He smiles and his finger gently brushes my cheek.
- I remember. He says now seriously. - I remember everything.
- What? - tears already overflow my eyes. "Do not play with me, Kurt!
"I would never play a game like this with you." He says now seriously. "I remember everything.
- Oh my God! I let the tears stream down my face.
- Hey! Do not be like that. - He sits facing me taking my hand and wiping my tears with the other free hand. "Thank you Jane!"
- Thanks for what? I ask confused.
"Because of you I could remember." He says his hand sliding down my face and holding my neck. "Can not you see that without you I am nothing?"
"And ... I ... I'm so happy and relieved that you remember me and all that we live." I say pull him into a tight embrace and full of love.
- I love you, Jane!
"I love you too, Kurt. - I hold him as if he were my whole world, and he is. - Forgive me for everything!
"I do not have to forgive you." He says, running his hands down my back. "You have to forgive me for everything I've done."
- We need to talk about this. - I now speak pulling myself out of his arms, getting me up and pulling him to sit with me on the couch. "I think I caught you, Kurt. But I just learned that I have a daughter and then I find out that my husband, the people I love most in the world, killed her, was a thump for me. But when all this happened to you I had time to think about everything and realized that you just wanted to protect me.
"That's all I wanted and wanted, but I failed you. I should never have hidden you from your daughter, so forgive me my love, I feel more than I can speak. His eyes light up and he grabs my hands and brings them to his lips with a soft kiss. "I promise never to hide anything from you again."
"Even if it hurts us?" - I ask.
"Yes, even if it hurts, I'd rather tell the truth, see you pulling out your wedding ring again and walking out that door." He says seriously.
"I prefer the truth a thousand times, Kurt. - I speak. - We need to stop wanting to protect each other from everything, this is impossible, there will always be something that will hurt us one day, life is like that we just have to accept it and live it intensely, why do not we live for always, and I want to live intensely with you all my minutes and seconds, I love you too much.
"I promise you that we will live intensely, I love you too, now answer me at once. He says looking into the depths of my eyes. - You forgive me?
He eagerly expects me to respond, I already know my answer, but as I was staring at his wonderful eyes that look more like an ocean I became distracted and took longer than expected.
"You can not forgive me, can you?" - He's sad. - I understand Jane what I did is unforgivable.
- Kurt! - I get your attention. - Of course I forgive you, I love you and you do not know the desert that was my life without being able to talk to you, unable to look into your eyes, unable to hold you, those months were the worst in my life. - I confess.
"I do not know what to say, the words run away, you're incredible." He declares.
"And you are the man of my life!" I almost went crazy without you, I swear. -I mean it.
- Then? We are fine? He asks, smiling.
- Yes! I understood that all you did was out of love, we're fine. - I answer.
He pulls me into a hug and I wrap my head in his chest listening to the beating of his heart that was now beating a little faster. He puts a kiss on my head and strokes my hair. I lost track of time and did not realize how long we stood there in silent embrace just enjoying each other.
Jane! - He calls me. - What about Avery? Did you and she get it right?
- IT IS. I smile at the question. "She kept me company at the hospital, spent a few nights with you to come and change clothes, we got a little closer."
- A little? What happened? Have not you talked about anything?
"Yes, we talked a lot, but she still does not accept me.
"All in your time, Jane, she'll accept you, I know that. He says confidently.
"As unbelievable as it sounds, I'm calm about it, I'd rather have her close to me, let's give her the time she needs." - I speak. "She cares a lot about you, Kurt.
- Oh really? He asks in surprise.
"Yes, when I told her what happened, she made a point of going to the hospital immediately, she visited you every day. I said smiling. "I think she sees you as a father."
"I think she did all this for you, Jane. - he says. "I know she likes me, but I think given the circumstances she was there for you, not for me.
- You think? I ask thoughtfully. I had not stopped to think about it. But I really think she sees you as a father.
"That would be wonderful, Jane, I really want to be a father to Avery. He says seriously.
"I love you too, you're a wonderful father. Look at Bethany. She's crazy about you.
"And I'm crazy about her, too." - he smiled. "Soon we'll all be together at a family reunion."
- I really want this, a lot.
