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"I am small and the world is big
All around me is fast moving
Surrounded by so many things
But suddenly, suddenly

How does it feel, to be different from me?
Are we the same?
How does it feel, to be different from me?
Are we the same?
How does it feel?"

How does it feel by Avril Lavigne

EPOV

"You'll be back tonight?" asked Charlie.

"Yeah it's been a while since I last saw my parents so I thought I would go for a visit unless you want me to go home?"

I didn't really want to go back I wasn't done here I had things that needed to be dug up but first there were some things that needed to be cleared back home.

"Nonsense your welcome here for as long as you'd like."

He smiled a little too much at me, I knew why he wanted me here. What he wanted was to delay my father attacking and he knew my father would never attack as long as I was here.

"Thanks, I'd better be off. Tell your wife and daughter I said goodbye."

I got into the carriage that had just pulled up; my father's guards were surrounding the outside. Great back to confinement.

BPOV

"He's gone Isabella," called my father.

"Who's gone I was sleeping, well trying to."

I felt my bed dunk down from dad's weight, "He's gone home."

I jerked up fast, "For good?"

"Easy Bella only for a day."

"What am I meant to do today?" I yawned before stretching my limbs out; I felt a nice pull in my back.

"You have the day off."

"Serious."

"Seriously go do something."

Dad got up and left my room quietly, I was alone.

Great I was with a free day and no one was here. I'll go see Alice I haven't seen her since that awful dinner thing. It had been too long. I laughed before stumbling out of my bed and heading off to get changed.

I ran down to my dad's office and peaked around the door, "Dad I'm going to see Alice."

"Sure thing just tell your mom for me I'm busy with letters."

I heard mum speaking quietly, "I heard you already have fun."

I smiled, "Sure thing mom."

"Bye."

"Bye," they both called.

I called up for a carriage and waited for it to show up. I found myself pacing up and down twisting my hair with my fingers as I waited. Edward must have gone home from missing his parents although from the questions he had asked me it made me wonder is he had other intentions. Was he really going to take this further, although it was a good thing now that he was looking into the past he wouldn't stir things up with me about hiding the wolves.

"Lady Swan your carriage," said a voice.

I looked up, "Thanks Geoff."

I had made it a personal thing to know all my parents servants names, I felt the need to show them respect they do all the hard work.

I got in and waited for the long journey to end, the carriage was shaking roughly, often quickly looking out the window to see how much more of the journey was left. I caught sight of something familiar, and then I saw the broken trees of the clearing coming up. I started breathing unnecessarily fast; I grasped hold of the seat and held it tight. My head began to burn slightly what was happening to me.

I felt my eyes roll like I was about to fall asleep it all went black…

When I woke up I was no longer inside my carriage instead I was lying down in the clearing once again. I sat up slowly and looked around me, I smelt him before I saw him. Wet dog.

"Where not dead, and were coming for you."

I started to scramble backwards once again my instincts and training failed me. I was useless.

"Don't forget to tell you daddy, Isabella."

"Nooooooooo," I cried.

I felt my body jolt as I sat back up again in carriage hitting my head on the roof.

"Miss Swan are you alright," called one of my guards.

"I'm fine," I quickly called back. "How long left?"

"Where here."

I looked out the window, and like he said we where. I guess my supposed encounter just a flashback.

"Just drop me here I need some air and time to think. When you get to the house tell Alice I am in our spot. She'll know where to find me."

The carriage stopped, " Yes miss."

I opened the door quickly, jumped out, slammed the door and walked off. I took the air deep into my body with every breath I took, why had I not reacted that way when I went to check on my own last time. I hadn't been alone there; Edward had been hiding in the trees. Why is it I was so scared now but not then?

"Bella you're here," called Alice. She took one look at me and pulled me over to the shade of a tree and sat me down.

"Bella what's wrong?"

I smiled, "Absolutely nothing."

She tapped my shoulder lightly, " I'm your best friend I know when something's up so tell me."

I wasn't going to lie but I wasn't going to tell the truth. I would tell some kind of truth, "Its just Edward him being in my house is just causing a lot of tension."

"He's still there?"

"Yeah."

"Tell Charlie how you feel."

"I can't just make Edward leave and besides it doesn't matter how I feel. As long as Edward's here it stops the attacks, they won't attack as long as Edward in my home."

"Is that all that's bugging you, you look a bit edgy?"

"Yeah I'm fine else where."

"Great, so what's Edward doing to get under your skin?"

"It's just everything he does."

"You know most people would say that makes you the perfect match, being the exact opposites and hating one another but in your case I'd say no."

"Where not exact opposites, generally we were raised the same and have practically identical lives. The only difference is he's a boy and I'm a girl."

"So you're defending a Cullen now?"

"No I'm just saying he's practically my twin in life."

"You can't be his friend Bella," Alice looked me seriously in my eyes.

I laughed, "I'm not looking to be his friend Alice."

"What are you looking for with him Bella?"

"Nothing."

I got up and started walking slowly, Alice got up and walked in time with me.

"He's different to you and me."

