So… apparently "mija" is like Spanish slang, and it can be referring to someone's daughter, boyfriend or girlfriend. The correct term is "hija" meaning daughter, (Thanks to the guest who pointed that out to me)… But I like mija better…. So…. : )
07pnlew: You're fine, Jackie is 7 and I'm thinking she's going to have a birthday soon so she's probably going to be 8 within the next few chapters. And Bella is a very sassy, very much too grown 4 year old
Just as well this whole process with getting Jackie and everything would probably be a lot longer…
This is fiction, don't forget.
To make the set more clear, it's the first week in November, for those who do not know; Ohio is usually cold around this time!
And special thanks to IamDia for proof reading and giving me some awesome ideas. And pointing out stuff that didn't make sense! : )
Santana woke up around 8 am and jumped out of bed. "Shit, shit, shit!" She ran down the hall and into the kitchen, but she was stopped when she saw Jackie and Isabella at the table fully dressed and eating breakfast. "Good morning, mommy!" Isabella said loudly. Jackie gave an excited smile,
"Hi! Brittany told us to be quiet so we wouldn't wake you up." Brittany turned around from the refrigerator and smiled at her.
"Good morning," She smiled pouring the girls orange juice.
Santana leaned against a nearby wall and ran her fingers through her hair and took a breath of relief.
"Good morning everyone… Britt, you got them up, dressed, and made breakfast?" Brittany nodded her head.
"I picked out Bella's clothes and after Jackie was done I asked her to help Bella while I made breakfast, they were very cooperative." Santana smiled at the sight, she'd never thought she'd have a girlfriend, let alone a girlfriend like Brittany. She stared longingly at her for a while.
Then it hit her, Brittany always wore her sweats out of the house, she assumed she would change when she got back to campus because she always had a different outfits on when she would come over after her classes.
Maybe I should clear a drawer or two for her things… she already has a toothbrush here and a few shirts that are just lying on my chair… Her thoughts were pushed back by the feeling of soft, minty lips softly pressing in hers.
She smiled before she turned her attention to Isabella. "Bella, you like your outfit?" She asked, because her daughter was extremely picky about what she wore day to day. And what she wore usually depended on her mood in the morning. The young girl nodded her head wildly.
"Brittany has a very good taste,"
"Yeah she does," Santana laughed. Then she caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror: She had extreme bed hair, curly and messy. The blonde walked over and led her girlfriend back the bedroom.
"How is it possible you wake up pretty?" Brittany asked softly kissing Santana's lips.
"Mhm, I do not look pretty right now," She accidentally yawned.
Brittany giggled "Yeah, you do."
"Why didn't you let my alarm go off?" The brunette asked while walking to her closet to grab one of her blazers; her favorite one, the powder blue cropped jacket that was just sexy enough, but if it was put with a black dress it could be was very business-like.
"I didn't let your alarm clock go off because I just wanted you to sleep in for an hour or two, you don't even have to be in until 10 but you get up at like 7 to get Bella dressed and breakfast. And I knew you'd be up even earlier to help Jackie, I just wanted to take care of you. I figured Jackie was old enough to dress herself and that she wouldn't mind helping Bella."
"That was very thoughtful, and very smart…" Santana said in a low voice. Brittany grabbed Santana's hand, feeling the need to touch her.
"I also made you an omelet, so you should go get dressed and eat it before you guys have to leave." A huge grin grew on Santana's face and she started laughing. "What?" Brittany asked returning the smile and pulling the Latina closer.
"It's just… I was tired... It was sweet…"
Brittany brushed her lips along Santana's, waiting for the dark haired woman to take control. Santana caught the hint and she was careful not to make too much noise when she pushed the blonde into the wall. Her tongue begged for entrance when she found that Brittany's mouth was still pressed tightly together. "They're in the next room, I just wanted a peck-" She laughed, loving the feeling of Santana's lip.
"Wanky," Santana whispered.
"You have to get dressed, your food is going to get cold." She repeated, but as soon as she stared talking the Latina took that as her opportunity and slid her tongue into Brittany's mouth sensually, causing the blonde to lose her breath for a minute. She was no longer able to talk, not with the way Santana's tongue had taken over her mouth. She slowly ran her hands up the Latina's chest and down her back, leaving her arms to dangle on her shoulders. "Ah," She breathed out when she felt Santana's hand cup her sex. She closed her legs quickly and tried to pull her skirt down. Santana sighed and pulled away, resting her head on Brittany shoulders.
"Fuck, I'm sorry." Santana said pushing herself away.
"No, I liked it-"Santana bit her lip.
"I should get dressed… um," She turned away before she could embarrass herself any further. "Thanks again," She whispered closing the bathroom door.
"Ms. Santana, can I call you mami all the time?" Jackie asked after they dropped off Isabella. "You can call me mami whenever you like, or Ms. Santana, or even just Santana. Mommy even. It's up to you." Santana said pulling off, she didn't want Jackie to think she was obligated to call her anything she wasn't comfortable with.
"Ok… when am I going to start school?"
