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I own "It Was You." It's really a poem that I wrote do not take it without my permission. This poem is already published so don't bother stealing it.

When we got to Gwen's portrait Jelly squealed, "Wow she's pretty." Gwen smiled and said

"Password?" "Remembering Heals," I said. The portrait opened and Jelly ran inside with Heart,

Celestrial, and me following. "Ooh," squealed Jelly, "It's so mysterious." She looked around my

bedroom and dropped her bag before jumping in my bed. I laughed, "Come on let me show you the

rest of it." "There's more?" she asked. I opened the door to my bathroom and she loved it. Then I

showed her my practice space. "Whoa," she breathed, "It's amazing." "Do you really play all those

instruments," she asked. I shrugged and said, "Yeah." Then her eyes lit up when she saw the ballet

studio. "You do ballet," she asked in awe. "Um yeah," I said uncomfortably. "Can you show me

some moves," she asked. "Maybe later," I said. "How about I sing you this new song I wrote," I said.

"Okay," she said happily. I picked up one of my guitars and stood behind the mic. "It's called It Was

You." I started singing. My voice became edgy.

Why did you do it was it something I said?

Now that it's over a part of me is dead

Sure I go around like I just don't care

But do you even notice how a smile from me is rare

I wanna be happy but my heart I can't ignore

Tears form in my eyes and you don't even know what they're for

While I'm having nightmares and waiting for my heart to mend

You have a lot of fun and pretend nothing even happened

You created this mess

Then you left me stressed

I'm starting to get depressed

Happiness is coming less and less

I'm about to snap I can't deal with this

My head wants to explode every time I see you kiss

You find yourself cute and you think your amusing

How can you go on when to you girls are for using

You're pissing me off and I'm getting annoyed

I really don't like it when you're overjoyed

I want you to suffer I want you to pay

Since I'm so lazy I won't do it today

It may sound bitter but that's how I feel

I thought you were different I thought you were real

But you're not you're just like all of the rest

It's a shame considering I liked you best

I'll always remember you because you left me a token

It was you, the first boy who caused my heart to be broken…

I finished softly. "Wow," she said, "I love your voice." "Thank you," I said, "Now lets go see my

other room." I showed her the final room. "It's my relaxation room and library," I said. "Cool it's so

big," she said. "What's that," she asked pointing to the TV. "That's the TV we can watch anyone

and anyplace in the school." Awesome," she said, "That means we can spy on people." "Yeah if you

like," I said. "I'm hungry," she admitted. "Okay lets go get some snacks," I said. Then I told her to

just follow me and we'd get to the kitchens. "I've never been there," she said, "My brother goes all

the time but he won't take me." "Well if we see anyone don't tell them where my room is ok," I said.

"Alright," she said. We walked into the kitchens. "What the hell?" asked a surprised Black. "Shit ,"I

thought. "Where did you come from?" he asked us. "From Lily's room," said an overexcited Jelly,

"Her room is so great it's got everything and it's huge." "Let's just get our food," I interrupted her.

While she ordered stuff I sat down and waited. "All alone Black?" I asked. "Yeah," he said. "Um

Evans," he said timidly. "What?" I asked. "I just wanted to say sorry," he answered. I looked at him,

"Okay," I said. As Jelly went through the portal I turned around and surprised myself by saying,

"Black wanna come along?" He looked shocked but said, "Sure." I pushed him through the portal

and he was staring in amazement at my relaxation room. "This is fab-u-lous," he said in a mock

Italian voice. Jelly settled down to watch the TV and spy on Shane and I showed Black the rest of my

pad. He loved my bedroom and bathroom. "What's behind this door?" he asked pointing to my

practice room. "No don't open that door," but it was too late cause he'd already opened it. I walked

in after him. He just stood staring in silence. "You play all these instruments he asked?" "Yeah I do,"

