As soon as I wake up the first thing I think about is last night and Santana. Last night really sucked, and its my fault. I roll onto my side and see Quinn on her couch working on something, probably homework. I sit up and stretch my body out and hop off her bed.
"Hey" I whisper and take a sit next to her.
She looks up with a sweet smile "Hey. How'd you sleep?"
"Eh, not that great. I got a few hours." I scratch the back of my head and lean back into the couch "Quinn, what am I going to do?" I look up at her as she turns on the couch to face me.
"You are going to take this blunt I rolled for you, go to your room and smoke it. Then...you're going to call your girl and sort this whole mess out" she nods her head as she grabs the blunt and passes it to me.
I chuckle "Thanks. That sounds like a good plan" I smile "Hopefully it will all work out." I stand up and head to the door, I turn to Quinn and give her a bone crushing hug " Thank you for being my best friend" I whisper against her head and place a kiss there.
She groans "Always B, never forget. Now go get your girl" we separate and she pushes me out the door with a wink.
As I head to my room I can't help but to think about how upset and sad Santana looked last night. All because of me. She really hurt me by doing whatever it was that she was doing with that girl, but she seemed to be genuinely upset about it. The question is; was she upset for doing it or was she upset because she got caught. Once I reach my room I go to change my clothes, I throw on my favorite basketball shorts and go to throw on my Raiders hoodie...which I now realize Santana has. I sigh and decided to put on another hoodie, not as soft but just as awesome.
I walk to my iPod dock and start to play some music, when Neil Young 'Roll Another Number' came on I fist pumped and jumped on my bed. I leaned against the wall and lit the blunt, this is just what I need. I love this song. I close my eyes and let the music soothe my soul as I take a big hit.
"I think I'll roll another number for the road" I sing out "I feel able to get under any load" I smile as I take another good hit. This shit is good, I'm already feeling pretty high. I wonder if she got this from Puck or Santana, I'm gonna have to get myself some. Next song to play from my iPod was Tom Petty's 'You don't know how it feels' you'd think I was a stoner or something with the music I have. Who knew.
"There's someone I used to see, but she don't give a damn for me" I sing and take another hit, maybe I shouldn't listen to this song. It's a good song though, I can't help bob my head and snap my fingers. My fingers feel kind of numb, good ass weed. I take a few more puffs and put it out In the ashtray. I lay back on my bed and let the music take me.
I listen to a few more songs before I think it's time to text Santana, its noon so I'd say she's up. I pull my phone out and turn It on. Once its on I see I have a a few messages from Rachel and Mercedes and about 10 messages from Santana.
B- Hey, are you able to come over? I hit send and wait patiently for a reply that may never come. About 10 minutes go by before I feel my phone buzz. My heart starts beating a little faster, like I'm nervous. I go to look at it and Santana texted me back.
S- Yeah I'll be over in like 1 minute
B- Alright, cool.
I put my phone on my nightstand and I try and stay calm. I can feel my hands starting to sweat and my heart won't stop racing. I hate confrontation and I still have no idea how to go about this situation. I mean fuck, I don't know what to do. Hopefully she'll start out with the talking and we can go from there. Also, I am pretty high so I think this might be a terrible idea. I hear her knock on the door, I take a deep breath-
"Come in" I yell out and wipe invisible crumbs off my shirt. I am so high. She walks in and she looks so good, she did that on purpose. She's wearing those damn volleyball shorts again and a tight black tank top. I realize that I am still lying down which Is rude, I clear my throat and sit up against the wall. Santana just looks around nervously and wrings her hands together in front of her "You can come sit down...if you want" I feel like I whispered that, but I'm not entirely sure. She looks up at me and gives a shy smile, I love that smile. She walks over and slowly climbs up and sits next to me, when her knee brushes mine I tightly close my eyes. I really want to kiss her.
She clears her throat "I'm really glad you texted me. Even though you're high as fuck" she chuckles "I'm still really glad you did. "
I smile "I am pretty high, but that's nothing new" I shrug and look over at her. "So...I was hoping you would start this. I'm not really sure what to say" I whisper and start to play with the strings of my hoodie.
