A.N: Ok i just wanted to say thanks for all the reviews... i'm glad you are all enjoying this story.

Now this chapter is M... so anyone who doesn't want to read that, please just skip over it when your reading it.

Oh and please forgive any small mistakes, my beta is taking a break :D:D - Steeph90 :)

I hope you enjoy this chapter.

-Katie

Quiet Guardian

Chapter 10: Unsaid (Bella's story: numb)

I sat; not moving, barely breathing where he left me.

I was thinking, it should have been easier… it had happened before and I hadn't known Emmett as long as I'd known Edward, we hadn't been through as much as Edward and I had; but the ironic thing is, we probably had.

Jake was the one to find me, looking empty and still wandering why this was hurting more then before, that's when it hit me a small part of me had always imagined Edward leaving me, but with Emmett some how I thought he wouldn't have ever left. I fell into Jakes arms crying and mumbling, "His gone, his gone."

"Who Edward?"

"Emmett."

Jake froze in my arms, and I realised he too was losing someone close to him, he brought me closer to him after that and pressed his lips to my forehead, "We'll be ok, you will be ok."

A part of me should of felt comfort in his arms, but I felt nothing… only numb.

*****

The Cullen's came back a week later (For Emmett's graduation).

I had expected them to know about Edward's condition and what had happened between Emmett and I, and I watched as they tried to support Edward; who was struggling to walk with his crutches on the grass, I watched as he argued against them and stumbled through the crowds to wear their seats had been labelled. Everyone looked around shocked at what happened to Edward, and how he no longer looked part of the Cullen family. I felt nauseas after I realised, that must have been how I looked compared to them.

Jake wrapped his arm around me, as he noticed where my stares had been directed.

"Here."

I felt something be slipped into my hand, and I tried to turn around to see who had given it to me, however I couldn't see anyone. I slowly opened it to reveal and invitation, inviting Jake and I to the Cullen family graduation party. I looked around at everyone else's shocked faces at the invitation, they had all obviously been invited too.

"We don't have to go if you don't want too."

I shook my head, obviously everyone else was going to be attending and I didn't want to be the only one left out, plus even though I hated to admit I needed to see him.

"No, we'll go."

He kissed my cheek and I sighed into it, we had been hugging and kissing a lot lately, although both of us knew it didn't mean what a simple onlooker would have guessed, I needed this comfort to keep myself going and Jake would do anything to make me better, so it was simply just something we did… a lot.

I tried hard not to look for Emmett, while I sat waiting to go up to receive my certificate, but a part of me ached to see him and every moment I got; I pretended I had a scratch or need to stretch looking over my shoulder or to my left or right. I eventually spotted him just before his name was called, and I watched him get up easily and walk by me as if I didn't exist, he accepted his award smiling over at his family, at Rose and I felt as if he had left again.

It finally got to the S's and I swallowed back the lump in my throat as I walked up to the stage. I tripped on the way up and my friends all laughed; not in a mean way, but more like 'That's our Bella.' I smiled at them and made a joke about my clumsiness, which everyone seemed to find funny which I was relieved for. Just before I got off the stage, I looked over at Jake who winked at me, I held back a laugh and smiled in his direction. That was when I heard it, a small growl and I snapped my head looking for Emmett, but he was lip locked with Rose and I realised the growl was from Edward… and a small part of me was disappointed.

*****

Jake arrived around seven to pick me up and I couldn't help but stare, he had really gotten dressed up, and wait had he got a hair cut.

"Nice Jake, very nice." I laughed as he spun around and ran up to meet me, grabbing me by the waist and spinning me round.

"You don't look to bad yourself missy."

Charlie came out and I realised by his guilty face that he had been talking to Emmett again, I knew I should be, but deep down I wasn't upset that they still talked.

"Bella…you look…very nice." I looked down at my dress, it was a deep blue and came up to my knees, it also allowed a nice bit of cleavage to show through, I would be lying if I said I wasn't trying to make Emmett notice me.

"Ok ready to go."

Truth was I wasn't and I wasn't sure when I ever would be, but I needed to see him and so I said.

"Yes."

*****

We pulled outside of the Cullen house, where already the whole school's cars were parked, the party was safely under way, so hopefully we could enter unnoticed by the other Cullens.

