hello, I'm really sorry this took months to update but I have had so much work and exams! this is a really quick an rushed chapter, I apologise for the grammar and spelling errors as I have written this on my phone, this is wills POV but the next chapter will be Lou's and then straight back to Wills, I'm sorry again that it's so short, but it will get longer !

Enjoy

Will

I hate staring at the blank nothing. just lying there in bed, waiting for someone to pick you up out of it, like your a child. how you start to feel isolated from others. its not fair. but it's all I have.

it's the same routine, wake up, Nathan helps me up, I'm given my tablets, then Lou comes in makes us tea. I'm given 24hr watch.. mainly by Louisa Clark but she hardly knows what she's doing most of the time. And I think that's why I like her, she's a fresh face that always makes me feel like I'm a human being that might actually have a chance of living.

We were having such an incredible night, watching the football, laughing and then it all went upside down, Nathan had a few to many and blurted out about Patrick loving someone else. After Louisa had found out about her cheating boyfriend Patrick, she told me she would confront him about it and call me to let me know what happened, but I never got a call, so I assumed she wasn't in the mood to talk. So I wheeled myself back to the media room and looked for a film to watch.

As the film played on I couldn't get the thought of Louisa out of my head, the feeling of her lips pressing agiants mine, as her warm breath clashed with my own, the moment or pause between us, if only I could have held onto her for a moment longer. 'Snap out of it will"

*ring ring* *ring ring*

the phone had started to ring so Louisa snapped straight back into my mind, I guided myself towards the wall where the button was to answer the phone. (The good thing about this is that it's my height so I can touch it without any struggle) "Lou is that you" I prayed in my head that it was. "Yes~ her voice sounded bitter and broken~ Will I can't go home, and I can't go Patrick's can I come over to you" her voice sounded broken and I could hear the desperation and sadness in her voice, and it pained me to know she felt this way "Of course, I'm in my own anyway, I could do with the company" I smiled, knowing she couldn't see it but hoping that she knew how much she meant to me. "Okay I'll be over in about 5 minuets. I'll see you then" before I could reply she had ended the call" things mustn't have ended well between Patrick and her, if I had the strength I would go and show Patrick a piece of my mind.

a few moments later I heard the door bell ring "ITS OPEN" I yelled hoping she could hear me. The door was the hardest thing to open for me so I usually shouted for people to come in, it works.

I could hear footsteps approach the media room, I knew it was Clarks as I could recognise the sound of those wacky shoes from a mile away. She walked in with her hair in two buns and a big yellow rain coat that made her light up the room, but Lou did that anyway,she was such a bundle of joy, well usually. I looked up towards her face, she looked pale, and tired. Her eyes had turned all blotchy and puffy, it was clear to see she had been crying, she had make up running down her face, how much I wanted to get a tissue and wipe away her tears and hug her and tell her everything is okay, but inside i knew that i couldn't and that was the hardest thing, to not be able to comfort someone you love, whilst there standing right in front of you. "Oh Lou" she walked towards me but it was as though her body was unaware where she was going "Lou what an earth happened" she just kept quite and when I repeated myself she leaned towards me and wrapped her arms around my shoulders, I could feel her tears drop down into my shirt, but it didn't bother me. "Lou what happened" she lifted her head of my shoulder and looked right into my eyes "from the beggining " she looked at me as if to say 'you really want to hear my problem' and I smiled "from the beggining" I couldn't care what she was going to say,whether it would last all night or an hour I wanted her to know I'm there for her no matter what. And I wanted to spend as much time with her as I possibly could.