"I have a meeting with the adoption court on Sunday, after they approve, you can start school. There's an elementary down the street."
Jackie looked out the window, then back to Santana with a sad face.
"I don't want to start school. Can't I just keep going to work with you and I learn how to be a social worker too!?"
Santana chuckled.
"Why don't you want to go to school, Mija?"
"Well… the other kid's always made fun of me at my old school… they made fun of my clothes and my hair." She said looking down and taking a few strands in her hand and throwing it back in disgust. Santana smiled a bit. Jackie's clothes were faded and were frankly getting to be too small for her. She had only had about six pairs of jeans, all of which were worn and had holes in them (Not the good kind) and her shirts were the same; they had little holes here and there. She only had one pair of shoes that had holes at the soles of them. Santana honestly didn't understand, because Jackie wasn't from a poor family. Her file showed that they were damn near close to high class. Her parents made good money. She just didn't understand why they dressed this daughter this way.
"I think we have to wash your hair every day, it's not like me and Bella's. We usually only have to wash our hair every other week, or sometimes longer..." She continued, noticing that Jackie's hair was starting to look oily already. That's where Brittany came in, "Maybe Brittany could tell me what kind of different type of shampoo-"
"Why can't I just use those you and Bella use?"
"We have different types of hair," Santana explained sweetly. "That solves the hair problem… how about we go shopping on Saturday? Get you some new clothes-"
"That'd be awesome!..." Jackie hesitated before she opened her mouth, "They also made fun of those…" She pointed to Santana's breast, the Latina looked down for a second then back at the road in a confused state.
"Oh, they made fun of you because you're developing?... Probably faster than the other girls, right?" Jackie shook her head yes. Once again, Santana didn't understand. Sure, Jackie was starting to develop breast but they weren't anything to point out, they weren't even big. They were just little Miskito bites. She laughed at her own joke,
"Well, we could get you a training bra, it could make things a little better..." Santana stated, "But Jackie, breast are something that literally every single female will get. But, do you want some advice?" Jackie nodded again. Santana smiled, it was kind of mean. But that was always her go to mode when kids tried to make fun of her.
"Let me guess, it's usually the boys that make fun of your breast right?" She nodded again in embarrassment. She wished her mami would stop using that word.
"Alright, the next time a boy points them out, say he has them too. Even if he doesn't, make it dramatic! Tell him at least you have what you're supposed to have, he just has man boobs." Jackie starts to laugh wildly. "We gotta get you an inner Snixx." Santana laughed too.
"Snixx?"
"Mm, you'll see her one day. Then you'll know."
Jackie smiles "Thanks mami"
Santana knew that clothes and shoes were a big part of making friends at a public school, but she also understood that Jackie was kind of shy because of her past.
She's been through more than most girls her age and she probably didn't know how to interact with them.
"But anyway, you do know that clothes don't make the person, you have to find friends that like you for you..." Santana said turning into the parking lot.
"But no one ever likes me!"
"I like you, and Michal likes you, and Angel likes you, and Bella likes you and-'
"Ok, ok,ok," Jackie laughed.
"You're a very likeable girl, Jackie." Santana got out of the car and Jackie followed quickly next to her.
"I think you'll make friends in no time once you start school, seriously, this is cliché but just be yourself and you'll attract your kind." Jackie smiled and grabbed Santana's hand.
It was no use trying to pay attention.
Brittany kept checking her phone throughout her English class.
Santana usually would have texted her by now. She would have asked her how her day was going, or if she was learning anything new, or if she had money for lunch.
And even if she did, Santana would always offer to bring her lunch.
The Latina just liked being able to see her girlfriend throughout the day. And luckily, those were the parts of the day that Brittany looked forward to. She just didn't understand what went wrong earlier… all she did was tell Santana to stop.
That was it!
Santana was upset that Brittany stopped her.
The blonde rolled her eyes, she felt bad. Santana probably thought that she didn't like her, just like she didn't really like Dominic. She would have stayed but she had to go and get a few of her things from her dorm room.
Brittany scuffed out loud and got a few glanced from people in her class, but she didn't care. She loved when Santana touched her, every time she did scared her because she wasn't used to the feeling. She bit her lower lip, she had to text Santana so that she wouldn't be mad at her anymore.
She pulled her phone out slowly, careful not to get the teachers attention, again.
Brittany: Baby, I am so sorry!
Jackie was on the couch practicing her handwriting while Santana worked on a new case. Then her phone went off, she stared at it for a minute. Why was Brittany apologizing?
Santana: Whoa. Did I miss something? What are you apologizing for?
Brittany: You're mad coz I stop you earlier right?
Santana laughed out loud.
Brittany couldn't be serious!
Jackie shot her head up at the sudden outburst. "What's so funny?" Santana stopped laughing slowly,
"Brittany..."
"Oh, that couples stuff." Santana nodded her head.
"Something like that," She couldn't get used to these kids knowing so much, even with Isabella sometimes.
She texted Brittany back,
Santana: I wasn't upset with you, Britt. I was angry at myself for not stopping… I thought you were mad at me or something. That's why I haven't texted you today, I wanted to give you some space.