Our plan worked amazing well, as we were able to enter without any interruptions and make our way over to the refreshment table. Jake immediately shoved a series of snacks down his throat, while I poured as both a punch, which had been clearly spiked. Mike and Tyler were the first to come to mind.

"Bell's yove hagg tob tryff thidd," Jacob try to shove something into my hands, but I was too distracted by who had just walked into the room to notice. There stood Emmett, holding Rose closely to his side looking off in the distance, at nothing in particular. He was dressed in a simple black and white ensemble, but I felt my knee's get weak. And then although I had been expecting for him to finally look at me, I felt my breath be taken away when he finally did. He looked up at me, eyes finally locking on mine and a smile breaking immediately on his face; dimples and all, and that was all it took for my body to move automatically towards him while my brain shouted me to 'stop and turn the other way.'

"Bella." He breathed it out, and it was like Rose and the others had faded away, and it was just me and him standing there alone… how it should be.

"Emmett." I had told myself, that I was going to pretend that I had moved on, that when he left me it hadn't hurt at all and I didn't want him back, but now that all seemed stupid and I wanted to kiss him; even when Rose was still standing by his side, and tell him how much I missed him and how much I needed him.

"Em…" But whatever I had to say I forgot, when I felt Jake wrap his arm around my waist. I watched, looking for any sign that Emmett was jealous, but he just kept grinning his goofy smile.

"So are you two together now."

I wanted to shout no on top of my lungs, and collapse into him and hold on to him for the rest of my short life. But Jake and I had decided, to tell everyone we were dating (although we weren't) it was all part of the plan to act as if I had moved on… the stupid plan.

"Yep." Emmett's brow creased slightly, but his smile didn't falter and I felt like my chest had been ripped opened again.

"I always knew you two would end up together." I tried my best to smile and lean into the kiss as Jake pressed one to my cheek gently. Emmett leant forward brushing a stray piece of hair behind my ear, catching me off guard and causing me to rely on Jake to keep me standing.

"Emmett can I talked to you for a second."

"Oh please excuse me, I'll be right back." I watched as Emmett was pulled away from us and pushed outside, where you could just make out Rose yelling at Emmett, through the glass windows. I was confused, Emmett hadn't done anything and I shook my head, I was starting to feel sick being this close to him again and having to see him look at me with such intensity, only to not react to any of Jake's advances on me. It hurt and I found myself, needing to leave.

"Jake do you mind if we go." I watched as Jake enviously looked over at the refreshment table, "It's ok you grab a couple more I'll go grab our coats."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, you said you put our coats down… in the guest room right?" Jake nodded and since I had, had some experience in the Cullen house, I should have no problem finding it.

I made my way up to the guest room and peered inside, it was dark but the small moonlight slipping in through the curtains, allowed me to see our coats. I ventured into the room, without turning on the light. As I made my way over stumbling a bit to reach the bed to find our coats, it was only when I kicked my toe, that I swore and wished I had turned on the light.

I stood, my back to the window, slowly breathing in and out fighting away the pain, although deep down I knew it wasn't just my toe that was aching. All of a sudden I took in a deep breath, as I felt two hands slowly wrap themselves around my waist and trace tiny circles with there long fingers. My first thought was Jake, but after realising how cold they were I realised, they could only belong to him… Emmett and I let myself sigh out in contempt.

Although I knew it was him, I bit back breathing out his name, I case it scared him off neither of us were meant to be giving in. The clouds must have covered the moon, because I could no longer see my hands or anything in front of me. I made a bold move, spinning around placing both my hands on his chest, but he didn't leave he just guided his hands to my face and moved me so I was only inches from his face. Our nose brushed lightly together and I couldn't hold back my relief as I sighed out, however he too sighed out covering my need for him with his own need. 'Screw the plan' I silently said to myself as I felt his lips come to rest on mine and everything that had happened the last few days, lay forgotten as I kissed him back.

We both kissed and grab one another's clothes like it was the last day we would ever have together and truth was it was. Both of us knew as soon as that cloud was gone, that whatever we were doing would have to stop.

