Chapter 10
Jake tosses a towel at me that I catch with ease drying off my now soaking body. I rub the fluffy cotton towel along my skin catching the water trickling down my body to the floor.
" Where did everyone else go?" I ask Quil as he, Embry and Paul walk up to us
" The love birds went home" Quil says with a snicker
" Hey don't pretend like you're not jealous" I tease earning me a chuckle from Embry
" Whatever" He chuckles shaking his head " Why would I be jealous when I get to flirt with as many girls as I want?"
" So true" Embry grin high fiving Quil
" Hey I'm going over to Jared's with Quill" Paul informs me
" You were my ride" I whine " I see how it is your little buddies are more important than your baby sister"
" I'll take you home" Jake offers with a smile
" It's settled then bye," Paul says with a cheery smile before leaving.
" We better get home see you guys later" Collin says with a smile and the next thing I know Jake and I are driving home as well. I turn the radio on and of course it's on commercial. I groan in distress, hey it was a little dramatic but what fun was being normal.
" You know I really hate commercials" I pout as we pull into my driveway
" I know you do" He chuckles as I get out of the car
" You can stay if you want' I shrug " We can study for the chemistry test" I smile lightly, that was our one class together and unfortunately it wasn't easy. Jake always made studying a lot more fun.
" Sure" He smiles turning off the engine as I walk into the house tossing my towel onto the bench. " I'm going to take a shower you know where the food is" I chuckle walking upstairs. Once I'm showered and dressed I walk back downstairs in my yoga pants and tank top to find Jake on the couch watching t.v.
" I thought we were doing homework" I scold him sitting down at the table
" Yes mother" He teases taking a seat across from me what a piece of work he was. I chuckle getting to work on my things.
A few hours later Jake and I sit on the couch after a long time of studying… well not really. First we tried to study, Jake got hungry made some food, made a mess in the kitchen, I cleaned it up and we tried to study again. Then Jake got hungry again and I made food and then we pretty much gave up and decided to watch t.v. I leaned against him as he sat on the corner of the couch. His warmth encased me in a blanket as I tried to focus on the t.v.
" Ugh could you be any heavier?" Jake teases. Most girls would probably throw a tantrum, or beat the shit out of him, but I just chuckled
" Hey man no need to be hurtful" I frown pretending to be mad but the great actress I was started cracking up
" Awh I'm sorry" He says shifting under me. I grab a pillow from behind me hitting him in the face " Excuse you" He chuckles grabbing a pillow I squeal moving away from him bracing myself for the impact
" What do you say?" He grins teasing me moving me farther and farther down on the couch until I'm flat on my back. I keep my mouth shut and open my eyes to see that he's barely a couple inches from my face. I could feel the heat of his breath on my face.
" Jake" I warn my voice barley above a whisper. My heart was beating rapidly now against my chest. I could barely fathom what was happening around me, all I could focus on was him. His arms flexing holding himself above me. His chocolate brown eyes, his short , yet messy brown hair.
" I'm sorry" He responds still not moving, I could feel his warm breath against my lips and I wanted nothing more to feel his lips against mine " You have the most beautiful eyes" He whispers sending a warm tingling sensation down my body. I bite my lip nervously, here goes nothing. I was shaking, I was so nervous I was shaking.
" Kiss me" I whisper, his eyes show surprise but want, lust and before I know it my lips are moving smoothly against his as I manage to sit up. He tucks a strand of my raven hair behind my ear sending a pleasant shiver down my spine. This was what happiness felt like and I was enjoying every moment of it. Our lips remained glued together except for the few moments when we broke for air. I couldn't help but think he was mine. I run my tongue along his bottom lip he pulls me closer so I'm practically in his lap, which is when I realize something pull back, or fall back off the couch with a thud.
" You okay?" He asks helping me up " I'm sorry if that was too fast, we can slow down" He says giving me a worried look. It wasn't that, hell I was the one advancing on him. I wasn't his imprint and I couldn't take this stupid risk again I couldn't put my heart out there again only to get it crushed. " What's wrong?" He asks scanning my face gently cupping my face with his hands.