Santana didn't know how to tell her that she didn't want Brittany to compare her to Dominic or any other guys she'd been with. She would wait forever for her…
Brittany: You're fine. I'm fine. We should talk later. : ) 3
Santana smiled wildly, glad that Brittany wasn't mad at her.
Santana: TTYL. Jackie's looking at me like I'm weird. Lol. I keep smiling at my phone. I miss you…
Now Brittany was smiling at her phone. She let out a tiny giggle and texted Santana that she missed her and that she'd come by later. Then she put her phone away to focus on class.
Jackie put her pencil down and stared at Santana. "So, you really like Brittany?"
"Very much," Santana answered her, wondering where this was going. "Why?"
Jackie shrugged.
"Like way more than a friend? Coz whenever I look at you guys you kind of look like best friends but then you start kissing and you both get these dumb looks on your faces."
Jackie mocked the look that was just on Santana's face by crossing her eyes and opening her mouth. "You guys look like that..."
This made Santana laugh and look away from her computer and giggle,
"I like Brittany as much more than a friend, but I think she's like my best friend too."
Jackie nodded and went back to her work.
Jackie and Santana walked into Isabella's classroom around 5:30 pm that day. Isabella was too distracted by Kyra to notice them walk in. "Can you go get her for me?" Santana asked Jackie. Jackie nodded and skipped over to Isabella. Santana went to her locked to gather her things when she heard a familiar voice.
"Would you and Brittany sit by me at the concert?" Santana looked over to see Kayla. Brittany was by far the most breath taking women in the world, but Kayla was damn sexy. She smiled at her, unable to stop herself.
"Um, what concert exactly?" Santana asked putting a few things in Isabella's book bag.
"I guess Bella forgot to give you the flyer." Kayla handed Santana a brightly colored red piece of paper. She had seen them everywhere around but she totally ignored them before because she figured if it was important Isabella's teacher would fill her in.
"The whole pre-school is putting on a Thanksgiving concert. And Bella got one of the solos, along with Kyra." Kayla said excitedly.
"As much as Bella talks you'd think she wouldn't have been able to shut up about it. But, I'll see if Britt won't mind and I'll get back to you."
"Mhm, I heard she has quite a voice."
"She might have gotten that from me,"
"Maybe she can help Kyra, she's so damn shy, and I have no idea where she got that from." Santana laughed, "She's definitely gotten better. I think Bella brings out her loud, verbal side. But crowds of people make her beyond nervous."
"Um, we could talk to the teacher? Make it a two person solo so they won't be center stage all by themselves." Santana suggested.
Kyra agreed,
"Sounds like a plan, um, may I ask who that is?" She pointed to Jackie who was now playing with the pair. "She doesn't look like a relative of Bella's…" She said referring to their contrast of skin tones and the difference of their hairs.
"I am adopting her-"
"Seriously, they're going to let you do that?" Santana raised an eyebrow,
"Why wouldn't they?"
"You're a social worker Santana… I'm shocked you've never heard of a lot of judges being homophobes and denying a lesbian or gay person guardianship. They usually justify it by saying the child needs to grow up in a "normal" environment."
Santana bit her lip back looking at Jackie.
"If they don't give me guardianship. Jackie would probably lose it right there in court." Kayla frowned,
"I hope they'll let you keep her.." She looked Jackie up and down. "You're going to take her shopping right? If she showed up to court with you and looked like that they might think you're unfit. Looks always matter. Have her come to court with you looking fresh," She snapped her fingers for affect, causing Santana to smile and laugh. "Seriously, next to you and Bella she looks kind of homeless." Santana raised an eyebrow, and smiled.
"I am, Saturday. Court is on Sunday…" Jackie, Kyra and Isabella all walked over and started talking at one time.
"Mami, Bella wants Wendy's for dinner, but I want pizza!" Jackie said, her voice easily overpowering Isabella's and Kyra's.
"I want a sleep over!" Kyra was becoming very verbal after befriending Isabella. Santana had never actually heard Kyra's voice until this moment. But at the same time, being friends with Isabella, if you didn't speak up she'd end up walking all over you.
"Please Mommy! And I want Jackie to come!" Kyra yelled trying to get her mom to hear her.
"Pizza is gross Jackie! We should just get chicken nuggets! And pizza doesn't come with a tinker bell toy!"
"You have enough toys, Bella! Pizza!" They all screamed at once and Santana had to stop herself from yelling, she felt a headache coming.
"Everyone… STOP TALKING!" She said in the firmest, nicest voice she could muster. They all stopped and Kyra went to hide behind her mom's leg. Kayla laughed at that.
"I think what Santana means is that you all shouldn't be talking at once."
She forced her daughter from her hiding spot.
"Um, we can get both, ok? We'll stop and get Bella Wendy's and then we'll order a pizza for me, you and Brittany?" she asked Jackie. The younger girl agreed and she helped Isabell to put her coat on.
"I don't see anything wrong with a sleepover say, Saturday night?" Kayla looked over at Santana.
