Double Update since the servers where down. I actually have every chapter written up for all the episodes up to 5, those chapters will be written by the time episode 6 airs. I really do hope your enjoying the story and i do appreciate the comments and reviews!
Charlotte lightly pushing me woke me up. opening my eyes I realized Bellamy was no longer in the cave. I stood up and brushed off my pants before turning to her with a soft smile on my face.
"Where's—" She cut me off by giggling and pointing to the entrance of the cave. I turned my head to look at the entrance and saw him standing there leaning in the entryway. The way the sunlight lit up his entire face, made him completely irresistible. His hair was shining in the light, his skin glowing. He turned back and smirked, "We should go find the others and head back to the camp." He told us both.
"You love him." Charlotte teased me.
Without thinking I responded with, "Of course." I instantly slapped my hands over my mouth. "Defiantly not what I meant to say." I said
"But you said it, I like it. You and him, you guys look so happy together." She continued. Great love advice from a thirteen year old. So much better than love advice from the guy you likes seventeen-year-old sister.
I smiled at her as we walked towards Bellamy, and followed him out of the cave. "It's all clear." He said once we were out of the cave. As we headed back to where we got split up from the group, he was never more than three steps ahead of us and was constantly turning around to make sure we were both ok. This was the Bellamy I loved being around; this version of him was perfect.
"Anybody out here?" Bellamy started calling out into the forest.
"Jones!" He called, "We're here!" We heard him call out. Bellamy took my hand as I took Charlottes and we walked quickly though the forest till we reached Jones and the others. Well everyone but Atom. I looked over at Bellamy who seemed to notice Atom was missing long before I had.
"Lost you in the stew. Where'd you go?" Bellamy asked the other three once we had finally caught up to them.
"Made it to a cave down there." Jones said pointing behind them.
"Yea we found one just in time too." I said causing the girl they where with to smile with relief.
"What the hell was that?" Jones asked us.
"I don't know." Bellamy said slowly. "I think it was Acid Gas…" I began to explain. "It's the only thing that can explain the choking, and burning of the skin from instant contact." I finished explaining.
"We're safe now." The girl said I needed to learn her name.
"Where's Atom." Bellamy finally asked, the three kids in front of us all looked at each other each one more confused than the next. Jones shrugged his shoulders; it was at that moment we started hearing crows cawing in the distance. Well it was either crows or vultures. Both birds where known for being down with eating meat.
I looked around me and noticed Charlotte wasn't next to me anymore. "Bellamy…" I said softly, he turned around and noticed Charlotte was missing. "Charlotte!" I called for her.
Not more than a second later, the five of us heard Charlotte's blood curling scream. I don't think I've ever run that fast in my life searching for a person. I finally found her; Bellamy, Jones and the other two close behind me. She was standing in a small clearing staring at the ground.
I made my way closer to her to see what it was she screamed about, that's when I felt my heart sink into my stomach. She continued to scream as I walked right over to her pulling her into my arms and turning her face into me shielding her from the scene.
Atom was on the ground covered in, boils and burns all over his skin. From where I was his eyes looked to be glossed over and white. He was out here in that toxic fog all night long. His insides where probably slowly melting. He was going to die an incredibly slow, incredibly painful death. Bellamy soon ran up behind me again finally seeing what both Charlotte and I saw.
He put his arm around me lightly kissing my cheek before addressing the situation in front of us. "Son of a bitch, Atom." He looked at me worried. He had no reason to be worried about me; Atom was his closet thing to a friend down here.
"Bellamy…" I whispered softly.
This was going to absolutely destroy Octavia; I wasn't sure what I would have to say to her, if anything at all. I knew how she felt for him she was head over heels for Atom, and from what he told me before the fog hit. He felt the exact same way for her if not he had fallen harder.
Bellamy soon left my side and headed over to Atoms, I knelt down slightly and looked at Charlotte. "It'll be all right." I told her before I made my way over to Bellamy's side. Trying to check over Atom, looking for any sign that there wasn't permanent damage even though I knew… he wasn't going to make it.
