The Beginning in the End

Ansem had the door closed and locked before Zexion even took a seat, this was usual for one of their sessions. However, Zexion really wanted to believe that he could leave Ansem behind him and find another way to fill the void. He didn't know what the void was or what he should fill it with, but he was so sure that Ansem wasn't it. Of course he could just open his legs a few more times…finish the deal…but the memories…and Axel…

Zexion affirmed to himself that he wasn't doing this for Axel, he was going through this stress and trauma for himself and because of himself. He did blame himself for his situation. Sometimes, when he was feeling especially hopeless, he would think that he deserved it. Those were the sort of thoughts Axel seemed to drive away. But, it was still too soon for Zexion to believe he felt anything for Axel…

Ansem wandered over to Zexion, who stood awkwardly, unsure of himself.

"Were you sick yesterday Zexion?"

"Not exactly, I-"

Ansem continued without warning, advancing towards Zexion enough to make the younger man back into a wall, "-because I notice you were not excused from class by any teacher or guardian."

"Sir, let me-" Zexion tried to slip in an explanation, but Ansem had him pinned to the wall.

"-You are not exempt from school rules. Leaving school grounds is a major violation." Zexion was disgusted by how Ansem seemed to enjoy the notion of punishing him. "I am unable to show you any lenience…" Ansem imitated sorrow to cover up the reason why his hands traveled up Zexion's neck "…so a standard punishment will be put in place. Detention, here, with me." Ansem leaned in, with his arms firmly directing Zexion to his body. Cringing, Zexion squirmed enough to be able to place his palms against Ansem for a barrier.

Craning his neck away, Zexion tried to keep a firm resolve, "I'll accept my consequences, but…" His next line would be one he practiced with Axel. Zexion didn't like it very much, it seemed too simple, but that was why Axel said it was perfect. He said that Zexion didn't need to make excuses or say he was sorry. All Zexion needed to do was to end it. But could it really just end like that? So easily? He forced out what he knew he had to say, "I have to break off our deal."

…Zexion expected Ansem to at least back off a bit…

"Do you understand what that means?" Ansem's grip became noticeably more painful.

"Yes, fully." Zexion acted nonchalant as attempted to extract himself from between Ansem and the wall.

"I will be unable to recommend you for your scholarship," his eyes narrowed as his body stayed concrete around Zexion.

"I am aware."

Motionless in thought, he kept Zexion contained. The older man hadn't seen this coming, the deal was such a good deal…He was given favors in return money he didn't actually have to pay. It was just a letter he had to send off, a letter with a lie that claimed that this single student deserved the scholarship. He didn't mind the lie at all; sometimes he was sure the kid deserved it. With everything they had been through, with how far they had gone and how close it was to being over, why did he back out? Ansem was miffed. He rather liked the sex.

Ansem must have come to a decision or some sort of epiphany, because he next moves where sudden and forceful. "I advise you to continue our deal." With a fistful of hair jerking Zexion's head backwards

"No" Zexion forced strength into his voice but his eyes were wide and scared behind the navy hair that draped in his face.

"Why?"

"My reasons are my own," he managed to push against the man. "Let me go at once."

"But you missed yesterday's session," Ansem's possessive grin came back.

"I don't owe you anything," he did his best to sink his nails into Ansem's skin to deter him, "this is over!"

"Detention isn't over. Besides, you missed our appointment yesterday," Ansem crudely ran his tongue over Zexion's straining neck, ending the lick with a small bite before continuing, "For that, you owe me."

With unusual violence, Zexion made his escape. No longer squirming and writhing, he took in a breath of still air and prepared himself for something he didn't want to do. He wasn't going for the easy way out; submitting wasn't an option despite the fact that he was already halfway there. He instead steadied himself and thrust his head against Ansem's as the older man made another attempt to lick him.

Both men cried out. Ansem momentarily grasped his forehead, leaving Zexion enough room to slip along the wall as he nursed his own bruising skull. Dazed, he weaved his way to the door, but not before tripping against a side table.

Ansem felt the dizziness as well, but continued after the smallest Nobody, "You are nothing without me," he staggered slightly, gaining balance.

Still seeing double, Zexion picked himself up with assistance from the sharp yanking on his arm. He became face to face with Ansem again, but he was quick with a response. A quick jab of his knee to Ansem's crotch gained him freedom. As Ansem reacted to the eye watering pain, Zexion confirmed, "I'm not coming back."