"Oh yeah… do you mind Jackie?" Santana gave her a pleading look.
"No, not at all." She smiled.
"Perfect."
"So Bella, why didn't you tell me about your concert?" Isabella shot her head up.
"How'd you know about that?"
"Mom's know everything," She joked. Isabella gulped.
"I'm nervous." Santana laughed.
"Lopez's always perform well Bella." In all areas. She laughed again at her own joke. "There's no need to be nervous, do you want me to rehears with you? Maybe you and Kyra could sing together?" Isabella shook her head yes. They pulled up to Wendy's. "Would it kill your nerves if we got you a new dress?" She asked picking Isabella up and Jackie following close behind. Isabella smiled. She loved new things.
"I think so," Santana smiled. "I want grandma and grandpa and Uncle Dominic to come! And auntie Quinn and auntie Cedes and Uncle Puck," She said in one breath to her mom. Isabella wrapped her arms around her neck. "I miss them Mommy." She whispered. Santana sighed.
"I'll make sure to ask them." She put Isabella down when they got into the restaurant, when they got to the register Santana leaned over to order what her daughter always wanted.
"Mommy, I want to order! I have to learn eventually!" Santana threw her hands up,
"Fine, fine." The young man at the register was knocked from his very strong gaze on Santana and he looked around.
"I'm sorry, who said that?" He asked. Santana cocked an eyebrow, and motioned her head down.
The man leaned over to see Isabella standing only at about 2 ½ feet.
"Hi!" Isabella beamed.
"Hey.." He answered amused.
Jackie found this extremely funny and dug her head into Santana side to keep herself from laughing out loud.
"Can I have a ten piece chicken nugget meal… please?" She said as if he had a choice.
"Ten pieces that seems like a lot for someone so small." He laughed.
"I think it'll be fine." He smiled and put up the order.
"Will this be cash or charge?" The young man joked.
"Cash." Isabella said. Santana smiled.
"Uh, excuse me. You have no money, step aside." She told Bella picking her up. "Jackie, you sure you don't want anything." Jackie shook her head no.
"I'm fine, mami." Isabella shot Jackie and Santana a strong look, but neither seemed to notice. WHO is she calling mami!? Santana's daughter thought. Santana swiped her card and then signed the tablet.
"By any chance… are you single?" He asked a little nervously. Santana laughed obnoxiously,
"No."
Brittany had stopped by her dorm and picked up a few clothes. She was kind of tired of going there in the morning when she could just get dressed at Santana's.
"I haven't seen you in like four months." Her roommate stated. Brittany smiled at her,
"I've been busy.." She answered packing her suitcase.
"Busy doing what? Do you live with Dom now? Details girl, details!" She hollered.
"Dominic and I kind of broke up..."
"What do you mean kind of?"
"Well, totally, actually…"
"Why? Dominic is like the god of all god's." And his sister is the goddess of all goddesses. She rolled her eyes.
"We weren't working out,"
Her roommate sighed.
"Don't get upset when word spreads around and see him making out with some other girl."
Brittany laughed,
"Bye, Tiffany." She said walking out.
Santana heard the door open as she walked out of her bedroom. "Baby, I was just calling to see what kind of pizza you wanted…" Her voice trailed off. "Are you moving in?" She asked with a smile. She wasn't totally against it.
"I just wanted to have some clothes here ...if you don't mind..."
"Yay, Brittany's moving in! You guys are getting married!" Isabella screamed.
"We're not engaged yet, Bella!" Santana said. Brittany smiled. She liked thinking that Santana wanted to be together that long.
"Yeah, not yet,"
"But every step counts..." Santana took her suitcase into the bed room.
"How's pepperoni pizza for everyone?" Brittany asked.
"Yes!" Jackie screams from the couch. Santana comes back into the living room.
"You look very good in sweats," Brittany says pulling her into an innocent kiss.
"Mhm," Even a tiny kiss like that made Santana want to take Brittany right then and there.
Which reminded her.
She pulled away from Brittany and went to stand behind the couch.
Jackie was watching A.N.T farm on Disney just as the theme song came on. Santana has watched this show enough times with Isabella to know the theme song and she started to sing along.
"Everybody's got that thing, something different we all bring; don't you let them clip their wings, you got it, you got it!" She wasn't planning on singing the whole song, but once Jackie jumped up onto her knees and was watching her instead of the TV Santana decided to give her a show.
"We're on fire and we blaze! In extraordinary ways, 365 days!" Jackie jumped up excitedly.
"We got it, we got it!" Santana helped her jump from the couch and turned to Brittany for the next few lines...
"You can dream it. You can be it. If you can feel it. You can believe it!" Santana span Brittany around as she started to dance.
Jackie couldn't stop the smile from forming on her face, she swore that Santana's voice was like ear magic or something. It's sweet, and soothing and truthful.
And there's something so genuine about Brittany that Jackie can't put her finger on. And watching her dance was like watching some glide!
She knew that she's never met people like Brittany and Santana, but she likes it.
The Latina was surprised to hear another, smaller voice behind her, Isabella, and Jackie sang all the parts after her.
