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"It's not your mom…"

Paul shot right up in bed staring at me wide eyed before rubbing his hands into his eyes as if to see if he was dreaming or not. I waited patiently at the door when really I wanted to run up to him and attack him with hugs and kisses.

"Amethyst," he breathed and the next instant I was in his arms being crushed to his chest.

I didn't know what to say even though I've been panning it since I got out of the argument with Scarlett. I couldn't get any words to come out of my mouth. All I could do was wrap my arms tighter around Paul's neck breathing in his scent.

"Don't do that ever again, please you don't know how much it hurt to be away from you," Paul begged hiding his head in my neck as best as he could in out position.

"I'm sorry," I whispered as my tears finally began to fall, I never really cry but seeing Paul made all the girly emotions in me come out which was kind of annoying but I couldn't find it in myself to care.

"Why did you leave?" he asked pulling away from me and finally seeing how I looked, but I didn't want to fuss I wanted to stay curled up in Paul's arms forever.

"I'm okay," I assured him pulling him closer again.

"You should take a shower, it'll make you feel better," Paul murmured playing with my hair.

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Once I had had a shower I walked back into the room wearing one of Paul's jumpers that came down to my thighs. Paul was sitting on the bad with his head in his hands; I slowly walked over to him sitting down beside him. I waited patiently for him to speak because I honestly didn't know what to say.

"Why did you leave?" he asked his voice sounding strained.

"Honestly?" I asked looking down at his cream coloured carpet.

"Yeah," he whispered.

"Paul, I'm sixteen I didn't need that kind of pressure. I wanted to live my life wild and free because that's the kind of person I am, that's the reason I came to La push and hearing that you and my brother are werewolf's along with all of my friends it's kind of a big deal. You're from here and I bet that you never leave here to travel the world or move to London because this is your home and this is where you belong. I'm a wild child always have been always will, I had plans for my life, there's places I want to go, people I want to meet and things I want to do that I can't do here. I didn't want to live the rest of my life like you probably are going to, but…" I trailed off flopping back on the bed with a sigh.

"But…" Paul urged.

"I talked to my sister and realised that I love you enough to stay in this tiny place because that's who you are, and I can still to my thing because I know that hopefully you love me enough to accept my wishes," I sighed afraid to look at him, I was going to tell him a better way but…what's done is done.

"Why did you run?" he asked softly picking up my hand with his and entwining our fingers.

"That's how I deal with things," I mumbled shrugging my shoulders.

It's the truth I'm like my mom in that way, when something gets to difficult or too much to handle instead of working it out, I run. Sure if there's no where to run from a bully then I'll defend myself but in truth I run to protect myself. I don't like when things get so in control I can't handle them, that shouldn't happen, so my solution is to run just like my mother.

Every time her relationships ended badly we moved and that continued for six years until she decided we would settled down in Seattle. She met John when I was only ten, I had to put up with his boring ass for six years, but he only moved in when I was eleven but still five years of him, I don't know how my mom copes.

"but-"

"Drop it Paul, I run when things become to much to handle and that's what I did." I sighed dropping his hand and moving further over the bed and lying down.

I really don't want a lecture, it was wrong to run. Yeah I know that now but I was going to be there anyway I just extended my trip. But he didn't run after me and he let my run so it's not all my fault but I do have to admit if he did follow me I wouldn't be lying here right now.

"Why did you come back?" he asked lying down next to me and wrapping an arm around my stomach so he was on his side.

"Isn't it a bit obvious?"

"No…"

"I missed you Paul, I've told you I love you and I do. Sure La push isn't what I thought and what I still want to live but if you love it here like I know you do then I'm sure it will grown on me to." I told him turning on to my side and snuggling close to Paul's warm body.

I like La push don't get me wrong, it's just when I moved here I never thought it was going to be this permanent. I planned to finish high school and get the hell out of here and move to New York or somewhere but by the way things are that plan seems a hundred miles away.

"I love you too, you know." Paul said softly pulling me closer to him and playing with my damp hair.

"I'm sorry," I whispered sincerely. There really wasn't anything left to say, I ran away and I had to say sorry for that but if I didn't run away I probably wouldn't be where I am right now.

"It's okay, you done what you had to do." Paul whispered continuing to play with my hair, he has a strong fascination.

"Are you angry at me?" I couldn't stop myself from asking, it was like word vomit.

"Nah, I'm glad. You figured out a lot of things," he said holding me tighter to him.

"I still feel bad."

"What would make you feel better?"

"I don't know, you?"

"Hmmm…I know just deal with the fact that I am a werewolf, oh and come to Emily's with me tonight."

"Will do and I'm okay with what you are."

"Good, now we better get you home so you can change before we go to Emily's…"

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