chapter 10 "Starting a new life"

November 1, 2006

Dear Diary

I have been at New York for about 3 weeks now. I'm acually having fun living on my own.I have know one bossing me around. I can stay up anytime I want. I can do anyhting I want without getting anyones consent. I can make mistakes without getting punished for them. Plus I dont have to see Chris's face every single day. I guess your wondering if I'm over the rape situation. To tell you the truth I haven't thought of it since well, now. You can say I'm getting better. I mean I haven't been having any nightmares. So I guess I'm back to my old self. Well when you get raped you dont completely become who you were at the beginnning but close enough. Anyways I found a job 2 weeks ago in a resturant. I'm a waiter that serves people what they want. I also made a friend at my new job. Her name was Katie. She's been extremly kind to me. I live with her in her apartment. It was so nice of Katie to serve her hospitality. Anyways your probably wondering what about school? Okay I might have lost my mind for running away but I didn't lose it completely. I am home schooled. I really didn't want to go to a public school and embrace my personalitly to people again. So I decied to just stay home doing my school work. I guess the best thing for me right now is not to really get to close with anyone. I've been throwing up and getting dizzy for about a week now. Katie tells me I should go to the doctor and make sure everything is alright.

yours truley,

Gabriella

I took Katie's advice and went to the doctors. Doctor Livingston (yes I got the name from Thats so Raven. Credit goes to that. lol) I ran some tests to make sure nothing is wrong with me. Finally after an hour of wating doctor Livingston came in.

"Gabriella I have your results. It looks like your 2 months pregnat sweety. Congragulations.

Ok so I looked back at my story and I thought wow these chapters are short. My attention is to stop here but I thought that wasn't fair. So instead of updating again I'm going to post chapter 11 right here. enjoy

Chapter 11 "You try to runaway from your fears, but they always come right back"

"w-what. I'm pregant. This cant happen to me.?" Gabriella said.

"well it did. So before you go sweety I need to see you again. Does a month sound good to you?" Mrs. Livingston asked.

"um ya s-sure." said Gabriella still surprised to what has just happened.

Gabriella made her way out of the hospital and went to her apartment telling Katie that she was pregnat. "omg. How did this happen. hehehe I know how this happened but like wow, I'm so happy for you." Katie said excited for her friend.

"what do you mean your excited for me? This is a disaster." Gabriella stated.

"oh come on Gabbi all you have to do is tell Troy. I mean he won"t be mad that he's going to be a father." Katie said.

"Katie Troy is not the father. Chris IS THE FATHER OF THIS BABY." Gabriella screamed.

"what. OMG he is the father. Now that is just sick. Are you going to keep it?" Katie asked.

"well ya I mean I cant let this baby suffer for Chris's mistake. Look this is just to much for me to handle right now. I'm going to bed." And with that Gabriella left Katie feeling overwhelmed to the fact that Gabriella is going to keep the baby. Once Gabriella made it to her room she pulled out her diary.

November 2, 2006

Dear diary,

My worst fear came. I'm pregant. I cant believe it. Its Chris's baby. Troy and I never really did it. I dont know what to do anymore. Once again I feel so hopeless. Maybe I shouldn't keep this baby. I mean me living my whole life with Chris's baby. I dont like the sound of that. It scares me it really does. Waking up every morning and looking at a baby that might look just like your rapers face is just frightning. Why do bad things always happen to me. For once I want to live my life without feeling scared and helpless.

yours truely,

Gabriella

Gabriella layed on her bed crying. Her nightmare came back. She was back to feeling depressed and controless. She didn't know what to do. She tryed to run away from her fears. But Gabriella figured out there is no way she can runaway from her fears anymore. They have come back to haunt her and with that she couldn't do anyhting about it. Gabriella tryed to forget about Chris and what he did to her. But now there was no way to forget about the fact that she has been raped. For her worst fear came, she has not only gotten raped from Chris, but she has something thats apart of him now. His child. Her child. Their child. Gabriella felt sick, so she went to the bathroom to throwup. She didn't throwup from the pregnacy she throw up from the fact that Chris is the father of this baby. After Gabriella washed her face, she went outside for some fresh air. She took in the air that was fulfilled from outside. She rubbed her stomach and started to talk to the baby as if the baby coud hear. "As far as I know, your my child and no one elses. I promise that all take care of until the day I die. No matter what Chris will never take you away from me. Your father is a jerk and doesn't deserve someone preouis in his life. Gabriella said rubbing her stomach. She meant every word she said. Chris might be the father of her baby but that didn't matter. This baby belongs to Gabriella only. Not Chris.

a/n. I know u might be grossed out that the baby is for Chris but I'm also gross out that Chris's is the father if this baby. But hey trying to make the story more intresting. Thank you all for ur wonderful reviews. You dnt no how much I love to read them. So plz keep them coming and i'll update as soon as I can. thanx again