"Cause I am, you are, we are exceptional!"
"Exceptional, yeah, exceptional, exceptional!"
"Yeah, I am, you are, we are exceptional (exceptional), yeah, exceptional (exceptional)"
"From the "E", to the "X", to the "C-E-P", to the "T", to the "I", to the "O-N-A-L"
I am, you are, we are (you are) exceptional (exceptional), yeah, exceptional (exceptional)!"
They realized the song has gone off and the show was continuing.
"Finish it Santana!" Brittany kissed her once on the lips and honestly, that was encouraging enough for her.
The two girls were giddy with excitement still just singing "Exceptional" over and over.
Santana rolled her eyes playfully and grabbed Jackie's hands starting to dance with her.
"Got you checkin' out my swag. Hey, conformity's a drag. It's the essence, not the tag. We got it! You've got it!" Jackie started to giggle as she fell to floor in a silly, dramatic motion. Next Santana picked up Isabella and span her around.
"Everybody's got their own kind of crazy. That's what makes you so amazing. I got you and I know you got me too!" Santana sung this because she knew her daughter was crazy, that was a trait of her own that she picked up. She decided to skip the rest of the chores since the girls were singing it anyway. "Don't hide your individuality. All who you wanna be. Don't let anything hold you back. Go ahead and dream it out loud (dream it out loud). Break the ground. It's your turn this time around."
They were all laughing as Isabella and Jacky held onto Santana tightly.
"I wanna sing like you mommy," She says giving her a kiss.
"I'm sure you can, why else would you get a solo?" She asked cockily. Jackie was now watching Santana longingly, Brittany too. She was amazed at what she was around, that was probably the most fun she's ever had. Jackie composed herself and settled back on the couch. But soon Isabella was tugging at her am.
"Let's go play Bratz! I'll let you be Chloe and I'll be Yasmin!" She was sort of whining and Jackie smiled getting up and walking to her room.
"Jackie, you can't rename Chloe… her name is Chloe!" Isabella stated.
Jackie raised an eyebrow "But I want her to be Jacquelyn…"
"She doesn't even look like you!" Isabella said.
Jackie sighed, "I don't want to play anymore anyway." She placed Chloe down. "Hey, Bella…"
"Hmm?" She asked starting to braid Yasmin's hair.
"Is Brittany our mom too?" Isabella cocked an eyebrow up, our mom?
She wasn't sure if she wanted to share her mommies.
"No. My mommy is my mommy," She said referring to Santana, trying to make a point, but kind of failing.
Jackie did not pick up on what she meant.
"So what is Brittany?"
"Duh, she's mommy's girlfriend." Isabella put her head in her palm thinking.
"But she's always here and they always kiss and stuff."
"That's what girlfriends do… and boyfriends. And girlfriends and boyfriends. Don't you watch TV?" Jackie laughed.
"Yeah, but I've never seen two girls together. My daddy said it's disgusting." Isabella felt the need to protect her mother and blurted out
"You're daddy's disgusting!" She screamed, not really knowing what it meant.
It just sounded like a good comeback.
"I didn't mean it like that." Jackie whispered. Isabella instantly felt bad when she watched Jackie bow her head.
"Mami is awesome, she's not disgusting. I'm sorry." She said it again! She's my mommy… Isabella wipes the obvious look of anger off her face.
"It's ok."
Once the pizza was ordered Santana and Brittany were in their room with the door shut.
The two were sitting close on the bed, legs tangled into each other and Santana was holding Brittany's hand, kissing her knuckles every now and then. "I missed you so much today, Britt."
Brittany giggled,
"You miss me every day, right?"
"Of course, but… I thought you were mad at me so it was like a worried kind of miss you, I guess. I felt better after we texted..."
Santana was surprising herself every day. She had admitted that she absolutely loved Brittany, but nothing could stop her from wondering why this girl was turning her so damn soft.
"I don't think I could ever be mad at you..."
"Same here."
Brittany ran her fingers through the Latina's thick curls as she rested her head on the brunettes lap. Laying down, she relaxed more as Brittany touched her an exhaled deeply. "Hard day?" Brittany asked, Santana just nodded.
"I've just been thinking… my family is falling apart. My parents aren't talking to me, and Dominic is beyond pissed… Bella wants all of them to come to her concert and I don't want to talk to any of them."
"Maybe you should be the bigger person and go talk to your parents."
"Maybe…"
"As for Dominic…" Brittany sighs. "I'll talk to him tomorrow and I'll invite him. We have a similar time space between our classes. I'll talk to him baby."
She leans in and kisses Santana, then starts to nibble on her ear.
"Ok," Santana moans a little, "I cleared you out a drawer to match your key."
Brittany smiled as well.
"You didn't have to, I was just going to put my suitcase up so it wouldn't be in the way..."
"Baby, it was nothing, besides you're not living out of your suitcase."
"Santana, you have a lot of clothes." Brittany said feeling better.
"Mhm, but I still made room for some of yours. I want you to feel comfortable, and part of that is having things here ...just in case."
"Thank you." Brittany places a kiss on her lips.