She takes a deep breath "Yesterday when we went to Quinn's, you told Puck we were 'Just hanging out.' Maybe it shouldn't have but that hurt my feelings. I thought we were more than that" I go to say something "Not yet. I know we haven't had 'The Talk' but shit Brittany we're practically dating just without the label. I know this is new to you so I didn't want to pressure you into talking about it until you were ready, but when you said that yesterday, It just sucked" she shrugged.
"So...the fact that I said we were just hanging out makes it okay for you to go make out with someone else?"
"I didn't make out with her" she snaps
"Might as well have. You were all over each other on the porch. In your own little world, giggling, and whispering to each other. It looked like you all were the ones dating; not us" I turn to look at her when she shifts her body to face me. "You've got to understand that when Puck asked me I froze. The only people I have talked to about this are you and my friends. I didn't know what to say to him and that just came out. Word Vomit" I sigh and scratch the back of my neck.
"I do understand that; I really do. I'm sorry that I didn't take that into consideration and I just let it upset me instead of talking to you about it. So at the party I was still upset and I got drunk. I am so sorry Brittany, It didn't mean anything to me. She isn't the one I think about all day, or the one I want to go to sleep with and wake up next to. She's someone I had a crush on before I met you and she was just there" she shrugs "I was drunk and upset and she was there. I never intended on doing anything with her, I promise." She grabs my hand from my hoodie strings and makes small circles on my palm with her thumb "I like you Brittany, I seriously without a doubt like you and want to be with you."
I sigh "I don't know what to do Santana" she tilts her head in confusion "I mean what if we officially get together and I do something to piss you off? What will you do then? Go find this girl again and get back at me?" She shakes her head and goes to speak. I shake my hand telling her to wait "How will I know you won't do this again, and actually do something more? I may be reading too much into this and complicating things, but that's who I am" I shrug.
"Well there's this thing called trust. You'll just have to trust me when I say I won't. I told you this is new to me too Brittany, that it scares me how much I already care about you. I don't want anyone else, you make me happy. I was so upset last night it was ridiculous. I barely slept and when I did it was like 20 minutes at a time, it was terrible" she goes to wipe a lone tear off her cheek "Please believe me when I say I am sorry about last night and that it will never happen again" she looks at me with hopeful eyes and squeezes my hand.
"I want to...I really do"
"Please. We were doing really well. I think Puck was meant to get caught so we could meet, and if I wasn't such a horn dog we definitely wouldn't have seriously met" she laughs which makes me smile. I missed that laugh and it's only been a day. I look up at her and reach my hand behind her neck to pull her lips to mine in a sweet kiss.
"Okay" I whisper against her lips
She pulls back "Okay?" She beams and moves to straddle my lap.
I nod my head yes and move my hands to her thighs "Only on one condition" I say as I look up at her
"Anything" she breathes as she moves to scratch her nails on my neck.
"You...Santana Lopez, must be my girlfriend" She laughs and crashes our lips together. I move my hands to her hips and pull her flush against me and I swallow the sweet moan she lets out. I tilt my head to deepen the kiss, as soon as our tongues touch she's the one swallowing my moan. I pull back with a pop "I guess I can take that as a yes to being my girlfriend?" I kiss her chin and lean my forehead against hers.
"Yes, you can definitely take that as a yes to me being your girlfriend" she smiles before pecking my lips and leaning back "You wanna go get something to eat?" She asks and jumps off my bed.
"Yes I am starved, as always. I am actually really proud of myself for making it through that while being totally stoned" I smile as she shoves me out the door.
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I take a bite of my delicious burger "I think Quinn is on her way here"I say to Santana before taking a sip of my coke. She looks up at me with nervous eyes and takes a bite of her salad "I don't think she's mad anymore, so it should be okay" I chuckle.
Santana rolls her eyes "Yeah whatever. I thought I was a bitch, but shit, Quinn can be fucking scary when she's pissed off. I understand where she was coming from though, I made her best friend cry. I wish I had a friend like Quinn" she shrugs before smiling at me. I go to respond when I see Quinn walking up to the table.
