Tears of the Forgotten

Isabella had no idea that what Edward was about to give her would resurrect the old Bella and let him back into her heart.

As I flew behind Edward up the stairs I noticed that Alice had a huge grin on her face which really irritated me. What had she seen I wondered as Edward stopped in front of me and opened the door what I presumed to be his room. He stepped aside and with an innocent smile waved me forward; always the gentlemen. I walked into his room and had seen that his room had changed. It was bigger now and had a nice soft white rug just like in my apartment. I smiled when I saw the old black leather couch over to the left of his room pressed against the window. I remembered him tackling me and throwing me on it with me in his arms. The right side of his room was still covered with what seemed like endless amounts of music except for that the amount hadn't changed. Hasn't he come across anything new and interesting over the past decades I wondered in confusion? While I was still exploring his room with my violet gaze I hadn't noticed that he had shut the door and was now standing right behind me.

"Isabella?" he asked sternly.

It made me jump as I turned and faced him and to my dismay found a small snicker on the side of his lips. Well, enjoy it while it lasts because when I get you you'll be screaming I thought sheepishly and laughed mentally; already making plans on how to startle and scare Edward. I raised my eyebrows awaiting his intentions.

"Would you mind just answering some of my own questions a little more detailed before I give you your belonging back?" I nodded my head and knew that I had to be careful not to reveal too much.

He came closer now and was only inches away from me when he started to whisper so low that I knew nobody would be able to hear but me.

"I know that you lied down there. You might be a better actress now than you once were but you can't fool me. I saw the nervous glances in your eyes. You seem to be very good at hiding your emotions since Jasper didn't feel anything and I know that whatever you're capable of doing is affecting Alice's visions. The blackspots in her visions appeared just before I entered the cemetery when you told me that you made your scent somehow dissapear just before I arrived, and her visions were clear again. You said you did it again before you came into the meadow, and yet again her vision faded, and became clear again and saw somebody lying next to me which turned out to be you. Please tell me even if it's only a fraction of the truth, and I know that I have lost your trust but please; I need to know something" he asked very businesslike.

Perceptive, I sighed and would tell him a "fraction", I can't tell him the whole truth. It wasn't just because of the fact that I didn't trust him anymore but that I wanted to protect Edward from what lay beneath the streets of Volterra. I leaned closer to Edward so I could feel his breath on my lips; very distracting as I closed my eyes for just a split second before reopening them again, and refocusing on the issue at hand.

"Here's a fraction and listen very carefully because I will not repeat myself" he nodded.

"I am capable of physical manipulation. I can't tell you what it is but I can tell you the following. This talent of mine allows me to hide and erase my scent. It allows me to smell and hear things from great distances if I choose to. If I had chosen to smell the entire Forks area two days ago I wouldn't have been surprised tonight, and you might have seen me earlier. I use it as little as I can so I won't draw attention to myself. Yes, my ability is most likely affecting Alice's visions because it can be somewhat of unpredictable and chaotic. Furthermore, I believe that the reason why the venom spent so much time in our brains that is me, Ben, and Amara's is because it was modifying it so it could adapt to our new abilities. Think about it. Amara can control plant life and her eyes are green. Benjamin can control the four elements and his eyes are very light lemony yellow which also makes some sense; to me anyway." I whispered ever so quietly.

Edward's expression went from amazement to confusion and asked the all too important question I couldn't answer.

"So if you're eyes are violet what powers could you possibly poses?" he asked curiously.

I just shook my head sadly at him and went on.

"The main reasons why I'm not telling you are not just because I don't trust you but because I am trying to protect you Edward" his eyebrows shot up and his eyes widened in alert.

"Protect me from what?" he asked confused.

"Not just you Edward but all of your family. If Aro would ever know of my talent I would lose my freedom even though he would have a very hard time trying to take it from me. I don't even want to imagine what he would do if he found you or Alice. Also, you must know the following; nobody on this earth knows of my talent and what I' am capable of but me" I finished in a final tone.

"Not even Amara or Benjamin?" he asked while I shook my head.

"Maybe someday you will be able to tell me, a day when you'll be safe and won't only trust me but also the rest of the family?" he asked a bit excited with the knowledge of this new mystery on his hands.

I smiled at him and nodded while speaking.

"Someday it will be more fun to show you" I teased and laughed, and Edward joined in and gave me his beautiful crooked smile that I had longed for a very long time to see again. I couldn't help but smile at him now but another mystery suddenly entered my mind.

