Authors Note: All characters belong to Stephenie Meyer, I just exercise them. Twilighter-Emma: Thanks for the suggestion, it had crossed my mind already, but then I came across something juicier =D Hope you'll enjoy this, and the next chapter, since this one, too, got so long I had to cut it in half...

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Chapter 10

Jacob

I could hear myself sob as I thought about the reaction I would have got if she had noticed what picking her up had done to me. All I can say is that I'm lucky my swim shorts were really baggy...

I hated myself the rest of our stay, and so did Edward, he saw in my head what had happened and all but ripped me to pieces. Wasn't a very fun flight home either, Nessie got cold on the plane, and rolled herself up in my lap. There I sat, with her in my arms and her father glaring at me from the side, trying to think of everything but her, and her body and how it felt to touch it and... It turned out that Edward was a great help, he saw my thoughts go in bad directions and snarled at me before I could make a fool of myself even more. I really thought I had learned to control my body better. But maybe that wasn't so hard to do before, when there was no one who held my interest. I mean, I've kissed a few girls over the years, not for any other reason then to learn how to do it right.

I snapped out of my thoughts as the thunder rolled in, and the rain started to really come down, it only drizzled before. I placed the thumbed hearts back in my pocket and stood up, not sure where to go, I didn't want to go home, but sleeping out in the rain wasn't my opinion of a good nights sleep either. I headed towards the diving cliffs and the cave at the bottom of it, at least I would be out of the rain there. I rolled myself up in the back of it and knew I would be fast asleep, just like the rest of the pack I could fall asleep just by deciding to.

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I woke suddenly, startled by some strange noise outside my window, it sounded like a branch rubbing against it, only there were no trees close to my second floor bedroom. I got out of bed and looked out. In the poring rain sat Nessie, shivering, on the roof, looking miserable. I threw the window open, pulled her inside and slammed it shut so hard that for a second I was afraid it would break, but it held together.

"Nessie! What on earth are you doing out in this weather?"

"I wanted to see you, and you never come up to the house anymore!" She glared at me as she said it, I felt my heart crumble, like it always did when something I'd done made her unhappy.

"I'm sorry sweetie, I really am. It's just been a lot going on this summer, Sam and Emily becoming parents and all."

"Sure, sure." I flinched as I heard her use those words of mine.

"Please forgive me! I'll do anything, whatever you want!"

I shouldn't promise her that, there were things I really, really should keep far away from doing, like holding her in my arms and such. Especially now, when her wet clothes clung to her body like a second skin, she had filled out way beyond her promises in the beginning of the summer and now walked around in the body of a fully grown woman. I tried my hardest to keep my eyes away from her chest, which wasn't the easiest, because it was very obvious that she was cold...

"Could I borrow your shover, I'm freezing?"

"No problem, come on."

Since my upper floor really wasn't more then a loft, it consisted of my bedroom and was just an extra room built on top of the rest of the house, I followed her downstairs. As she was in the shower I went to get her a towel and some clothes. She had a storage at my place of her favorite things that Alice would have thrown out if she found them, but I guessed they would all be way to small, she hadn't been here since that catastrophic trip to Phoenix. I found a pair of shorts I had gave her last fall, that really wouldn't be appropriate on her, but they would do to sleep in, and discarded all the shirts, to short and too tight, it was bad enough she was sleeping here, I didn't need to test my faith. As I walked up to my bedroom again I wondered why I took for granted she wanted to sleep here, maybe she just wanted to hunt and got caught in the rain. I chose a t-shirt I had meant to give away since it was to slim for me, it would still be huge on Nessie and should cover her down to her knees at least. Satisfied I walked downstairs holding my finds. I reached the bathroom, realizing there was no showering noises anymore, I knocked on the door.

"Nessie? I've got a towel and some dry clothes for you, I'll leave them here outside the door and let you..."

I placed the pile by the door, and as I turned around, there she stood, wearing my hand towel around her slender figure. It didn't even nearly cover enough, I could almost see her breasts and, well as for length goes, I didn't dare to look. I turned around immediately, trying to control my breath and my rushing thoughts. She was all but naked in my hallway, the thought made all my blood rush to certain parts of my body and I was disgusted with myself. I started to scold myself since no one else was there to do so. SHE'S ONLY A CHILD! AN INNOCENT LITTLE GIRL, BEHAVE YOURSELF, YOU PERVERT! WHAT WOULD YOU MOTHER SAY IF SHE SAW YOU NOW? I could hear Nessie pick up the clothes, letting the minimal towel fall to the floor, it sent another wave of heat throughout my system. As she entered the bathroom I dodged around and quickly went to the kitchen, deciding to distract myself by making food, I was hungry anyway.

