Notes; Thank you for the reviews; Maartjuhhh, danielle503, alboppy, CharmzB and ForeverCharmed109. Here is chapter 10, finally. Sorry it took me so long, but I was suffering from a huge writersblock and I didn't know how to continue the story, anyway it's gone now, got my muse back, enjoy the chapter!

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Previously; Paige found out that she was pregnant with Cole's baby. Cole finds out and he wants to have a family now more than ever, but he doesn't tell Paige. Paige thinks she's not ready to take care of a baby and she considers an abortion..


10: Love and Lies.

Paige was standing in front of the mirror in her bedroom. She turned and put her hand upon her stomach to imagine what she would look like if she had been 6 months pregnant. It was a week later and she had been to the doctor with Cole only to find out that she was 3 weeks pregnant now. The doctor had told her to think the abortion over for another 2 weeks because some women regretted it after the procedure was fulfilled.

I don't have a choice. The young woman though. Having a baby with Cole is impossible, it's wrong and if the Elders ever find out I'll be so screwed. She let out s small sigh and ran her hand across her stomach. ''I wouldn't be a good mom anyway.'' She mumbled.

''What makes you think that?'' A male voice said from the other side of the room. Paige pulled her top back down and turned around to face Cole. ''I'm too young, Cole. I've only just left my alcohol problems behind me, besides I'm a witch. I don't have time to take care of a baby, especially without a husband.'' She watched him walking over to her and she could've sworn that she saw a bit of hurt flicker in his blue eyes. ''I guess you're right.'' He replied. Paige bit her lower lip and looked up at him, ''Cole please don't make me feel guilty about it. I can't have this baby. It's forbidden. This baby was never meant to be made.'' She told him quietly as she felt guilt taking over. Damn it Paige. She thought to herself. He's a demon, how can he make you feel so guilty?

''Can't you say you've had a onenightstand? Can't you tell them that you don't know who the father is?'' he asked her. ''Paige I want this baby so bad. You can't just have it removed.'' He placed his hand on her cheek and brushed his thumb over her cheek softly. He hadn't planned on this, it was Paige's life, but it was his baby too.

''I can't lie to my sisters Cole. I know I've lied to them this before, but I can't lie about the father of my baby to them. Besides I'm not even ready to get up every single night to feed a baby and to change it's diapers and to..-'' she trailed off as the tears sprung into her eyes at Cole's look. He looked so disappointed. Paige could tell he wanted to get angry at her, to shout at her that he didn't want her to have an abortion, but he managed to control himself.

''Fine. If you're sure that this is what you want.'' He let his hand fall back to his side. ''I'll come with you if you make an appointment.'' He told her as he casually stuck his hands into his pockets. ''Cole I'm not doing this because you're a demon. I'm doing this, because I don't think I'm ready and because I can't risk getting my wings clipped, or maybe even worse.'' She put her hands on his chest and looked at him, but Cole kept avoiding her gaze. ''It's fine, Paige. Just let me know when the appointment is, you have my number.'' ''Cole..-'' Paige started, but he shimmered out without giving her a chance to say anything else.

She let out a defeated sigh and flopped down onto the bed, now she was even more confused than before. If she didn't have the abortion then she could be up for big trouble, because she probably wouldn't be able to hide the truth from her sister. On the other hand if she did have the abortion, Cole would be back to hating her and she didn't want that either. Why does life have to be so complicated? She thought desperately.

Cole shimmered into his apartment and took his jacket off violently. ''Why for the love of God is she so stubborn!? Damn it.'' He threw his jacket onto the couch and started to undo his tie. She just doesn't understand. A small voice said in the back of his head. She doesn't understand how much you want a family, Cole and she never will. Cole walked over to his drink cabinet and looked for a whiskey glass. Or maybe she does understand and she just wants to see you suffer. Maybe she just wants to have her revenge for all those times that you've hurt her. Another voice said. ''She's not like that.'' Cole mumbled to himself, which would've looked quite amusing to an outsider. Pouring himself a double after having found the right glass, he sighed deeply. ''Face it, Cole. You're a demon and she's an angel. We're opposites and a baby from us two is just impossible.'' He glanced at the brown liquid in the glass and then downed it. Alcohol was the only thing that could calm him down these days when he was in a bad mood. Much better. He thought as he placed the glass down and walked over to the couch.

Paige made her way down the stairs rubbing her eyes tiredly. She had been asleep for hours and she wondered if her sisters were back from shopping yet. She stopped as she heard two hushed voice coming from the kitchen. '"So you think this is hers?''

'"Well, yeah if we both haven't bought it. You're already pregnant, Piper and I haven't had sex for ages. Oh my God do you think she's pregnant from Cole?'' Phoebe's voice said sounding slightly woried. ''No. She would've told us, right? We're her sisters.'' Piper replied, thought she didn't sound totally convinced.

Paige bit her lower lip, Damn it. They found the box. She took a deep breath and pushed the door open with a lot of noise, ''Hey guys.'' She said cheerfully. Piper and Phoebe both jumped and Piper quickly hid something behind her back which, Paige assumed, was the box of her pregnancy test.

