Dean tossed a metal folding chair against the wall causing a loud bang to echo through the arena hall. All heads turned and stared at him as he crossed the room and flipped over one of the tables. Seth watched as Roman approached the scene he had just finished with his match. "You better go calm his ass down before Stephanie sees this shit." Roman grunted he wasn't sure what had happened but it couldn't be good if Dean was losing his mind. Roman walked up behind the blonde and wrapped his arms around the smaller man's waist. Dean tried to wiggle free but had no success as Roman tightened the hold he had on him. He finally felt Dean start to relax into the embrace once the other man's breathing had calmed he gently pulled them into the closest locker room away from peeping eyes. Roman brushed a finger along Dean's cheek before he hooked a finger under his chin forcing Dean to look into his eyes. Roman slowly and softly planted his lips on Dean's who hesitated a moment before he returned the kiss. When he pulled away he stared into the blue eyes he loved so much. "What has you all worked up?" Dean froze and tried again to pull away from him but Roman wasn't having any of it as his grip stayed strong.
"I don't want to talk about it." Roman once again forced the other man to look at him "you can't tell me Dean I love you and I am here for you." Dean sighed as he ran a hand along the stubble on his chin. "Fine, so you know how Sami and I broke up well I just found out it was because the whole time we were together he was banging Finn." Roman felt himself getting irritated that Dean would even care about his ex boyfriend when their relationship was so good but he tried to not let it show. "I am confused why that would make you go nuts." Dean looked into Roman's grey eyes and he hesitated he didn't want to tell Roman the next part he knew the other man wouldn't like it. "Finn was my roommate man that is how they met and now the fucker is kicking me out." Roman's jaw tightened Dean was right he didn't like it how could Dean forget to tell him this and how dare Finn do some shit like this. Roman released his grip on the other man so he could sit down on a chair in the corner. Dean sat next to him on the couch and went to reach out for Roman's hand but thought better of it and quickly pulled away.
"Look Ro I am sorry I didn't tell you about Finn being my roommate but I swear I didn't know they were hooking up."
Roman said nothing for a couple of minutes until he looked at Dean who had a defeated look on his face. The way his features drew down and his eyes seemed sunken made Roman's heart drop he hated seeing Dean like this. Dean looked like he was going to apologize but Roman stopped him. "I'm not mad." Dean looked up from his lap a look of confusion was written on his face. "You're not?" Roman shook his head and then closed the space between them as he reached for the other man's hand. "No well I want to kill Finn but not mad at you. I was thinking move in with me." Roman felt Dean tense up and then his hand was empty. Dean had pulled his hand back and crossed them in his lap as his eyes fell to the floor.
"I can't Roman." Now Roman was the one who was confused. "Why not? We have been dating for a few months, I love you and I know you love me. You have nowhere to go and it seems like the next step." Dean stood and turned to face Roman his whole expression had gone dark his blue eyes a deeper shade. "You don't get it I can't Roman." Dean went to leave and Roman stood as well blocking his path he wasn't going to Dean run away not after everything they had been through. Roman crossed his arms over his chest and stood between the other man and the door. "You aren't running out Dean." Dean growled as he balled his hands up into fist "move Ro." Roman shook his head his hair falling loosely around his face. "No Dean." Dean shoved his hands into Roman's chest catching him off guard causing Roman to lose his balance and stumble back. Dean used this as his chance to storm for the door slamming behind him. Roman cursed out loud before hitting his fist against the wall which he knew would hurt later but he didn't care.
Dean stormed down the hall glaring at anybody who dared to look at him he wasn't in the mood for anybody's shit right now and he would gladly start a fight. He cursed to himself as he raced out of the arena and into the cool night air not sure where he was headed as he pulled a cigarette out of his pocket and lit it. Dean took a slow drag as he passed shop after shop he wasn't paying attention until he saw the neon sign in the window that was just the thing he needed to forget all the feelings inside. Dean wasn't really pissed no he was terrified. Truthfully he was scared living with somebody changed the whole thing completely. While he loved Roman that he was sure of he was worried that Roman would leave. Everybody he ever loved left him eventually it was just the way things were. He couldn't stand the thought of getting that personal with the other man just to have him walk out. Look at his mom, a string of boyfriends and then Sami everybody eventually got tired of him and left. Dean took a shot and then ordered another telling the girl behind the bar to leave the bottle.
Dean felt the liquid courage washing over him and he was now determined to make sure that he couldn't get that close with Roman. He would make sure he never got hurt like that again no matter what the cost. As he drank straight from the bottle he pulled out his phone and started going through numbers until he found Roman's he wrote out the message and hit send before he could change his mind.
Roman felt his phone vibrate in his pocket and he was hesitant to pull it out after Dean had stormed out on him he returned to their hotel room to be there in case the other man came back. Roman knew about Dean's past and he slapped himself for behind so careless he knew Dean was hurt and that the other man would find his offer too much. Roman just wanted to apologize and tell Dean he wouldn't ever hurt him. Roman wanted to show the other man how much he meant to him. Roman loved Dean more than he had ever loved anybody before Seth included and Roman pictured them one day having a life together. He wanted to make Dean see that too that it was okay to love him. Roman reached into his pocket and pulled the phone out he swiped across the screen and opened the message his heart dropped.
Ro not coming back don't wait up, honestly don't know If I am ever coming back.
Roman felt panic he wanted to hear Dean's voice so he tried to call but it went straight to voicemail so he punched in a response. Dean please come back to the hotel so we can talk about this. I am sorry I moved to fast. I love you. Roman hit send and held his breath as he waited for a response. He didn't have to wait long before his phone vibrated again. Roman I am not coming back tonight. I am sorry it's me not you. Don't wait up have to think about everything including us. Roman felt his heart racing even more as the panic started to build in him. He felt like a teenage girl but that was the effect Dean had on him. He knew that he shouldn't push the other man but he couldn't help it as his panic grew he needed answers. He felt needy and scared that he would end up alone he wanted reassurance. Are you breaking up with me. The next test message was short and too the point. Don't know. Roman tossed his phone it collided with the wall making a thud as it hit the floor. He wanted to curl up and cry until he could no longer breath. He refused to do that though he would make Dean see his side. He would make Dean understand how he felt no matter what. Roman refused to give up on the man he loved so much.
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