The damage to Atom's corneas' where worse than I had thought they where from the distance, they almost seemed to be peeling off his eyeball. I'd never even read about something like that before. He had light bleeding in his mouth; I could tell he was having a lot of trouble breathing. He looked like he was in an unimaginable amount of pain.
I looked at Bellamy and placed my hand on his shoulder; "We have to ease his pain." I told him, basically that was the nicest way I could think of saying we needed to kill him.
He looked at me, "Is there anything back at the camp you have that can save him?" He asked me as I averted my eyes to the ground, I could tell this was breaking down every wall Bellamy had put up since we got down here.
He had everyone believing that nothing phased him, that he wasn't afraid, that he could be they're fearless leader. As I looked up and saw how broken this had made Bellamy. It broke my heart. I watched as Atom tried to say something to Bellamy causing him to move his face closer to his friend.
"Kill me." He barely choked out; Bellamy had a look of disbelief on his face. He couldn't believe what he heard, I put my hand on his shoulder again, my free hand rubbing circles in Atom's shoulder.
"Kill me." He said again his face searching Bellamy's own before he turned to look at me. It hurt me to see him this way, I could only imagine the amount of pain he was going through and had gone through all night.
"Kill me." He begged us both again. I was no killer; I didn't even know the first thing about it. Well I did but that didn't mean I was ready to end Atom's life. Didn't mean I could either, I looked at Bellamy. I was hoping to god he had the answer to what we should do with Atom.
But he didn't he just sat there looking at me, then to Atom then back to Charlotte who was sitting behind us. Then his big brown sad eyes stared at me. Engulfing me whole, all I wanted to do was hold him close. Tell him everything would be ok Atom would be fine.
Bellamy stood up as the other three finally ran over to where we where. I sat there next to Atom brushing back his hair, trying to sooth him. "I –Can't – Breathe." He began to stutter out.
He was shaking, and moving around. I was so afraid for him, I wanted so badly to just make this all better. We should have all stuck together. I began to wonder if everyone back at the camp was doing ok? Or even Clarke and the boys, were they all right? I was so worried about everyone so scared about what was going on around us. We were all way to young to deal with this sort of stuff. Sure I was a doctor but I wasn't equipped to handle this. I'd never killed a patient before.
I looked over at Bellamy; Charlotte was now at his side. She was handing him the knife he'd given her the day before. I lowered my eyes and began to hum a soft tune to Atom. The same one my mother used to sing to me when I would get nightmares. Same tune I would sing to Clarke when she had hers.
"Don't be afraid." I heard Charlotte's soft voice tell Bellamy.
Afraid that was exactly what I was right now. I was terrified, what was I supposed to do. How was I supposed to help Bellamy get through killing his only friend? I continued to hum softly from Atom. I could tell Atom was watching me, trying to stay calm even though he knew. He knew he was going to die soon.
"Go back to camp." Bellamy ordered the other three with us, they where quick to nod at his request, and turned around to leave. "Charlotte, you, too." He told her as she looked to me.
"Charlotte you don't need to see this. I'll come find you when we get back to the camp." She looked at me her eyes hesitant, she didn't even look afraid of what she was seeing, and she didn't really look sad either. I was having a hard time reading her face. She turned to Bellamy giving him the same frazzled expression.
She soon followed in step and turned to leave. I looked up at Bellamy as he began to walk back over to me. Kneeling down next to me I continued to push back Atom's hair softly singing to him. I could feel Bellamy's uneasy eyes burning a hole into the side of my head. "I can't do it for you Bell. I just can't." I said feeling the tears slide down my cheek.
I didn't even know Atom, but it was the fact that we had lost the third, possibly 5th person. Bellamy sat there staring at the knife he had in his hand that he was holding over Atom's chest. I hear a soft snap from a twig, which caused us both to look up from Atom and behind us. Clarke stood there her eyes sullen as she stared at Atom who was dying slowly in front of us.
She walked slowly towards us, before picking up her pace and was now on the other side of Atom. She dropped her bag on the ground and knelt down next to Atom like we were. I looked at her as I quickly brushed the tears away from my cheek.
"He got separated from us when the fog hit, he was out in it all night." I explained to her, as Bellamy stayed silent.
