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Toris POV

"Are you sure we won't get in trouble?"

Feliks laughed a little. "Totally sure! Stop worrying, Toris! Beside, this should be the safest place for us right now."

Of course he was right. Tim had no way of knowing we were here, in the astronomy tower. Perhaps we were actually safe here, for now at least.

"Plus," Feliks continued. "It's beautiful up here."

"Indeed it is." I responded, smiling.

No one could deny it. It wasn't even that late, just after dinner, but since it was november the 30th it was pitch black outside. The moon and the stars shone beautifully down on us. I just loved Hogwarts so much at night. The lights from the castle, the night sky and the silence made the scenario really pretty. If I had been a better artist, I would have painted what I saw in the exact moment here and sell it for a great amount of money.

"I wish this year could end soon." Feliks said. "Then we wouldn't have to see Tim again. It's his last year you know, so after this year, we'll be totally free from him!"

He looked really hopeful saying that, but…. "What if...someone else starts to bully us instead?"

"I don't think so. It's like, Tim everyone's afraid of, that's why they act like they do. As soon as he's gone, this hell with stop. And you know, everyone else in his gang will like, graduate this year too."

"Not that Slytherin girl. She's in our year."

"That doesn't matter. Toris, none of them are bad people. They are just in bad company. And they probably have their own problems, with drinking parents or something."

"That's not excuse! I don't understand how you can talk about people who hurt you like that!"

"Toris, I just try to understand them. I'm not saying that having problems at home or whatever is an excuse for being mean to people. But do try to understand them. I don't think any human is born evil, not even Tim. On the inside, they are all kind. It's the circumstances that makes them do evil things. I'm not saying that neither you nor I should forgive them for what they've done, but I'm saying that you should try to look past their surface, the mask they put up, and realise that they too are people."

I couldn't answer. What could I possibly have said? I must have stared at him for quite a while, because Feliks serious expression was suddenly replaced with a big grin.

"Toris, you look like, so stupid! You should totally see your face right now!"

Laughing, I pulled him into a hug. "You're probably the bravest, most clever person I know." I mumbled into his hair.

"Why?"

"Because you have the courage to accept and understand even those who treats you bad. And you're clever enough to figure out how they feel."

Now it was Feliks turn to laugh. "And I thought I sounded cheesy before!"

I joined him in his laughter, but we both stopped abruptly when we heard a creak from the staircase, followed by a the sound of fabric being torn. Sitting in complete silence, we tried to make out more noises. Nothing.

"Who's there?" Feliks asked the staircase. I mean the person that probably stood there. No one answered. Slowly, I got up and walked over to the stairs. I looked down on them…. But saw nothing.

No, wait. Something…. I walked down a few stairs and picked up a tiny piece of fabric. A piece of a Ravenclaw robe to be exact.

BANG!

I was pushed roughly into the stonewall. My head hit the it hard and black spots danced before my eyes. Somewhere, I think I heard someone say something. Or was the person laughing?

A kick hit me in the ribs. More black spots danced as I tried to regain my lost breath. Another kick. And another. My head hit the wall again and now everything went black. Everything was foggy, I was still conscious, but just barely.

Then I heard a loud shout from...somewhere. My dizzy brain couldn't detect from which direction the shout had come from. Someone hissed something, probably a swearword. Steps were heard from two directions. One running away from me, the other running towards me.

Someone called my name. The voice was familiar, gentle and sweet. Who were the person talking to me? Groaning, I opened my eyes. And of course. Beside me sat Feliks, looking more than furious.

"Hi Feliks." Was all I managed to choke out.

"Toris! Oh my god, are you okay? Those bastards have never physically hurt you like that before! Can you move? Does your head hurt? Can you hear even me?"

"Calm down, I -ouch, Feliks let go of my shoulder-, I can't keep up with what you're saying. You're talking too fast." Groaning again, I slowly sat up. "Yes, I can move. Somewhat." I added with a hiss after trying to move my left arm. Keyword; trying. It wouldn't move. As soon as I tried to, a burning pain exploded in my arm and spread to my shoulder and collarbone. Feliks noticed immediately. Carefully, he examined my arm.

"It's broken." He stated, swallowing as if trying to hold back tears. "We have to get you to the hospital wing."

"That's what I told you last time…" I mumbled.

"My collar bone wasn't broken! Toris you really h-have to go get y-your arm ch-che…." He broke down sobbing.

"Shh, don't cry…" I softly rubbed his back with my right arm as he rested his forehead on my chest. "Don't worry Feliks, it's fine. It's going to be okay."

