Bo/Lauren

Rated M

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Lauren

Looking up at the ceiling, It was two o'clock in the morning and I couldn't go to sleep. After the whole screaming match with Dyson, Bo closed herself off and dinner was a little uncomfortable to say at least. Beth...bless her heart, tried to get a conversation going but it was no use. Dinner ended early and Beth went to bed as well, Bo had helped me change and got me in bed for the night, I thought she would want to talk but she left to go her room. I had used all my energy getting into my chair earlier to try and stop the yelling match between Beth's parents because the poor child was listening to everything. But now as I lay here, I wanted to talk to Bo...she seemed hurt and sad. Lifting my upper body into a sitting position, I reached over for my chair and struggled to get in it. After about ten or so minutes, I finally got sorted and wheeled myself to the door. I haven't used the machine for the stairs yet because my room was on the first floor but I was gonna used it now to get to Bo's room. I was a little nervous to see her after that almost kiss in my room, she haven't said anything about it...so I won't either but I knew I needed to be there for her because I knew Dyson's words stung. I wheeled through the kitchen on my way towards the stairs, when I saw the back door open. I wheeled closer and saw a figure sitting on the porch, I knew it was Bo by her long hair as I wheeled outside towards her.

We said nothing as I sat there with my hands in my lap. She raised her half empty glass of wine to her lips and gulped the liquid down.

"You're getting pretty good at moving around now" Her words were a little slow but clear, she was tipsy as I grabbed the glass from her hand.

"You want some?"

"No, just taking it off your hands...plus I'm on meds and they don't mixed well. You okay?" I asked putting the glass down and looking at her, I saw so much sadness that it triggered a memory of Jennifer when she would get sad.

"I'm fineeee. You should go back to bed and sleep, you have a big day tomorrow"

"Yeah I don't want you hangover coming to my doctor's appointment with me. Is this about Dy-

"Fuck Dyson!" She yelled throwing the wine bottle against the brick porch, I flinched and closed my eyes waiting for the hit to come. I tried to calm my breath but I was scared to even exhale, after about a few seconds I didn't feel anything so I opened my eyes and saw Bo staring at me in confusion.

"Why did you just flinch like that?"

"I...I didn-

"Don't lie to me! Why did you just flinch like I was about to hit you or something?" Bo demanded sobering up in seconds.

"Please...just let it go" I begged as tears filled my eyes. I didn't want to go there tonight, I was already emotionally drained from earlier.

"I came out here to see if you were okay, you seemed off during dinner" I said wheeling closer to her and reached for her hand but she snatched her hand back glaring at me.

"I'm fine. You clearly don't trust me with your past so stop asking about mine. Go back to bed Lauren" She dismissed me, I felt like my heart was just ripped out my chest. I blinked as my tears fell, I quickly turned my wheel and pushed myself back inside.

"Why are you so fucking secretive! You know almost everything about me, you know my husband is a cheater, my no good mother is a drug addict who sleeps around, my father is dead, and I'm a bi-sexual anti-social workaholic. I let you in my house, around my child and you still won't open up to me! Why can't you trust me?" Her voice cracked at the end as I stop moving the chair. My back was to her and I was kinda glad because I knew I would fall apart if I saw her cry.

"I don't want to end up getting hurt" I said slowly turning my chair around to see her. She walked closer to me and bent down to my level.

"Lauren I would never hurt you" She whispered holding my face in her hands. I wanted to believe that but my past experience told me otherwise.

"The last person that promised that...did exactly what she promised she wouldn't do" I said moving my face but she grabbed my chin.

"I'm not Jennifer Lauren"

"I know but it's all the same in my head. I'm fucked up" I cried as she wrapped her arms around me.

"You are not fucked up Lauren...you're hurt and by your reaction I'm gonna guess that she hurt you bad"

"Please...I can-

"Lauren, I can't help you heal until you tell me what I'm trying to heal. It kills me to see you so hurt all the time"

"I don't want to burden you with my problems" I said as she grabbed the handles to my chair and leaned down towards my ear.

"You live with me, you're family now and little do you know you're stuck with me" She said pushing me back into the house.

Bo

Once we were back into the house, I wheeled her to her room, once she was good I popped some popcorn and grabbed some sodas. She decline any help getting back into her bed, I was so proud to watch her succeed in getting in her bed. I put the bowl of popcorn between us and looked at her and crawled in behind her.

"Lauren you know that I care about right? You have brought so much happiness into my daughter's and...my life as well. These past two months has been a rollercoaster for us all and I just want to help ease your pain" I found myself spilling and blushed hard. This wine was making my filter slip.

"Bo…

"Just start where you left off earlier" I suggested.

"Can you hold me?"

"Whatever you want Lauren" I said and moved the bowl. We got into position and I felt her give a exhale of breath. I held her in a protective manner so she would feel safe in my arms and comfortable to tell her story.

"This feels amazing...I forgot how much I miss this" She whispered pulling my arms more around her. My heart was ramming in my chest and my hands were getting clammy so close to her breasts.

What the fuck! Chill out

"She wasn't the affectionate type?" I asked

"She was to a point, I told you earlier she was a hardcore Army brat. She thought showing emotions was weak. She was bipolar but was never diagnosed" she said as I squeezed her.

"I didn't want to believe it either because she hid it so well...she hid it so fucking well" She started to cry as I just held her.

"The first time she hit me was a couple of months before our wedding, she had got medically discharged from the Army when they found out about her condition. She was livid and raging, confused as to how they found out. She knew I told but she didn't want to believe that I would betray her like that. I was scared that with her unstable behavior...she would get a lot of people killed...our people. I had to do something"

"You're doing fine Lo...keep going" I whispered in encouragement.

