I'm still trying to find my writing style so that why this story has been so weird. But thanks for sticking with with. :D

The song that Cas sings is picture perfect by Escape the Fate. I think you should listen to it before you read it or even while ur reading it, It's ur life man. so here a link to the song if you want to listen to it.

watch?v=GDRG0mkCoGs

Anyway Hope you like the Chapter. Lots of fluff and angst!

Chapter 10

Castiel's POV

"Mfff." Castiel groaned underneath Dean's lips. They were on Castiel's bed, laying down, and at the moment devouring each others mouth. Castiel lead his hand up Dean's side so lightly he was barely touching it. Dean started to smile and laugh into the kiss.

"Dude don't!" He laughed pulling back.

Castiel smirked and quickly turned them over so he was on top. He pined Dean's hands above his head. "Cas what are you doing?" Dean asked with a scared face.

Castiel only smirked more and crashed their lips together once more. He earned a moan from Dean and fumbled with the belt on his jeans. Castiel was thankful Dean wasn't paying attention and before Dean could notice Castiel had tied his hands to the head board. Castiel broke the kiss and looked at the half naked boy below him. Dean tried to move his hands and just noticed his hands bounded.

"What the hell?" He said looking up at his hands. He tried to pull them free but failed. He looked back at Castiel then smirked. "Kinky son of a bitch."

"You don't want to know all of the stuff I could do to you."

"What? you think I can't handle it?" Dean asked in mocking tone.

"No." Castiel simply stated then threw off his own shirt. He bent down and began to suck on Dean neck. He felt Dean tense and stopped. "Cas?"

"What?" Castiel asked sitting up on top on Dean. Oh god, He doesn't like his hands tied. Fuck! Please tell me I just didn't ruin this.

"Are you ok?" Dean asked looking up at him.

"Yeah, Why are you asking?" Castiel asked with a head tilt.

"Cas you were almost raped the other day and here you are wanting sex. I mean don't get me wrong, I'm all up for it but it's a little weird. Don't most people like need space after something like that happens?"

Castiel sighed and got up off the bed. He walked over and untied Dean and sat next to him. He sat up and looked at Castiel with worried eyes.

"There's something I've been needing to tell you." He said looking at his lap.

"What is it Cas?" He heard Dean ask.

"There's something I need to do before I tell you." Cas said and got up and headed for his closet. He swung the door open, quickly switched on the light and picked up his beauty. He closed it back and looked at Dean to find him staring. He quietly set his case down and got his his guitar out.

"I knew you were into music but I didn't know you could play the guitar." Dean stated.

Castiel put on a small smile. He didn't want to talk. He never did when he got ready to play. Castiel was about to do something he never did, but he was happy to do it and really, he need to. He sat on the bed next to Dean and looked at him steadily. Dean eyes were full of curiosity and worry. Castiel took in a deep breath, looked at his fingers and began his song.

This was his favorite song and he had played it so many times he didn't need to look at his finger but he didn't want to look at Dean. He strummed and strummed and was dreading singing in front of Dean but there was no backing out now. He let the music flow through him and began to sing.

you lived your life like you were on fire

But how can I Dance

when your soul just lifted me higher and higher and higher

paint bleeds, ink runs, image of your love

your memory, our history

Why did you have to go?

I give up my eyes, to see you one last time

And I'd give all my fingertips to touch you

And I could paint you picture perfect

Even if I were blinded

But you have to die, for me to see how to live

Castiel looked to Dean during the guitar melody. He locked eyes and couldn't tell what he was thinking. He felt the energy of the music buzz through him and didn't have to think. He just continued the song still looking into Dean's eyes hoping he knew what this song ment.

I live my life hiding in shadows but now I can see

Cuz your soul is lifting me Higher and higher and higher

Paint bleeds, I can't breathe, need you here with me

Close my eyes I can feel you close

why did you have to go?

