Chapter 10 "Love Type Thing" Tegan and Sara
"Morning!!... I've come bearing gifts..." Spencer walked into her dorm carrying a box of doughnuts and coffee.
"Boy... You're obnoxiously chipper this morning" Sally was sitting on her bed, most likely cramming for some test. Cramming was Sally's forte. Mornings on the other hand were not. She was definitely no ray of sunshine in the morning.
"Am not." Spencer argued, but she couldn't help the huge grin plastered all over her face. She WAS obnoxiously giddy and she couldn't help it. She and Ashley had stayed up all night talking, eating ice cream and just reconnecting. She couldn't help it if the thought of Ashley made her smile. "...Anyway I brought you some doughnuts as a peace offering... I was a jerk yesterday and I wanted to apologize." Spencer could pretty much get the Pope to forgive her for murder, especially if there were doughnuts involved. Although, Spencer really didn't need to ask for forgiveness Sally's behavior warranted Spencer's bitchy reaction.
"Oh my god! You banged the hottie!!!"
"What!?… No... Patrick left a few days ago" Sally could definitely not be thinking what Spencer hoped she wasn't thinking.
"Ha!... Ok Ewww no... For future reference please note that whenever I use the androgynous term hottie... I will never EVER be referring to Patrick..." Sally was very amused by the prospect of the dweeby boy being in that category.
"What? Why? Patrick is... Ok … then I don't know what you are talking about..." Spencer was trying her best to be clueless, but it was hard because she was VERY smart.
"You and the Maxim cover girl. Your besty?... The girl with the amazing abs and the ass you can bounce quarters off of... The millionaire heiress with the buns of steel! The sexy girl me and the rest of the girls in Spielberg Hall would go gay for!"
"What?! No!... Why would you...?"Again with the bad lying.
"Oh come on don't play coy with me... I've seen the way she looks at you... all sexy and shit... and YOU with the fluttering lashes, shamefully flirting...it's obvious!"
"You're crazy! She's my best friend… and a girl... That's weird! We're just REALLY good friends" Spencer was testing the girl for a negative reaction. At this point she was past the point of denial, she needed to tell someone and it would probably be easier confiding in someone who was privy to the situation. Plus Sally was a psychology major, she'd be sensitive to these things.
"Oh suck my left nut!... You can't pretend like it's not true... I mean everyone's noticed!! Come on there's a freaking website for crying out loud!" Or Not.
"What? Who's... Website?"
"Please tell me you're kidding!"
"No..."
"You mean you've never heard of ? Don't you ever Google yourself?"
"No... Why? Do you?"
"Of course... Mostly hoping not to find naked pictures though... because 'I' don't hang out with famous party girls!"
"Well I Google Ashley all the time for like... reviews on her songs and stuff..."
"... And you haven't seen a website dedicated to you and Ashley? Spashley? There's like pictures and FanFic. You girls are like this year's SamRo and Lilo!"
"Spashley?" awareness setting slowly, Spencer's eyes widened with realization- "Oh my god! I thought that was like and add for Sea World! … No wonder people are always so nice to us, I just thought it was because of Ashley's outfits…"
"Well yeah probably mostly because of her 'outfits'… but wow… you really are Mary fucking Poppins aren't you?"
"You know?... I really think that you swear a lot... Like all the time!"
"Yeah well... at least I'm not a self loathing repressed homosexual who doesn't know she has the hots for her best friend!"
"Yes I do!" Spencer defended knowingly. Sally's eye's widened with excitement.
"Ahhh! I can't believe that worked! Suck it professor Larson! Psychology is my bitch!" Sally was gloating, more than most licensed professionals would be allowed. Luckily she was still an undergrad.
"Ok you're dumb! You didn't trick me... I forfeited that answer on purpose..." Spencer was quite calm even after her slight confession.
"So you admit it?! You looooove Ashley?!"
"No… Yes… maybe? …." Spencer cringed at her response.
"Come on blondie, out with it… this is no time to be fickle!" Sally was very excited, the real live romantic comedy was unraveling right before her very eyes and she was aware of the large role she'd played in that development. She was quite proud.
"I don't know what it is…but… I know that I've never felt this way about anyone before… and … I don't know… sometimes I just want to… grab her and kiss her…" Spencer blushed at her spontaneous frankness.
"Damn girl, you've got it bad!" Spencer was awkwardly silent, suddenly feeling vulnerable, waiting for Sally's approval. Desperately needing for her to tell her it's O.K. "I think it's cute!" She smiled at the relieved blonde.
"Really?"
"Oh my god YES! … You guys are really HOT together… and SO sweet… Ugh! Like annoyingly sweet…" Sally was being jealous but in a good way.
