Sorry i haven't updated in a long time but my auntie died and i had to fly out to England and then i went on holiday and i just got back so i apologise , but here it is chapter 10 ,enjoy and i don't own anything.

" Logan , Logan where are you" Kendall yelled frantically ran up and down the hospital halls, sweating looking for Logan. Kendall approached the reception.

" Logan Mitchell " Kendall said.

" Sir are you okay, maybe you should sit down" The nurse said noticing that Kendall's colour was completely drained from his face.

" No i need to find Logan, where is he?" Kendall demanded.

" Okay Logan Mitchell did you say?"

" Yes!'

" room 502"

" Thank you" Kendall took the lift to level 5, he noticed that their was a lot of elderly people on Logan's level, to be honest it looked like most of them were close to death and this scared Kendall.

room 502 was staring Kendall in the face, but Kendall couldn't bring himself to go in. Kendall took a deep breath and pushed open the door, Their Logan was and he look sick, he was pale but he was sitting up holding a vomit bag in his hands which looked half hair was not longer spiked up it was geled flat to his head with a layer of sweat.

" L-Logan?" Kendall said finally getting his words out.

" H-hey" Logan said his voice croaky, Kendall imagined from all the vomiting he has been doing.

" How are you feeling?" Kendall asked.

" fine" Logan said trying to make it sound convincing as possible

" No you not" Kendall said knowing that when Logan was truly ill he would always hide it from his friends

" Kendall im fin-

" Logan you're lying in a hospital bed, you're in fucking ICU and your chucking up, how the fuck can you be fine" Kendall said raising his voice.

" Fine you want the truth i feel like fucking shit okay "

" yeah no thanks to me" Kendall said hanging his head in shame

"Kendall" Logan said attempting to get out of bed but felt to weak. " None of this is your fault, in fact I'm sick of you blaming every bad thing that happens to me, James, Carlos, or even your sister or mum, on your self, no matter what the situation is you always seem to blame your self."Logan said taking a sip of water and coughing.

" But Logan i-

" Kendall i broke you ankle, took your position in hockey if anything i deserve this." Logan said in such away that made Kendall think he was okay with the possibility of dying.

" Logan don't you ever think that, you're not going to die." Kendall said tears pricking his eyes.

" Kendall i have a brain tumour,and its killing me, i have to face facts" Logan said

"how do you know the doctors haven't even said anything yet." Kendall said trying to find anyway to get those words out of his head *Its killing me*

" Kendall i heard them thinking, they say i have 6 months tops, and it's too late for surgery" Logan said like he wasn't even sad about his own death.

" How can you be so normal" Kendall said no sure how long he could hold his tears back for.

" Do you remember last year when my gran died.?' Logan asked Kendall

" Y-yeah"

"do you wanna know what she said to me right before she died, she said always move forward never look back' Logan said.

" But Logan you're dying" Kendall said letting his tears stream down his face, the words had sunk in and it had hit him like a tone of bricks.

Sorry again for the late upload, this was a really sad chapter for me to write and when i was writing i was listening to emeli sand read all about it part iii, so is case you havent heard it its a sad song, anyway reveiw please it will make me write quicker, and for those who sit their and cbf to review trust me and i think i speak for other writes as well when i say it makes our day to see that someone has taken the time to write a nice review, or even telling us how to improve... SO PLEASE REVIEW :)

XX Amy