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BPOV

Jacob got out of the hospital two weeks later. He was a tough guy. He wouldn't let the hospital give him a wheelchair. He said it would make him feel like Billy. So Jake came home with crutches, his arm and leg in a cast, but a big smile on his face.

The hospital said he couldn't go to work until his casts were off, which could be two months at most. He was very unhappy about this; he would loose all his business. I assured him that he was too good for people to abandon him.

The day after Jake ad woken up in the hospital, the nurses told us what had happened.

Sam and Jacob had been driving home from Port Angeles. At a very busy intersection, a drunk driver was driving recklessly. As Sam and Jacob were pulling out into the street, the drunk driver had floored the car and crashed head-on into them. Jacob had been driving and that is where the other car had mainly hit. Sam was only hurt because the cars had slid into the ditch and crashed in both directions.

Sam's car had to be totaled. The driver had been handcuffed and escorted out by a police officer- who just happened to be my father. I thought that was the best part. The only reason he didn't know it was Jake and Sam in that car is because there were other police officers and ambulances around, and he was only called to take away the driver.

"Guess what?" Jacob hobbled up behind me. He was on his crutches and was very annoyed by them.

"What?" I didn't look up, as I was folding laundry.

"When I was in that stupid hospital, I knew I was going to die."

My head whipped around to stare at him.

"What?"

"I could feel it. Death. It was just this big black room. I was in a hallway and every step I took toward the… darkness or whatever, it felt better. Like the pain was gone. But just as I was about to step into it, I heard voices."

"Voices?"

"Yeah. Ryan's, Sara's, Billy's... Your's. First, Ryan said, 'Daddy, don't go.' and Sara said 'Dada, don't leave.' and Billy just said, 'Jake, no.' and then you said, so clearly, 'I love you, Jake.' And from those four words, I knew I could make it. So I gathered up all my strength and ran back to you. That's when I woke up. Your head was on my shoulder and I knew I would make it. When you woke up and I told you that you told me that you loved me, I was positive that I was strong enough to make it.

I gasped. "Oh my gosh. You know, Ryan really did say that. And I really said I love you"

"He did?"

"Yeah. We were by your bed and I was telling you not to leave me. Then I said, 'Jake, I love you'. And then Ryan said, 'Daddy, don't go.'"

"Wow. So maybe I wasn't dreaming the whole time."

"I don't know." I murmured.

Jake put his hand on my stomach, where our third baby was.

"We should think about names. The other two, we made up on the spot."

"Yeah! Yeah! Names!" Ryan came toddling in and bounced on the sofa.

"No, honey. No bouncing." He stopped immediately.

"Names!" Sara exclaimed, crawling into the room.

I scooped her up in my arms and spoke.

"Okay, what do you want to name it if it's a boy?"

Ryan thought hard. "Spongebob." He finally decided.

"No." Jake and I said together.

"Why?" He pouted.

"Because Spongebob is a sponge, not a human."

"Oh."

"What else? How about girl's names?"

"Honey." Ryan said.

"Honey? Why?"

"That's what Daddy always calls Mommy." Ryan explained.

"But honey is also a food."

"Oh."

"I was thinking Alex? For a boy. Or maybe Tyler?" Jake suggested.

"I like Alex. But Alex is too original. What about Alec?"

"I like it."

"And for a girl, I was thinking Julie."

"You're good at names Jake."

"Thanks, what do you think?"

"I like both of them."

"What do you guys think? Alec or Julie."

"Yes, yes!" Sara exclaimed.

"Yeah!" Ryan cried.

"So Alec and Julie it is then."

4 MONTHS LATER

I sat on the couch next to Jacob. I was due any day now. My little baby. My third baby.

We hadn't asked the gender when we went to the ultrasound. We wanted it to be a surprise.

"Hey," Jacob greeted me, putting his feet on the coffee table.

Jacob had gotten his arm cast off two months ago, and his leg cast off one month ago. But he still had to use the crutches sometimes and still had physical therapy but it was better than having all those casts. He was so happy. He could finally hold his children again.

Sara was a year and seven months, and Ryan was two years and seven months. There wouldn't be much of an age difference for this baby.

Once, I thought that I was way too young to be having babies. Which I truthfully was. I was only a twenty-two year old woman for God's sake. I told this to Jake and he said he'd rather have babies now than later.