"Sorry… I'll do my best not to be ANNOYINGLY sweet around you" Spencer smiled at the thought of her being sweet with Ashley. It made her stomach tickle. That's when she realized she DID know what Gwen Stefani was singing about. This made her smile even wider.
"Ahh I'm so excited! I can't wait to tell my Gay Luis about this... He's like the biggest Spashley fan!"
"No! Sally you can't tell anyone about this!" Spencer was suddenly panicked.
"What?! Why?!"
"Because! … You can't!"
"Are you kidding me? … This is so HOT! You owe it to the universe to put it out there!"
"No Sally! …Don't you think I should talk to Ashley about this before the 'universe' blogs about it on some website? …" Spencer was trying to reason with her over enthused confidant "…I mean what if she doesn't feel the same way?"
"Are you kidding?! Believe me! She does! Maybe you can't see it but I can... She's like a puppy... A really RICH puppy... Who just wants to be with you and give you love and follow you everywhere… she PRACTICALLY told me!"
"You don't know Ash like I do though... I mean I really thought she was in love with Aiden and it turns out she's gay!"
"Well, we all really thought that you were in love with…"-cringe-"Patrick and it turns out you're gay too!" Sally refuted. "… which explains a lot"
"Oh my god! …I'm gay!" The realization insidiously settling in Spencer's brain.
"Uhmm yeah? … Welcome to the conversation" Sally was confused.
"No you don't get it! … I've been dealing with having feelings for my best friend that's a girl! …Now I'm gay too!"
"That's kind of how it goes hun…"
"Oh my god! …Oh my god oh my god oh my god!" Spencer started panicking and her breathing became instantly erratic. This may have been a little too much for the blonde.
"Spencer it's ok… you don't have to be gay yet…" Sally got up from her bed and hurried towards the hyperventilating blonde, attempting to soothe her anxiety "don't focus on stupid labels… focus on your feelings for Ashley… on how happy she's going to make you… and how happy you're going to make her… this is GOOD remember? "
Sally was being sincere and Spencer's breathing subdued again. After a few moments of silence and several one handed back rubs from Sally, Spencer was calm. Her expression changed from worry to ease.
"…Plus Ashley already told everyone SHE was gay… no one's going to care about you anymore… they're probably just going to expect it or think you're doing it for attention… Ooops I'm sorry did I rain on your big gay parade " Sally added that part sarcastically for humor but it brought the pensive blonde back from her daze.
"You're right… Oh my god you're so fucking right!" Sally wasn't expecting this reaction. She was quickly her smug self again.
"Of course!"
"No you're right… Ashley was so brave to go through this all by herself and here I am freaking over it, when I know she'll be there with me… God you're so unbelievably right!"
"No really, I know… remember you're not the only genius here?" Spencer smiled a grateful smile
"Thank you…"
"You're welcome… I think I've earned my doughnut!" - Sally went to grab a doughnut from the box -"Ok so… when are you going to do IT?" Sally asked while making a suggestive gesture with the hole of the doughnut and her finger. Sally wasn't always this sensitive or perceptive with others. She needed a break from all that compassion she was feeling. It was exhausting.
"Sally!" Spencer yelled embarrassed.
"Fine! You're such a prude! … So when are you going to TELL her?"
"I don't know… I haven't really thought about what I'm going to say…"
"Ah! This is why I can't do the chick thing you know? There's always talking and emotions involved… and why do they always want to know what you're thinking?! … With a guy you don't have to say anything you can just take off your clothes and it's all good"
"Well Ashley IS kind of like a guy…"
"Well there you go… just take your clothes off and you're good"
"Sally I can't do that, she's my best friend… we have to talk about this… I can't just take off my clothes… it's more complex than that… and as much as I'd like to believe you… I'm still not sure she feels the same way"
"Fuck you're stubborn…and such a chick! … Whatever, you're going to have to TALK to her soon…"
"I know…" Spencer resigned to her fate.
"When are you going to see her again?"
"Not till Saturday" Spencer found that she was upset by the lengthy gap.
"Really? … Don't you guys see each other like every night?"
"Not EVERY night… But I have a lot of catching up to do from my week 'off' and her sister is in town… so she'll be out with her"
"Oh Kyla?! I love when she's does cameos on that reality tv show… she's so funny!"
"Yeah Kyla is her sister's… sister"
"Nice" Sally sarcastically complimented Spencer on her keen observation "… anyway so what's happening Saturday night?"
"Oh our friend Madison is having this white party thing. We have to show up wearing a white outfit… and"
"Oh my god that's perfect! That's when you'll tell Ashley… I'm going to make you look sooo HOT in white that even if she were stupid enough to want to, she won't be able to reject you…" Sally's eyes were wide with excitement, a look unfamiliar to Spencer.
"Wow! I'm a little scared right now." She wasn't kidding.
"You should be!" Neither was she.