I grip on his shirt got tighter after that, when it finally dawned on me that I would have to say goodbye. My kisses became more passionate and drawn out, wanting never to stop and never let go. He pushed me back against the bed, and eventually we ended up with him lying on top of me (carefully) and me lying against a few dozen coats. My mouth opens and it's a welcome relief as I feel his tongue venture in my mouth and begin to 'dance' seems the appropriate word with mine. He is more confident then Edward, doing stuff Edward would never allow himself to do.

My hands make there way, up and down his back as I allow my hips to shift slightly into him, causing him to moan out in relief. I felt him pressed his body against me, not enough to crush me, but enough to allow me to feel him hard against my thigh. His hands slip from my waist, as he kisses make there where down my neck, his hands move under my shirt coming to rest on my bra, I let out a small moan as I felt his cold hands begin to brush against my breasts. Oh how I need him now.

I shift my hips closer to him, rubbing against his firmness as press him further down towards me, I know now he knows with out me having to say anything, that I want and need him as much as he wants and needs this, so I soon hear the fumbling of hands, as he slides down his jeans and boxers, along with mine. I knew now, even though it was pitch black, that we were starring into each others eyes, waiting for one of us to stop and forget this ever happened. But neither us do, so I tried to hide my pain as he slid into me.

"Bella." He spoke and I realised, he was breaking the silent pact we agreed to… because he knew I needed to hear him as much as he needed to hear me.

He moves more quicker in and out of me, and I finally felt the pain leave, to be replace with … pure bliss. I moved my hands, so they were now gripping his hair as I pulled him down , his lips finding mine as we did nothing but kiss and let out moans in sync… it was perfect and beautiful.

I felt myself tighten around him as everything I had been thinking about faded away, only to replaced by love and pleasure. I soon heard him moan out as he collapsed on the bed beside me, with his last bit of energy.

His breathing was uneven and heavy when he said it, "I love you Bella." and I'm pretty sure mine was the same way when I replied.

"I love you too Emmett."

Our breathing quieted and he rolled over pressing kisses into my shoulder, trying to fill as little time we had left; the room was already beginning to get lighter, by spending as much time holding one another as possible.

I rolled over facing him and curling my semi naked body into his, "I don't want to say goodbye."

"I know, I don't want to either… but we have to… I'm back with Rose now and your with him." He couldn't say it and I finally realised why I couldn't either say Rose's name out loud, it hurt way to much.

"Emmett…" I wanted to tell him everything, that I was never over him and how much I wanted to fight for him. But in a blink of an eye the moon was back out and he was gone, through the window leaving me alone again. I slowly got up re-dressed, I could feel the tears threatening to tear me apart again and I tried to make it to the door but I couldn't, as I fell back onto the bed and cried out for him again.

"Bella is that you?" I recognised the voice immediately and tried my best to hide myself amongst the coats, but he found me and pulled me up into his arms and for the first time since he came back, I allowed myself to cry into his shoulder, I feel his hand come to rest on my cheek as his brushes away my hair.

"I know."

I choke on my own sobs as he announces it, but it's more out of shock about the way he reacts to the fact that Emmett and I were involved, then anything.

"I don't care, well I of course a part of me does, but I'm more angry with the fact that you got hurt again. I'm really am sorry Bella."

I sniffle and nod, finally understanding the kind of human Edward has become.

"I know."

"Bella are you in here?" I try to smile weakly as Jake turns on the light and makes his way over, but he isn't convinced and he knows immediately the cause isn't from the guy sitting beside me.

"Do you want a hand with her Jacob?"

Jake shakes his head, still trying to get his head around that he is no longer friends with Emmett and someone he use to hate, now is acting nice towards him.

I feel his hands encircle my waist pulling me up towards him, "Are you ok." I know the way he says it, he doesn't mean if I'm ok to make it to the car, he is worried if I'm going to be ok ever again. So I pretend I don't know what he really means and answer him with the easy answer.

"Yes."

Because I'm pretty sure the other one, I wasn't even ready to answer… because for the second time since he left, I didn't feel anything… there was no longer any more pain that could hurt me more then it already had, all I felt now was numb.

A.N: Well was that ok? I hope so lol .... next chapter will be posted soon. Thank-you.

- Katie