"Someday, you'll find a person who thinks your eyes are beautiful..." I held my mother's hand until her last breath. A few moments later, it slipped away from my grasp, falling lightly on the crumpled sheets beside her body. Her cold, dying body.
I stared at her, scanning her face which I used to love so much. It was red, before. Now it was nothing but pale. Her eyes were shut tightly... I hoped for it to open, but it didn't. It never opened again.
I blinked my eyes a couple of times and realised what situation I am in right now.
Karkat removed his hands from Eridan's collar and spat. The other man simply backed off a little as he fixed his clothes.
My best friend grabbed me by the arm and, without looking at me, dragged my weak body along him.
We left Ampora alone. But it wasn't regretful. I was happy. I was very happy that I let a small smile creep on my lips.
"Hey, Kk." I started.
"We'll talk later." He continued walking rapidly. His hands were holding mine. They were warm... They almost reminded me of my mother's when she was still alive. She would usually hold me in her arms and give me kisses before sleeping. She would call me 'darling' instead of 'Sollux'. Her voice was gentle and respectful. Her face was a beauty.
No wonder my father fell in love.
The smile never left my face. I was amazed after thinking to myself how Karkat's words sounded like a confession. But I couldn't be more happier that the person I was looking for, the person I thought would never come, was just beside me all along.
I guess I should be more honest too...
We reached the apartment after a few more steps. Karkat opened the door and immediately settled on the couch. He signaled me to come near him with one hand. His face was calm. A rare sight. Often times, he would shout at me for getting myself and him in trouble. But now, it seemed like Karkat Vantas was calm as a river flowing peacefully. Or so I thought.
He gave me an airy punch on my stomach as soon as he was sure he's able to reach me. I shut my eyes tightly and wrapped my arms around my body.
"Ow! What was that for?"
Then it appeared. That agitated expression of his. His eyebrows were meeting and his glares were fierce.
"What were you doing with Ampora?!"
"He called me. He just wanted to talk.." I sat on the couch. "Hurtful talk, though."
"You are the most idiotic creature in existence!" He hugged his knees while maintaining distance from me.
"He asked his driver to pick me up. How do you expect me to reject? There's no way out."
"Dumbass. He could have killed you."
I scoffed at the idea. "I doubt it. He maybe some jealous guy, but he's pretty smart. For romantic reasons, killing is a bit too much, don't you think, Mister RomCom King?"
He gazed at me with half lidded eyes for a while before looking away again.
"Anyway... Thanks, Kk." It took a lot of manliness for me to say that and I expect a positive reply... which I actually did.
I noticed him twitch his lips and his face turn red.
"There's still much more to talk about, Sollux."
"What?"
Karkat moved closer to me and smacked me in the head. Geez, I am getting tired of this. But when I was about to protest, he covered my mouth with his hands and intently stared at me.
"Gamzee told me..." his eyebrows were mashed against each other again. "That you told him I'm a fucking weakling... or something like that."
I grabbed his hands and moved them away from my mouth. "That's what I thought before cause you punch like a pussy and you always cry like a baby." He cut me off again.
"I AM NOT!"
"I know. You're stronger than I thought. I'm sorry."
"I punch harder than you do!"
"Is that why you punched him?" I smirked. "To prove it?"
"Hell no. Well, yeah. Sorta. But it's mainly because he annoyed me." Karkat groaned and rested his head on my shoulder. "I don't like it."
"You don't like what?"
"People... calling your eyes ugly." He clenched his fist on my shirt. "They really are beautiful... you're just ugly."
"Get the fuck off me, Kk." I pushed him lightly only to be greeted by a grinning face. "What do you want?"
He trapped me by placing both arms beside my body. I was under him, a scene I would not like to be in. "I really hate you, you stupid motherfucker."
"Shut up. I know everyone hates me." I was aching. Aching to flip our position and give this man a good teasing.
"Stop being a drama queen, Sollux. You know my hate is different."
"Oh, then what kind of hate would that be, Vantas?" I smirked. "Is it sexual tension?"
He rolled his eyes. "Shut your ass. It's not that."
Of course, I realised what he meant. I haven't given him a proper apology yet... But before I even open my mouth, the door creaked.
I raised my upper body, making Karkat cling to my shoulders.
We were recognized by a Tavros Nitram with searching eyes. He dropped his jaw the same time he dropped his luggage.
It would have appeared naturally if I didn't have a man I just fought with, before Tav left, slightly on top of me. Indeed, it looked awkward. I knew Karkat felt it too... the embarrassment.
"Wow guys. Wow." Without any other words, he ran up to his room.
I gazed back at Karkat... I was supposed to talk about what just happened but he suddenly pushed me again and licked his upper lips.
"Back to business, Captor."
"God, Kk. Are you trying to woo me?" I brushed my fingers through my hair and closed my eyes.
"Who knows?" he purred, moving his head near my ears.
"You had too much romcoms. Go to sleep, you have classes tomorrow."
He punched the space beside me. I freaked out a little, forcing a small laugh. "Okay, I get it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the hurtful words I've thrown at you."
Karkat moved away. He sat ordinarily and placed his chin on his palm. "Yeah. I'm sorry too."
"What for?"
"I should have not touched your stinking love life."
"What love life?" I grinned. "I never was in love with Feferi. I guess I was just longing for a lover. But I realised my feelings for her wasn't that serious." I shrugged and rested my back on the couch.