"I'm sorry I scared you, I didn't mean to, but you didn't hear me when I called so I went looking. I hung up the towels to dry." Nessie entered my kitchen and I realized that no matter how baggy and long the t-shirt was it couldn't hide her curves. She looked gorgeous. Think about the food you fool, think about the food...

"You hungry?" I pointed at the frying pan full off eggs and bacon.

"Not really, I hunted on the way here."

So she hadn't come to hunt, she came here just to see me. My heart was swelling, getting to big for my chest.

"Well, OK, why did you come all the way here in the rain?"

"I didn't like being alone in the house, there's a thunderstorm going on if you haven't noticed, that means they're all out playing ball, and they say I can't come because it's a school night."

"So you decided it was better to run here, in the icy rain, than to sleep as you were told?"

"Yepp. Figured I could sleep with you, and you could drive me to school on your way to work."

As I took the pan and a fork to the table, not bothering to get a plate when it was just me, she eased herself up on the counter by the stove and sat there dangling her feet and looked at me as I ate. I tried to concentrate on my food, but my eyes kept wandering to her thigh where the shirt had pulled up, as she wiggled her feet it just crept higher and higher. I turned my eyes sternly to the pan, my face flushed beyond belief, stuffing food into my mouth as fast as I could. How on earth would I get out of this? She'd always slept in my arms, and when she got to big, in my bed next to me. How would she react when I said I'd sleep on the couch? When I was done with the food she jumped of the counter and snatched the pan from me.

"I'll dish this! You go wash your teeth so we can go to bed, I'm getting sleepy"

She yawned as she chased me out of my own kitchen. I did what she said and when I heard her go up the stairs I went to the cupboard and pulled out the extra pillow and sheets I kept there for when the pack boys stayed over. Passing the bathroom I saw her shorts still on the floor behind the door, and felt a jolt in my lover regions, good thing she wouldn't sleep in the same bed as me. After making the sofa I went up to say goodnight to her. She was laying on "her" side of my bed, shivering ever so slightly. I went to the wardrobe and pulled out a duvet that I bought just after the Phoenix trip, just in case she'd come, and wrapped it over her.

"What are you doing?"

"Covering you up so you don't freeze, you're shivering you know."

"But that's only because you're not here yet, this will be to warm."

She shoved it to the floor together with the sheet she was wearing before. I saw more of her naked leg than was good for me.

"I'm sleeping downstairs on the couch Nessie, you'll need it."

I picked up the cover and sheet, placing them over her again and began tucking her feet in, and worked my way up, trying not to think about her body as I did so. As I came to her shoulders I heard soft sobs and looked at her, tears streaming from her eyes.

"You... you... you do.. don't wanna stay with me? What did I do? Have I done anything wrong? Why can't I sleep with you? Is it the same reason you never come see me? Don't you love me anymore?"

I felt my throat tighten, I couldn't take to see her so unhappy. Without thinking I pulled her up in my arms, holding her close.

"Nessie, of course I love you, but your getting so big it's not appropriate to share beds anymore."

"Please Jacob, just for tonight, I promise, I won't ask you ever again. Please, pretty please..."

Aw, those puppy-eyes, I had never been able to resist them. OK, this one time I could do it, I would think about Blondie all night, all would work out. I hope.

"Fine, I'll sleep here with you."

"Thanks Jacob."

She eased her arms around my body and hugged me, and even though she didn't reach all the way around me I felt trapped. I placed her back down and walked around to my side of the bed. I laid down on my back and placed my hands on the cover, trying not to think about the half-naked beauty lying next to me, only inches from my left side.

"Jacob?"

"Yes Nessie?"

"Won't I get a goodnight kiss? Or is that to inappropriate these days too?"

"Yes, it is."

"But if I get to sleep with you this last time, then I really should get a last night-night kiss too..."

Oh lord, this girl! She'd be the death of me, I really, really hope Edward never finds out what passed through my head as I reached over to kiss her on the forehead.

"Jacob?"

"Yes Nessie?"

I stopped right before my lips touched her skin.

"Look at me."

I tilted my head so that I looked her in the eyes.

"What now?"

Her eyes were glittering with joy, then she lifted her head and kissed me on the lips...

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A N: OK, I know it's cruel to leave you hanging, but it's only for a day, so use your imagination for now =P As I said earlier, the chapter before, this one, and the next one was supposed to be one and same, but there was so much to tell. I promise, they don't cool down... Please review, I've gotten addicted to them by now =)