"What does that mean?"

"He's bad."

"How do you know that?" I yelled.

She looked at me shocked, "He's a Cullen, there all bad."

Her face looked hurt like she was about to cry. " I'm sorry Alice, I'm just on the edge."

"I can tell, don't let Edward get to you."

"He's a vampire Alice."

"Hurh?"

"My response to you, he's a vampire."

"What's your point?"

"He's the same as you and me, it's just he has parents are on a side my parents are fighting against."

"Bella?"

"This is about power, they're fighting only for power."

"Freedom we fight for freedom."

"I'm sick of this," I felt a rip as my hand burst through the tree trunk I was standing next.

Alice grabbed hold of me and held me tightly to her, "Bella let me help you."

I pushed her away, "I should not have come I'm sorry Alice. I'll see you around."

I took off full speed ahead running into the forest, branches whipped at me and I still continued running.

I wanted everything back to normal, I could feel myself breaking.

Why was it Edward was making me question everything my parents had ever told me?

EPOV

"Thanks Mom," I kissed her cheek lightly before grabbing hold of my horse. I was glad to be taking him back to Bella's I could get some riding done, I'd sent the carriage back already.

"Your welcome I know your old enough now to understand."

"At least you do."

"He'll come around eventually."

"Love you."

"Love you too.

I rode of looking back constantly at my mother who was standing there watching me go, she had told me so much. It was flooding my mind with doubts but really should I doubt the truth. Bella's parents and mine had been best friends; they'd betrayed one another over jealousy. I suddenly didn't feel like fighting anymore. I had imagined my life if our parents had remained friends, Bella and I would probably have played together as children, she could have been my best friend, she could have been my girlfriend, she could have been my wif-.

"Nooooo," I pulled the horse sharply to a halt.

Shame on me for thinking these thoughts she was the enemy, I would knock this from my mind once and for all. So what if they had been friend's back then they were not now. I was going to follow my head not my heart, I don't even have a heart I'm dead. I was born dead.

I was going to starve myself, so long as I thought about Bella this way I would not touch a single drop of blood. My father had taught me to think only of Bella as my enemy. I was no longer going to dwell of this; the task I had set out for was to find out what Bella was hiding. I had forgotten it so easily. I had felt bad for using Bella but it was necessary.

I heard a loud growl and a thump coming from the distance. I got off my horse and left him by a tree, I slowly crept around the corner.

I blinked a couple times to check I was seeing correctly, there in the clearing was Isabella sprawled across the ground in a pool of what appeared to blood. Standing above her was a man I kept hidden; I wanted to see what the hell was going on before I got in the middle of it. There was a fowl smell lingering in the air.

"Drink it"! yelled the man.

"No," Isabella cried back.

If I had a heart it would break at the sight, even if she was my enemy he was cruel to do this to her.

"Drink it blood sucker."

She sat up, "No."

He grabbed her by the hair and rubbed his arm across her face. Blood smeared over her mouth. She spat it out.

"You knew I'd come back for you if you came here again alone so why are you here."

"I'm going home."

The smell of his blood was fowl, it smelt wrong. Why was that his blood was supposed to smell tempting to us.

"Have you told daddy about me yet?"

"Nope."

This was the man who had attacked her; he was the reason I was here. What I did not get was why did she not fight back? She had the skill to.

"Why not I may have to make our presence known for us instead since your no help."

"You leave my family alone," she spat at him.

He slapped her straight back across the face, "Show some respect I've been here much longer than you have."

"I'd never respect a dog!"

Dog? What was she on about?

"I'll pretend you didn't say that."

"What dog? You are a dog, the whole lot of your kind are dogs."

The man swung his arm around and pushed it directly into her side. She flung straight into a tree. It came down on top of her. She slowly crawled out from under it before getting to her feet before facing the man, "I'm a vampire remember I can take as much pain as you can dish."

"True but one thing I know you fear is…."

He pulled out a lighter my vision went red.

"Why don't you fight me instead?"

Did I just say that?

The man laughed, "Edward Cullen what a surprise. Especially since your enemy is the one you're so keen to defend. In fact I'll even give you the lighter lets burn her up to ashes."

I watched Isabella's face, it was full of fear but not for herself. She was pleading at me with her eyes to go, to leave her.

"If I'm going to kill her it will be done the way I want."

"In other words your infatuated with your enemy. Pathetic."

"Shut up, there is no way I could ever love her."

"I used the word infatuated not love that came from your own mouth."

"Shut up, now fight me instead."

"No thanks, I'm only here for Bella. She's really fun to mess with."

The man turned before running off into the trees. I wanted to pursue him but I knew Isabella needed help. Charlie would hear about this one way or another and it would look good. At least that's what I had convinced myself as my reason for helping her.

I ran over to Isabella's side, "Isabella are you ok?"

Instead of saying fine thanks for saving my life I got, "What the hell are you doing here?"

"Saving your butt is what I'm doing."

"I don't need saving."

"Sure you don't. So tell me who was the oh so nice man?"

"No one forget you ever saw this in fact it's a dream."

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