HI everyone !!

I hope you're all doing al right. Thank you for all the reviews... You guys are just too good for me... It took me far longer than expected to post this chapter... It had another shot of Remus' ver miserable past, and hopefully very bright future... I hope I didn't overdo... I think the chapter is quiet terrible, honestly. I really didn't want to post it, and maybe I'll rewrite it, but seeing as I feel terrible as sick people ask me to update and I don't I updating anyways...

Hopefully you'll think it's at least a bit Ok... plzz let me know...

disclaimer: well you guys know the drill, I own noothing what so ever... All tha caracters are the hard work off miss rowling !!

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'How was school?' Anna asked excited as Remus entered her car. Remus opened his mouth to answer, but got stunned as he saw Anna

'You look amazing.' He said after a few moments of silence. Anna started smiling brightly.

'You really think so?' She asked him in surprise. She was wearing a black dress, and very nice black stilettos (which couldn't be very helpful with the driving). Although it wasn't the kind of weather for it. She obviously had been to the hairdresser, and was wearing light make-up, which made her eyes come out brilliantly. Remus just nodded. He had never seen Anna like this before. Of course she was always cautious of what she wore, but not like this. This definitely was done on purpose, so that she would look good. 'Thank you Remus. But you still have to tell me how school went.'

'Well I met a really annoying girl, and my chemistry teacher hates me… but other than that it was quiet ok.' Remus said smiling. He had spent most of the afternoon in Paul's company and it had been great to be able to talk to someone who was his own age.

'Did you make any friends?' Anna asked, and Remus nodded again still smiling at the young woman in the car. 'And was there anyone in particular that caught your attention?'

Remus looked at Anna with big eyes hoping that he had understood her wrong. He shook his head no suddenly feeling very uncomfortable. Anna seemed like the nosy mother-type kind of person when it came to Remus. However there was nothing much to know, or to tell. Remus hadn't really given attention to other people that much, to actually 'let his attention get caught'.

'Where are you going tonight?' Remus asked Anna as she started the car, ready to begin driving and shoot some more questions.

'No where.' She answered suddenly not looking at Remus any more as if she was trying to hide something.

'Come on Anna…' Remus continued, remembering the conversation he had hurt earlier that day. 'You don't dress up like that to stay at home…'

'I'm just going out with some friends from my class, that's all… You don't have to worry about that.' Anna said, but Remus knew she was just making up some story. He could see it, feel it, and hear it in her voice. Anna didn't like lying, and she wasn't very good at it either…

Days passed fleetingly as Remus went to school, and before anyone had actually felt it his first week had come and went. Sirius picked him up, and Anna came to get him. They were always right on time. Both of them were really cautious about him.

It was Sunday night as Sirius told him he should get to bed early. Remus could hardly figure out what it was about Sirius. One moment he could try to be the adult, and send him sleeping or made him eat his vegetables, or worried about him like hell, and the other he could act without a moment of thought…

'Good night then…' Remus said to Sirius and Anna, who was studying at the living room table. She looked really tired, and Remus thought it to be better that Sirius would send her to bed rather than him.

'Goodnight Rem…' Sirius smiled to him, and somehow Remus felt that need again, the need to lean in and kiss him again. However Remus didn't, he just swallowed deep willing the feeling to go away. 'And don't cheat, I'll come and look if you're in bed!'

'Yes dad…' Remus answered sarcastically. He couldn't believe how comfortable he was starting to feel around them. For the very first time, in a very long time he felt like he had an actual family again. However that didn't mean that he should be treated like a small child.

'Goodnight Remus.' Anna said smiling at the teenage boy. 'Listen to you grandfather…'

Remus couldn't help but laugh at Anna's words as he started to leave the room.

'I never could have guessed that about you…' Anna said thoughtfully as she heard Remus bedroom door close only moments later.

'What?' Sirius asked not knowing what Anna meant.

'That you could be so severe…' The young woman smiled putting her book aside, and taking of her glasses. 'I'm going to get ready for bed too; I'm really up for a good and long night off sleep.'

The bid each other goodnight and Anna left Sirius alone another ten minutes later. Sirius who really wasn't feeling up to be all alone went to bed himself not long after Anna had left him. He however kept his promise, and went to check up on Remus. The boy was already sleeping, and Sirius couldn't help but watch the boy for what seemed like eternity. Remus always looked so peaceful when he was sleeping. He was so incredibly beautiful. Sirius thought it to be the perfect sight, yet he knew he had to stop thinking like that. Remus was only now really starting to trust him, and he could never betray his trust.

