Hey there once again… I'm really sorry that this chapter has taken longer then what I wanted, but I just wanted to make sure it was good before I uploaded it. The next chapter will take a little while to come since I have work which is being crazy at the moment and I'm getting an IPhone on Saturday so I'll be playing with that over the weekend and then you have Mother's day in the UK on Sunday and even though I'm working I will hopefully spend time with my Mum as well… so bare with me and when I get a chance I will upload and soon as I can.

Anyway here is the next chapter and I hope you like it… especially the ending.

My eyes slowly flutter open when I feel the bright sun hit my face. I could feel someone in my room, but I didn't want to turn and look at them. I feel the edge of my bed go down and shift in my place. My eyes are fully open now and I'm just staring at the ceiling now. My head pounding from the headache that was starting to from at the centre of my head. I move my hand up to my head and just hold it "Morning Brooke" I sit up a little and see Lucas sitting on the edge of my bed "Here…" He hands me two aspirin with a glass of water "How's the head?"

"Its fine" I tell him with a small smile "So how did I get home anyway?" I ask actually not being able to remember anything from last night. I think I blanked out.

"Oh erm… don't you remember last night?" Lucas replies turning to face me a little and I shake my head noticing a disappointing look on his face.

"Eh… why?" I question sitting up a little more taking the pills then putting the water back on my beside cabinet "What happened last night?"

"Nothing" Lie… I always knew when Lucas was lying. He squints and his squinting now "I brought you home" He tells me "I saved you then I brought you here. You needed to puke up some of the alcohol you drunk which was a lot by the way"

"Well aren't you my knight and shining armour" I joke with a hint of a smile and just for that moment it felt like old times. When we were happy.

"Brooke…" Lucas says my name and I look at him again, but then he trails off and I can tell he wants to talk about something.

"Hmm..."

"Actually don't worry" He gets up of my bed, but something in me didn't want to let him walk out my room so my hand flies up and I stop him.

"No… Luke what is it you want to say" I ask pulling back my cover and climbing out of the bed. He dressed me too… aww he really was my knight and shining armour.

"I know how you feel?" He says sitting down again on my bed and I looked at him confused. I have no idea what his talking about.

"You know how I feel?" I ask kinking up my eye brow "Whatcha mean Luke?"

"Last night" He states sounding a little embarrassed "You got pretty drunk"

"Yeah I know" I nod with a small hint of a smile. The headache would be proof of that

"When your drunk you tell the truth Brooke" I stop what I was doing and look at him. Where was he going with this?

"Luke…" I turn back around and head into my walk in closet

"Last night we talked about what you're feeling" He tells me and I just search through my clothes picking out something to wear "You told me you were hurting and I know you are Brooke, but I'm here for you" I was listening to him… I really was… but I can't remember what I said last night… I don't want to remember what I said last night. I just carried on looking through my closet and then after I didn't say anything for a while he spoke again "Brooke…"

"Fancy going to the beach" I cut in changing the subject picking out a red bikini "I wanna go to the beach"

"Brooke…" He says my name again and just look at him "Pretty Girl talk to me"

"I don't want to talk Lucas" I state laying my red bikini on the bed "I want to go to the beach"

"Brooke stop" He stands up and walks towards me "Just stop please" He takes my hands stopping me from looking through my clothes "Please just talk to me"

"What do you want me to say Luke?" I question tears coming to the surface of my eyes "You want me to say that I hurt? You want me to say that I feel empty… you want to see me breakdown huh because if I don't act brave I think I might Luke… If I don't act like I'm going to be okay then I will breakdown and if I breakdown I'm not sure if I'll be able to come back from that" A tear slips down my cheek "I don't know what to do"

"Brooke..." He whispers my name "Pretty Girl… I'm here"

"3 months Luke… it's been 3 months and my body still hurts" I tell him feeling weak at the legs "I hurt so much"

"I know Brooke" He pulls me into him and I want to fight him off and just act like nothing has happened like I have been doing the past 3 months, but the fight in me is slowly getting hard to contain and I don't how much longer I can act like nothing is wrong "Brooke I'm always here you know that"

I then finally find the strength to push him back and look at him tears running down my face "Lucas I can't do this" I tell him shaking my head "You actually don't understand"

"Understand what Brooke?" He retorts back "Understand that I'm going through the same thing as you… understand that I lost our baby too"

"No Lucas" I reply as I feel fresh tears spilling from my eyes "You don't understand how much I love you… you don't understand how much you hurt me… how much my heart broke when I saw you and Peyton together. You might think we got pass it, but I will never forget it Lucas… and then I lost our baby and all the hurt from what you did to me and from losing the baby nearly broke me and if I let myself break I don't know if I can get back from that… so you don't understand at all"

"And you don't understand how much I regret hurting you Brooke… I guess you don't understand how much I hate that I hurt you… I'm so sorry Pretty Girl… god I'm sorry for it all… I really don't know what else to say" He responds to me and in my heart I know his sorry.

"Yeah I know you're sorry Luke" I nod looking away from him "But that doesn't mean anything has changed" I turn away from him and walk to my bedroom door "You need to go now Lucas… I need a shower" He nods at me walking towards me. My heart skips a beat everytime his near me… so having him touch me sends my body into overdrive and I have to try so hard to control myself around him.