Emily and Sam were coming over later today. Lucy and Katelyn were coming too, of course. Emily's third baby was also coming in about five months. I was praying for her that she would get another girl. Just think, two older sisters and a little boy. That spells disaster.

Ding-Dong.

That's Sam and Emily. Jacob got up and answered the door. Lucy and Katelyn came bounding in trying to find Ryan and Sara. When they found them, all four of the kids went upstairs to play. I didn't really get why Ryan didn't mind being surrounded by the girls all the time.

"Bella!" Emily smiled.

"Hey, Em. How are you?"

"Ugh. Pregnant. It's terrible, having all those freakish mood swings, cravings, but of course, you already know. And look at this massive baby bump!"

Emily tightened her shirt around her stomach to reveal a barely noticeable baby bump. Her face looked so upset.

"You think your's is bad? Look at mine." I didn't even have to tighten my shirt, you could obviously see it.

"Yeah." Emily sighed. "Life is hard."

"Do you know if it's a boy or a girl yet?"

"No, we wanted it to be a surprise."

"Oh. Well, I want to know what gender this kid is as soon as possible. I hope it's a girl, I mean, sure Sam'll be the only guy in the house but I don't really know how to take care of a boy."

"Oh, it's not that different from the girls. But when they get older, they want boy things. You know like race cars, and stuff like that."

"Oh, good. Well I still want a girl because, you know then I could re-use Lucy's and Kate's clothes and old toys, and--"

"Crap! Jake!" I screamed. The baby was on it's way.

"Let's go," Jake suddenly appeared at my side with the baby bag. He knew what the problem was right away.

"Get the kids. We'll meet you guys there." I grunted at Sam and Emily.

They both nodded.

I wasn't too freaked like the last times. I'd been through this before. We got into the Rabbit and I closed my eyes.

"How are you feeling?" Jake asked as we drove to the hospital.

"I'm okay," I was taking deep breaths.

"I'm just happy you haven't threatened to chop off my man parts yet."

"Ha ha, very funny." I panted.

When we got to the hospital, Jake helped me out of the car and lead me inside.

"Could you get Dr. Stevens, please?" He asked the woman at the desk.

"Sure thing," She replied, sounding bored.

The lady pushed a button and Dr. Stevens came into view.

"Well Bella, you're a little early. Let's get you into a room."

"Okay," I said, relieved. I didn't know how long I could be only my feet.

As I was checked into a room, the doctors did a test to see how the baby was doing. They hooked up the fetal monitor and did an ultrasound.

"Uh-oh." Dr. Stevens muttered.

"What is it?" I asked.

"It looks like the baby is breech. The feet are first. I think we might have to do an emergency c-section."

A c-section. That was a surgery. A bloody surgery.

"Oh dear. Bella, we must do it now. The umbilical cord has wrapped around the baby's neck. The baby can't breathe."

Before I could even process their words into my brain, I was being wheeled away.

I looked up at Jake, terrified.

"It'll be okay. I promise." It sounded like he was trying to convince himself rather than me.

Suddenly I was in a white room. It was scary-looking. They put a curtain up and I could feel a syringe being injected into my stomach.

"This will numb you Bella." Dr. Stevens explained rapidly.

I just nodded.

Jacob looked petrified beside me. He was holding my hand, but his eyes were wide and he wasn't moving.

"Jake? You okay?" I whispered.

He didn't reply. He hadn't seem to have heard me.

"Jacob?"

He whimpered a very tiny whimper.

"We'll be okay Jake. I know we will."

His eyes weren't focused on anything; he just stared at nothing, seeing nothing. He squeezed my hand tighter. I squeezed back.

"Bella, we're going to get this baby out of you now." Dr. Stevens informed me.

She took a scalpel and cut me open. I wished I could see. The stupid curtain was in the way. I didn't care that I was being cut open, I didn't care that they were taking my baby out from inside me. I wanted to see what was happening to my baby.

Dr. Stevens suddenly held up the small form of a baby. The baby's face was slightly blue and he or she was covered in goop.

Jake seemed to snap out of his little reverie and was staring at our baby with tortured eyes.

I'd only seen the baby for a moment before they took him or her away, but it was long enough that I understood he or she wasn't breathing and was indeed unhealthy.