"What's up Q" I smile at her before scooting over to make room for her. She takes a fry off my tray "Hey, if I can't eat your fries, you can't eat mine" I whine and block them with my left hand.
She laughs "Yes I can" She looks over at Santana and nods "Hello Santana" she smiles a sweet smile.
Santana smiles back before taking a drink from her water "How are you?"
Quinn goes to snatch another fry but I'm quicker than her and I swat her hand away "Ugh. I'm good, I finally finished all my homework that is due tomorrow. I hate homework" she rolls her eyes before resting her head on her hand.
"I totally agree with that. Homework is total bullshit, they take forever to grade our tests but they have plenty of time to hand out homework and return it a day later" she scoffs.
"Fuck I know, it sucks"
I guess it's safe to say that everything is good to go between Santana and Quinn. They are actually having a conversation.
"So Mercedes and Rachel want to have a movie night" Quinn says "You guys in?" She looks to me and then to Santana.
I smile "I am definitely down, I love movies. Santana?" I ask as I look over at her.
She nods her head "Yeah that sounds good to me. I got some new bud in so I'll bring it so we can try it" she wiggles her eyebrows up and down, and I'd be lying if I said that didn't turn me on.
"Awesome! That sounds great, I think we're going to hang out in my room. Does 7 sound good to you?" She asks and steals a fry. Damn it Santana for distracting me.
"Yeah that works for us" I finish off my burger and start to collect my trash on to my tray.
"Also Santana, I'm sorry for you know...last night" Quinn whispers. I look up at Santana and see a small smile forming.
"Me too Quinn, Me too" she responds before gathering her trash and piling it onto my tray.
"Oh!" I yell shocking both Santana and Quinn "Quinn I need to introduce you to someone."
Quinn looks around with a confused face "Who?" She looks at Santana who shrugs and then looks back at me.
I reach over and grab Santana's hand "Santana Lopez...my girlfriend!" I beam and squeeze Santana's hand and feel her give my hand a squeeze in return.
"Yay!" Quinn claps and throws her arms around me as best she can while sitting in a booth "I'm really glad you all worked that out and are now officially official. That's great!" She beams and moves to Santana's side and gives her a hug as well. Quinn lets out a breath and smiles at us both "I am really happy for you guys" she looks to Santana with narrowed eyes "Don't fuck up Lopez or things will get ugly" Santana looks at her with wide eyes "I'm just kidding" Quinn laughs and climbs out of the booth "But really, I'm not kidding" Santana nods her head. "All right so I'm gonna get going, I'll see you guys at 7" she smiles and walks away from the table.
I giggle a little and move to Santana's side of the table and throw my arm around her shoulders "Well, that wasn't so bad. Was it?" I look over at her and place a kiss on her temple.
She sighs before leaning into my body "No, it wasn't. I'm glad she isn't mad anymore and we can go back to whatever it was that we were" she laughs "I can handle the other two, but if your best friend stayed mad at me, I don't know what would happen" she shrugs.
"Nothing. I forgave you and you forgave me. If Quinn chose to stay upset about that then that would be her problem. Yes Quinn is my best friend and her opinion matters to me, but you matter to me too. You matter so much and obviously in a totally different way than Quinn matters" She smiles up at me and I lean down and kiss the tip of her nose. Now that she's my girlfriend and we aren't fighting I just want to kiss her all the time. Anywhere and everywhere.
"You are so cute" she whispers and places a chaste kiss on my lips "You wanna get out of here and go make out?"
"Totally" we hop out of the booth and throw away our trash before heading back to my girlfriends room. I love saying that and I sure as hell love to think about it.
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Later that night I'm throwing on a pair of soft sweatpants and I look around for my Raiders hoodie. Damn it, Santana still has that. Why do I keep forgetting that? I love that she has it and likes to wear it. It's only right that my girlfriend wears my favorite hoodie. I throw on a random hoodie and slip on some flip flops before I'm out the door. I'm meeting Santana at her room so we can walk down to Quinns together. I get to her door and give a solid 3 knocks. When Santana opens it I can't help but smile at her. She is so beautiful and she is wearing my hoodie again.