"Wow. You're really a messed up jerk."
I dragged my body closer to him. "Hey..." I asked with my head tilted slightly to the side and my fingers tapping on the space around me. "Do you like someone?"
His eyes widened and red was scattered all over him.
But the answer I was expecting never came.
"No, not really."
Instead of forcing him, I smiled at myself and let out a long sigh.
I don't want to think that he likes me. I don't want to hope because I'm afraid I might regret it soon.
"It's a little late. I'm going upstairs." He stood up without saying anything. I followed him with my gaze until he completely vanished from my sight.
I sat there alone... but it's not the kind of isolation I felt before.
I know someone's waiting for me tomorrow... and the next day, and the next day after that...
I don't want to ruin our friendship again.
...
The bright rays that hit me woke me up from my deep slumber. I looked at the clock and had a little heart attack after seeing that it's almost nine am.
I rushed upstairs and opened the door only to see no one there. I did notice a note, though.
"I WOKE UP EARLY!"
That's all that was written and judging by the penmanship, I knew it was Karkat's. I chuckled because I can almost picture him being so childish over such a small thing.
I sat on my bed and opened my laptop. I was instantly bugged by my pesterchum. Seriously, it's too early for whoever this is, but I answered anyway, seeing that it's only Terezi.
gallowsCalibrator [GC] began pestering twinArmageddons [TA]
GC: H3Y! :]
GC: WH3N 4R3 YOU GONN4 GO B4CK TO WORK, YOU LAZY P13C3 OF 4SS?
GC: H3333Y!
GC: SOLLUUUUX!
GC: 2OLLUX!
GC: TA!
TA: Whoa. What?
TA: II'm not 2ure, but II've almo2t recovered.
GC: TH4T'S CH34T1NG. 1 H4D TO D34L W1TH SH1TTY CUSTOM3RS, YOU KNOW?
TA: Hahahaha. 2orry.
GC: WH4T'S TH3 L4UGH FOR?
TA: nothiing.
TA: nevermiind.
GC: OOPS. GOTTA GO. BR34KS OV3R.
GC: BY3!
gallowsCalibrator [GC] ceased pestering twinArmageddons [TA]
terminallyCapricious [TC] began pestering twinArmageddons [TA]
TC: HeY mAn. HoW's It GoInG, mOtHeRfUcK?
TA: Everythiing'2 okay now.
TA: Yeah.
TA: Thank you Gamzee.
TC: MiRaClEs MaAaAaAn.
TC: :o)
TC: So HaVe YoU KiSsEd... Or ToUcHeD hIm?
TA: what? What the fuck?
TA: no.
TA: why would II?
TC: I'vE rEaD a LoT oF sToRiEs LiKe ThAt.
TC: ThEy WoUlD AlWaYs HaVe SoMe MoThErFuCkInG sEx
TC: AfTeR aPoLoGiSiNg To EaCh OtHeR.
TA: lol. no way.
TA: II re2pect KK.
TC: MoThErFuUuUcKkK. tHaT sOuNdEd LiKe YoU wAnTeD
TC: BuT yOu JuSt CaN't.
TA: ...
TA: 2hut up.
TC: :o)
TC: HoNk. :o)
TC: YoU kNoW
TC: YoU wAnt KaRkAt AnD hIs BoDy.
twinArmageddons [TA] logged out because he is fucking annoyed or probably going to masturbate about Karkat. Again.
I leaned on the wall beside my bed and gazed outside as I parted the curtains from each other.
"Do I want Karkat?" I narrowed my eyes. "I know I have a habit of staring at him... but I never thought of anything like that." I murmured to myself.
My mind went further.
Karkat holds a special place in my heart, but it never reached the point where I'd think of fucking him in this bed. Making him scream. Making him claw my back in pleasure...
It never crossed my mind.
Yes, I almost jacked myself off just by imagining his image... but it wasn't that image.
Goddamn you, Makara.
I have actually never touched a man. The thing between us and Gamzee? What was the thing that happened on that one day?
We did nothing but pull pranks and shit.
Screw you for thinking we had sex.
I'm also scared. My mood flips even during sex. I don't know what'll I do if I ended up hurting Karkat.
I scratched my head and furrowed my brows. Why am I even thinking of this?
Stupid, Sollux. This is stupid.
I rested my head on the wall and enjoyed the silence. I filled my mind with other things instead of getting a hard-on because the image if my best friend. Again.
The silence was immediately broken by the sudden slamming of the door. I turned my head and saw Karkat standing by the door. His brows were crumpled and teeth were gritted.
"You're home seven hours early"
"Fuck." He answered in a frustrated voice.
"What happened?"
He threw his jacket, along with his bag, not caring where it land, before sinking half his body in the bed and spreading his arms. His feet kept on stomping on the floor. "Damn it. They didn't even bother telling me that we don't have classes today!" He stood up. "FUCK!"
I laughed at his misery. "I thought I care, but then I don't, Kk."
"Fuck you too."
"No I will fuck you."
I bit my lips. This is the second time I said something terrible aloud. Oh my god.
Hey guys. Sorry for the slow update and for this short chapter.
And yeah. I'm kinda busy, I mean really busy, so I might not be able to upload the next chapter tomorrow.
edit: I am sorry omg. I have a shit load of school works and it's almost over. I can finally upload... Maybe this week.