" I can't do this again" I whimper forcing myself to meet his eyes
" Do what?" He ask slipping a hand under my chin gently tipping it up so our eyes meet. There it was again, that pull I always feel when he looks at me like that, I felt like he was mine, I wanted him to be mine, but he wasn't he was some other girls.
" We were not meant to be together" I insist biting down on my lip.
" Says who?" He questions clearly not getting it
" Apparently the universe or maybe it's your wolf genes" I sigh leaning back against the couch
" Kayla" He sighs finally getting what I'm talking about " I've loved you since we were ten" He chuckles running a hand through his short hair " Nothing is going to change the way I feel about you" He says looking into my eyes seriously " Are you really that afraid to take that risk with me?" He asks
" Jake" I plead with him " I'm afraid to get hurt again" I feel my eyes water up but I refuse to cry " How do you not understand" I clench my fists getting frustrated " Seth left me for my best friend, and I don't really understand it still"
" I promise I will never hurt you" He says gently placing his hand on top of mine
" That's what Seth said" I mutter a bit bitterly
" Do you still love him?" He asks suddenly
" What?" I ask looking back up at him
" Do you still love him?" He repeats. I let out a deep sigh
" No" I shrug, I thought I would never get over him, but it had only been a couple of days and it was over
" Do you love me?" He asks very seriously
" I" I stutter thinking for a moment " Jake you know I love you" I smile lightly, he looks at me as if I've taken a billion weights off his shoulders " But I'm not ready to do this" I sigh standing up from my place on the couch " I'm sorry" I whisper softly before leaving him in my living room while I head upstairs the tears finally rolling over the barrier of my eyes onto my cheeks, soaking my cheeks and rolling down to my shirt.
I wake up practically dripping with sweat and a stuffy nose. Without doubt a fever and the beginnings of a cold, great. I glance over at my nightstand's clock, it was seven I groan not feeling like moving much less going to school. The door opens as Paul comes bursting in gobbling down what looks like a loaf of bread.
" Morning" He grins
" Hey I'm not feeling that well" I yawn sitting up in bed as Paul comes over feeling my forehead.
" Shit you're hotter than I am" He says reaching for the phone " I'm calling sue" He says urgently. I chuckle
" Paul I'm fine" I insists but he already has Sue on the phone. It was funny how protective Paul could be. I loved him more than anything, and he always took care of me when my parents weren't here to.
" she'll be over soon" He smiles finishing the rest of my bread " I'll call in your sickness get rest!" He calls out closing the door behind him. " No Jake she's sick let her rest!" I hear Paul outside I chuckle grabbing my earphones and turning it on blasting "We found love" By Rihanna. I grab my scrapbook from my book shelf and begin to flip through the pages. I chuckle running my fingers over a picture of Jake and I when we were probably no older than five. I was such a cute kid. The next was a picture of Paul and I when we were little playing in the mud. I let out a sigh when the next picture comes, it's the only picture I have of my mother. She was shorter, probably 5'2, she had dark hair like mine, but unlike me she kept it short. Her figure was curvy but very petite, almost fragile. Her eyes were a sea green just like mine and she had cute freckles all over her face. I'm drawn out of my trance by a knock on the door.