I give up my eyes, to see you one last time

And I'd give all my fingertips to touch you

And I could paint you picture perfect

Even if I were blinded

But you have to die, for me to see how to live

Castiel couldn't look away from those piercing green eyes. It's was like they were seeing straight at his soul and he really wished he knew what Dean was thinking. He was now pouring his heart and soul into this song.

Angels fall, it's not your fault

Time goes on without you

Goodbye old friend, we'll meet again

Life goes on without you

Why did you have to go?

As he continued with the song he felt tears form in his eyes and there was no way of holding them back. He wasn't in control when he played. Him and the song were one and there was no way of breaking that.

I give up my eyes, to see you one last time

And I'd give all my fingertips to touch you

And I could paint you picture perfect

Even if I were blinded

But you have to die, for me to see how to live

He played the last melody of the song and let the music fade away still looking straight at Dean. He finally looked away when he set his guitar on the floor. He didn't even have a chance to look back before he was pulled into his chest and started sobbing. Dean started to pet his hair and Castiel stared to get ahold of himself.

"Thats was beautiful Cas." Dean whispered into his head.

Castiel felt a wet drop on his head and backed out of Deans hold to see his face wet. Cas sucked in his breath and his found their way wiping away the tears on Dean's face. Dean smiled and leaned into his hand.

Dean started to laugh. "Well this isn't a chick flick moment."

Castiel started to chuckle too but it faded quickly. He dropped his hand stared down at his lap.

"You don't have to tell me, it's ok." Dean started but Castiel quickly snapped his head up and cut him off.

"No it's not ok. I'm going to tell you. Not only going to but I need to."

Dean nodded in understanding and Castiel took in a deep breath and began.

"It started when I was 10. My mom started drinking, doing drugs and cheating on my dad all the time. I was little at the time so knew she was doing bad things I just didn't know it was as bad as it was. Anyway my dad couldn't do it anymore and got a divorce when I was 11."

Castiel paused trying to get his thoughts together. "It's ok." Dean said and put his hand on his shoulder. "Take your time." Castiel nodded and continued.

"So of course my dad got custody of us and my mom moved out. I was glad she was gone, my dad and her would yell in the middle of the night. I would always hear bangs and crashes and it scared the hell out of me. She stayed gone for a little while but then she would always come back and tell me and Gabe she missed us and she need her kids back. Which was a complete lie." Castel spatted out and Dean began rubbing his shoulder and calmed him down.

"So by the time I was 15 I was living with my mom coming out of nowhere and making everyone miserable when she finally crossed the line. She kidnapped me one night and drove me all the way across the country. She took my cell phone and smashed it. I had no way to get a hold of anyone."

Deans eyes went wide with something Castiel couldn't place and started to shake his head. "No, there's no way anybody could do that."

Castiel let out a bitter laugh and he felt a tear land on his jeans. "Ha well you're wrong there. I tried to run at first but that made things worse. My mom got fed up with me fighting she started to tie me up and drug me so bad I couldn't even stand. Anything you can think of my body was full of it. Soon I got hooked and I stopped fighting. I was in such a bad state that I thought my mom was my savior. She didn't make me go to school and she let me do whatever I wanted.

"But it came at a price, my mom let me live with her but we didn't have a lot of money. She got her boyfriend to teach me how to fight and I started to fight for money. Her boyfriend was the leader of the local drug cartel. He wouldn't teach me unless I started to do things for him like robbing houses, stealing cars, and eventually I became apart of his gang because of it, But those weren't the only things. I had to start being his little toy, he would do all kinds of things to me. I really don't want to give specifics." Castiel said feeling tears fall down his face and felt Dean tense next to him.

"So basically he raped you." Dean stated with anger in his voice.

"Thats the thing, he wasn't because I let him and later after my mom found out she didn't care. It only gave her another idea of how I could make her money so I started selling my body for money and the way she got people interested was saying I was an angel. So lots of people were like 'Where's his wings?' And thats when I got these." Castiel said as he motioned towards his tattoo.