-x-

"So Brooke got pretty drunk last night" Rachel says walking into the kitchen and over to the island "You got her home in one piece I saw"

"Yeah I sure did" Lucas nods taking a sip of his orange juice and then taking a bite of his toast "I couldn't leave her in the state she got herself in"

"Aw aren't you a knight and shining armour" Ashley says putting butter on the pancakes she made "Even though you did cheat on her with her bestfriend"

"Ashley…" Rachel said her name in a warning way.

"What…" She turned around and looked at Rachel "Did he or did he not cheat on Brooke with Peyton"

"He did" I nod seeing all eyes turn and watch me as I walk into the kitchen grabbing my favourite mug and pouring myself some coffee "But you don't get to taunt him about it since you didn't even bother to call me back after I called you regarding that situation"

"Brooke… I'm…"

"Sorry" I cut in knowing that was the word she was going to say next. I give a little laugh shaking my head "Seems like that's all anyone has been saying to me lately" I gulp at my coffee and watch as they all eat awkwardly giving another small laugh I put my coffee mug into the dish washer "I'm going out… too many unwanted people here" I walk out of the kitchen and grab my jacket by the door then taking my car keys from the key bowl on the table under the mirror.

"Brooke wait up" I hear Lucas call after me when I step out of the door. He shut it behind us.

"Hmm… yeah?" I ask checking for my phone in my bag I grabbed before opening the door.

"Are we ever going to be okay again?" He asks putting his hands in his jean pockets "I miss the way we use to be"

"I miss us too Luke" I tell him honestly. I do miss Brucas. I miss Brucas a lot and I know I'm too stubborn to admit that out loud and I know I was willing to work through everything that he had put me through, but that was when I had his baby growing inside of me… that was when I had something we would always be connect through, but now that is gone and in my mind so is the thought about us becoming Brucas again, but then my heart is telling me to forgive him completely and admit how much I truly love him and I want too… so bad I do, but I just can't… not right now "I miss Brucas just as much as you do"

"Then why are you fighting it?" He questions stepping closer to me "Why are you fighting against us?"

"Lucas…" I beg hoping the tears that are forming will not drop. I'm sick and tired of crying all the time "Please just drop it" I continue once my mind was set on words to say.

"No" He replies "I will not stop until you answer me Brooke" He wanted answers and I know he did. I wanted nothing more, but to be with him again. Tell him I love him, but I also don't want him to have so much power over me like he did before. I would have done anything for him… he was my everything and I honestly thought he was my one and only. Do I still think that way? Do I still love Lucas as much as I use to… yes I do… I would still do anything for him, but I can't let him know any of this… not again otherwise I'm not safe. My heart wouldn't be safe and I can't feel like I did before… I just can't "Pretty Girl… why are you fighting so hard to push me away… to push me right out your life"

"Lucas I can't do this right now" I tell him going to walk away, but he grabs my arm and spins me to look at him "Lucas please stop this"

"Just tell me Brooke" He pushes… why is he pushing me? He knows he shouldn't push me… not with something like this "Why fight so hard?"

"Because…" I stop to think how I was going to answer his questions and how much more I was going to admit too "Because…" Still nothing came to me, but then I couldn't help myself so I said, "Because if I let you in Luke then you have the power to hurt me again and I just can't go through that much pain… Not again. You broke me Lucas and I don't think you understand how much… I thought my world had ended when I saw you with Peyton. You were meant to be my one… my one and only and you turned out to be not my one… but my plenty… you turned out to be like every other guy and that hurt me most of all because I trust you with the one thing I cherished the most. I trusted you with my heart and you tore it apart… so that is why I'm fighting against the idea of us… that is why I'm fighting so hard Luke… I don't want to be vulnerable towards you anymore and if I tell you how I truly feel then I'm afraid you'll break me completely"

"I would never do that to you again Brooke" He states and I want to believe him. I really do "You have no idea how much I regret everything that has happened. I get that I hurt you Pretty Girl… I understand how you feel about losing our baby because I feel that loss too and I truly believe that if you let me in we can help each other because I want you to come home at some point and I want you to be able to get through this and I want to help you"

"Broody…" And then I felt fresh tears fall down my cheek

"You haven't called me that in a long time" He whispers, but loud enough for me to hear him.

"That's because it hurt so much to think of the connection we had"

"I still feel that connection Brooke" And I know what he means… I still feel that connection between us… I love him… I love him a lot.

"Broody…" He wipes the tears away from my cheek and just his touch gives me butterflies "I'm scared"

"I know you are baby" He walks closer to me so his just inches away. His ocean blue eyes lock onto my hazel ones "Please don't push me away"

"I'm tired… I'm so tired of fighting and hurting and I just want it to stop" And then I couldn't help myself I walk into him and he holds me. I then feel safe with him. I feel like I use to. I feel he is my one and only "I want it to stop"

"I know baby girl" He rocks me back and forth "God I love you Pretty Girl… so much" and I didn't reply I just held onto him closer and tighter crying harder into him "I'm here Brooke and I'm not going anywhere"

So I hope you like it ya'll and please press REVIEW and let me know what ya'll think. Much Love Always Roch xoxo