This is probably the soonest I've started an update for this story… Oh well.
Exams are over and my lowest semester grade is in Algebra II… a 76 or something like that.
My stress is gone but the deression isn't.
Anyways, I'm not too depressed to type!
Enjoy.
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Sasuke had left his house when he was sure that no one was watching. He went to Naruto's smelly apartment building and had asked the guy at the front desk which apartment was Naruto's. He had gone up to Naruto's apartment and was overwhelmed by the smell.
He had kissed him on the cheek.
The need to kiss him had been more overpowering than the smell of the apartment. The kiss on the cheek had subdued the need, but it hadn't crushed it. He left before he could act further on the impulse.
He walked home in the warm summer air. It was still pretty early, on eight or so. He knew he wouldn't get into trouble for being out this late.
The kiss on Naruto's cheek was better than kissing Shikamaru on the cheek. Maybe he was only gay for Naruto? But he wasn't attracted to any girls, especially the ones that threw themselves at him. Was he asexual except towards Naruto? It didn't matter. All that mattered was that he needed to talk to Naruto tomorrow.
Sasuke got home and went straight to the bathroom. He looked in the mirror and saw short hair in the places he had ripped out and long hair everywhere else. His eyes were tired and confused with a hint of sadness behind them. Underneath his eyes were small puplish bags from tears.
He pulled his lower lids down and saw red rimming the inner part of the lid where it connected to the other lid. If his eyelashes were shorter, there would it would be red there too.
Maybe he should start wearing eyeliner like Naruto had started to so he could hide the red? He pulled out one of his mother's eyeliner pencils and tried to put it on. After several attempts he had one eye done. It made his eyes look better but made his face look more feminine. Who cared though? It was summer.
He did the other eye and looked at himself. He looked more alive now. He nodded his head and left the bathroom.
His mother looked at him, not noticing the eyeline because of the long eyelashes. Sasuke knew Itachi would notice though. He walked up to his bedroom and got onto his computer to get on facebook and such.
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Itachi walked into his younger brother's bedroom and saw him facebook creeping some random person, probably from his school. Sasuke looked up at him and Itachi saw the eyeliner. Inside he was laughing but outside he only raised an eyebrow.
"Shut up." Sasuke growled.
"Why though?" Itachi asked, sitting on the bed.
"It hides the red." Sasuke turned back to the computer and read another status. He was on Sakura's page. It was covered with happy statuses.
Itachi got up and closely examined his younger brother's eyes. Sasuke tuned to face him so he could.
"It does hide the red a bit. You might want to do it on the top too." Itachi said, backing away from Sasuke's face.
"Thanks, I'll make sure to do that." Sasuke's face turned back to the computer.
"Sakura Haruno." Itachi read. "She's from school, right?"
"Yes, her statuses are all happy." Sasuke said. "They make me a little happier."
"Just went to the mall and found the cutest shoes ever with Ino." Itachi read from the computer. "That doesn't sound happy. That sounds obnoxious." He said.
"Yeah, but she was happy when she wrote it." Sasuke felt his eyes get hot and blinked a few times.
"Yeah. About shoes." Itachi said. "That's not that important. They'll be ruined in about a year."
"You've been wearing the same shoes for three years." Sasuke analyzed.
"That's because they're DC's. They're a good quality." Itachi explained.
Sasuke giggled and shut off the computer. Itachi wasn't sure why he was giggling. He was only telling the truth. All of his other shoes had lasted about a year.
"What's so funny?" Itachi asked.
"You. Just the way you said it. Like it was the most common knowledge in the world." Sasuke said, still giggling.
"It should be." Itachi said, smiling now. He was happy to put a smile on Sasuke's face when everything else seemed to be making him frown.
"I think I'm going to go to bed before something goes wrong." Sasuke said, standing up from his chair and walking to the bed.
"Alright, night." Itachi stood up and walked towards the door. He waited until Sasuke was laying in his bed before tuning off the light and walking out the door.
Sasuke lay there, staring at the ceiling before he felt his eyelids starting to become heavy.
He fell asleep with the thought of talking to Naruto tomorrow on his mind.
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Itachi entered his own room and lay on the bed. He thought of all the things Sasuke was going through. The depression and confusion. He was glad he'd never have to go through, but sad he would never understand. He would never fall in love. He knew when he was about sixteen that he was asexual. He didn't understand why all the other guys were having sex but he wasn't.
It didn't matter anymore. He had gotten to the point of understanding two months after he discovered he wasn't attracted to girls like everyone else was, or boys like a few other boys were.
He did understand a little bit what Sasuke was going through, but never to the point of being able to help.
Itachi decided to say fuck it for now. He was tired.
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The next morning, Itachi woke up at ten in the morning, which was about normal for him.
Naruto wasn't over yet. No one was. His parents weren't even up yet. A slight lonely feeling washed over him, even though he knew someone would be up soon.
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Sasuke woke up at noon. When he walked downstairs, Itachi was watching tv alone. No one else was up.
Itachi looked a little lonely, so after Sasuke took his morning piss, he sat with him and watched Adventure Time.
"Why are you watching this?" Sasuke asked. He'd never like cartoons.
"Because it's awesome." Itachi said. "Just watch."
Sasuke did. He decided it was ok. It had some domb shit in there, but that was obviously the point of it.
They heard a knock on the door. Itachi stood and answered it. Naruto was standing in the doorway.
Sasuke felt his stomach tighten. It was time to talk to Naruto.
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I went to my therapist's today. She told me having a little animal in my room may be theraputic and help with my depression. I've been trying to get my mom to get me something like a rabbit or gerbil for like six years. I told her that and she was like ok.
I think this is the soonest I've ever updated for this story… Oh well though.
The reviews from the last chapter made me pretty happy. I smiled when I read them. So please review again :).