I said. I quickly cast a charm to hide the ballet studio before he saw it. I'm not embarrassed by it. I

just don't like other people knowing that about me. We walked back into the relaxation room and sat

down on the couch. "What's that?" he asked. "It's a TV and it can show you anyone and anyplace as

long as it's at Hogwarts." He suddenly got very hyper, "Yay so we can watch Jamesie Wamsie on his

date." I laughed, "Yeah," and we started watching James on a date with Cherri. Jelly fell asleep

halfway through their date and me and Black sat side by side eating junk food and cracking jokes at

the corny lines Potter said to Cherri. "James no one makes me feel the way you do," said Cherri

while fluttering her eyelashes. Black snorted loudly and I laughed too. "No one does what you do to

me either too, Cherri," said Potter. "Yeah right," I snorted "What about that fifth year Ravenclaw

you were with the other night?" Black stared at me. "How do you know that," he asked. "I watched

him on that date with her" I said, "It was quite entertaining." "You mean you spy on us," he asked.

"No I sit here and watch Cherri and her drones get happy about lip gloss," I responded sarcastically.

"Then how come you never said anything about the pranks you knew we were going to do?" he

asked. "I didn't particularly care," I said simply. "Then you know about Remus," He said. I looked

him square in the eye and said, "I know about all of you Padfoot." "How come you never told anyone

after all the hell we've put you through?" he asked quietly. "Because," I said, "Contrary to true

belief I do possess a heart Black." He stared at me for a long time and finally he said, "It's Sirius." "I

know," I said. "Well you can call me that because you have my respect and you have been put in my

good graces," he said mockingly. "As can you," I said back. We smiled at each other and then he

squinted at my chest and got a demented grin on his face, "Lily Billy you are an amazing person with

an amazing rack." Siri baby so are you and if you stare at my chest again I'll hit you so hard you'll be

seeing double," I said also grinning. It was really late so I turned off the TV. "I gotta put Jelly to

bed," I said. I picked her up and gently took her into my room and laid her across my bed. Sirius

turned to leave but I stopped him. "Filch is in the halls so it's not safe for you to leave yet," I said.

"Okey Dokey let's do the hokey pokey," he said cheerfully. I stared at him not quite sure of his

sanity. With a roll of my eyes I went and changed into an oversized t-shirt in the bathroom and took

my wand out and tied my hair up. When I came back into the room Sirius teased, "Lily Billy I think

you're trying to seduce me wearing that shirt and normally I'd give in but you forget there is a child

present." I smiled and said sarcastically, "Yes Siri baby you've found out my true reason for inviting

you tonight, do me now oh baby oh baby." He got a naughty grin on his face and took a step towards

me. "If that's what you really want? I hit him upside the head. "Shut it you," I said laughing. I sat

down by the window again and opened it. I sat just staring up at the stars. "Lily," Sirius said. I

blinked I'd almost forgotten he was there. "Yeah," I asked. "Why were you so mad when we pulled

that last prank?" I stared at him. "I get why you were mad," he said hastily, "But you seemed more

upset about it than anyone else normally would be." I turned back to look at the stars and started

speaking softly, "You know my uncle use to tell me that the stars were dead loved ones watching

over us that was the last thing he told me before he went away." Sirius sat down next to me. I

continued, " I loved him with all my heart he was always there for me which is why it hurt me so

much when he did what he did. I was only ten years old when it happened. I still have nightmares

about it. Sometimes I wish I could just ask him why he did it. Why he raped me?" Sirius eyes widened

in surprise. "You were raped," he said almost in a whisper. "Yes I was," I said. I finally turned to

face him, "That's why I was so mad by what happened, especially by what Potter said. I wish it was

as easy as me losing my virginity for two galleons but it's not. Mine was stolen from me along with

my childhood." Sirius stared at me with sad eyes, " I'm sorry Lily, I truly am." "I know you are," I

said after a long silence. For a while me and him just sat there staring up at the stars together not

really thinking just accepting each other. That night we accepted each other with no questions asked.

We also became great friends in the process. I don't know exactly how long we sat there just talking

but we were at peace for at least one night.