Dean took a hold of both Castiel's shoulders so hard it was almost painful. Castiel looked up and met Dean's eyes "Castiel thats rape! They drugged you up so bad that you weren't yourself and you would have done anything."

Castiel gave a sad smile. "Yeah thats what I like to tell myself."

"It's the truth!" Dean practically yelled. He gave a sigh and let go of Cas. They sat there for what seemed like forever before Dean mumbled. "So how'd you get out?"

"I got busted breaking into a house and when I got into custody they found out I had been missing for a year."

Dean's eyes went wide with terror. "A whole Year?"

Castiel gave a little nod. "They contacted my dad and him and Gabe showed up the next day. At the time I was so fucked up that I started cursing everyone out saying they weren't my family and I wanted nothing to do with them. By some miracle they got me home ok and got me in rehab. I got cleaned up and back to normal. I didn't have to repeat the grade I missed and my life went on."

"So what happened to your mom and the guy?"

"When I didn't come back from the break in, my mom found out that I got arrested and that my dad had taken me back. They came back for me and my dad called the cops but they bolted before they showed up. Thats the reason we moved here. I haven't seen them since. Now you know." Castiel finished wiping away the last few tears.

"Come here." Dean said laying down. Castiel crawled up to him and buried his in the crook of his neck. "I'm so sorry Cas."

Castiel snuggled up closer and dozed off.

Castiel didn't know how much time had past before he finally realized that he was awake and being crushed by a giant body. Castiel was gasping for air and trying to get this thing off of him. He looked over to see that Dean was on top of him drooling right next to his face.

"DEAN!" Castiel gasped out.

Nothing happened. Castiel just wanted to breath ending up doing the only thing he could think of. He used all his force and flipped him over off the bed. Castiel sat up gasping for air and heard a loud crash followed by a giant "Fuck!"

Dean's head popped up from behind the side of the bed and glared at him.

"Hey! You were the one crushing me to death!"

Dean quickly got up and tackled Cas back down on the bed. "You didn't have to throw me off the bed."

"I couldn't breath! What else what I supposed to do?"

Dean bent down and whispered in Castiel's ear. "No excuses." And sent a shiver up Castiel's spine.

Dean bent down and kissed Castiel slow and hard. Castiel was inching his way down to Dean's jeans when there was a knock at the door. They pulled apart and he heard Dean mumble "Damn it." Before yelling "Come in."

Sam followed by Gabriel walked in. They both raised their eyebrows staring at the position they were in. Dean got up off of Castiel and asked in an annoyed voice. "What?"

"We interrupting something?" Gabriel asked with a smirk.

"Yes, what?" Castiel snapped.

"Dean we got to go. Gabriel just got a call from his dad saying he was going to be home soon." Sam said throwing Dean his t-shirt by the door.

"What? We just got here." Dean said putting on his shirt and looking very unhappy.

Sam threw him a bitch face. "Dean we've been here 5 hours."

Castiel confused looked towards Dean who looked just as confused. We didn't sleep that long, Did we?

"No we haven't!" Dean started but stopped when he got his phone out.

"Yeah now lets go." Sam snapped. "It was good to see you Cas." Then stepped out of the room.

Castiel looked towards Gabe who merely shrugged and followed after Sam.

"I still can't believe your brother defiled mine and there together!" Dean snapped and looked towards Castiel. Castiel nodded in agreement and leaned forward and gave Dean many good bye kisses.

"I'll see you tonight Cas." Dean said and gave him one more peck on the lips and headed out. Cas sighed and flopped down on his bed.

Dean's POV

"Does his dad even know you're coming?"

Dean and Sam were in the Impala driving to Cas's house for dinner.

"I don't know? But Gabe invited me so?" Sam said with a shrug of his shoulders.