"I was looking for that" I say as I pull her out of her room by the hoodie pocket. She places a kiss on my lips before turning around and locking her door.
She turns towards me "I'm sorry, but you probably won't be getting this back; maybe once it loses its Brittany smell but then I'm taking it right back" she shrugs. I shake my head at her with a smile and head towards the elevator. I feel her walk up next to me and interlock our fingers before pressing the button. I walk in and once again lean against the railing with her following me and leaning her back against my front. I place my arms around her waist and lay my chin on her shoulder. When the elevator reaches floor 6 I stick my face in her hair and take a big creeper sniff.
"Raspberries" I moan and place a kiss on her ear. She laughs and starts lightly scratching my hands with her nails until we get to Quinns floor. When we reach Quinns door I knock and lean against the wall so Quinn can't see me. Santana looks at me with a confused pout and I just wink. Quinn opens the door with a laugh.
"Where's Brittany?" She asks
Santana looks to the floor "Well...we had another fight and she didn't want to come out of her room" My eyes go wide. Holy fuck Santana is awesome.
"What do you mean you had another fight" I could hear the venom drip from Quinn's voice "You just got together. What the fuck happened, what did you do?" She snapped and I couldn't hold it in any longer and busted out laughing. I move in front of Santana and place my hands on her cheeks and lean down to place a lingering kiss on her lips.
"You are awesome" I whisper against those plump things and take a nip at her bottom lip making her moan.
"Ugh. I hate you guys right now. I thought she was serious. I had to control myself" Quinn scoffed and walked back in her room. I smiled and grabbed Santana's hand and dragged her in with me. Rachel and Mercedes are already here and are chilling on the love seat. I guess Santana and I will be taking the floor or maybe we can sit on Quinn's bed.
"So what movie are we watching?" I ask as I hop on the end of her bed and Santana walks over and stands between my legs; her back to my front.
"I know you're gonna hate me, but we are kind of in a scary movie mood. So we decided to watch the Conjuring" she glances at me before putting the DVD in.
"Noooo" I whine "I hate scary movies, especially when I'm high" I pout and bury my head in Santana's neck.
Santana giggles "Don't worry, I'll protect you from the boogeyman" she whispers.
"Fine. Since you're making me watch a scary movie Quinn you gotta share your bed with me and Santana" Quinn narrows her eyes at me "And we're gonna cuddle" I say as I move my body back and lean against the wall. Quinn sighs before jumping up and sitting next to me. Luckily our dorm rooms are big enough to have a small couch but also small enough where we can all see the TV really well. Mercedes and Rachel slide the couch over by the bed so they are facing us and they'll turn it around when we start the movie.
"So I take it that you all are good now?" Mercedes asks after she sits down and gets comfortable.
"Yes we are, we are actually officially together, as of this afternoon" Santana tells them with a huge grin. She takes two blunts from her purse and tosses it on the ground before getting on Quinn's bed and sliding between my legs to rest her back against my chest. Her head is right on my shoulder so I have the free range to smell her hair like the creeper that I am.
"That is fantastic!" Rachel squeals
"I agree. I'm glad you all figured that out and are officially together. You all are super cute" Mercedes throws a wink our way.
"Thanks" Santana says as she lights the first blunt "So this is the new stuff, I heard it gets you pretty stoned" she smirks before taking a huge hit. God, my girlfriend is so sexy. I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her until shes flush against me, I hear her moan before she takes another hit and passes it to me.
"I can't believe I have to watch a scary movie. Plus we're smoking new stuff, I'm totally gonna freak out" I complain and take a hit.
"You won't be the only one. I don't really like scary movies either but Quinn and Mercedes talked me into it" Rachel sent me a small smile with a shrug. I take another hit before passing it to Quinn. I see Santana light the other blunt and take a hit.
