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Title : Broken Strings
Genre : Drama, Romance.
Disclaimer : I don't own the characters unfortunately. They are the property of HBO and Charlaine Harris ! I only own my OCs, Elizabeth Adams and Alan Cooper.
Chapter 10 : Love Will Find A Way
Silence, there was a long and painful silence between Godric and I. I just wanted him to say something, anything. Well, maybe not anything but I just wanted to hear his voice. And I still hoped that he would say he loved me.
Perhaps that was too much to ask.
" Aren't you going to say something ? " I asked, breaking this deathly hush. I nervously ran a hand through my hair, hoping that it would calm me.
" What do you want me to say Elizabeth ? "
He came here to talk and he wasn't saying anything, was he kidding me ? It was incredible, why was he doing this ? This was pointless.
I could feel myself losing control. I was furious, I just couldn't understand why he was doing this. He was hurting me by staying silent. It was killing me and I was wondering if it was killing him too? Perhaps he was uncomfortable, perhaps he was afraid to talk, perhaps he didn't know what to say. Perhaps he was afraid of getting hurt again.
He had been a mess while I was gone and he probably didn't want to feel that way again. I could perfectly understand him and I honestly didn't want to feel so low again. That was why I came back here.
" Do you still love me ? " I finally asked as much as it hurt to do so. What if he said he didn't love me ?
Then, I think it would really kill me and I would leave immediately. And I would forever regret my decision to leave him when he decided to let Russell alive. At the time, even if it was hard, even if it would have taken time to heal, we were together, in love and happy. We could have had it all if I had just decided to stay.
Now, our love was only a ruin… We could have been so happy, so perfect together but now it was just a tragedy. Our story, our love were a tragedy. that was pathetic…
Were we already at the point of no return ? Was it already to late for us ?
" I still love you. "
I closed my eyes in relief and I felt lighter, happier. I swore I could have cried because of how happy I was at this very moment. There was still hope because he loved me.
Perhaps we could work this out.
" But I can't forget what happened, Elizabeth. You don't know what you put me through during your absence. "
" I'm not asking you to forget, Godric. I'm just here because I want to make things right. I want to be with you. "
He was everything I wanted, he was the only one who could make me feel that way, he was the only one who could make me feel so complete. Not even Alan made me feel that way, even if he was my child. I loved him but I loved Godric more I guess. Or at least, it was very different.
" I wish it was that easy but you hurt me. I'm not ready to start all over again, I don't want you to leave me again. " He said and made his way towards the bed. He sat up and I guess he was waiting for me to join him, which I did.
I wasn't going to make him wait, I didn't want to waste a second. Even if what he was saying was hard to hear, I knew I had to listen but I knew I could make things right. I had changed and Godric had to understand that I wasn't going to hurt him again, that I wasn't going to leave him again. I wasn't even thinking about that, I knew that I wouldn't survive without him… That was fucking lame and cheesy but I guess that love was turning me into a lovesick vampire.
" I've been through hell, Elizabeth. I thought you would never come back to me and at some point I even thought about meeting the sun again but Eric was here. "
I felt guilty, terribly guilty. What if he had met the sun ? Eric would have surely hunted me down and killed me. I would have been the one to blame and perhaps Eric wouldn't have had to kill me. I would have done something…
Well, at least Godric didn't do it and I could only thank God for that. I didn't need to torture myself because of that. It was all in the past and Godric was here with me.
I couldn't help myself and grabbed his hand, lacing our fingers, hoping that Godric wasn't going to reject me. I would have held my breath if I was human, of course. Surprisingly, Godric tightened his hand on mine. I wanted to smile, I wanted to kiss him, to love him but I restrained myself. I needed to listen to him first. And I didn't want to rush things. So wrong, I wanted to rush things because I wanted him right here and right now but that would only fuck up everything.
I needed to control myself and we needed time, otherwise we could have already been together last night.
"Then, I was resigned and I was starting to think that you would never come back. "He stared at me, and I felt like a little girl under his gaze. "That was when you decided to come back. You were finally back and I didn't know how to react. I was happy, so happy but you broke me. And then I met your progeny, it was too much. "
Alan… I knew it was going to be hard for Godric but he now seemed to understand. Perhaps Alan had something to do with this. My progeny had this kind of power over people, he could make them realize things. He was amazing, even if sometimes he was annoying. Sometimes it was like he could read me like an open book, it was like he could read my mind and other people's mind. Of course he wasn't but he was very observant and perspicacious. It was rather useful I had to admit.
"I've never meant to hurt you Godric. "
"I know. I can understand your need to turn him, I'm a maker too. "Godric said and I was really starting to feel great. He understood, and perhaps one day he would even like Alan. Well I was probably dreaming right now but I could hope and pray for that to happen right ? "You have changed so much, Elizabeth. "
His free hand was on my shoulder, and slowly his fingers made their way towards my cheek, gently stroking it. It was like before, as if we had never said goodbye. And it was great, so great. I knew I belonged here, I knew Godric and I were made for each other. I just needed him to realize it.
