Okay guys I'm on vacation so updating might be a little tricky...I'm currently in North Carolina on Topsail beach XD. Any way... 30 reviews OMG thanks sooo much you guys :-) I'm going to mix things up a bit here so lemme know if you love/hate it. BTW this chappie is going to have a baby Lemon...

Present Day
I'm watching the girls swim in a crowded pool while I sit in the shade nursing a sunburn. It's been two months and six days since I've seen little Emmett and it's killing me. My mind keeps slipping back to the days where i couldn't go a day without being wrapped in Jaspers arms...

I remember when I first married Emily, you hated me. You kept calling me begging me to re marry your mother. The calls lasted two months until you called and asked, "are you happy daddy?"

I told you I was but I wasn't...how could I be happy when I failed my babygirl? I don't love Emily but I'm afraid to break her heart.

"if you're happy daddy, then so am I."

Did I break your heart too?

Bella
I've been with Jasper for two weeks now...it's almost like we've known each other our whole lives...I found my other half. I thought that sort of thing just didn't happen...

To me it felt like I've known Jasper my entire life-he claims to feel the same way. Is it coincidence that his eyes just happened to be the perfect mix between blue and green...my favorite colors? I tell him every day that I can't decide if his eyes are blue or green.

Dad, I made a promise to die before my time... And I'm going to keep it... Bubby is asleep in my arms at the moment and I know I made a promise daddy...but can I be happy for a while first?

The next day

"Bella, Jasper...I'm going to town for a few hours...can you guys last that long without adult supervision?"

Bt- huh...she's noticed the sexual tension there too...

Jasper turned on the radio and we snuggled on the couch watching him draw until his mom left.

"So...are we um...following house rules?" I asked nervously. He chuckled darkly and responded "you think we could wait any longer?"

I wasn't sure how we ended up in his room or how I was suddenly naked, but the moment I noticed this my hands crossed over my stomach.

I'm not overweight but I don't have the tummy most guys are looking for, and being mostly Irish meant I had a major lack of tan as well.

"don't," he whispered tugging at my arms "you're beautiful"

I laid my arms by my side still staring at my stomach until he placed a finger under my chin...forcing me to look at him.
"Bella, I love every part of you."

"every part?"
He only nodded in response. Suddenly, I was nervous. I NEEDED him to accept my scars for what they were...I needed to know if they affected him, if he accepted them. I turned my arms over so my scars were bare,

"even these?"
He hesitated and my heart broke. I knew it...I knew they made him sick...he couldn't stand them.

He surprised me. His mouth turned into a half frown as he lifted my left arm where the worst collection of scars were.

I thought he just wanted a closer look but he kissed every scar he could reach and whispered,
"you wouldn't be who you are today without them"

Moments later I was on my back with him positioned over me. "are you sure you want this?" he was nervous too.

I was so scared. If I said yes I was going against everything I was raised on. I only nodded in response.

Ladies? If you read any lemony stories where it says loss of virginity doesn't hurt...they LIED.

He slowly entered me slowly thrusting all the way to the hilt. Holy mother FUCKER did it hurt. My back arched into him and he silenced my scream with a kiss. He tried to be sympathetic of the fact that I was in pain...but he was, in fact, male.

Ladies the pain doesn't last very long but it hurts. Like hell.

He found a rythm that worked for him and FINALLY the pain turned into pleasure. And I started grunting right along with him. There weren't words for what I was feeling and honestly I didn't care I just didt want it to stop.

"so close bells, so close"
He started to pant. I angled my hips so he could bury himself deeper and I barely registered the fact that "bad romance" by Lady Gaga was playing on the radio before we both heard it. The garage door opening.

We both froze and looked at each other.
"SHIT!"

We were both dressed, and back in the living room before Emmett raced up to me. And Rosalie walked into the living room.

"so what did you guys do while I was gone?"

"listened to music and doodled" came Jaspers response. I had an idea...if he didn't want his mom to know what we did there was only one thing to do.

"oh, Jasper don't lie. He swept me away int his room and claimed my virginity as we had wild and crazy sex."

I laughed outright as Jaspers jaw hit the floor. Rosalie chuckled and responded "yea right and I'm a smurf... Play with bub will you?"

Jaspers face?

Priceless.