The moon was full, and Remus knew what that meant as he came down the stairs after his foster parent had called for him. With every step he was trying to suppress his tears. Remus was ready for what would happen, he always thought he was. And even if he wasn't he had to be.

'Get down here now my little whelp.' The voice called again, making Remus shiver in fear. Why did it happen all the time? Why couldn't he just crawl under a stone and die?

Every step he took was a step closer to the most terrible place on earth. Remus walked silently across the hallway, and into a room that was once a living room. A cage stood in the corner… Remus looked at the thing with more hate and fear than he could ever have imagined feeling.

The man closed the door behind Remus, and Remus knew just by the way he started calling out to him that it would be another terrible night.

Hours passed as Remus felt the man's belt repeatedly hid his flesh. Some wounds were so bad that they couldn't stop bleeding.

'What do you need to say?' The man towered over him, and Remus knew he had never been so scared in his entire life.

'Please …' the boy said in a weak voice. 'Send me to where I belong.'

'Get in your cage!' The man yelled hitting Remus once again with the belt he used as his personal whip. Remus crawled towards the dog cage, almost happy that it was finally over. 'Faster!'

Remus cried out in pain. He wanted to leave, he had to leave. He had to find a way out.

Remus woke up bathing in sweat once again, screaming to let him go, and begging for freedom...

He felt sick, and panicked as he didn't immediately realize where he was. He hadn't had the nightmare in a while now, and he couldn't remember being as livid as the day it had happened…

However as moments past he realized where he was, and what he was doing in this place. Feeling very afraid Remus got out of bed silently. He knew he shouldn't do this, knew it would only make matters worse, but he wanted to feel safe. He had to feel safe. Just for one night, one night without having to worry. He walked across the hall, and he came to stand before the door opposite of that of Anna's. It was Sirius' room, and Remus knew he shouldn't have entered, that he should turn around while he still could. Yet he didn't. After a soft knock, he opened the door.

The room was dark, nothing more than the street lights entered the room. Closing the door Remus made his way over to Sirius' bed.

'Sirius?' Remus asked first quietly, but harder as soon as he realized that it wasn't working. 'Sirius, please wake up.'

After a few moments Sirius opened his sleepy eyes.

'Remus?' He asked in surprise. He came to sit, and turned on the light on his bedside table 'What are you doing here?'

As soon as Sirius had asked the question, he found the answer. Remus' eyes were red, as if he had just cried. He was all sweaty, and he was obviously very scared.

'Did you have another nightmare?' Sirius asked, and Remus nodded while he held back the tears he felt rising again.

'Can I please stay?' Remus asked after he bit his lip. Sirius nodded.

'Of course you can stay. Remus you don't even have to ask.' Sirius answered, a bid too soon he had to admit later on, but in that moment as he saw the teenage boy sitting on his bed almost scared to death he didn't particular care. 'Get under the covers its cold.'

Remus did what he was told, even though doing it felt really weird.

'It will be alright, I promise.' Sirius whispered as Remus' shivering, almost trembling body was close to his own.

'Don't leave me…' Remus said as he felt he couldn't hold back the tears any longer… Before Sirius knew what he was doing, or had time to think about the right thing to do he wound his arms around Remus pulling him into a hug. He was shushing him again, and somehow he knew that it did make a difference for Remus, and it always would…

As they were driving to school the next morning, the car only filled with complete silence Remus couldn't help but wonder why there always had to be something like aftermath. They once again felt uncomfortable with each other. Remus didn't want it to be like this. He knew he shouldn't have done what he did, but he couldn't help it. In fact, thinking back to how safe he had felt sleeping on Sirius arm he found he'd do it again in no time. But he wouldn't do it anymore. The silence wasn't worth it.

Sirius hadn't spoken to Remus all morning, and he felt terrible about it. When he had woken up in the morning he had left Remus lying in his bed, and went off to make breakfast, and calling up Anna who had already left. He even tried to ignore Remus being in the apartment for as long as he could. When it was time for school he had told Remus that they had to leave, and that was it. They had been sitting in the car for almost 10 minutes now, and hadn't said a word to each other. It shouldn't be this weird, they hadn't done anything wrong.