" Come in!" I call setting my book down
" Hey sweetie" Sue comes in grinning " Paul just left for school with Jake" She sits at the edge of my bed pulling out all sorts of things from her bag. She sticks a thermometer into my mouth. " It's good to see you" She smiles " It seems as if we haven't seen each other in a while" I nod, the thermometer making it impossible to talk. Sue takes it out when it beeps. " You have a 102 temperature" She says feeling around my glands. " Just take some Advil or something and get rest" She smiles standing up
" Thanks so much sue" I smile getting a bottle of Motrin and swallowing a pill
" Sure" She smiles heading to the door " Oh I wanted to ask you about Sarah" She says stopping at the door " What's your take on her?" She asks. I take a deep breath before answering
" She's sweet" I shrug " I love her but she can get around a bit" I sigh " But I think she'll be fine with Seth" I smile lightly. Sue nods
" Thanks" Sue replies before leaving. I let out a deep sigh before sliding down into bed and closing my eyes. What was going on with Jake? Even if I didn't admit it I still had feelings for Seth. And even if I didn't admit it I wanted Jake more than I had ever wanted something. I loved him, he was my best friend and yet I felt like we were more even if I didn't' have the title of "imprint". I would be with him by now if I wasn't afraid of getting hurt again. Seth ripped my heart apart, I couldn't risk that again. Was I even over Seth? A part of me always belonged to Jacob, ever since we were young. Would it be worth it, even if I was with him for only a day, he would be all mine.
I hear a knock on the door as my eyes flutter open. I rub my eyes as the world comes into focus.
" Come in" I call before yawning and sitting up in bed. Jake pokes his head in the door before coming in with a package.
" Brought you soup" He says with a smile as he hands me the package and sits at the edge of the bed.
" Thanks" I grin eagerly snatching the bag from his hands and opening it, taking the contents out.
" How you feeling?" He asks
" Fine with the Motrin" I smile taking a sip of the soup, yum chicken noodle my favorite
" Good" He says shifting uncomfortably " So about last night" He sighs " I'm really sorry it was my fault I let myself get carried away" He rambles on " And I should've known you weren't ready for that, and I'm sorry" He finishes looking to me. I sigh setting my soup on my side table temporarily.
" Jake I don't blame you" I smile weakly " I was just as much into that as you were" I assure him as he looks up with hopeful eyes " And even if it means getting hurt I want to be with you" I say with more confidence " But I want to take it slow" I warn as he breaks into a huge smile.
"Are you sure about this?" He asks. I nod in return not backing out on my decision " It'll be whatever you want" He smiles as the door opens
" Alright out Jake she needs sleep" Paul says with a stern look on his face. I laugh
" Oh stop it Paul I'm fine" I insist but he shakes his head
" I'll call you" Jake promises before getting off my bead, I instantly feel emptiness, like part of me is leaving with him.
" Thanks for the food" I smile as he slips from my room with a smile. I let out a reluctant sigh as I pick my soup back up feeling a heavy weight release from me. I had just told him I wanted to be with him, was his reaction good or bad? I honestly had no idea, I sigh lightly. I was so afraid of getting hurt again but I realized last night that I was willing to take that risk just to be with him for even a couple of hours. I felt this connection to him that I couldn't understand nor explain and most of me hoped he'd never imprint. I catch myself grinning as I pick up my phone and skim over the messages. One from Sarah which I ignored, one from Paul, and one an unknown number.
Unknown number: Hey Mikayla, it's Bella Jake gave me your number, I was wondering if you wanted to have lunch some time?
Me: Hey bella that sounds great but I'm kinda sick so maybe sometime next week?
Bella: Yeah sounds great how about Tuesday?
Me: Sure see you then!
Bella: Great then I'll text you tomorrow with more details!
I smile setting my phone on my bedside table. I was glad I was having lunch with Bella, she seemed nice and I really needed a girl I could talk to. After Sarah, I didn't really have that many good friends so it was nice to have someone.
It was Sunday evening and tonight was Jared's party. I was with Kim setting up and Emily would be by later. Unfortunately Jake and I haven't talked much face to face since I told him I wanted to be with him on Friday since Paul wouldn't let anyone talk to me for more than ten minuets. Who knew Paul could be so overprotective? Sue dropped by yesterday and I had practically healed; Sue said it probably had something to do with my wolf genes. As for Jake pretty much my every thought, the way he looked at me, held me, kissed me.