''Hey Paige, you seem happy.'' Phoebe replied as she took a sip of her coffee. ''I am actually. I feel a lot better.'' She walked over to the counter and poured herself a big mug of the hot brown liquid. Piper and Phoebe exchanged looks and Piper rolled her eyes. ''Paige?'' she started carefully. Paige looked at her coffee, Are you actually allowed to drink this caffeine when you're pregnant? She wondered, not hearing Piper. ''Hello? Earth to Paige.''

''Hmm what?'' Paige looked up from the mug that she was holding, ''Sorry?''

''I'm just going to ask you this and the answer is no, okay?'' Piper said as she got up. ''Umm.'' Paige looked at her older sister. ''No, can you say it with me?'' Paige raised an eyebrow, ''No.'' She joked smiling. ''Yeah, good. So.. um.. Pheebs?'' Piper looked over at her younger sister who tried to hide behind her mug by taking a sip of the coffee. ''Guys, what's up?'' Paige asked, she already knew where this was leading. ''Paige. Are you by any chance, um, pregnant?'' Paige looked into her oldest sister's eyes, trying not to blink. She took a deep breath, this would be this first time that she was going to tell her sisters a very big lie, but it seemed better than telling the truth. ''I..- of course not Sweetie, don't be silly.'' She told Piper.

''Thank god!'' Phoebe said, her hand flew to her mouth. ''Did I just say that out loud?''

Paige let out a small laugh, ''Yeah, but it's okay. I mean, yeah. Thank god.'' She sighed inwardly and tried to ignore the nagging guilt feeling that she had. Piper smiled, ''Good. We would've been in big trouble if you were pregnant from Cole.'' She informed her baby-sister and turned back to the dinner that she had been cooking earlier. Paige looked away from Phoebe and quickly finished her coffee so she could escape the kitchen.

Several hours later Paige was getting ready for bed, she pulled her slipdress over her head and took her earrings out. It was still kind of early, but she felt really tired. Lets just hope that no demons will interrupt me tonight. She thought to herself and made her way over to the bed.

She pulled the covers aside and stepped into a soft comfortable bed. When she pulled the covers over herself she felt her body instantly relax and she reached over this switch off the light on the nightstand when Cole shimmered into the room. Bags were forming under his red rimmed eyes like he had been crying, but he didn't look sad. ''Paige..'' he grinned, obviously drunk. Paige sat up, ''Cole, what are you doing here?'' ''I wanted you..no I want you not wanted.'' He murmered as he made his way over to the bed, not being able to walk in a straight line. ''Cole you're drunk. You can't have me I need to sleep.'' Paige told him and she looked up at him when he stood next to the bed. ''I agree..with me.'' He smiled and sat down on the bed. He placed his hand on Paige's leg and moved closer to her.

Paige shook her head and put her finger to his lips, ''Go home, Cole.'' Cole just flashed her another goofy smile and kissed the top of her finger, then he took her hand and started to place small butterfly kisses across it. ''I want to stay here, with you.'' He murmered against her skin. Paige let out a small sigh, he wasn't going to listen to her when he was drunk. She rolled her eyes and looked at Cole, ''If you lock the door for me then you can spend the night here, but just to sleep.'' She told him. Cole looked up at her with his tired, yet sparkling eyes.

''I knew you loved me.'' He said, kissing her lips softly. ''Hmm.'' Paige pulled back carefully, ''Just go and lock the door before my sisters walk in.'' Cole nodded and struggled a bit to get up. He had at least had 5 maybe 6 glasses of whiskey and a beer and that was definately throwing his body off balance. Paige watched him making his way over the carpet towards the door and after a few seconds he finally managed to turn the key in it's lock. ''All locked, now the only thing we have to think of is being quiet.'' He said, walking back over to the bed. Paige nodded, ''I hope you don't snore.'' She smiled slightly knowing that wasn't what he meant.

Ten minutes later Cole was finally laying in bed on the right side and the sheets covering his body. He still didn't want to settle down and go to sleep, though. He didn't feel tired and in stead of closing his eyes like Paige had told him to do about a thousand times, he softly ran his hand up her bare leg.

Paige let out a giggle and shifted onto her side so that she faced him, ''Cole go to sleep. You can do that when you're sober.'' She told him, running her finger down his nose lightly. Cole moved his head slightly, ''I am sober.'' He replied as he pulled her closer to his body. ''No you're not.'' Paige closed her eyes when Cole started to kiss her neck, wanting to prove that he wasn't drunk and that he felt fine. That's just mean. Don't use my weak spots against me. Paige thought and she placed her hand on Cole's chest, pulling away from him gently. ''I promise that if you go to sleep now, you can have me tomorrow, okay?'' Cole smiled and kissed her, ''Okay.'' He replied.

Paige nodded and pulled the sheets over his shoulder, ''Sleep well Cole.'' She kissed his cheek softly. Cole closed his eyes with a slight sigh, ''Sleep well.'' He moved his arm around her body and pulled her closer, inhaling her scent. A small smile played across Paige's lips and she closed her eyes as well, snuggling into his broad chest.

''I love you.'' Cole breathed quietly, but just loud enough for Paige to hear him. She opened her eyes. He loved her?

notes; Whooo chapter 10 is done! Anyway I have a week holidays now (yaaaaaaay all cheer!) and that will give me more time to type my stories up. Keep checking back to my account for updates and hit the little blue button to send me a review please!! xxxx