"Speaking of clothes, I'm taking Jackie shopping Saturday and I wanted you to come…"
Brittany smiled,
"Really? I'd love to come."
Santana clapped loudly,
"Yay!" She laughed. "I want her to look perfect on her first day of school, maybe it'll boost her confidence a little bit."
"Maybe, why doesn't she have nice clothes? You told me her parents made pretty good money."
"They did, but I don't get it either. Just because they were emotionally, sexually and physically abusive towards here doesn't mean they had to be fashionably abusive towards the girl too."
Brittany hit Santana playfully.
"San!" She laughed out. "So, do you need me to come or do you just want me there?"
Santana blushed for some reason.
"Well, I want you there but I need you to help me find a shampoo for Jackie… I don't have white girl hair and I know it's much different from mine."
Santana didn't want to sound racist but she knew that there were different ways to take care of different types of hair. "I don't want to sound racist-"
"You don't San, you're actually right. Like I know you don't wash your hair everyday. If I don't wash my hair it starts to look stringy and oily and it gets really gross… I can totally help with her hair." Santana gave Brittany a kiss.
"Thanks.'
"What?" just then the door opened.
"Mama, the pizza's are here!" Santana looked confused.
Jackie didn't call her mama… she must have been talking to Brittany.
Her mouth practically dropped open as the black haired girl pulled Brittany away to the living room. Isabella was waiting in the hallway, then she grabbed Brittany's leg as she gave the pizza man the money.
"Mama, I want some pizza." Brittany lost her train of thought. Mama?
"Um, Bella... You just ate your dinner." She put the pizza on the counter as Santana walked out of the room.
"But mama, I want some pizza!" Isabella whined determined to get her way. If Jackie got pizza, so would she.
"You said you didn't!" Jackie said to her. "Tell her she can't have any, mama!" Santana folded her arms and watched the two attack Brittany, both trying to get their way.
"Well, Jackie… I don't see why she can't have one slice..." Brittany said not wanting to upset Isabella, she remembered what Santana said. She honestly didn't want to see that side. Santana rolled her eyes at her daughter, she knew the rule. Santana saw that Brittany was stuck, so she interjected.
"Excuse me Bella, but you very clearly said you wanted Wendy's! Not pizza! And you just ate your dinner."
"But mama said I could!" Santana saw Isabella about to start what she's best known for at a time like this. She walked over to her daughter much too quick and frightened even Jackie.
"Do not start with me Isabella," Whoa. Santana never called Bella Isabella…Brittany thought. She felt scared for Isabella when she saw the look in Santana's froze, her mother hadn't used her full name but her using her full first name was a sign she was getting there. "What did I say?" Isabella pouted.
"No. You said no, mommy."
"I'm very glad you understand"
Isabella folded her arms and stared at her mother.
But then she remembered that her mother was much better at staring and put her head down. Santana looked at the time "Jackie, please finish your pizza and get ready for bed ok?"
Jackie took her plate and sat down so she could finish her food. "Isabella. Bath and bed. Let's go." Isabella thought about arguing, thought about telling her mother no. But she was spoiled, not dumb. She reached her arms up for Santana to carry her and the Latina sighed. She picked her up and placed a kiss on her forehead.
It's quiet in the bathroom, and the only noise was the sound of Isabella moving around in the tub.
Santana was sitting on the edge of the tub watching her daughter, "You're not upset at me, right Bella?" She asked.
Usually her daughter won't stop talking when she gave her a bath.
Usually she shared every moment of her day and every thought in her head.
Normally, Isabella would have asked her mother to get into the tub with her.
She always liked laying on her chest and falling asleep so when she woke up she was already warm and in her bed.
"No, I'm not mad at you, mommy." Isabella said, starting to play with the bubbles.
"You're not talking to me..." Santana stated, she got up and grabbed a towel. She knelt down and held it out for Isabella to step into. Isabella pouted.
"I thought you were mad at me." Santana wrapped her arm around her daughter once Isabella stepped into the towel and then the Latina wrapped it around her.
"Listen to me..." She turned Isabella around so that she was facing her "I may have been upset with you…" She started, "You knew that I wouldn't have given you pizza and you took advantage Brittany,"
"What's taking advanage of?"
"It's when you use someone to your advantage." She said giving her the most relevant definition.
"You wouldn't have asked me for some pizza, would you have?"
"No… but"
"So why did you ask Britt?" Santana asked already knowing the answer.
"Because she didn't know the rule about no food after I've already had dinner."
"And that's how you took advantage of her" Santana gave her daughter a kiss. "But not matter what, I'd never be mad at you. I love you too much" She said starting to put lotion on Isabella's shoulders and neck. Next were her legs.
"One more thing, Mija, I never told you that Brittany was your new mommy-"
"But she's always here and you guys always kiss..." Isabella repeated what Jackie said.
"Well, yeah but we're just dating. And sometimes when adults kiss they spend a lot of time at each other's house but-"
"But Jackie called her mama! So I should be allowed to too!" She practically hollered.
"Lower your voice, do you hear me screaming at you?"
