Thirty Kisses

Title: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Author: Luna
Pairing: one-sided Mafuyu and Miku, one-sided Miku and Rei, Mafuyu and Kirie
Fandom: Fatal Frame
Theme: If only I could make you mine
Disclaimer: Wow, almost a full year... ;;; Umm. Sorry?
Warning: Incest and hints of shoujo-ai. Yay o.o Don't like it, don't read. And the timeline of this is so messed up ;;; This follows my previous one-shot focusing on Mafuyu and Miku, and shifts in to Miku loving Rei, which means Mafuyu would be alive in Fatal Frame III. My next one-shot whenever I get to it will be Miku and Rei, finishing up this little triology in my 30 kisses :3

"You've changed," The coffee scalding his throat as he swallowed went unnoticed while he gazed curiously across the table, "When did you pass me by?"

His question hovered in the air without an answer. Leaning back in to the seat of the booth, a sigh passed through his parted lips, "It isn't like you to be so silent around me. What is on your mind, Miku?"

Once more, his inquiresation seemingly fell on deaf ears. This appeared to bother him since his hand shot across the table to latch on to the young woman's wrist, finally capturing her attention by startling her out of her thoughts. Blinking a few times to focus her vision, she offered an apologetic smile, "Sorry. What were you saying?"

Mafuyu released his hold on her to use the table as leverage to stand up, smoothing out his shirt to keep the wrinkles from becoming permanent. He placed some money on top of the bill along with the quick and began to exit the cafe, knowing full well it would only be a matter of seconds before he was followed.

He was right. Hearing footsteps behind him, he paused at the door longer then necessary to hold it open for Miku, enjoying the brightness in her expression over the simple action. Only for him was she this bright, only for him.

Cobblestone gave way to gravel and gravel morphed in to grass. Grass eventually faded in to sand, signaling to him he had reached the destination of his choice. Moving one hand to rest in the pocket of his khaki pants and letting the other rest at his side, Mafuyu continued to walk with slow strides to get closer to the shoreline.

Miku raised one hand to rest close to her ear, staring out at the ocean longingly while the breeze played with her cappuccino hair and black skirt. She shifted her gaze to rest on the brunette treading on the sand for a few seconds before pressing onward to follow him at a short distance.

"It feels so nice out here," Her remark came out soft and wistful, notes of sadness lingering in her tone. Mafuyu glanced over his shoulder and nodded his head in agreement, coming to a halt on the sandy shore.

"Maybe you can help me put the pieces together," Miku stopped after he did, glancing at his profile in curiosity, "Something has been bothering me for a decent length of time now. I have kept from saying anything since it is not my place to interfere too deeply in to matters that do not concern me, but it is to the point I feel I am no longer capable of remaining silent."

She could not fathom what he was getting at. Listening patiently, she observed the change that came over his features. The loss of his smile, the sternness in his jaw, the void without warmth; it unnerved her to see such coldness settle over him.

"What bothers me greatly, my dear sister, is watching you make the biggest mistake of your life. Have you thought this over? Do you know what you are placing yourself in the middle of? Things are not as simple in the real world as they are in your fantasies," Frustrated, Mafuyu stared down at her with his features hardened, "This will get more complicated if you press onwards. Pursuing such a-"

"Brother," Miku raised her index finger to rest against his lips in order to silence him, "Let's talk about today."

"Today?"

"Today you love Kirie, right?" It was his turn to be confused. Seeing him display it through his eyes, Miku smiled, "You love Kirie, even though she is simply a ghost that is a memory to us now. For the rest of today you will love her. Does it matter if you love her tomorrow? No. You love her today, and today is all you have. Why should you worry about what tomorrow brings? Live for today so you can love her for now."

"You are making little sense, Miku," Mafuyu arched a brow at her, "What does my love for Kirie have to do with the point I am trying to make to you?"

"Because it is the exact same. If I love someone, I love them today. I may love them tomorrow, I may not. I hope I do; you never know for certain since all you have is what you have for now. Why should I think of years in the future when today is still today? Let tomorrow be tomorrow."

She was making no sense to him at all. What relevance did that have with what he was trying to get across?