I'm not going to cry. I told myself. I was going to be the strong one this time. But those things are easier said than done. Because it wasn't going to be okay. My words were nothing but lies. And right now, Feliks picture of Tim and the others being kind was close to impossible to believe in.

Dear Toris.

I hope you're well and that everything is fine with Eduard and Feliks too. Are you doing well in school? Oh what a silly question, I know you do! You're going to be a fantastic wizard, dear…..

And mom continued in normal mother fashion. Are you eating well? (Does candy count?) Are your classmates nice to you? (No, but I'm not planning on telling you about it.) Is there anything you want me to send to you? (Something that would keep bullies and idiots away from me maybe?). You know, the usual stuff. Then there were also a short letter from my other brother, Raivis. Reading his letters always made me smile. He was only ten years old, and his childish happiness always shone from the letters. Mom thought it was unnecessary to send two different owls when both her sons went to Hogwarts, so there were also a letter for…

"Hello Toris! Has mom send a letter again?"

"You make it sound like that was something bad, Eduard!" I replied, laughing. Thank God for magic and the nurses at the hostital wing! Making the nurses belive me when I'd said I'd fallen from the stair was a piece of cake, but fooling my brother would have been an entirely different matter!

"Of course." He sarcastically answered, smiling slightly. "Did she send me one too?"

"You know she did."

"True." He said, smiling a little brighter, and reached for the letter I handed him.

"Raivis wrote a part too."

"Oh, I see…." My brother mumbled, looking through the letter. His reaction surprised me. Usually, he'd at least smile a little. To be honest, Eduard had been acting a little weird in the past few days. A little out of character, if you know what I mean. Then again, I didn't get to see him that often, since he usually hid in his dorm to study. But I still felt like something was wrong.

"Is there something bothering you, Eduard?"

"Hm?" Eduard looked up from the letter. "No, I'm fine. I've just stayed up studying a bit too late the latest days." He laughed, scrathing the back of his head awkwardly. "You know how I can be."

"Geez, Eduard! You know you don't have to do that! You're probably the smartest guy in school as it is! Promise me that you'll go to sleep earlier today?"

"Aye sir!" He replied playfully.

We exited the chilly Owler Tower. The stairs were already slippery from the thin, thin layer of ice on them.

Eduard and I parted when we reached the school. The thought of something bothering my brother wouldn't leave my mind. He had lied to me, I was sure about that. Which meant something was incredibly wrong, as Eduard was usually one who always told the truth.

Maybe someone was being mean to him? Oh dear lord, what if Tim had been bullying him too, as he was my brother? I had to ask Eduard later. There were no way I would let Tim hurt my brother!

"What do you think our lives will look like after Hogwarts?"

We were up in the astronomy tower again. This tower really was the best place on Hogwarts. So peacefull and quiet. Though at first, I had been a bit reluctant to go here again. The robe part I had found almost a week ago could have been Tims. Though it didn't have to be. I had no way of knowing whom the robe had belonged to. Maybe it belonged to a normal Ravenclaw student who had gone to the astronomy tower to watch the stars. Maybe they had seen us and didn't feel like interrupting, but then got stuck when they were to leave. I truly hoped that was the case.

"That's a good question." I replied. "What do you think?."

Feliks smiled brightly. "We could live on the countryside. Adopt two cute kids and buy a huge, old house to live in!"

"We should buy horses too!" I said, smiling.

"Oh my god, yes! We could have a farm!"

"Do you mean we should breed horses?"

Feliks shrugged. "Maybe. Like, we don't' have to decide now, but living on a farm would be awesome!"

Smiling, I pulled him into a hug. "Yeah." I whispered into his hair.

We sat like that for who know's how long, talking about our future, how we would live, what we'd work with, anything. Some things more serious than other. Feliks even tried to figure out what names the children we'd adopt would have! It might sound ridiculous and unrealistic, thinking about things like that now. But his eyes were shining so bright when he talked about it. He smiled in a way I hadn't seen him smile for a long while. He gesticulated enthusiastic and the happiness in his voice was simply indescribable.

"Maybe I can wear dresses sometimes too. I like, can't do it now I mean. With Tim and all that. If we have a daughter, I could go shopping with her! And then, you'd like, escape that." He joked.

"Oh thank god!" I responded playfully. Not that I didn't like go shopping with Feliks. But he could take quite some time in stores sometimes.

When we'd stopped laughing, a comfortable silence settled over the tower. The view from here was beautiful, as always. The stars gleamed like gold and the moon shone like silver. But somewhere, far, far away by the horisont, dark clouds were creeping up on the sky. It was going to rain tonight, that was for sure. At least the tower had a roof. Plus, rain wasn't that bad. I actually found the sound quite calming and I knew Feliks did too. But I didn't like the rain clouds. They always seemed so threatening.

