Chapter 10
Be mine~ Ellie Goulding.
As I made my way out of the burrow that night, the light rain fell onto my face. It's a good thing nobody I passed could see my tears. It's a very good thing tears never show up in the pouring rain. I remember when I reached your room George passed me flashing me a small smile before I knocked on the door. They'll be no more chances, that was my last. So I promise I'll never mess things up for you again.
"Em I was beginning to think you'd forgotten" Fred said as I entered the room giving me a small smile which I couldn't force myself to return. "There's something I need to tell you" I said to him. He raised as eyebrow curiously at me before a flicker of realisation crossed his eyes. "So it's true." He said to me. At that point I knew exactly what he meant and I simply nodded. 2george told me just before he left" He explained to me. And then you turned your back on me and I was left to stare at it. "it's too late Emily" he said. "I know, I just had to" But my voice trailed off before I could explain and I saw you nod slightly. "well I should go and get a seat" I said. "you staying?" you questioned. "yeah after all I owe you that at least" i said going to leave the room without another word passing between us.
As I leave, I know I've lost you. But now you're gone I remember every word you said, like an echo in my head. As I took a seat next to lee I forced a smile onto my face. It was so hard, faking a smile when I could feel myself falling apart inside. And now I'm standing in my room and I can remember every single word you said, they keep going round like an echo in my head. But you never were and you never will be mine.
I remember as you took your place at the front our eyes met just for a second, there was no mercy in them. No quilt. No nothing. As I left last night the cold wind hit my face and I can see you and her walking in the opposite direction and now I'm helpless. Wishing will do no good anymore. Cause you could never see me like I wish you could.
You never were and you never will be mine and I need to accept that. So I'm going to leave. I don't where I'll go but I leave today.
Your words keep echoing in my mind, which is why I need to go. Out of sight out of mind, I hope. No one has to know. I'll leave a letter for George and one for harry. They'll understand, they have too. By the time any of them come looking I'll be long gone. As I finish packing the last of my things you words echo round my mind, I doubt I will ever truly be free of them.