Author's Thoughts 10?
I kinda forget which one we're on after a while I've been doing this for so long
So there we are, the community has decided on what they want. Kinda overpoweringly they've chosen the Z and the D and now I will spin my mystical writing powers around the mystical writing loom and eventually come out with a mystically written story. Mystically
And I went way too far with the mystical thing. Anyway. IT IS TIME TO WRITE AND BRAINSTORM. BRAINSTORMING! AWAY! TO BAD! D&D JUST TOOK OVER! CRAPPPPPPPP
Alright! I just did my first D&D as a DM and I didn't completely suck! Praise the sun! Maybe I should write my D&D adventure on here? Would people be interested in that? I made a kinda interesting plot line I think. And the PCs didn't actually completely destroy it which is weird.
So I haven't really made my plan yet, though that was doing other things. And guess what, I've probably got even more things to add to my daily list of things to do! So yeah, that's a thing. So I'm kinda sitting here, sweating my balls off as I die from this insane heatwave my city is getting. Like 25 degrees Celsius man. I joke of course, while I die from intense heat that is higher than 25, I still know that to some countries this is perfectly normal temperature and are used to it. Well I'm not acclimatised to it. So I'm here, sweating. And now I've got to add reading scripts and screenplays to my daily routine. At least one a day hopefully. Jesus my massive list of stuff to do to remain healthy is massive, but I just love doing all of it. Anyway, I'mma brainstorm tonight and actually try and get some ideas out of my melty brain.
Also, I'm going to be holding a massive Cyberpunk discussion with any writers out there who want to participate. Cyberpunk is my favourite genre ever (Actually buying more books of it the day after I write this, I'm such a bad person, I have so many books to read) and I really want to make a Cyberpunk story so I'd love to have a massive discussion which I'll set up. I dunno if you guys wanna grab as many FanFiction writers and readers as you know and maybe get them in on this discussion but it's out there, unless writers and readers get involved it's not going to amount to much and I'll just end up with my betareaders (Who're the bomb) and myself. Completely your choice though, send me a message
Well I was planning on brainstorming. Then my brain was like, hey, this idea's so good I want you to just do that section now and work out the story later. So I just 1200 words and didn't even plan out my story. Yay!
Hey again readers, just to say a small thank you again to everyone out there. I, uh, I kinda dunno how to make any of this go. Like whenever I thank someone in public for something big all I can do it hug them and try to not make it awkward but it always ends up awkward. But I'd like to thank all of you so much. Seriously, so so much. I, well. Not a lot has been going great for me lately. It's stagnant. Like we're in a good place, but I'm not progressing. This is job related mostly but I was looking for a part time work for 2 months and eventually gave up and became a volunteer worker. But for the past couple of weeks I've become slow and stagnant. I wasn't actually doing anything creative, which to me is stupid. Cause I love being creative. And I found that the endless waiting and constantly re-trying and retrying and retrying and retrying and not getting anywhere wore down me and I didn't try advancing for these two weeks. And I had a depressing day today where I realised I hadn't been doing anything creative for 2 weeks. Whereas actually I had. I've been reading, so so much. I've been reading articles, I've been reading books, and I've been designing and preparing and preparing and learning as much as I can. And I have been creative, I wrote, I designed, I thought, I wrote stuff down. And I attribute it to you lot. My writing and my readers. You lot. So that even in my time where I wasn't actually creating, I was learning. I was trying to improve myself. I was listening to TED talks, I was practicing my thinking. I was learning. And I was writing. So to myself that says you've been doing nothing and you're becoming lax and not trying. Only half true my evil alter ego known as depression! ONLY HALF TRUE BITCH. ONLY HALF TRUE
Readers. Thank you.
Well. I just read 10 fanfics by Yuji23, Alsodef, Waddlebuff, 4dollarbill, TheLastYukami, LiduiDSol, xStormyNightsx, Kneesurgery, BlackhandCat and Shvick. On the week of abstention from masturbation (Hey that is an awesome rhyme) and my god, you make it hard to actually walk around the place guys. I was doing it for inspiration and to see how I can improve but now I have to go to the toilet whilst doing a handstand.
Man I suck, I need to keep improving. My story and description of sex needs to improve dammit! Arghghghgh. I don't give the right description, I give too much description, my sentences don't flow together, information seems all over the place, things seem out of place, descriptions should less comicy and breaking the atmosphere, I should use better description words, I should use sound a lot more as a sense, as well as smell, touch and taste. My actual erotica pales in comparison to others. I must improve more! MORE!
Things I have realised: I don't actually like most of the sex scene in Hot Air. Like don't get me wrong, I love it, but I don't like it descriptively. It was too rushed. I tried to finish it too soon and it just clouded my mind. It wasn't quality smut
Sharing Prey was probably my best description of sex but again it slowly fell off. Like it seems all my smut just slowly falls off when it get near the end.
FTFA was great in what I wanted to attempt and I thought I did it actually really well. It didn't fall off and was overall pretty awesome sex scene though its line of thoughts and sentences didn't work as well as it could have. It should've flowed more and it would've been beautiful
OUFT was a bit of an improvement on my work in general though I think that's cause I held through to the end and didn't just want it to finish. As I wrote it in one sitting I didn't have the problem of just trying to finish it and so my work didn't suffer. I kinda wish it was longer even though I was practicing writing short stories. I'm a terrible person for thinking that
Okay, my body health is sucking right now. You wanna know why? Growth spurt! I'm freaking 20 years old and am going to go through my last growth spurt and my god I didn't realise how annoying these were. I've literally collapsed twice now whilst trying to read. I just sit down, pull out my book and wake up 2 hours later with my mouth open and drool everywhere. It's really annoying cause I'm trying to get stuff done and my body's just like: NOPE. SLEEP NOW.
So because of that, my work is probably not going to coming out anytime soon. I'd say give it till the 1st of September. Actually, that'll be my aim. 1st of September I'll get this out to you guys. I'll try and now overwork myself with the amount of research I'm doing (Like seriously, I read the entire of Aristotle's Poetics. Tbf, it was pretty freaking awesome read. So interesting) but I can't promise anything. I love learning but it hurts my head with the amount I take in on a daily basis.
So hopefully in good health
Onwards!