A few days passed. Nothing changed. Classes, bullying, classes, bullying. The only place were we felt safe was the astronomy tower.

We sat there again, talking about anything and nothing. I always loved to talk like that with Feliks. Because it never felt forced, no matter what we talked about. And we could just sit there too, not saying a single word. Those moments where so peaceful and filled with love.

And it was in one of those moments they walked in. We were sitting looking out on the castle, the forest, the horisont and beyond that. Feliks had his head on my shoulder. Our fingers were intertwined. We had our backs towards the stair and never heard them. Until he spoke up.

"So he was right after all. This is where you're hiding."

We jumped up from our positions and spun around. Tim, Caleb, that Slytherin girl and the two boys from Ravenclaw stood by the stair, Tim and the girl leaning casually against the railing.

"H-how...why...?" Feliks stammered.

"Look at him. He's so scared he can't even speak!" The girl said, smirking evilly. I saw Tim glaring a little at her. He clearly didn't like the way she tried to steal the scene.

"How did you know we were here?" I asked, trying to draw the attention away from Feliks. "Who's 'he'?"

"You haven't guessed that yet?" Tim said, smirking ever so slighly. He nodded towards one of the Ravenclaw boys, who quickly ran down the stairs. The boy returned in a few seconds, the person Tim had been talking about had obviously been standing just below the stairs. The brown haired Ravenclaw dragged the other person up to us.

I could feel all the colors leaving my face and I felt like I could throw up any minute. No... wasn't possible...

"Oh yes!" Tim laughed. The person who told us where you were was no one other than your own little brother!"

Eduard looked at me with sad, pleading eyes. "I'm so sorry Toris." He whispered. I looked away, down on the floor and refused to meet his gaze.

Feliks seemed to be shocked as well, as he just stared at Eduard, face whiter than snow. He didn't seem to know what to think, believe or do. But now it seemed kind of obvious to me. Why Eduard had been acting strange. Why he'd lied. The answer was right in front of me. He stood there, together with the people that bullied us, and the right arm of his Ravenclaw robe had a hole in it. Why hadn't I seen it before, at the Owler tower a few days ago?

Because I had refused to.

What happened after that moment was a big blurr. I don't know who drew their wand first, who shot the first spell. Suddenly, we were caught up in some kind of fight, with me and Feliks against Tim, his gang and...and...my brother. My mind didn't quite follow the different persons movements. It felt like half of my brain was somewhere else. What was even happening? Were we fighting? Why? And Eduard….Why were he standing on Tim's side? Half of my brain could answer all those questions. But the other half, the one who had asked, refused to accept the answers.

The girl screamed and dropped her wand, hit by one of Feliks spells. In return, Tim directed his next spell towards Feliks. He moved aside to avoid it, but it still hit his left arm. Feliks hissed in pain, but blocked the next attack with ease and shot back a spell towards the group.

It was hell. Why did this have to happen? Everything was just a big mess. And why had no teachers heard us? We couldn't stop this fight by ourselves! And I couldn't leave Feliks to find someone either.
I took a deep breath. It was going to be fine, I told myself. Soon, someone will hear us and come to your rescue. Just hold on for a little longer. Just a little longer.

Then a spell hit me in the stomach and sent me flying across the tower-room. I must have screamed when I hit the wall, but I didn't hear it. The pain in my back and head shut out everything. When my senses returned, Tim stood a few steps away from me, raising his wand.

"STOP!" A voice screamed from behind the tall Ravenclaw. "Stop it Tim! This is too much! Please, Tim!"

Tim turned to my brother, who paled in an instant. "What did you say?" He hissed.

"I-I….I told you to stop! Don't hurt him anymore Tim!" Eduard screamed back.

Tim raised his wand again, but this time towards my brother. A ray of light shot out of the wand and flew towards my brother.

But it never hit Eduard. He was pushed aside in the last second.

I don't know why he chosed to save Eduard. Saved the one who had betrayed him. But he did. And the spell hit him instead of my brother. Time stopped as I couldn't do anything but watch the person I loved the most in the world fly towards the railing of the tower. All sounds were blocked out. I screamed something, but I couldn't hear what.

The railing wasn't high enough. And Tim's spell had been too powerful. Even though I knew I could never reached him, still on the floor after Tim's attack, I reached out my hand.

Our eyes met for the last time. The world was still in slow motion. He smiled, in the most loving, caring and heartbreaking way. Then he closed his eyes. And the world went on full speed again. He fell. The sounds returned. And I could hear what I had been screaming all this time.

"FELIKS!"