DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN THESE CHARACTERS!

The next morning I awoke in Jacob's arms. Last night was one of the best nights of my life. I shifted a little to see Jacob's peaceful face. He slept with a smile on. After staring at his beautiful face for several minutes he awoke from his sleep. His eyes met mine and he smiled. I had never realized how beautiful his eyes were.

"Good morning Bella." He whispered.

"Good morning Jacob." I whispered back.

"That was amazing Bella! You have no idea. That was definitely worth waiting for!" he exclaimed.

"I know." I replied. "I wish I could stay here forever." I tilted my head up and kissed him passionately for a few minutes.

"Bella….I know how much you don't want to but you have to go back to their house. You have to go talk to them about this. And you may want to pay your last respects to...Edward."

I knew Jacob was right, but I wasn't sure if I could do it. I wasn't sure that I could face them. I looked down and realized we were both still naked, and I rolled out of bed with Jacob right behind me. Kissed me again and he helped me dress. He brushed pulled me into his lap on the bed and brushed my hair.

He dressed as I starred at his perfect body, and when he finished he picked me up and carried me to his car. I got in and he drove slowly through La Push to the Cullen's house.

"Nervous?" he asked me.

"Incredibly." I whispered.

"Do you want to vent?"

"Yes."

"Go for it."

"I don't even know what to say! Last night was perfect and amazing…..and I don't regret it. But part of me wishes that I could have done it with Edward…and part of me doesn't. And I'm afraid to face the rest of them. They all know what I did…and Edward's death is…." I trailed off.

"Is what Bella?" Jacob asked softly.

"Is my fault." I whispered.

"No! Bella it's not! If he had let the other wolves deal with it this wouldn't have happened. It's not you at all."

"But it is though! If I hadn't come to La Push in the first place….."

"I'm so glad you did though. I missed you." Jacob said as he took my hand in his.

"I missed you too….but….oh Jake I can't believe he's gone!" I shouted and started crying again. Jacob rubbed my shoulder and held my hand the whole way to the Cullen's house. When we got there I started shaking a little.

"I can't come in with you Bella, but call me when you want me to come get you."

"Ok" was all I could manage to say.

I walked up to the door and knocked. Alice answered almost immediately. She looked upset and angry and confused.

"Hello Bella." She said. She sounded mad.

"I'm so sorry Alice! This is all my fault! I don't know what I was thinking and now he's…he's…" I started sobbing again. Alice pulled me inside and I looked up to see Carlisle and Esme staring at me with a grave look in their eyes. Rosalie shot me a piercing look, and Emmet was just standing there looking sad. It was Jasper who caught me attention the most. He had a look of utter jealousy on his face. Yet it was mixed with sadness and guilt.

"Uhh…Bella…." Alice started.

"No Alice! Don't say anything. I'm just going to go upstairs and get my things."

"Bella I think you should-" Carlisle started.

"NO! Just let me be." I said harshly.

"You're asking for it." Rosalie mumbled. I shot her a glare before I turned and ran upstairs. I paused outside of his room. This was going to be painful…I could tell. I took a deep breath and opened the door. I gasped when I walked into the room. I rubbed my eyes a few times. I just stood there staring into the room like an idiot. Edward was sitting right there on the bed looking at me.

Realization hit me: Edward was alive….and I had just slept with the one person that he hates the most.

"What have I done?" I whispered and burst into tears.

I am sooo sorry this took me so long! I've been busy. But hope you like it!