- And will have, we just have to have patience Avery is teenager and knows how they are is not. He laughs. - Terrible.
- Yeah, I know. I smile together.
"Shall we go back to bed?" - he asks.
"Are you feeling well already?"
"Yes, the headache is gone, you are my medicine." He says, pulling my cheek to kiss my lips.
- Good to know. I lick my tongue down her lower lip and take a slight bite.
"Let's go to the bedroom soon, I need to make love to my wife again. He smiles and squeezes my waist with a little more force.
"I'm here, you can make love to me wherever you want." I smile between the kisses.
"But you said I can not work."
"It's true, in this case, no effort. Let's go to sleep today, you've tried too hard.
- What? He asks, stunned. "Can not we just do it one more time?" I promise I will not try too hard.
- Um, let me think. I put my finger in my mouth and turned my face in thought. - Yes! But just one more time.
- Let's go! Let's go! He gets up quickly and pulls me toward the bedroom.
We returned to the room we made love once more, finally the tiredness overcame us and we slept glued together. I had not felt this good in a long time.
(...)
I awoke with the light bothering my eyes and alone in bed, I stretched myself in my robe and went to the kitchen where Kurt was preparing the coffee.
- Good Morning! He said putting a mug of coffee on the counter for me.
- Good morning, and thank you! I pick up the mug and have some coffee. - Are you feeling good?
- I'm great.
- No headache?
"I'm fine, Jane, no headache. - he says. Better impossible.
"So I guess you're really good now, you remember everything."
"Now I know what you're going through, Jane. - he says. - With this whole ZIP thing.
"Yeah, the worst thing for me is that I can not remember much about my daughter.
"At the right time you'll remember." He says and strokes my hand.
"I know, I'm not worried at the moment. I smile at him and stroke his hand too. "Now my daughter is here and you're all right."
"I'm glad you and Avery are getting on well."
"Not like I wanted to, but one step at a time is not it?"
"Yes, the important thing is for her to be around.
"Speaking of which we have to go to NYO, Avery will have a session with the psychologist and I told her I'd be there.
An hour later we arrived at NYO and Avery was already there waiting for me. As soon as she sees Kurt she smiles and runs to hug him, I'm glad to see that they both get along after all.
- Are you alright? She asks him. "Jane sent me a message that you were sick last night and that you remember everything."
- Yes I'm fine. He responds and kisses the top of his head.
- Hey! I'm here too. - I get their attention.
- Excuse! Hi, Jane. She lets him go and greets me.
My throat knots, I really wanted a hug from my daughter, but I understand she still should not be prepared.
"Your mother told me you stayed with me at the hospital a few times, thank you, Avery." - he thanks.
"It was no big deal, after all I did it's the least I could do for you. She says truthfully. "I like you, Kurt, you're loyal.
She looks at me and smiles.
- Why do you say that? He asks in confusion.
"I've been thinking about everything that's happened since I met you in Berlin. - she says. "You were there looking for your wife and you did not give up on anything, and I plotted with my uncle who is obviously hurt by Jane not being by your side.
"Avery I ..." I try to speak, but she will not let me.
"Not Jane!" I need to talk. She says seriously. "I let my uncle manipulate me and caused me an enormous evil, I pretended to be dead, and I damaged your relationship, so forgive me Jane."
"No need to apologize, Avery, we understand. He says, pulling her into another hug.
I stand there watching the two of them and my eyes light my daughter apologizing for hurting me, but she's not to blame for anything Roman used her to hit me.
"Do not worry about it, Avery, Kurt and I have already figured out Roman could not separate us. - she was crying still clinging to Kurt's embrace, she stares at me and smiles.
"I'm really sorry, Jane, I'm not a bad person.
"I know it's not me, I can see it in you." - I speak.
"Avery, is something going on?" - he asks.
"No, I just wanted to apologize to you, I let Roman use me.
- It's past water, okay? - he says.
"Okay," she says.
"All I care about is that you're all right, Avery, what Roman's done is gone." - I speak.
"I'm fine, I have you, are not I?"
- Of course there is, always! I say and stroke his shoulder.
Avery walked into the psychologist's office and Kurt and I stood outside waiting for her to leave, we decided to invite her to lunch with us and start living as a family.