"That's so unfair! I've been dating Cas for a month and you've been with Gabe like what? 17 hours? You guys haven't even gone out on a real date!"

"I don't know what I'm doing Dean!" Sam snapped out.

"Yeah that right cause you're only 15!"

Sam gave out a huff and started to shake his head. "You're only doing this because you're nervous, you know that right?"

"No I'm not!" Dean barked out. "You're the nervous one!"

"Yeah, sure I am Dean."

The rest of the car ride was in silent and before Dean knew it they were in Cas's driveway. Dean's heart was beating a mile a minute. Dean jumped at the knock on his window. Sam was right outside his door and he heard him yell. "You going to get out anytime soon?"

Dean grabbed the bouquet of flowers he got for Cas and got out. Him and Sam made there way up to the door. Dean knocked lightly. There was shuffling and mumbles behind the door. It flung open to have Gabriel with a winning smirk and a very flushed Cas standing right behind him looking nervous as hell.

"There's my man!" Gabriel shouted and pulled Sam past Dean and into the living room. Cas walked up and intertwined their hands and lead him in. Dean did a full body scan and liked what he saw. Cas had on a pair of faded jeans and a blue striped sleeveless shirt showing off his arms. He was also barefoot.

"What are those?" Cas said pointing to the flowers trying to hold back a laugh but failing. Dean frowned and he started to freak.

"I umm... well you see... Cas I.." He started but stopped when Cas started bursting out laughing and took the flowers. He pulled them up to his and inhaled deeply. "Didn't peck you to be the kinda guy to buy flowers Dean."

Dean stood up straight. "I'm not! There Sam's."

"No there not! Stop lying!" Sam called out.

"But I'll take them!" Gabe yelled running towards Cas. Cas who looked outraged pulled the flowers closer to his body and sent Gabriel flying backwards. "No they're mine!"

"Cas!" Sam called out seeing Gabe on the floor. Dean started laughing and pulled Cas close.

"Didn't peck you to me the possessive type."

"I'm not."

"Fuck you Cassie!" Gabe said now standing.

"GABRIEL!" A voice shouted from the stairs making the room fall silent. Dean snapped his head to see Cas's dad for the first time. Oh. My. God. He's huge! Dean could only stare. He looked nothing like Cas and was even bigger than Sam!

"Come on dad, We're just having a little fun." Gabe said with a smile.

"Thats doesn't give you the right to talk to your brother that way!"

Gabriel gave an eye roll. "Yes sir."

His dad walked over to Dean with a big smile. "You must be Dean." And gave out his hand. Dean straighten his shoulders and took it.

"Yes sir."

"Castiel has told me so much about you."

Dean looked over to Cas who blushed and Dean gave a smirk. "Has he?"

"Yes and I wanted to say it's so good to meet you."

"The pleasure's all mine Mr. Novak."

"Please call me Frank."

Dean gave him a little nod and Frank went over to Sam and Gabe. "So you're the guy who thinks he can handle him." He questioned and gave a little nod towards Gabe who rolled his eyes.

Sam gave his award winning smile. "It can't be that hard."

"I wouldn't say that but it's nice to meet you." They shook hands. "Now dinner's on the table. Lets eat." Frank called out.

They all sat down and it was a nice light mood. They ate and talked and the night was going well. Gabe and Sam had already retreated upstairs and Dean was helping Cas clear the table when the doorbell rung. "I'll get it." Frank called out. Dean came over to Cas hugged him. "I..." He started but was cut off by a woman's voice.

"Castiel." She said quickly.

They both snapped their heads around. The women in front of him had long black hair and hazel eyes. Dean looked towards Castiel feeling really confused. His whole face was white as a sheet and he was tense all over. Dean barely heard it but when he did he went rigid.

"M...Mom?"

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Sorry about The cliffhanger I just couldn't resist. *smiles evilly*
Love all of yall and i wanted thank you for all the support! Till the next time!