"No," Isabella said quietly "I wanna call her mama, she is my mama!" Santana sighed.
"We'll talk about this later. Si?" Isabella nodded her head and let her mother help her to get dressed and then they left the bathroom and Isabella went to find Brittany. She was in the bedroom watching TV
"I'm sorry for taking advantage of you, ma-Brittany." Isabella said. Santana shot her a look but Isabella didn't notice. Brittany gulped but smiled at her.
"It's ok," Isabella ran to give Brittany a hug.
"Goodnight.." She gave Brittany a kiss and the blonde blushed from the gentleness, the care in the kiss.
"Goodnight mommy." She gave Santana's leg a hug before she hurried out of the room and into hers.
"Um, Brittany, I'm sorry about them..." Santana said putting her shorts on for bed.
She looked at Brittany who was also changing her clothes. "I'll tell them to just call you Britt or somethi-"
"No! I don't mind, seriously…" Brittany climbed over the bed and was now only a grab away from Santana. "Unless you mind of course..."
"Brittany, it's not that! We've been dating for like two months and I just don't want to scare you away by putting you into a mother role. I don't want you to feel obligated to have to take care of them or anything. They're my responsibility. Not yours."
"I don't think that there is anything you could do to scare me away, baby." Brittany wrapped her arms around Santana and brought the dark haired women closer. "Nothing at all. I don't get scared easily." Santana smiled.
"I love taking care of them, and when they called me that today I felt connected to them, you know? I know I messed up with Bella and the pizza-"
"I told you Britt, she can be manipulative. My mom is, my brother and I can be… it's a mechanism we all use to our ways. And she's very good at it." Santana laughed. "You just have to be able to set her straight. You'll learn," As much as she loved being close to Brittany, she knew that being this close would only make her want her. "Brittany, I can't be this close to you," she whispered.
Brittany backed away slightly.
"Do I stink?" She asked, smelling herself. "No, I don't…" Santana was forced to laugh
"I can't be this close to you because it feels like a tease, I don't want to rush you..." Santana stepped back and went to sit on the bed.
"You're not rushing me… I don't really understand..." She says finally admitting that she's confused "What's up?" She goes to sit next to Santana.
"It's just that… I don't want you to think I'm Dominic, ok? I'll wait forever for you, I swear I will. I love you and I'm so used to dating girls who just let me… you know. But I like that you're so conservative, it's cute. But honestly, it just makes me want you more." Santana sighed, she said all of that in one breath, so fast that thought she won't be able to get anything else out.
"I don't feel like you're rushing me into anything, Santana. And I'm not conservative." Brittany folded her arms and pouted like Isabella. The dark haired was playing with her fingers now, taking her own hand and twisting it various directions trying to ignore the questions in her head.
"Then why do you keep stopping me every time things get hot between us. And you don't want me to see you naked…"
"I don't know… I never thought about why I tell you no all the time, I guess I just don't want it to be disappointing." Santana's eyes shot up and she couldn't stop her sudden outburst of laughter. And it kept coming the more she thought about it.
Her?
Santana Lopez?
A disappointment in bed?
Pah-lease!
Maybe she should give Brittany a few of her exes "Associate's" numbers, because they could fill in on her how good she was. "Brittany, I'm sorry for laughing… but I wouldn't disappoint you sexually. Not be cocky or anything but I'm kind of like a beast in bed. Shit gets real."
Brittany giggles at Santana's confidence.
"Seriously Britt, one time I did a girl so good she couldn't walk out of my house the next morning because she was too sore." Brittany stopped laughing and looked at Santana.
"Seriously?"
"Seriously… I know what I'm doing…" Brittany shifted a bit.
Then it hit Santana like a bomb.
"Brittany, have you ever like… actually liked…" She thought about how to ask. "You've only been with Dominic right?"
"Yup,"
"Did you ever like it? Even a little?" Santana asked her.
Brittany shook her head, even thinking about it just made her skin crawl. She loved Dominic but she hated the feeling of him inside of her.
"Has anyone else ever touched you?"
"No… well yeah but it wasn't good or anything. Just a few guys in high school, and this one guy last year at a party" Santana nodded slowly, a smile forming on her face.
"Do you masturbate?" Brittany shook her head quickly.
"No… I never thought… I just kind of figured that I couldn't like have an orgasm or anything so I never tried. I always figured I was broken or something." Santana moved closer to her now, placing a long, sweet kiss on her cheek.
"What?" Brittany asked her quickly.
"You've never had a positive sexual experience so you don't have the best view on sex…" Santana whispered in her ear. "And it doesn't help that you've had the wrong sexual partners. You're not broken," Brittany started to wonder if that was why, it would explain why she was so afraid of what she felt when Santana kissed her. She felt Santana's hand on her thigh now, caressing it slowly while she began to nibble on her ear lightly. "Guys have one of the most import thing when it comes to pleasing a women; a penis. But most of them have no idea how to use it, they think that just because they have one that it guarantees pleasure. That and sometimes they just don't care. Once they stick it inside something they're going to cum, so they have no problems." Brittany closed her eyes, enjoying the contact. "Give me a chance to give you a very positive, very passionate experience." Santana voice was low and sensual now, and Brittany couldn't bring herself to look at her because she knew it would only bring her knees and she'd give in to Santana.
