A/N: Thanks for the review pink-jinx67.
Maybe Tomorrow
Chapter Ten
Standing in the fitting room Julie looked at herself in the mirror. The white dress was fitting tightly and she felt like she could barely move as she looked at herself. Sitting outside the waiting room was her mother and her maid of honor Stephanie who she had met while going to school in England and they stayed very good friends. She wiped away the tears that had started to fall before she did her best to walk out of the waiting room.
"That dress is absolutely beautiful." Stephanie said with her quaint English accent.
"You look fat!" her mother growled from her spot. She then stood and walked to Julie and started to prod at the dress. "It fit loose the last time. You need to stop eating so much."
"Mother, please." Sighed Julie.
"You've gained so much weight so fast it's like you were pregnant." Her mother said as she went to sit back down. "The dress needs to be re-altered."
"Yes ma'am." The woman standing in the corner said as she walked to Julie and started sizing her. "This is always the case though. That's why we do so many fittings because the bride's nerves are a wreck and their weight goes up and down. It's normal for it to be too tight at some point."
"No it's just Julie's fat ass." Her mother commented. Julie rolled her eyes and sighed.
Julie sat at a table across from Stephanie. After the sizing the two of them separated from her mother and decided to have lunch before Stephanie had to go to the airport to return back to Ireland where she lived with her husband and kids. Julie picked at her food in attempt to restrain herself from eating it.
"Eat your food, don't let your mum make you feel bad." Stephanie said before taking a sip of her martini.
"It's not that." Julie said as she finally gave in and ate a small piece of chicken off of her pasta.
"Then what is it?" Stephanie asked.
"I don't want to get married…well to Jeff anyways." Julie admitted.
"Why?" Stephanie asked as her head shot up. "Is there something going wrong?"
"It's all been wrong if you ask me." Julie spat while rolling her eyes. "I can't stand him and I don't love him at all, but my mom continues to push me to marry him."
"Don't marry him if you don't want to." Stephanie said plainly.
"It doesn't work that way apparently." Julie said taking another piece of chicken from the pasta.
"Julie just do, whatever makes you happy." Stephanie said.
"I wish I could." Julie said with a sigh before finally giving in and starting to eat her pasta.
Julie saw Stephanie off before returning to her apartment. Sitting down on the couch she saw the light blinking on the answering machine. Walking to the machine she pressed the button.
"Julie Leeton this is doctor Summers and I've been assigned for your prenatal care. Please give me a call as soon as you can through your primary care office." Julie gasped at the message and quickly deleted it. She was going to have to make sure that they called her cell phone from then because she couldn't dare have Jeff come home and hear those types of messages. She bit her lip and put her hand on her stomach.
"Julie this is Tracy the Wedding Planner and there are some issues with the specific location that was picked for the wedding and there are a few details we need to work on. Please call me as soon as you get this message night or day I am at your service."
With a sigh Julie made her way back to the couch and sat down. After the dress fitting she really didn't want to do anything else that had to do with the wedding. She just wanted to relax and pretend like for once her life was exactly the way she wanted it to be. Finally after sitting for nearly and hour Julie made her way into the bedroom and into the closet where she reached through her shoe boxes to pull out one in particular. Opening the box she smiled. The first thing on top was that dried out red rose. Under she pulled out a few pictures and a couple of the letters. Sitting in the middle of the floor she read through the letters and every detail of her affair whipped through her mind. At the sound of the front door she quickly put everything back into the box and stored it where she had always kept it.
"Julie." Called the voice that could only belong to Jeff. Julie trudged into the living room to see Jeff taking off his jacket and sitting on the couch. He reached out his arms for Julie and she did as she knew she was silently being told to do. Walking over to him she allowed him to pull her into his lap. "How was the fitting?"
"Horrible." Julie said with a sigh.
"Really, why?" he asked.
"Last time the dress was too loose and not it's too tight." Julie said as she looked out of the window at the sun that was setting.
"Well you have gained a few pounds all of that eating you've been doing." Jeff commented.
"Just my nerves I guess." She said with a slight chuckle.
"Yes, but everything will be perfect." Jeff said before kissing Julie's neck.
"Are you hungry?" Julie asked as she moved away from Jeff.
"Just for you." He said with a growl as he grabbed Julie into his arms. Julie knew she didn't have the energy to fight him so she gave in to his pressure.
Sitting on the exam table Julie bit her lip as the doctor wrote his report. She had been waiting for this appointment, but when she finally got there her nerves were driving her crazy.
"Looks like everything is okay." Dr. Summers said as she finished up her report and turned to Julie. "Just keep up with your diet like we talked about, take your vitamins, and take it easy."
"I occasionally have panic attacks would that be a problem?" Julie asked.
"It could be. I can have you see a therapy specialist for that." Dr. Summers said as she started to write again. "And that should be it for now. I will call you for your next appointment and at the cell phone number you suggested."
"Thank you." She said as she hopped off the table.
Walking up the street Julie was so nervous about what was to come. It was only early June and she knew she was going to have to tell Jeff before she started to show and she would be showing a lot by the time of the wedding. She walked past The Met where she saw Constance girls enjoying their lunch and she smiled thinking of all her days there having lunch with her friends. She continued up the street not noticing that a limo pulled up next to her.
"Julie." Called a voice and she turned to see the limo and Chuck looking out the window at her.
"Are you following me?" she asked as she stood with a hand on her hip.
"In a way. I wanted to check on you…and the baby." He said as he opened the door. Julie looked around for a moment before slipping inside of the limo and closing the door behind her.
"I guess I'm okay and the baby is just fine." She said. "I had an appointment today."
"Really?" he asked as she slipped his arms around her. "It's so great to see you."
"Please we can't do this." Julie said as she moved away from him.
"Julie please. You aren't happy and I just want you to be." He said as she looked at her.
"I'm not, but it's not like I have a choice and I can't have you following me like this and showing up." Julie said as she opened the door. "I'm sorry, but you have to stay away from me." Julie closed the door behind her and made her way up the street with her sundress flowing in the wind.