Sorry this took so long. I'll be trying to post a chapter every weekend from now on but if I can't I'm sorry.

It was Friday night and Natasha sat on her couch watching the news, fully dressed and ready for dinner with Trevor(A/N: Outfit link on my profile). She was also ready twenty minuets early. So she sat there watching the reporters blab on about the weather and make cheesy jokes. Twenty five minutes passed and there was a knock on the door. She made sure her hair was fine and her dress wasn't crooked before she opened the door to reveal a very handsome looking Trevor King in casual suit.

"You look amazing." Trevor stated looking up and down her body.

"You don't look too bad yourself." Natasha responded, blushing and looking down at her feet.

"You ready to go?"

Natasha nodded and shut the door behind her.

Two hours later Trevor and Natasha were laughing hysterically together while walking down the sidewalk towards Natasha's house.

"I can't believe you didn't... remember to fill... your car up with...gas." Natasha choked out between fits of laughter.

"Hey, I got us to the restaurant. We had an amazing dinner and then..."

"You ran out of gas driving down queen street." Natasha had to stop walking she was laughing so hard. "Damn it my feet hurt." Natasha stated with a smile still on her face.

She reached down to take her left shoe off but lost her balance and tumbled forward landing in Trevor's arms, face inches from his. He just stared at her for a minute. Looking into her deep blue eyes. He took a chance and leaned forward slowly waiting to see if she would pull back. She didn't so he brought his lips down onto hers. She kissed him back for a moment but then suddenly pulled away.

"I'm sorry I can't do this." Natasha pulled off her other shoe and started running down the sidewalk towards her Condo.

"Natasha wait!" Trevor easily caught up to her and stopped her. "Listen I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that. If you don't feel that way about me that's fine. We can just pretend it didn't happen."

"it's not that Trevor! It's the fact that I do like you! But it's just too soon!" Natasha sobbed

"What do you mean too soon?"

"My boyfriend died! He got shot because he was a cop. A cop just like you. My brother was with him. I could have lost both of them that day, and if I were to date you...I could lose you and I don't know if I'm ready yet...I just don't know!" Natasha started sobbing again. "I can't...breathe"

Trevor rushed towards her and pulled him into his arms.

"Shh...it's going to be okay. Deep breaths. Do want to go back to your apartment and talk?"

Natasha nodded. Trevor looked at the street sign they were less then a block away. he scooped her small form into his arms and easily carried her down the block. He could feel her small sobs shaking her body as she clung to him while they walked. Well, while he walked.

"Nat, we're here. You gotta unlock the door." She sniffled then nodded and he gently put her back down.

She reached into her tiny clutch she had been gripping in her hand and unlocked the main door to the building. The ride in the elevator was silent. Trevor held Natasha close to him. When they got to her condo suite Natasha opened the door and walked inside. As he walked into her home he for some reason just felt that it didn't seem like her. She had been so alive and entertaining at dinner and her condo just seemed empty. There were no pictures hanging on the wall and nothing on the fridge. Natasha dropped her clutch and went and lied down on the couch. Trevor could hear her start crying again.

"Natasha. Please. Talk to me."

He walked over to the couch and she sat up to give him some room.

"Do you want to full story? From beginning to end?"

He nodded and she told him everything. From the beginning of her life and when her mom died. Then going to live with Sam and Jules. She told him about the bombing and her step dad. Natasha told him everything about Jake. They just sat there and she told him everything.

"You're amazing. You've been through so much and you still made it out alive. When I look at you I don't see a weak girl. I see a strong women who can do anything. I don't want to push you but I had an amazing time tonight and I know you're probably not ready but I'd like to see you again. And if I have to wait two months or five months that's okay. Just let me know."

"Do you want to know what scares me the most?" Natasha asked silently. "I think I am ready for a relationship with you but I don't want to get hurt again."

Trevor moved closer to Natasha and put his arm around her.

"I'm not going to hurt you. I promise."

Natasha looked up into his hazel eyes and couldn't help herself. His words felt so honest and real. She believed him. So she kissed him. It was all a blur after that. She dragged him towards her bedroom. There had been more kissing and stumbling.

"Are you sure? If things are moving too fast..." His words had been cut off by another kiss.

The next moring Natasha could feel his strong arms around her and their legs tangled together. She could tell by his breathing that he was still asleep. She gently rolled over to face him trying not to disturb his sleep. She knew she shouldn't have been but she found herself comparing him to Jake. He looked more grown up then Jake had for being only a year older. Trevor was more muscular then Jake had been, but not anymore or any less handsome.

Trevor's eyelids twitched and slowly opened adjusting to the morning light seeping through the windows. A sleepy grin broke across his face as he recalled the night before.

"Good morning." Natasha whispered kissing him lightly.

"It is a good moring." Trevor mumbled against her lips.

Before they could continue anything the loud shrill of Natasha's phone rang out across the condo.

"Ignore it." Trevor whispered pressing his forward to his.

"I can't, it could be work." Natasha sighed getting up out of bed and slipping Trevor's shirt on.

"Hello"

"Hey Nat it's Sam."

"Oh hey. What's going on?"

"Nothing much I just wanted to talk to you about something."

"Okay..."

"I want to you to stay away from Trevor."

"What? Why?"

"It's just you've been through allot and I just don't want him to hurt you."

"Why would he hurt me?"

"I just think it's too soon."

"I'll decide that Sam."

With that she hung up the phone. She walked back into the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed.

"What was that about?" He asked playing with her fingers

"Sam wants me to stay away from you."

"It's a little late for that." Trevor chuckled

"Maybe we could keep this a secret for a little while. Just until my brother warms up to you."

"As long as I'm seeing you I don't care."

Natasha smiled and got up off the bed and walked into her closet.

"I have the day off so I think I'm going to go into the station and see Jules. We can go in different entrances so my brother doesn't see us." Natasha called out.

"Sounds good." Trevor called back.

Natasha walked back into the bedroom fully dressed and noticed that Trevor was also ready to go.

"Do you think they'll notice that you're wearing a suit?"

"I'll tell them I was with a girl. They don't have to know which girl."

Natasha wanted to laugh but she couldn't. She felt this strange this dizziness overtake her and a strange pain in her chest. She grabbed onto the dresser for support. It did her no good as she fell to the floor.