A/N: Thanks for the reviews… Sorry about the delay in updating… This chapter will be short… But the next chapter is longer! Thankfully I have most of the chapters wrote ahead… LOL!
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After Tig left with Cassie to go see Katie, Jax turned back towards Steph and said "I'd like to see Crystal again please."
Steph looked at the man and saw how much he was hurting so she said "You can go back and see her. Just remember that even though she is in a coma she can still hear you."
Jax nodded and looked around the waiting room at those who were left and said "I want a little time with her alone so nobody else come back."
Everyone nodded and watched as Jax walked out of the room. They all hoped that him and Crystal would be alright.
Jax took in a deep breath before walking back into the ICU room where Crystal was. He couldn't stand to see her like that but yet he couldn't take his eyes off of her either. There was so much that he wanted to say but he just wasn't sure how to say it. He pulled a chair up beside her hospital bed and sat down in it before carefully taking one of her hands into his own.
"God Crystal I'm so sorry that I wasn't there to protect you. Instead of getting mad when you left like you did from the bar I should have jumped on my bike and followed you. Now because I didn't you are in a coma and they are not sure when you will wake up. I need you to wake up baby." Jax said in a whisper. He had to stop talking so that he could fight the tears that were threatening to fall. He didn't want to breakdown. He couldn't afford to breakdown. He had to be strong for Crystal.
He bent his head and kissed Crystal's hand. "There is so much that I need to say but I'm just not sure how to say it. Hell baby you know how I am with words. I've never been good at them. You need to get better baby. You have a lot of people who love you and need you. It also turns out you have a brother. Please baby just wake up. I can't do anything until I know you're going to be okay. When I find whoever did this they are dead. Nobody gets away with messing with SAMCRO and let's face it baby you're SAMCRO twice over."
Jax stopped talking again to draw in a breath so he could say the three words he needed to say the most. "I love you Crystal. I think I have always loved you. I was just too stupid to tell you. I was too much of a coward to tell you how I felt. I have been in love with you since high school. I just didn't know it back then. When you get better I'll prove to you how much I love you baby. I will make you see how much I love you and I'll never give you up. You're mine from now on."
Jax finally stopped talking and just sat there looking at Crystal. Every once in a while he would bend down to kiss her hand or even lean forward to kiss her head. He made a promise to himself that he would be there for her and that he would find who did this and make them pay.