" Do you think everything's okay?" Kim asks nervously breaking me from my thoughts. I chuckle looking around, Kim had really outdone herself. She hired a DJ and turned her house into the ultimate party house. She had taken liberty upon herself to get as much booze as possible, Food was spread out everywhere, outside there were lights that we strung, a dance floor, and plenty of seating.
" Kim it's perfect" I assure her with a smile
" I need to make sure everything is perfect for Jared" She says glancing around " Okay I think everything's good" She says with a grin " Now we have to get ready" She says a giddy smile on her face as she grabs my arm dragging me upstairs " You brought your stuff right?" She asks as we walk into her room. Every time I walked into this room it took my breath away. It was huge for one thing, and her parents were interior designers so it was decked out with everything possible. A huge flat screen, built in speakers, a huge queen sized bed, a couch and seating area, a walk in closet and the bathroom don't get me started. There was a huge tub with spa jets, next to that was a shower, a make-up/vanity area, and another t.v.
" Yup I brought it" I smile as she walks into her closet as I sit on her bed next to the bag I brought filled with all the things I needed for tonight.
" What do you think about this outfit?" She asks holding out a navy blue sparkly mini dress that had patches cut out right below the bust and black strappy heels.
" It's nice" I smile " Jared will love it" I wink playfully
" He won't be able to keep his hands off me" She chuckles " And what are you wearing?" She asks curiously. I reach into my bag pulling my outfit out. I had decided to go a little more conservative considering the happenings at the last party. I decided on a black dress, it had one sleeve that was a kimono style sleeve and was silted on the side with pieces of the sheer fabric holding it together. It hugged my waist where a triangle of Swarovski crystals were and it flowed to a little lower than mid-thigh. I paired it with a silver cuff bracelet, little blue earrings, and black peep toed heels with a crystal-embellished heel.
" That's perfect, you're going to look so hot in that" She says with a playful wink. I chuckle as she goes into the closet as we both change. I look at myself in the mirror before smiling and joining Kim in the bathroom.
" Do my make-up?" I ask. She nods with a grin
" Of course" She says giddily gathering various make-up essentials. That was one thing I had no experience in, make-up. Growing up without a mother it was all trial and error and it usually came out looking like crap. Kim however was an expert with make-up, I think she wants to maybe be a make-up artist one day. We worked well together like that, She did the make-up I approved outfits.
" So what's going on with you and Jake?" She asks as she brushes my face with a light powder
" I don't really know" I shrug
" Really cause I heard you two got together" She says with an almost devilish grin
" I just don't want to do this whole Seth and imprint crap again" I say letting out a sigh as I close my eyes as Kim spreads something over my eyelids. Kim doesn't say anything but I swore I heard her say something along the lines of " that boy has some explaining to do"
" He loves you too much" She chuckles dusting something onto my eyelids
" He does not love me" I insists stubbornly
" You would have to be blind not to see the way he's looked at you all these years" Kim says as I open my eyes seeing here face light up as she gives me a thumbs up and selects a lipstick " Even when you were with Seth" She shrugs putting a red color onto my lips " I would say he's been in love with you for quite some time" She says holding up a mirror for me to look. When I looked in the mirror I was astonished. There was a very light blush on my high cheek bones, black eyeliner lined my eyelid, there was a Smokey eye going on with the fading black, my lips were a deep red and if I may say so myself I looked good.
" Like it?" She asks
" Kim what would I do without you" I chuckle, she takes it a yes and claps her hands together
" Good you look fantastic" She exclaims. I smile and couldn't help but think tonight was going to be good.
A/N Hey everyone, thanks so much for staying with me during this story. I honestly have no idea how many people are reading this, but I continue to write for those people and for myself. I'm sorry for the errors in the last chapter I'm trying to fix those but I've been swamped with work and school, thanks for your patience, hope you liked this chapter. Feedback is always welcomed! For all those Mortal Instruments readers or anyone who's interested I have a new Fanfiction called "sing me the song of my heart" please check it out. Thanks a bunch!