As Remus' school got closer, both of them realized that they had to say something, but who would be the first one to speak?

Sirius pulled over the car only minutes later, a few meters away from the gate.

'Make sure your not late in chemistry again.' HE stated not looking at Remus.

'I won't.' The teenager answered as he watched Sirius looking out of the window. Remus opened the door, and wanted to get out of the car, when Sirius took his arm. Remus' eyes snapped up once again looking straight into those that belonged to Sirius.

'Meet me here at noon. I'm taking you out to lunch.' Sirius stated without thinking. He had to start doing that, and fast. It wasn't a question, yet Remus nodded too stunned to do anything else. Yet he started smiling after a few seconds. At least he Sirius wasn't disgusted with him... Sirius started smiling as well, finally feeling the air lighten around them.

'But don't you have to work?' Remus asked after a moment of thought. Sirius already had stayed home a lot when he started living there.

'I have to eat don't I?' Sirius asked Remus as if it said everything. Of course he had to eat, but he could do that at his office as well. Remus just nodded not knowing what else he could do. 'Be good and blow up Snape for me will you.'

'I'll try…' Remus said nodding towards the older man, feeling the need again to lean in and kiss him, but he didn't want to jinx that they were talking again. 'I'll see you at lunch. '

Remus' morning passed relatively uneventful. He and Paul sat together in Chemistry and English, and Remus realized that Paul talked even more during class, then outside of it. Remus didn't really mind. He didn't really like talking that much, and preferred listening.

'Why are you going out to lunch anyway?' Paul asked as Lily was trying to explain something about Shakespeare.

Because I can't stay out of my social worker's bed…

'We still have to arrange al lot, transfer my address and stuff…' Remus lied almost invisibly. He was far better than Anna was at lying, but who wasn't?

'Oh…' Paul said thoughtfully. 'Where are you going to live than?'

Remus swallowed deep. Wouldn't it be weird to tell him that he would stay with Sirius? He didn't really have a choice though, Paul would find out sooner or later.

'I'm going to stay with Sirius.' Remus answered quietly.

'Really?' Paul asked surprised, yet seemingly enthusiastic. 'Do you like living there?'

'Yes, I kind of do.' Remus said gently smiling at his friend, and classmate.

It went quiet for a while as they listened to Lily's statement about theater and the popular culture.

'Oh have you heard the news already?' Paul asked after about 10 minutes. Remus knew had had enough of what Lily had to tell. Remus shook his head still trying to listen to what she was saying. He didn't want Lily to tell Anna and Sirius that he didn't really pay attention in class, and he had a feeling she would certainly tell them.

'You know Mathews' boyfriend right?' Paul asked. He was seemingly fond of gossip. Remus nodded, but was now actually listen carefully. He still remembered the boy with brown hair that saved him from her terrible grasp, and had winked at him... 'He broke up with her over the weekend. Apparently they got into a huge fight. Mathews isn't even at school today, I heard from some people that her best friend had said that she had been crying ever since…' Remus, although he knew that he shouldn't, felt that she got what she deserved. She wasn't better than any of them, and she shouldn't go around bullying random people…

'So…' Sirius said as he was sitting opposite of Remus once again. The man didn't know what he wanted to say, what he wanted to make sure.

'So…' Remus repeated, not knowing where this conversation was going.

Somehow both of them didn't know what to tell the other. They didn't want to make things weirder between them than they already were.

'Remus…' Sirius started eventually as the waiter had shook them out of there trance with the food he brought. 'If there is anything you feel like talking about you can you know. I will never judge you.'

Remus looked at Sirius in confusion. This was not what he had expected.

'I know that.' Remus confided in the older man. He gave a soft smile, as he felt something in the pit of his stomach which he could not place, but it was a good feeling nonetheless

'So what do you think about the spaghetti?' Sirius asked lighting the mood.

'Yours is better!' Remus said laughing at his roommate. However Remus was glad Sirius didn't ask him exactly why he crawled into his bed last night the teenager decided not to do it again ever…

Yet as night fell, and Remus couldn't find sleep again as he was scared to death he found himself walking over to Sirius' room once again. He didn't want to, he knew that he should turn around, he wanted to, but he couldn't. He couldn't turn around. He had to feel safe once more…

Just one more night would be enough, Remus told himself. After this night it would be enough… It would be the last night, it had to be.

Don't hate me if you thought it was terrible too, in all fairness I did warn you !!

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