"For today, I love Rei-san," Mafuyu felt his mouth clench to lock his jaw, his gaze being adverted to the side instead of the woman before him, "It doesn't matter if she doesn't love me today, or tomorrow, or ever. What matters is that I love her; as long as I know that, it really makes no difference if knowing comes to pass. Just being able to see her and know how important she is to me is enough. Why would I ask for more than that or look in to it more?"

"Because it is only natural to want your feelings to be returned," His eyes darkened, his hand returning to latch on to her wrist, "But you know that will never happen with her having the persona she does. Why bother holding on to false hopes waiting someday for things to change when you know as well as I do they never will? She will always love Yuu."

"Simple; it doesn't matter," Mafuyu faltered at her smile, watching her place her free hand other the one he had attached to her, "You can't help who you love. Your heart makes those decisions even if you know they are not the ones you wish to choose. It is for that reason and that reason alone that it does not matter if I have to keep myself silent forever just to make sure she never knows how much I love her. As long as I can see her and stay by her side as her friend, to help her pick up her pieces when she breaks, to make her remember that she is never alone; that is enough for me."

His body reacted before his mind had time to calculate his actions fully, his hands clamping down painfully on to her shoulders until he felt his nails bury in her skin. The yelp that emitted from her to signal her discomfort spurred him on further, his sense of reason flittering away from him completely as he claimed her lips as his own in a bruising kiss, relishing in the fact he knew he could hurt her as easily as he could bring her pleasure within the single action.

Nipping at her lower lip, he felt himself smirk in satisfaction when she allowed him the access he craved. Exploring gently with tongue, he released his hold on her shoulders to slip one arm around her waist and the other around the back of her head, drawing her closer until her was certain she had no room to breath without his permission. Heat surged up inside him when he felt her struggle half-heartedly against him, feeling her fingers splay against his chest in an attempt to push him away. The action became a vain one when he growled deeply in his throat, forcing her even closer to him though there was hardly any room as it was.

Mafuyu let his eyes open half way, forcing Miku's chin up in order to have a better angle to ravish her throat her mouth. The red coloring on her cheeks sent a swell of pride to pool in his stomach, knowing full well he was the cause of the fire shooting through her at fierce pace. The struggling she did mixed with the way she kissed him back subconsciously spurred him further, making him use a great deal of willpower to keep from ripping his lips from her own in order to trail kisses across every available inch of skin unhidden by her clothing.

He only realized her when he felt moisture against the corner of his mouth that was not produced from the heated gesture he engaged her in. Pulling back a bit, heaviness settled over him when he noticed the tears glistening in her dark eyelashes. Whether from pain, embarrassment, or sheer frustration, he was uncertain. What he was certain of was that he did not want her crying in any form unless it was from pleasure induced by an action only he deemed himself fit to carry out.

"Stop it," Wiping the back of her hand against her mouth angrily, Miku glared up at her brother, her vivid eyes flashing with untamed emotion, "What do you think you're doing, Mafuyu? I loved you more then I could even begin expressing to you. But that was yesterday; I can't return to how I felt back then. Things can't ever be like that between us."

She felt his hand against her cheek, tensing up at the light touch that was meant to be a comforting gesture. Averting her gaze from his eyes, Miku stared at the ground while refusing to acknowledge the man in front of her. In the back of her mind, she made the connection that he would leave her be if she ignored him. A part of her, one she wished to ignore, wasn't so sure it wished for such a thing to transpire.

However, she did look up at him questionly when she felt his arms wrap around her body again, surprised when she realized how badly she was trembling. Obviously this did not go unnoticed by Mafuyu since before she had time to realize what he was doing, he was already in the process of kissing her tears away as the unknowingly fell from her eyes.

As before, she pushed against his chest in vain to keep him away. Miku succumbed after only a short period of time, knowing full well how strong he could become if he truly did not want her to get away from him. Resting her forehead on Mafuyu's shoulder, a low whimper escaped her throat, "I don't love you. I don't want to love you, either."

"Does that really matter?" Tilting her chin up to see her eyes, he smiled softly down at her, "You can fall in love with love with me all over again, Miku. You should know by now that even if you tell her how much you care for her, it won't make a difference. Nothing will come out of it. Why put yourself up for rejection you are certain of feeling? Is it not better to be with someone who loves you even if you do not love them back?"

Mafuyu leaned forward until his vision of the young woman before him vanished, only able to see the stray tears still marring her skin. Flicking his tongue out to lick them away, he found her answer to be just as bitter as her tears, "No."