"She was like a raging bull and I was the red flag, I was at work in my office when she found me. I had never been so afraid in my life then at that moment. She slammed the door and lunged right at me. My reflexes was so quick that she crashed into my bookcase, she chased me around the room until I stopped and tried to grab her arms to calm her down. Bad fucking move on my part" I tried to keep my cool but the more she spoke...the more heated I would got.

"Mind you Jennifer is by far the strongest woman I have ever met, she was running on rage and pure strength when she grabbed me by my neck and lifted me off my feet. I don't know if it was my eyes or she just snapped out of it...but she dropped me and left. And that's when angry Jennifer was born"

"Damn Lauren"

"She never hit me in my face..she knew better than that, her favorite spots were my thighs and legs. I couldn't wear a dress or skirt for years, then all of sudden...It was my arms and stomach. Short sleeves were no more as well, I was hiding her abuse for over a year before someone found out."

"Lauren…

"She was jealous and betrayed by her wife Bo, I was still being deployed but after a incident at home that almost left me fighting for my life, I was discharged honorably."

"I know what you're going to say...why didn't you leave or tell anybody? She was sick, I thought she was acting out because of it. I tricked myself for years thinking it was the illness making her do those things. She was so remorseful afterwards, affectionate, and caring...I was so fucking stupid, confused, and in love"

"So what made you leave for good?" I asked but quickly regretted it when her body went rigid in my arms.

"I...I can't...I'm not mentally ready to talk about that yet" She said in broken words as I nodded and rubbed her arms.

"Okay...Okay calm down, we don't have to talk about that now. But can I ask one question?" I asked looking into her brown honey eyes.

"Yeah"

"Do this have something to do with your nightmares?" I dare to ask as she looked me in the eye and bit her lip.

"Yes"

"Okay. I won't push you. Lauren please don't ever hesitate in finding comfort in me" I said and moved her hair out of her face.

Shit...shit...shit!

There's that look again, Dyson wasn't here to ruin it this time and I was happy about it.

"Lauren?"

"Yes?"

"Don't move okay" I whispered and slowly moved away so she was flat on her back as I hovered over her.

"Bo…-

"Shhhh" I leaned my forehead down to hers, she gave a small gasped and licked her lips.

"I would never hurt you like that…"

"I...I believe you" Lauren whispered burying her fingers in my hair, I closed my eyes at the feeling and moaned. Been awhile since I had somebody under me like this, touching me like this...my body was so sensitive to the touch. I couldn't wait any longer and lowered my lips down to hers.

Oh my fucking god

My whole body melted and I couldn't hold my body up any longer above her. She moaned loudly in the kiss when my body fell on top of hers, hands were moving and our tongues just caressed each other. She held me tight against her as I slowly started to move my hips against her stomach as I straddled her. The kiss was passionate and intense...definitely in my top two. I pulled back suddenly gasping for a breath, she laid there licking her lips tasting me...oh how I want her to taste me somewhere else. I knew I had to get outta here before I did something stupid, I leaned back to nuzzle her neck leaving lazy kisses down to her collarbone.

"You really know how to move your tongue" She whispered.

"This is child's play compared to what I can really do with it" I said as I watched her cheeks burned red.

I wonder how far that blush really go

"As fun as that sound...we should stop" She said

"You're right" I pulled back and got up, she just looked up at me and at that moment I knew I was fucked.

Dyson was right for once...I was wrapped around her finger.

"You sure you want me to go…"

"I might not have a nightmare tonight...plus I don't trust my hands right now"

"How come?" I asked hovering over her. She lifted her hand and touched my lips.

"I'm really happy right now"

I smiled huge and crashed my lips down on hers for one last kiss.

"Goodnight" I whispered pulling back and reluctantly backed away from the bed and the temptation.

"Goodnight Bo" She whispered pulling the covers over her. I grabbed the bowl of popcorn and walked towards the door. I really hope she didn't have a nightmare tonight...I didn't want tonight to be tarnished. I threw the uneaten popcorn away and made it to my room, snuggling into my pillows and touching my lips...I couldn't keep the smile off my face.

We were sitting in the waiting area of the doctor's office, I picked up a magazine I saw lying on the table, as Lauren was glued to the TV.

"Are you nervous?" I suddenly asked and turned the page in my hand.

"Should I be? Yes, I have a forty percent chance I would be get my mobility back. That's not much but it's something" She said taking her eyes off the screen and looked at me, my eyes went straight to her lips wanting nothing more than to say fuck everybody in here and kiss her.

Her face suddenly went red

"Stop looking at me like that" She whispered blushing, I dropped the magazine and scooted closer to her. I grabbed the wheels and turned her chair towards me.

"Like what Lauren?" I asked with a smirk

"Like you want to do things to me" She mumbled but I heard. I leaned closer and put both of her hands on my thighs. She tried to pull away but I kept her from moving.

"Oh I definitely want to do something to you" I said as she squeezed the muscle in my thighs. My hips jerked off the seat as I quickly scanned the area to see if anybody was watching. She got bolder and moved her hand to the inside of my thighs. I damn near choked on a moan when she squeezed.

"I can play this game just as well" She whispered in my ear and squeezed again. I had to pretend like I was coughing to cover up a whimper that tried to escape. She wheeled back and moved away, I had to cross my legs to put pressure on my raging hormones.

"Well played" I said as she laughed and went back to watching TV.

"Lauren Henderson"

We both looked up when her name was called, quickly gathering my things and pushing her towards the waiting door, Lauren reached over to lay her hand on mines.

"Whatever happens today good or bad...I'm here" I said looking at her and seeing fear in her eyes.

"Promise?"

I stuck my pinky out as she wrapped her pinky around mine.

"Promise" I kissed her pinky and we both disappeared through the door.