Zexion was out the door, not bothering to look back and enjoying the look on Ansem's face. He knew he wouldn't actually be able to enjoy it, because it was not over yet.

Zexion's breath wouldn't still itself even when he was safely hidden away. He kept the door of the broom closet cracked open enough to peak at the students passing in the hallway. He was looking for just one.

"Axel! Get over here!" Zexion harshly whispered from the shadow of the darkened room.

"Zexion….?" Slightly startled, Axel whirled around to the voice, "Are you sure? I'm going to miss Chemistry class…"

"Screw class! Chemistry will never be relevant to you in real life."

Axel rather liked the explosions…"Really? That's an uncharacteristic thing for you to say. Did it go that badly?" Axel snuck into the closet after the smaller Nobody, "Are you okay?"

"I don't know…I'm conflicted." Zexion secured the closet door to insure privacy and revealed his worries, "I told Ansem…but not before he gave me detention."

"I'm guessing your kind of detention isn't the normal legal type of detention?"

"It's far from legal!" Zexion's face was stone, "And I know he's not going to leave me alone, he came on to me still. He might be looking for me, too. I escaped from him…"

"Why can't we get the police in on this?"

"Axel, the police don't care about us." Zexion stated the obvious with an annoyed frown.

"This is so wrong!" Axel gave a furious punch to the wall.

"Sh!" Zexion batted at Axel to calm him down, "We are hiding for a reason! I don't know if I should leave school and get more detentions or stay and maybe have to deal with Ansem, again."

Axel's temper was blunt, "So basically, you are asking me if you should get raped sooner or later?"

Zexion met him with an unamused frown and crossed arms.

"Sorry, sorry!" Axel brought his hands to his temples to fight back the building pressure, "I'm just so…" his face contorted, "pissed off. I want to fix this so badly." His arms dropped back to his sides, "I want you to be safe."

Zexion was subdued and quiet as he replied because the close quarters they were in became extremely noticeable. "Thanks." He said it with clear eyes that looked up to Axel in the hazy darkness.

Axel wasted no time with battling his impulsiveness. His arms gathered around Zexion's waist with purpose, to pull him into an embrace. Axel knew it had to be quick so he spoke swiftly and softly into the ear of the other Nobody, "Stay here. You'll know when to leave."

As he was released, Zexion nodded questioningly. There was absolutely nothing that could save his situation and he had no idea when he should leave. And leave to where? Class? Home?

Axel felt for the door handle in the dimness as Zexion protested, "You are really going to leave so mysteriously like this?"

"Yep." He found the knob the shrugged off his school bag with what little books he bothered to bring. "Hold on to this for me."

"Why are you leaving it?" Zexion frowned at the canvas bag, "What are you going to do?"

Inching out the door, Axel backtracked enough to give Zexion a peck on the cheek. Leaning out of it, he replied simply, "Something stupid."

Truthfully, Axel had no plan. His brain was running on adrenaline, lust, and rage. He had one idea though, one his mind often referred to, fire. If there is a problem, incinerate it, destroy it, burn it, because ashes can't hurt anyone. Ashes can't hurt Zexion.

Axel never had more of a reason to act out. He would admit that the burning of the Math Wing of the school was childish and stupid. It had no point. Now, he had a real cause. The outcome of the act gained the freedom for someone he lov-liked.

It was weird to think of how his relationship with Zexion had changed so rapidly. It was weird to think he would be committing a crime for him, just him. Usually these things were selfish, attention seeking.

Axel couldn't help but be concerned, because one thing wasn't clear in his mind. What crime am I committing? Murder seemed too…extreme. He knew that he was setting fire to Ansem's office, but he had so many options on how to do it. There were so many factors, like if Ansem gone or there or maybe there were other people there. His head began to jumble together in one mass of shaking anger. He needed to clear it out...think in steps...get organized.

One thing he knew is that he was doing it now. His lighter itched and smoldered in his pocket as she stormed down the school hallway. His steps halted for a moment. He was reminded that he needed fuel for his fire.

He thought back to Chemistry class.

Do not fear! This fic lives on!

Ah! I'm sorry for how horribly I've been updating this story. I've neglected it for far too long, so I promise this one will get nothing but love until the end. I kinda want to finish this first fic so I can move on to something more improved. I'm going to be going through the first chapters and editing them eventually.
*Hits head against desk until satisfied with the bleeding*
On another note! I got an internship with the Suicide Prevention Services! WOO! It may take up a lot of my time, but I bet I'll be able to come up with some new and interesting plots! XD