"Oh whatever Rachel, it's not like it was hard to talk you into. We just had to promise to talk Brittany into giving you you're first lesbian experience" Quinn shrugged and took another hit.
The rest of us about lost our shit.
"What the fuck?" Santana says and shoots a glare Quinn's way. I can feel her body tensing up and my body is frozen. This Isn't happening. Santana passes me the blunt and I take a huge hit.
"Quinn!" Rachel yells "I would never say that! She's lying Santana, I swear!" Rachel shakes her head and looks at Santana with worried eyes. Quinn starts laughing, like seriously laughing.
"I'm just fucking around" she laughs "You all messed with me at the door, I had to get you back" She shrugs and accepts the second blunt from my hands.
"Fuck Quinn" Santana breaths and lets out a chuckle "That was a good one" she takes the blunt from Mercedes and leans back into me.
I can't help but giggle "Not that I wouldn't be flattered, and you do have a nice ass Rachel. But no" I shake my head and laugh.
"You think she has a nice ass?" Quinn and Santana yell at the same time. I look around awkwardly before looking over at Rachel. She is currently sporting rosey cheeks and looking at the floor. Aw.
"I mean...yeah" I shrug "Whatever, I am already super stoned. Can we go ahead and start this scary ass movie" I plead and kiss Santana on the forehead when she won't stop frowning. "You have the best ass, don't worry" I whisper against her head and lean my head back against the wall. Quinn presses play and I can already feel my heart start to beat faster.
30 minutes into the movie and we are all super stoned. We finished both blunts and I can't stop flinching at every little thing in the movie. Santana starts making soothing circles on my wrist to help calm me. I think it's working but I'm so stoned that I don't really know what is real or not. I feel like that shit was laced and I kind of want some more.
"Can anyone else see that dark figure standing by the door" I whisper out. I feel Santana move her head to look and see Quinn glance that way from the corner of my eye.
They all say no, except Rachel.
"Fuck...I can totally see it. What is that? Is that a monster?" I see her fidget and move closer to Mercedes who just giggles.
"I think it is a monster Rachel. Like a really big monster that isn't moving. I think it may be thinking of a plan on how to kill us" I whisper and wrap my arms around Santana a little tighter. "You guys really don't see it? Look! It just moved a little bit!" I try and move further back but there's a wall stopping me. I look over to Quinn "Quinn" I whisper, she slowly moves her head in my direction " I know you see it, you just don't want to admit that there is a monster in your room because you have to sleep here tonight" I hear Santana giggle and can't help but to giggle myself.
"Everyone, look to the door. You all will see it, I swear" Rachel whispers. We all slowly turn our heads towards the door and stare. After about 5 seconds the door swings open and we all scream and jump in fright.
"It's alive!" Quinn yells and throws her covers over her head. Fact: Your covers will protect you from the darkness and murderers.
We hear a laugh "What the fuck?" We look up and are met with Pucks amused face. Fuck I don't think I have ever been that scared before.
"Damn it Puck. You scared the shit out of us!" Santana yells and cuddles back into me. He flips on the lights, momentarily blinding us and laughs a deep hearty laugh.
"We thought we saw a monster over by the door and then you come swinging the door open. I almost shit myself" Quinn says with a pout. I can agree with that, that almost happened.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. I was going to see If you all wanted to hang out and smoke, but it's clear you all have already done that. New stuff?" He asks while looking at Santana.
"Yeah, that shit was good. Had these mofos scared shitless" she chuckles and places a kiss on my cheek.
"I for one cannot finish this movie after that" Rachel huffs and shakes her head.
"I agree. I say we smoke some more and hang out with our good pal Puck" I smile and high five him. "Also Puck, to answer your question from yesterday, yes Santana and I are dating. She is my beautiful girlfriend.
He shoots me a beaming smile "That's awesome dude!" He gives me another high give before pulling out a bag of weed.
Life is good.
I know the songs I had Brittany listen to are old songs and they are something my parents grew up with. But they are good songs lol. Please review and leave your thoughts!