"I thought you and Dominic were like sex twins or something," she gave a nervous chuckle.
"Mhm, no. We look very much alike, he's like the male version of me. But I'm sure I could out fuck any girl he's ever been with because he's 18 and he has a male sex mind set: it's all about him."
Brittany laughed
"I promise baby, I can make you see stars. I will make you cum so hard you won't be able to move afterwards." She let out a shaky sigh, suddenly feeling warmth between her legs. Santana did too and smiled while moving to kiss Brittany's jawline.
"N-not right now… right?" Santana's confidence, her words, the way she was rubbing her thigh, the line her tongue was creating on her jaw; it all was making Brittany so wet. She quickly closed her legs and Santana chuckled.
"Mhm, no baby. If you let me, Saturday night. The kids will be gone, I want to take my time with you."
She cupped Brittany's chin and started to kiss her hungrily.
"Santana," Brittany breathed.
Santana smiled and slowly moved to Brittany's neck, nibbling and nipping, causing her girlfriend to moan softly. "Even though I haven't… you know..." She tried to get out without moaning. "I love your kisses…" Santana pulled her closer by her waist, then went back to her lips. She darted her tongue into Brittany's mouth, easily dominating the kiss, and Brittany gladly submitted.
She could tell by how much Santana wanted her by the way she kept pulling her closer, and to be honest...Brittany wanted Santana too.
She just never let things get like this between them, so she wouldn't feel this weak.
"I love kissing you," Santana said to Brittany when she pulled their lips apart and rested her head on her forehead. "It's probably my favorite thing to do..." Brittany giggled when the door opened and Jackie was standing there watching the two.
"Hi, Jackie." Santana said pulling away from Brittany. She walked over to Jackie and smiled "Sweetie, I need you to knock. Ok? If the door is shut, knock and wait for someone to say come in." Santana was sure Jackie or Isabella would walk in on something one day. She made another mental note to tell Isabella to knock as well. Jackie nodded.
"I'm sorry..."
"It's ok sweetie." Brittany said, Jackie smiled.
"Mami, can you tuck me in. Please?" She added quickly.
"Of course," Jackie ran to give Brittany a hug before she left the room with Santana.
"Can you sing to me?" Jackie whispered. It was storming outside and storms reminded her of anger.
Anger reminded her of her father.
Therefore she felt very scared, and she hoped that maybe Santana's angel-like voice will ease her fears. Santana was already smiling at her but her smile grew when she's asked that.
"I don't normally sing for people, but I can make an exception for you. Any requests?" Jackie shook her head no. Santana sat on the edge of her bed
"Is it ok if I rub your back while I sing to you? It always helps Bella calm down when she's scared." She asked softly. "If you don't want me to, it's fine." Jackie nodded her head yes but jumped a little when she felt Santana's palm against her back. Santana shhes her quiet. "It's ok..."
She started rubbing Jackie's back slowly, making sure not to go to low. The young girl with the piercing green eyes relaxed into her touch and was soon much more comfortable.
"Regrets collect like old friend, here to relive your darkest moments. And all of the ghouls come out to play. I like to keep my issues drawn, but it's always darkest before the dawn. I can never leave the past behind, I'm always dragging that horse around, I can see no way, I can see no way. Our love is past with such a mournful sound, but tonight I'm going to burry that horse in the ground. Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out. Ohhh whoa. Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out. Ohhh whoa! And it's hard to dance, with a devil on your back, so shake him off. Ohhh whoa."
Santana was singing softly and she could hear Jackie sobbing quietly.
She lied down with her, keeping her distance as she continued to sing and rub her back.
"And I am done with my graceless heart, so tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart. Cuz I like to keep my issues drawn, it's always darkest before the dawn."
Jackie crawled into Santana, laying her head on her shoulder and just wanting to be held. Santana wrapped her arms around the young girl, still rubbing her back but now running her fingers through her hair.
"And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back, and given half the chance would I take it back. It's a fine romance, but it's left me so undone. It's always darkest before the dawn. And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope…Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out. Oh whoa. And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off…"
Jackie sobbed louder, but then she grew quiet.
She didn't want to cry over them.
She looked up at Santana.
"Do you like you father?"
"No, I don't. But I love him…"
"I don't like mine…" Santana wiped one of Jackie's tears.
"That's understandable... You don't have to."
"Would you have watched?" She asked thinking about her mother "Would you have sat there and let him-"
"No!" Santana couldn't let Jackie finish. Knowing herself she probably would have got a knife and stabbed anyone for even thinking about touching a child like that.
"I wouldn't have. Sweetie, your mother should have protected you and I'm sorry that she didn't."
Jackie cuddled closer to Santana.
"It's ok, I have you and mama now."
Santana held her tightly
"Yeah you do,"
I had to split this chapter up, it was getting way way too long! Haha, but thoughts please?