"Is that a bad thing Godric ? "
He shook his head and I was a little bit relieved. I knew I had changed for good but I was afraid of Godric's reaction, afraid that he would love the old Elizabeth. He already preferred me when I was human so…
"No, I don't think so. "
I smiled at him.
"You know, I've changed because of Alan. I know this is probably hard for you, but I don't regret my choice. "
"I will need time, a lot of time. "Godric coldly said but I knew I probably deserved it but there was one positive point. Godric said he needed time so he will accept Alan one day.
That made me realize something. I think that Godric was jealous of my progeny and honestly, I liked that. I felt loved and that proved he really loved me, I think.
"And now, what are we going to do ? "I asked and I didn't really know what to expect. He loved me, he was jealous but did he still want me as much as I wanted him ? He had to, otherwise he wouldn't have come here to talk. He wouldn't have been so furious yesterday.
"I don't know. I want you but it hurts too much. I don't know if I can trust you, I don't want to feel so bad again. And I'm not only talking about you leaving me again, I'm talking about your attitude when we were together. "
I should have known he would say something like that. I had hurt him when I left, but when we had to deal with Russell, I was a bitch with him. I could understand that he didn't want to deal with me like that again. Then, Russell was buried in cement, hopefully forever, and he was not going to come back and hurt us. Now, everything had changed and I was much more responsible. I wasn't reckless, I wasn't looking for trouble and I wanted to stay out of it.
"I can promise you that I will never be like that again. I have no reason to be like that again. You have to believe me. I love you, Godric."I gave his hand a squeeze. "I just want us to be together. "
"It's too soon Elizabeth. We can't be together for now, I need to know if I can trust you. "
He was on his guard and he had every right to be like that, if I was being completely honest. Well, I was going to fight for him and prove him that I was a whole new vampire and that I would never ever disappoint him again. I knew I could do this and somehow I knew it would be easy for me to show him who I had become.
Godric was the best thing that's ever happened to me, I wasn't going to let him go so easily. I was very stubborn and for once that was great.
"I understand . "
Godric chuckled. "You've really changed. You would have yelled at me a long time ago."
"I know but it seems that I can control myself now. "
Godric nodded and now the room was silent again. I guess he had talked about what he wanted and I didn't have too much to say. Then, soon it would be dawn and Alan was already on his way back, I could feel him. I think he was now very close to the hotel.
"Alan will be here soon, I don't think you want to see him for now. " I said even if I wished Godric would stay for a little bit longer but it wasn't really the best thing to do. After all, they had a little fight tonight and I could still see what they had broken.
" I will pay for the mess I've created. " Godric said and I was pretty sure he was reading my mind or maybe he just followed my gaze. " I just- "
" -You don't have to justify yourself, it's okay. At least, you didn't kill him. " I interrupted him.
Honestly, I didn't care that he had destroyed a part of the room, Alan was safe and Godric and I were better, so everything was okay.
The door abruptly opened and Alan was here. He had a small stain of blood on his shirt but he was fine and he was smiling at me.
" I think it's better if I leave now. " Godric let go of my hand and stood up and I did the same.
Alan came in but stayed far away from us. Godric made his way towards the door and I followed him. I wanted to tell him to stay but I couldn't. It was better like that. He finally stopped when he was just outside the door.
" And now, what are we going to do ? "
" I'll come back soon and maybe we could spend time together. " Godric answered and kissed my forehead. before leaving.
I smiled at myself, knowing that one day Godric and I would be together again.
Two Days Later
I was happy, completely and perfectly happy. I hadn't seen Godric during the last two days but I kept smiling all the time. I think I was even annoying because of how joyful I was. I would even say that I was getting on my progeny's nerves. Who could blame me after all ? I knew that I would get Godric back so everything was perfect. Plus there was no trouble on the horizon.
Even when I met King Bill Comption, I couldn't help but smile. Yes, that was very strange but then Bill had been very polite and I would even nice towards me. I was very surprised because I knew he disliked me as much as I disliked him but then he had probably changed too. At least, he wasn't going to cause us any trouble, which was particularly great.
Anyway, now I was with Alan and we were wandering around Bon Temps. We were not really wandering to be honest, I was teaching him how to fight properly. I've never done this while we were in New York but here in the woods, it was just the perfect place to do this and Alan had to learn this. There was a werewolf pack in Bon Temps apparently and I just wanted to make sure that Alan was ready.
I disliked werewolves and even if I knew they wouldn't attack us if we didn't do anything against us, I just wanted to make sure that Alan knew how to fight. I wanted him to be safe. I knew he could take care of himself, I knew he could kill without having remorse, or not too much, but werewolves were stronger than humans. He needed to know this.
" You're too slow, Alan. " I said as I looked at him, after I had thrown him on the ground.
