I do not own victorious
Dear Diary,
Even though I've stopped getting sick a month ago it doesn't mean I still don't get the urge to. Some days are easier than others. I've thought " if I get sick just this once I can stop again". Truth is that probably wouldn't happen. I'd be right back into it again and the horrible cycle would continue. Each time I'd stop getting sick for a day or two I'd tell myself I wouldn't do it again than sadly slip right back into it! I always swore each time was worse than the last and that I couldn't stop. It was scary. You not knowing if that one time you throw up you may die or cough up blood. Those two facts alone has kept me from not doing it again when I've been wanting to so badly sometimes! This disease messes with you a lot. I really hope I can stop for good. So far I'm doing ok. Jade still has my back and is always there for me no matter what time it is. She has helped me so much with stopping and when I was doing it she would tell me tomorrow is another day, don't kick yourself over getting sick today. You can try harder tomorrow to quit. She always and still does tells me I can do this. That I can stop for good!