Chapter 9: Someday

I drove home grabbed all my stuff and walked to the door almost slipping and falling on my ass again.

grabbed the key from the mail box; Charlie had shown me where it was.

I walked into the empty house, Charlie was at work, he told me he might be late he's got lots of paper work to do.

I sighed and threw my stuff on the floor by the couch and flopped down.

I was kind of tired now it has been weeks since I slept last, months maybe, I wasn't sure, but I knew I took the toll for it. I had dark circles under my eyes, and I wasn't feeling too good. I got up thinking that a shower would do me good but then I remembered the CD in my car.

I went out to get it along with my CD player; I brought them up to Bella's room just incase Charlie came home early.

There wasn't a normal bed in there, just a crib, but there was a old rocking chair in the corner, yellow lining curtains hung on the sides of the window, the walls were baby blue.

I sat my CD player on the night stand by the rocking chair and plugged it in. I sat down and put the CD in.

I knew all of the songs on the CD already but I listened to them all anyways, by the end of the first song tears already flew freely down my cheeks. I skipped the songs Cassidy sang, which were most of the ones I wrote, I was next best song writer in our family, and mom was first. We were the only ones how had enough imagination to turn reality into words, words to make a song with.

I grabbed the CD case and looked in it, I never saw the folded piece of paper the first time, so I grabbed it and unfolded it.

Mol/ Mickey

I'm sorry for everything; I know what happened had the most effect on you. I'm sorry I didn't see it before I was too caught up in trying to enjoy the world mom died to make, I didn't pay attention to you, I'm sorry I missed all the signs. Cass is sorry too, you know her though she doesn't like to show that she's sad. Everything isn't going along here to good anymore, ever since you left dad has went down hill even more, and Gran is just trying to pretend nothing happened. None of them know I've sent this to you, I miss you sis. I need you, I don't expect you to come because I wasn't there for you when you needed me. I promise though, someday, somehow, I'm going to make it all right, but not right now, right now I want you to take the time you need, I will always be here waiting for you, no matter what.

Love

Johnny/ JeT

I laughed through my tears, I used to call him Jet because everyone was calling him J.T. and when I said it Jet just came out. He called me Mick because of that, mine are M.K. so Mick came out of that and that just turned into Mickey.

P.S. I wrote this last song for you. I will make it all right someday.HEy PEOplE PLease review!!!! it would me ME Oh sO HaPPy!! lol :P :D

XOXO (i almost put COCO....lol)