" And you're too fast ! Come on, you're older than me, that's not fair.. "
He was always complaining because I was too fast, too strong for him but honestly, I was not that strong. I was still a young vampire and I was still weak compared to Godric. He should know it since he had already fought with Godric. Alan told me what happened between them and honestly, Godric had managed to control himself. It was impressive.
" I only want you to be ready, just in case okay ? "
" I am ready Lizzie. I've been ready since the night I killed my attackers. "
He was just so full of himself and it was not good. That kind of self-importance could only lead to trouble and I didn't want to lose him because of this.
" Listen to me, I will tell you when you're ready. You've never met werewolves, in fact you've never met any supernatural creature, except vampires of course. So you'll do as I say. I don't have to command you, do I ? "
He mumbled something under his breath and I chuckled. He was just so cute when he was doing this. He was like a child.
" Don't tell me you're going to sulk ? This is so childish. " I laughed hard when I saw him looking at me like he wanted to kill me. I was having fun right now and it felt great.
" I'm starting to regret the time when you were depressed. You're so frustrating right now."
I shook my head, still laughing. « You're so mean with me. »
I stopped laughing when I heard a noise. Someone was coming towards us. My fangs extended. " Behind me Alan. "
For once, he didn't argue and was behind me immediately. A vampire was coming, I knew it and I needed to be ready, just in case.
And suddenly, Godric appeared in front of us. His eyes were searching for something here and I could tell by the look on his face that something was wrong. He was worried, I would even say that he was scared. Why was he scared ? Godric couldn't be scared of anything. Something extremely serious must have happened because I had never seen Godric like that.
" Godric, is something wrong ? " I asked and took a step forward. I was glad to see him but since something was probably wrong, I didn't know how to react, especially since the only thing I wanted to do was kissing him and other things. It will have to wait…Unfortunately.
" Eric, I can't feel him. " Godric's voice was trembling. " He's alive, I think but something's wrong. I can't feel him. "
My mouth fell open. I wasn't expecting that but now I understood why Godric looked so distraught. Something happened to Eric.
" What do you mean Godric ? "
" Eric was sent to a coven in Shreveport by Bill and since then I can't feel him. Something happened to him and I can't find him. "
I didn't know what to say, I didn't what to do. In fact, I didn't even know there was a coven in Shreveport. Then if it was true, that was stupid to send a vampire to a coven, it was too dangerous.. Witches were hateful and I knew about what I was talking about since I was cursed by witches when I was human.
I was now very afraid for Eric too. Who knew what witches could do to vampires ?
" Bill has been trying to get rid of Eric since he became King and now he might have found a way to succeed. I need to find my child but I can't feel anything because our bond seemed blocked. "
I couldn't even imagine what Godric was feeling at this very moment but I knew I had to help him find Eric, not only because I loved Godric but because Eric was my friend and because I would be heartbroken if something like that happened to Alan.
Then I wasn't surprised that Bill had tried to get rid of Eric. I thought he had changed but I guess I was wrong. He probably hated the fact that Eric was attached to Sookie.
" We're going to help you and don't you dare refuse our help. " He simply nodded. " Where have you searched for him ? "
" Everywhere but he's nowhere. I can't find him."
Okay. Godric must have missed something because it was impossible for Eric to have disappeared completely.
" Godric, perhaps you didn't go everywhere. Just calm yourself and think. If something happened to Eric and if he had to hide from witches and Bill, where do you think he would go ? "
Godric was thoughtful for a brief moment but then I think he knew he had forgotten one place.
" He brought Sookie's house. He could be there. "
" We're coming with you. "
Godric nodded and we both started to run in the direction of Sookie's house, Alan was following us. And now I could just hope that Eric was fine and with Sookie.
I hope you liked this chapter. Now, I have a small bad news. I won't be able to update until July I think. I'm going to spend a few days in Paris during the last two weeks of June so I can't write. Perhaps I'll post something new tuesday but I'm not really sure. I'm really sorry.
A huge thanks to Jofrench22, PrettyLittleVampire, Nicola, Cc, Carlypso and BerNorthman for their reviews. It really means a lot.
Pour Jofrench22 : Tes reviews sont juste géniales. Merci beaucoup, ça me fait très très plaisir que tu me dises ce que tu penses de mon histoire. Je sais que tu étais déçue à cause du chapitre précédent mais c'était fait exprès on va dire. Je voulais faire presque un chapitre entier sur la discussion entre Lizzie et Godric. J'espère que ce chapitre t'a plu. Je suis en manque d'inspiration et malheureusement la saison 4 ne m'aide pas, ni même la saison 5. Pour être honnête, je n'ai pas du tout aimé la saison 4 et pour le moment c'est pareil pour la saison 5... Enfin, je vais essayer d'écrire et de faire les choses à ma façon. Surtout ne t'inquiète pas, je prends très bien les critiques quand elles sont constructives ! Ca m'aide à m'améliorer, enfin je crois et surtout j'espère que ça m'aide. En tout cas, merci beaucoup ! Et j'attends avec impatience ton avis sur ce chapitre.
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