Chapter 10

Ahsoka remained in the halls of healing while the Jedi continued to run various test on her. Anakin refused to leave her side even then, she was still scared and worried what would happen if the darkness broke out but so far thankfully the force collar seemed to keep it at bay. Anakin was admiring the mechanical prosthetics that Ahsoka had "Whoever gave you these must have had a lot of money" he said. "I guess" Ahsoka said wrapping her arms around herself again as the healer walked away to analyze the results. She really didn't want to think about what had happened when she killed the doctor.

Anakin stopped looking at her arms and looked back up to her eyes "Ahsoka your safe now it's all ok" he said reassuringly. Ahsoka pointed at the force collar around her neck "As long as this thing keeps working" she said. Anakin went to place a hand on her shoulder but she flinched away "please…anakin…I don't want to make it angry" she said softly. Anakin's eyes couldn't hide his hurt but he understood whatever she was going through she needed to do it.

"Ahsoka I just want to let you know that I am here for you no matter what" he said. She smiled a little "Thank you master…" she said softly she then looked up at him "Do you think they'll be able to fix me?" she asked. "I'm sure we will think of something Snips" Anakin said optimistically. "Do you think I can get something to eat I haven't eaten in a couple of days" Ahsoka said, Anakin smiled "Sure thing Snips I'll be right back" he said getting up and running off.

When he was out of the room Ahsoka sighed, he seemed so happy that she was back that she didn't want to worry him. The voice continued to talk to her, tell her to take the collar off and that together they could fix everything she just needed to take it off. She knew better however she knew she couldn't do that, she didn't want to hurt anybody and she knew that's what the darkness wanted. She just hope the collar kept working until they Jedi found a way to fix what had happened…if they could fix it.

She looked up as the door opened and her first thought was that Anakin must have ran the entire way there and back to have got back so quickly. She looked down from where she sat on the bed and saw Master Yoda walking in. She immediately wrapped her arms around herself just in case as she watched him make his way over to her. "Good to see you it is padawan Tano" Yoda said with a friendly smile.

Ahsoka looked at him confused, how could be so friendly when she had just attacked him not to long ago. Sat in the chair that Anakin had just left from "Missed you Skywalker did devastated after Mortis he was but now better he is. Missed you we all did" Yoda continued. Then Master Yoda couldn't hide his curiosity as to where she had been for two years "Remember what do you?" he asked.

She looked at him for a moment before looking past him at the wall. She drew her legs in to her chest and wrapped her arms around them "it…it's all kinda fuzzy" she said. "Take your time" Yoda said patiently as he saw her fingers tighten around her legs before she began to speak. "Anakin….he was trying to pull me into the ship as the planet began to crumble around us. I couldn't stop trying to attack him…it was like something else was controlling me…" she paused and closed her eyes. She let out a shaky breath before continuing "He grabbed my arm as the ship was lifting off of the ground but I kept trying to attack him and the ground underneath me gave. I pulled my hand free and fell I don't know how long for but then all I felt was pain…so much pain. I went unconscious and woke up two years later" she said. She really hopped Yoda didn't ask her to go on…she didn't want to talk about what she did to then.

"Escaped Mortis how did you?" Yoda asked, "I guess the same way Obi-wan and Anakin did" she replied softly. Yoda looked at the young padawan she was confused, in pain and scared. He knew she would need time to heal and they needed time to find a way to help her with her problem. "Rest you should, need your strength you do" Yoda said hopping off of the chair and left the room.

A couple hours later after night fall had come and Ahsoka had eaten she was laying back in the bed board out of her mind. She wasn't aloud to leave at least not yet anyway until the doctors found a way to fix her problem or make sure that she wouldn't attack anyone. Not being able to feel, to touch and to use the force was maddening she felt like she was lost without it like a part of her was just missing. She took a deep breath and sighed as she readjusted the collar around her neck. This piece of technology this fragile prototype was the only thing keeping the darkness away and she was thankful for at least that. Slowly her eyes lids began to drawl downward and she fell asleep because there was nothing else to do.

When her eyes opened again she found herself no longer lying in a bed in the halls of healing but standing outside in what looked like to be a court yard. She looked around trying to find her bearings until she heard laughter coming from behind her. She spun around and her eyes fell on the source of all her problems, the Son.

He stood in front of her hands clasped behind his back and eyes burning into her own. For a moment nothing was said as they two stared at each other but then the Son began walking toward her. He reached forward and flicked the collar that was around her neck before he chuckled "You think petty human technology will keep the darkness at bay?" he asked as he began walking around her.

She flinched at his touch but glared at him "You did this to me you made me kill those people" she accused. The Son laughed again "Are you so sure child? Perhaps you wanted them to die because they didn't do as you commanded" he replied, his voice even and calm which sent a chill down Ahsoka's spine. "No I would never, you made me" She quickly fired back. The Son turned and a smile crept across his pale face "How could I? I am dead I had no control over your actions" he replied. "I heard you! You told me to!" Ahsoka yelled. His smile grew wider and he gestured behind her with a hand.

Ahsoka was hesitant to turn around but her curiosity got the better and her blue eyes met a pair of yellow mixed with a dark red irises and a smiling togurtan female. She staggered back as she stared at her evil self who had a wicked smile on her face "Hello dear" the dark Ahsoka said. She turned back around to look at the Son but he just vanished and now Ahsoka was left alone with her darker half. "How did it feel?" the darker half asked staring at her other half "H…how did what feel?" Ahsoka asked. Dark Ahsoka walked up to her "When you cut that poor doctor to pieces after he helped you recover from your injuries" she answered. "T-that…was you you did that" Ahsoka replied. "Oh but how can you be sure, he wouldn't let you leave and was going to turn you over to the Separatists surely that made you angry" the darker half replied. "I…I…no that was you" Ahsoka replied with a shaky voice. "But dear I am you, you picked up the knife you cut him to pieces even while he begged for mercy and you took pleasure in it. Then of course there was the poor man at the ticket booth that one so far is my favorite. Not very Jedi like if you ask me" dark Ahsoka said with a sly smiled.

"I couldn't stop…I just got so angry…then all I saw was red…you took over you made me do that" Ahsoka said now trying to convince herself more than her darker self. "Oh no my dear, perhaps what is happening is that you are letting out all that built up frustration, the anger and the pain that you've been holding inside. You can feel it now cant you, that little trinket around your neck only suppresses the power the Son gave you but the anger is still there. Building slowly until boils over and lets the real you out" the darker half replied.

Ahsoka shook her head "No…I'm a Jedi I would never willing hurt others" she protested. The darker half laughed "Even now you deny it try and push it away but keep it locked up for to long and…well you know what happens. You were never meant to be a Jedi Ahsoka there just to much anger in you, take Skyguy for example what would he do if you got hurt by someone, what did he almost do when Obi-wan faked his death?" Ahsoka looked down at this "Stop it" she said. "Why because you know I'm right? Because you don't want to accept your destiny?" the darker half continued. "Stop it!" Ahsoka said a little more forcefully but it just seemed to egg her darker half on "You cant stop it Ahsoka, it will build and build until it physically causes you so much pain that you have to let it out. The Jedi won't take you back not after all of this, you're a threat to their precious Order. Your expendable to them, they don't care about you they only ever pretended to" the darker half said with a gleeful smile.

Ahsoka tried to block her out but her voice just got louder and louder until she couldn't stand it "Shut up shut up SHUT UP!" she screamed. She bolted up right as her yelled herself wide awake. She started to tremble again and she wrapped her arms around herself, her heart pounding violently in her chest and her eyes wide with fear.

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