop himself up on the wall and she was between them. He was kissing her. Her hands were holding on to his shirt at the small of his back. His breath caught in his throat as he went to speak. His vision blurred. He couldn't handle this.
"Do you feel like you fucking won now?"
He slammed the door as he left. He didn't even get to see the expression on Naruto's face. The one that told him he had taken it to far this time. A face of regret.