"So what's this thing you have that originally once belonged to me?" I was the curious one now.

Edward nodded in understanding and went over to his endless supply of music. He opened up a small cupboard underneath his huge Sony surround sound system and took out an old CD case with rust covering most of its surface. Whatever it was it was very old I thought. Edward's eyes focused on the old CD cover and quickly glanced at me before returning to it.

"I haven't heart this melody in a long time…" he whispered sadly and suddenly it dawned on me.

The second it did I heard the entry door downstairs fly shut and looked up at Edward in confusion.

"They decided to go hunt and leave us be for a little while, if you don't mind?" he asked politely and I shook my head a little too eagerly.

He stepped over to his CD player with a grin covering his perfect marble face and removed a perfectly preserved CD from the rust cover which he threw over on his leather couch and placed the CD in his player. He hit a combination of buttons which I didn't even look at. I mean I wouldn't want to own a piece of electronic equipment that had over hundreds of button's for heaven's sake, and let a all too familiar lullaby consume his room. He then looked back at me with hope and love in his eyes. It was my lullaby. Something he composed out of pure love for me a long time ago.

I walked passed him so I was now facing the window and stared at the forest while I spoke up.

"You know, I was mad at you for taking THAT particular item from me" I told him angrily and heard him step a little closer.

"Isabella I never took that item from you. I thought it would be childish and stupid to remove all the memories of me. I wanted you to preserve a piece of me so hid the CD, plane tickets, and photos underneath your floorboard" he said despairingly.

I had to fight the urge to turn around and scold him as I just heard that he had tricked me, and obviously planned on me finding the items in a later stage of my life when I guess he hoped I would be happy. He must have hoped I would look back and smile. I didn't say anything. Edward broke the silence that had filled the room as my lullaby continued its beautiful song.

"Two years ago when we returned I went to your house to find it abandoned and nearly termite eaten when I went to your old room and found the things I left for you. I felt bad that you had never found them but I thought that at least I would have a picture of you and me together at a time when we both were happy, and in love so I decided to keep them. Now I think if you want anyway you can have them back, if you'd like" he whispered that last part with extreme pain. I could hear them collapsing and shattering; my barriers started to fail me. I turned around.

Edward's eyes were now just as sad as they were in the meadow earlier but not from me hurting him with cruel and expressionless countenances. But from I imagined the expression I now held on MY face. I was losing it. Everything I had attempted to build for myself emotionally over the past decades started to crack and my true feelings and needs were starting to break through. Just like a dam that was cracking and water escaping it, and trying to break free; that's just like how I felt now. My lips started to quiver and my hands followed with their own shaking movements. Edward was in pain to see me like this. Unlike me earlier on during the day he at least showed it.

"Please don't. I cannot bear to see you like this. I thought this might make you happier I didn't mean to hurt you with any of this I swear Isabella I rea…" and so the dam broke.

"OH SHUT UP AND CALL ME BELLA ALREADY EDWARD!" I shouted at his surprised expression and trapped his head with my arms and buried my face in his neck as all the tears I had forgotten over the years now all consumed me.

Edward was stunned at my act and was frozen for a second but when my sobs broke free he quickly embraced me and buried his own face in my hair. The relieve just washed over me as I took in his lilac scent and just like I wished earlier; now inhaled all I could while I continued to sob into his neck. I could hear him do the same as he rubbed my back in comfort. The water was unleashed from the dam and seemed that all the sobs and grieves I had to hide away for the past years and past hours were now all freed. I had imagined this moment for so long that this was still unbelievable to me. I still had my trust issues with him but that didn't matter right now, for all that mattered now was the undeniable bond that Edward and I shared. We could work on the trust later which I knew he would rekindle if it were the last thing for him to do. It felt so good to be in his embrace once more and every breath he exhaled over my hair and skin felt like a wind, a soothing wind; washing away all my sorrows. I could feel the dried out candle within me be relit by the flames of passion and love I felt for Edward, a candle that had gone out so long ago but was now searing away. I moved my head from his neck to his chest and laid my check against his silent heart. I moved my right hand now clenched in a fist to his chest next to my head, and started to hammer against him. I wanted him to know through this act of physical expression just how much I missed and loved him. After several times of pounding I finally relaxed and unclenched my fist and placed my hand against his shoulder while Edward just stood there and took it without complaint.

I continued to sob until the feeling in my legs gave out and I sunk to the floor taking Edward with me. I was on my knees while he now sat, and moved my body towards his and held me between his legs even closer to his chest. There was something that needed to be said.

