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Chapter 10
As Kurt turned the corner that took him onto the corridor that led to his room, he spied Sebastian sitting against the wall beside his door.
"Do you really have nothing better to do with your time than pester me?" Kurt asked with a suffering sigh.
"Tragically, no," Sebastian admitted as he stood up. "I could watch a live porno starring Nick and Jeff but I've walked in on them doing unspeakable things to one another countless times now."
"Lovely," Kurt commented dryly as he opened the door, leaving it open so Sebastian could follow him in.
"So, sweetheart, did you have fun with Blaine?" Sebastian asked sitting on the edge of Kurt's neatly made bed.
"I'm not sure if 'fun' is the appropriate word, but our time together was certainly informative," Kurt answered as he put his newly mended trousers in the wardrobe.
"Do tell," Sebastian prompted.
"Promise you won't repeat a word of this to another soul?" Kurt asked as he removed the collar from his throat and set it on his desk.
"I assure you, I'm an expert at keeping secrets," Sebastian told him.
"Well, it turns out that I was kind of right but kind of wrong," Kurt said. "I knew there was something more going on with Thad and Blaine. I jumped to conclusions and just assumed it was something abusive but according to Blaine, Thad wouldn't hurt a fly."
"Thad couldn't hurt a fly, look at him, he's a weakling," Sebastian remarked rather rudely.
"Anyway," Kurt continued as though Sebastian hadn't interrupted. "It turns out that Thad is in love with Blaine. That's why he dotes on him the way he does and always carries his books and gets his food for him. He even," Kurt blushed slightly and Sebastian found the sight adorable. "Thad bottoms for Blaine. I'm pretty confident that is unusual behaviour for a senior, is it not?"
"As far as I'm aware, a senior has never bottomed for their claimed boy," Sebastian replied. "If the senior does include a sexual dynamic then he's always the boy on top and in control."
"Thad is in love with Blaine, he thinks they're boyfriends apparently," Kurt said. "But Blaine doesn't feel the same. And I guess he feels guilty about it. He told me when Thad graduates he'll end up breaking his heart."
"Sounds like that might be the case," Sebastian commented. "And Blaine is pretty; I guess it's easy for a boy to fall in love with him."
"He likes you though, doesn't he? Blaine, I mean," Kurt clarified.
"Yeah, Blaine does have a little bit of a crush on me," Sebastian said. "A lot of guys do as a matter of fact. But I don't see Blaine that way. The on-goings of this school are a bit like a rom-com or a chick-flick. Thad loves Blaine, Blaine has a crush on me, but I have a thing for you. But you're just a little gorgeous cock-tease aren't you sweetheart?"
"I am not a cock-tease," Kurt retaliated jutting his hip out and resting his hand there, putting on his best bitch glare.
"Come here, Kurt," Sebastian beckoned and a still glaring Kurt stepped closer to where Sebastian was seated on the edge of the bed. "Kneel down for me."
"What? No way," Kurt spluttered taking a step back.
"Kurt, please, just humour me," Sebastian said.
"Why, so you can feel powerful and like you're in control?" Kurt asked with a huff.
"Yes," Sebastian answered honestly and perhaps it was his honesty that convinced Kurt to obey. "Thank you," he said quietly as Kurt knelt at his feet, still shooting him that bitchy glare. "Look," Sebastian sighed as he dragged a finger across Kurt's empty throat (the collar still resting on the desk). "You might be the claimed boy with the collar, but you're actually the one with the power here, probably more than you realise. The only real power and control I have as your senior is that the collar I've given you keeps you safe from any other senior taking advantage."
"I'm on my knees," Kurt pointed out, clearly not impressed with the position. "In what way do I have any kind of power over you?"
"Because I have feelings for you," Sebastian replied. "Feelings that you don't reciprocate. And I'm not like Thad, ok. I'm not in love with you. I don't know you well enough for that. But I do like you and that means you can hurt me; that means you have power."
"I'm not… I'm not looking to hurt you," Kurt mumbled defensively. "Yes, I turned down your offer for a date, but I told you, I'm not interested in dating anybody."
"Can you be quiet or do I need to gag you?" Sebastian asked sounding a little impatient.