The other doctors sewed me up and the curtain was taken away. I was then wheeled into a regular hospital room.

"Jake…" I whispered in a anguished tone.

"I know, Bells." His tone matched mine.

Sam and Emily came bursting through the door, out of breath, and two kids in each arm.

"You already had it?"

I nodded. "They had to do an emergency c-section. The baby was breech then the umbilical cord wrapped around it's neck. They took… him or her away and we haven't her from them since."

Emily's mouth was a perfect little O. "Oh my God."

Jake was frozen, in his petrified state again at my side. He was still holding my hand, neither of us wanting to let go.

"Hey, man." Sam said. "You-you know… it'll be okay."

Jacob just nodded once. His eyes were still staring at nothing. And he was still seeing nothing.

Dr. Stevens came into the room then. She had a very serious look on her face.

"Well Bella. I don't know how to tell you this but… you're baby is still alive. But at this point, the chances your baby will make it through the night is very slim."

"Can… can you tell us if it's a girl or a boy?"

"It's a boy."

"Alec," I whispered.

"Excuse me?"

"Alec. That's the name we had picked out for a boy, Alec Tyler Black."

"I'm so sorry, Bella."

She left the room and I sat up, so I could reach Jacob easier. I put one arm around his neck and pulled him towards me. I hugged him so tightly that I was surprised that he hadn't choked yet. He embraced me back just as fiercely.

"I'm so sorry Bella." Emily murmured.

"Momma?" Ryan and Sara asked together. "Dada?"

"Mommy and Daddy are just a little sad that the baby isn't here yet." I heard Emily say to them.

"Oh." Ryan said brightly. "Momma, don't be sad." He tried to comfort me.

But Ryan didn't know that his brother's life was hanging by a thread. He had no idea that his brother could die any second.

For the first time in Ryan's life, I ignored him.

"Momma?" Ryan asked, hurt.

"Hey, buddy. Why don't we go get an ice cream?" Sam suggested.

"No! Stay, stay!"

"Okay. But Mommy and Daddy are sad right now so why don't you and I go get some food from downstairs."

Ryan nodded reluctantly. I heard them all leave the room silently. Jake's arms were still around me.

"What if…"

"Shh!" I shushed him. "Don't talk like that. He's going to make it. He's related to you, Jacob Black. He's strong enough to make it, just like you did."

"Right, of course." He agreed. But something deep down told me that he didn't really mean it.

"Jacob Black, you listen to me," I took his face with both of my hands. "Our son is strong enough to fight this. He will live and be happy and healthy with us. Do you hear me?"

He sighed. "Yes."

"Now, don't you go talking that crap about him… not making it. You know as well as I do that he's going to live, right?"

"Right." He agreed wholeheartedly.

"Alec is as strong as his Daddy, and he's going to come home with us, healthy."

"Right you are, Bella." Dr. Stevens came into the room.

"We've run some tests, hooked Alec up to a respirator, and he's starting to breathe right. Plus, he can move and blink, and cry."

I smiled and so did Jake. "Thank you."

Dr. Stevens smiled and left the room.

"He's going to be okay." The words were like a life preserver.

Jacob responded by kissing me.

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We walked through the hospital doors two days later, me nearly bouncing with every step I took, and Jacob grinning widely.

"Hello Bella. I suppose you'd like your baby?"

"Yes! Please!" I practically squealed. I sounded like Alice. Alice, I hadn't thought about her in a long time. I missed her.

Dr. Stevens laughed. "Okay. Let me go get him, you can come too."

We followed Dr. Stevens and she led us into a room with yellow painted walls. There were a few cribs in there but I didn't stop to look at any of the other babies.

"Here he is." Dr. Stevens approached a crib with an adorable baby boy in it.

"Hi, baby." I crooned. "I'm your Momma. You're gonna come home with us." He smiled a toothless smile, almost like he could understand me. I reached down to him and he grabbed my finger. Wrapping his tiny fingers around it.

"You can hold him" Dr. Stevens encouraged.

I was only too eager to accept her request. I scooped up my baby and kissed the tip of his nose.

"I love you." I said to him.

Jake tapped on my shoulder and held his arms out. I smiled hugely and handed Alec over to Jacob.

"I'm your Dada." He informed him. "You have two siblings at home wondering where you've been. Your Momma and I have been wondering too."

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