"I'm sorry Edward, I'm so, so sorry for what I did to you in the meadow. I was just so scared and still am. I just don't want to get hurt again and I can't bear to see you leave me a second time. Please forgive me. You have to know that truly there was nothing more I wanted to do than encircle you with my arms and never led you go again. The last seventy years on this earth were a living hell. Not an hour went by without you crossing through my mind; you don't know how many times I wished on the stars above to see you again. Please understand that I have been alone for SIXTY SEVEN years, all alone, and all I ever wanted from this life was you! I never meant to hurt you. You have to understand that it was almost suicide to see you like that and I will never forgive myself for doing that to you. Just please Edward…please…" I don't know how many times my voice broke as I told him this as my uncontrollable sobbing continued.

"Shh Bella…it's alright love…it's alright. I'm here, and please don't apologize anymore, and please forgive yourself. For what I did to you so long ago I wouldn't have blamed you for tearing me to shreds and burning me to ash. It was my fault that you felt the need to go to our house that day, and my fault that you were condemened to this life, your loneliness is my fault love; if only I hadn't left you int the first place. I promise you Bella that you will never be alone again for I will never again leave your side. All that matters now is that you're here and I'm here, and that somehow we found each other once more. If that's not fate than I don't know what is, and I'm pleased to see the roles have been reversed. That it was Juliet and not Romeo that has returned to her lovers arms" he told me in a loving voice as my lullaby smoothened the atmosphere.

He really hadn't changed. Just like me, he would always take the blame for everything. I knew better, none of it was truly his fault. The choices I made were my own and not his. I was and am responsible for my own damnation. At that last statement from him I couldn't help but look up still crying, and watched his face which held a slight smile.

"You're silly you know that?" my voice broke twice.

Edward just smiled as he moved one of his still encircling arms up to my shoulder so he could stroke the side of my face with his fingers. I looked into his eyes and found them to be pure honey. He gazed into mine and flashed his teeth into a most dazzling smile for which up until now I only had blurry human memories of.

"Only as silly as you always were, and you know your new eyes do suit you a lot love; they are beautiful. Yet I know they are overshadowed by what I know you're hiding inside of your heart" he said and rested his forehead on mine.

I couldn't help but move my left hand from around his neck and started to caress his cheek. Edward in turn caressed mine even more and gentler. I opened my eyes to find his open also, and the moment I have been waiting for ever since I saw him again finally took place. I slowly and softly placed my lips against his.

My sobbing got even worse when the joy of finally kissing him again overpowered my mind. After so many years of only imagining this moment; I was so happy that it finally happened. It was a new sensation though; his usually cool and stone hard lips I remembered had turned warm and soft. They were so beautiful and so was he. My beautiful Edward, after all I had done to him today he still loved me so unconditionally. Loving this exquisite, beautiful, fascinating, and mystical creature was like breathing, loving Edward was a involuntary response for me. I opened my eyes when I heard a new but all too familiar sound. He started to sob as well, and I couldn't believe it. Edward moved both of his arms around my back freeing my cheek from his fingers and pressed me tight against his body so no air could possibly pass between us now. I followed his lead and moved my hand from his cheek and wove both of them around his head. My right hand found the back his neck where his hairline began as our lips continued to move in perfect synchronization, and ran it from the very bottom all the way through to the top. I started to draw circles with all my fingers on the surface of his head. Edward moaned and pressed me even tighter against him as both our sobs continued. Never again would he have to hold back because of his fear of breaking me. We were the same now, and never would he have to be afraid to kill me again. We would never have to gasp for air. This was the most blissful moment of my eighty five year old life.

There we sat for I don't know long sobbing into each other's faces as our kiss ended and he placed his forehead against mine. Right now would be the best time to tell him that I loved him but I grinned as a better thought entered my mind.

"You sick, masochistic lion" I cried and chuckled.

Edward couldn't help but laugh in between his own sobs and I knew what was coming next.

"You stupid lamb" he chuckled and we both had to laugh.

It was wonderful to get all of these things out in the open. All the chains that had wrapped themselves around our souls and bound us to this earth were now lifted, and I felt like that we could now soar together. All these forgotten tears, all the lost moments would now catch up to us and we would always be happy as long as we would have each other.

I placed my cheek back to his shoulder and was staring out the window now when I noticed it was raining heavily. I chuckled and Edward asked me what was so funny but I just shook my head.

He didn't know that it rained because I was crying.

To be continued…