"Fine, I'm listening," Kurt said with a roll of his eyes.
"What I'm trying to say here," Sebastian continued. "Is that I don't want us to end up like Thad and Blaine. I don't want things to get so fucked up that I actually fall in love with you and delude myself into thinking we're more than just a senior and his claimed boy. I don't want to graduate thinking we're boyfriends and expecting a relationship to continue if you're not interested in me like that. I don't want to…"
"You don't want to get your heart broken," Kurt finished for him.
"Right," Sebastian nodded. "So just… promise me you won't let me turn into Thad. If I start acting like him and get too clingy and possessive then just be honest with me. Brutally so. Punch me in the face and remind me that I'm your senior, nothing more. Think you can do that?"
"Yes, I can do that," Kurt assured him.
"Good," Sebastian said.
"Can I stand up now?" Kurt asked.
"But you look so good kneeling there," Sebastian smirked. "Just a little bit longer."
"In your dreams," Kurt remarked as he stood up.
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Sebastian didn't really have dreams; only nightmares. Not about monsters and demons. No, at night his sleep was plagued with nightmares about a boy just a year older than himself, Hunter Clarington. Sometimes he relived some of his more humiliating experiences with Hunter, wanting to wake up and forget every single memory but unable to. Other times, his mind tormented him with scenarios of Hunter re-entering his life, re-collaring him and humiliating and abusing him all over again.
Tonight was such a night where he woke up screaming from his night terrors. The room was dark and he felt a hand on his shoulder.
"No, no!" Sebastian cried out as he felt Hunter's hand grip him more firmly.
"Sebastian, calm down," a voice ordered and a still panicked Sebastian thrashed about on the bed before tackling 'Hunter' to the floor.
"Touch me again and I'll fucking kill you!" Sebastian threatened, his fingers coiling around 'Hunter's' throat.
"Seb-astian, Kur-, it's me, it's Kur'… Kurt," the voice gasped out.
The words pierced Sebastian's mind and it soon registered that the throat he was throttling wasn't thick enough to be Hunter, that the hands scratching desperately at his wrists were too small and the voice was far higher than Hunter's aggressive tone that never failed to fill Sebastian with dread.
"Sorry, I'm sorry," Sebastian babbled out pulling his hands back and moving away. He staggered to the wall and flicked on the light, looking back to see Kurt clutching at his throat on the floor, tears in his eyes matching the ones in Sebastian's. "Kurt, I'm sorry… I thought… are you ok?"
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" Kurt demanded to know.
"I'm sorry, sir, please punish me," Sebastian begged, Kurt's harsh tone and the lingering feeling ignited by the nightmare tricking him into thinking he was at Hunter's control once more. He'd dropped to his knees, his mind still on Hunter and expecting punishment and verbal abuse.
"Sebastian?" Kurt asked as his stomach twisted itself into knots and it dawned on him that something was very, very wrong. "Sebastian, look at me," he commanded in a gentler tone. "It's just me, Kurt. There's nobody else here."
Looking up and seeing a face and body that was so obviously Kurt and entirely different from Hunter helped Sebastian refocus his mind and shake off the nightmare to focus on the reality of where he was. He remained on his knees and dropped his gaze feeling devastatingly mortified. A small part of him even craved to feel the pain or humiliation of a punishment, just so that things would seem normal again. He then tried to remind himself that Hunter's treatment was not ok and that it wasn't normal. But for a year of his life, Hunter's abusive treatment had been the norm and the impact had seemingly been more scarring than even Sebastian himself had realised.
"I'm sorry I hurt you, sir," Sebastian said. "Kurt," he corrected hurriedly. "I didn't mean to, I just… I'm sorry. You should go."
Kurt bit his lip, wavering. He had no idea how to handle such a vulnerable Sebastian but he didn't feel the older boy was in any state to be left alone.
"Um… stay there," Kurt told Sebastian. "I'll be right back."
He left the room and moved quickly but quietly towards Nick's room and rapped his knuckles on the door before slipping inside. He approached the bed and shook Nick awake; desperately hoping that he wouldn't have a freak-out like Sebastian.
"Jeff?" Nick asked dreamily.
"It's Kurt," he answered. "Nick, wake up, please. Something's wrong with Sebastian. I don't know what to do."
"Seb?" Nick asked suddenly becoming more alert and already scrambling out of the bed. "Tell me what happened," he demanded and Kurt explained the situation as best as he could while they made a hasty return to Sebastian's room.
They entered the dorm and found Sebastian still kneeling on the carpet, in the precise place he had been before Kurt left.
"Sebastian?" Nick asked gently crouching down so he was eye-level with his friend. "Are you ok?"
Sebastian started nod but gave up and shook his head no.
"What's wrong, what do you need?" Nick pressed reaching a hand out to rest lightly on the boy's shoulder.
"Punish me," Sebastian pleaded with a whimper and Kurt felt his blood run cold as he surveyed the scene helplessly. "Please just… just a spanking or something. I think it'll clear my head."
Nick turned from Sebastian to look at Kurt, mouthing the word 'help' to him but Kurt could only shrug feeling just as clueless.
"Please, punish me, give me an order, something, Nick please," Sebastian whined desperately.
"Fuck," Nick swore. "That sick asshole really damaged you, didn't he?"
Sebastian glanced about the room like a frightened animal, as though he expected Hunter to hear Nick's insult and suddenly emerge from the shadows to punish them all.
"Sebastian, look at me, my friend," Nick implored. "Hunter is gone. He can't hurt you anymore. Let's just get you into bed so you can go back to sleep. Yes?"
"No, no," Sebastian shook his head. "Punish me, I need to be punished."
"Maybe you should leave, Kurt," Nick suggested quietly as he helped Sebastian to his feet and guided the boy to his bed.
"I'm not going anywhere," Kurt said stubbornly.
"Fuck, I hope I'm doing the right thing," Nick whispered to himself so quietly that Kurt didn't hear.
Sitting on Sebastian's bed, Nick set his friend across his lap and pushed down his pyjama bottoms.
"What are you doing?" Kurt hissed in horror as he was confronted with the sight of Sebastian's bare ass and Nick's arm raised in preparation to strike. "Nick, you can't," Kurt tried to say but it was too late. Nick had already made the first hit and though Kurt really didn't want to look he found that he couldn't pull his eyes away or get his feet to move so he could try and stop the scene before him.
"One," Sebastian counted out loud even though he'd not been told to.
Nick kept hitting, leaving a handprint on Sebastian's skin with every strike and creating a fresh sting to accompany it. He paused the spanking at ten and found that Sebastian was still incredibly tense. He resumed the spanking, pausing again at twenty. By this time, Sebastian's body had relaxed so Nick brought the spanking to an end.
"There, all done," Nick told Sebastian, rubbing his sore red ass soothingly. "Good boy."
He helped Sebastian up, intent on cuddling him as he would with Jeff but the other teen pulled away and walked to the corner of the room, dropping his forehead to the wall and resting his hands on his head, his spanked ass on display. It then occurred to Nick that Sebastian had never received comfort from Hunter after a punishment, only further ridicule and humiliated. Nick really didn't know how to proceed.
"You… you spanked him," Kurt hissed at him accusingly.
"Punishment's over, Sebastian," Nick said. "Go back to bed." Sebastian made no movement. "Um, in your own time then," Nick said awkwardly. "Just go to sleep when you're ready. I'll see you in the morning. You should go to bed, Kurt."
"I'm not leaving him," Kurt insisted glaring at Nick as he left the room. "Sebastian?" Kurt enquired tentatively. "Sebastian, please, get back in bed." He stepped closer to the older boy, making a conscious effort to not look at Sebastian's nude behind but not quite managing to succeed. "Sebastian, come on, back to bed," he tried to sound confident as he wrapped an arm around the boy's waist and half-carried him across the room.
Lightly placing Sebastian back on his bed, Kurt carefully pushed the boy's pyjama bottoms back on then tucked him in.
"Um… goodnight," Kurt said worrying his lower lip between his teeth.
"Mmm," Sebastian sighed in response as his eyelids fell shut and his breathing evened out.
Satisfied that Sebastian had settled down to sleep, Kurt left the room and headed back to his own where he didn't sleep a wink.
To Be Continued…
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