Clarke looked at me, "please" we heard Atom mutter. Clarkes face shot back to his.
"I heard screams…" she proceeded to say softly.
"Charlotte found him." Bellamy finally said as his voice cracked. "I sent her back to camp." He said as he looked up from Atom and looked directly at Clarke. It gave me a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. Jealousy? Really? The entire time I'd been here next to him he barely said two words to me about what was going on.
It was like I had become invisible to him, I looked at Clarke whose eyes where on me. "There's nothing I can do to help him Clarke." She nodded; I turned my attention back down to Atom, humming once again. He closed his eyes letting my voice sooth him.
"You used to sing that too me after they took my father." Clarke said.
"It helped." I told her. Clarke looked at Bellamy after looked Atom over. She wasn't going to say it but she knew I was right. There was nothing we could do. Looking at him again she shook her head telling him exactly what I had been telling him since we found Atom.
I moved to stand up; I may as well go back to the camp. Find Charlotte make sure she is not scared for life after seeing Atom like this. Prepare Octavia for when we bring his body back to the camp. Take the seaweed from Clarke if she has it and help Jasper. However I was stopped when I felt Bellamy take my hand in his and pull me back down. "Please…" he said as his eyes begged me to stay with him.
He was quite for me, not because he didn't know what to say but because he didn't want to scare me anymore than I was. He was being silent because it was how he knew how to deal with this. I was his anchor at this moment and without me here who knows what he would do.
I looked at Clarke as she stared at me. "I can't do it Clarke I can't… I couldn't do that to Octavia." I told her as she nodded, her eyes now filling with sadness knowing neither Bellamy nor I had the will to put an end to Atom. She looked down at Atom and smiled meekly. "Ok." She said softly looking at me from the corner of her eyes.
"Can you hum the song to him at least?" She asked "you know it better than I do." She said as I nodded.
She looked down at Atom again; "I'm going to help you." She said softly.
I could feel Bellamy's hand clamp tightly around mine. He wasn't too fond of the idea of anyone killing Atom. Even if it was to end the misery and pain he was experiencing. I looked at him and smiled softly at him he just nodded his head and loosened his grip on my hand.
I began to softly hum the tune my mother had taught me as a child, to be honest it was a song from way before my time, way before my mothers time even. My mother told me that her mother used to sing the song to her as a child. Same with her mother to her, the words had been long forgotten since my mom knew it. I only knew the tune, she said the song was called Let it be. I can't remember who sung it; way over a hundred years ago was the last time the actual song had even been heard.
I continued to hum the song as Clarke joined me brushing his hair back softly. His eyes now white and glossed over where looking up at Bellamy and I. Smiling down at him I felt a tear slide down my cheek, this was probably the most heart breaking moment I've experienced since being on the ground.
My voice had started to crack, which was about the time Clarke plunged the blade into the side of Atom's neck. I noticed she twisted it a little bit before pulling it back out. We continued to hum to him as Bellamy was staring at the two of us like this was something we'd done before. I couldn't speak for Clarke but I had never killed someone before.
Bellamy started rubbing circles into my back as I silently sobbed while Clarke and I continued to sing and comfort Atom's dead body as if he where still alive and well. Clarke looked to me soon after we'd finished the song; I think we continued because it was calming us down about what had just happened. It didn't make me feel any better about what had happened to him though. She seemed all right about it… I couldn't have felt worse.
It was nightfall once we had reached the camp. I could hear people talking and chatting around us, as the boy brought in Atom's body on the make shift carrying. Clarke had her arm around me pulling me close to her. This was the closest we'd been in almost a year, and yet I couldn't feel further away from her.
She leaned into me before turning to say something; "we've got to get you to Jasper. Finn she'll need boiled water to make the medicine." She told Finn as he nodded to us before walking away.
I turned to Bellamy kissing him lightly all the cheek, "There was nothing you could do… she'll understand." I told him "If not… I'll talk to her." He nodded as he turned to Wells and one of his pawns. "Get Rayne whatever she needs." Wells nodded, "I better go get this grave dug." He told Bellamy. I shuddered at the thought it only made the situation more real.
I said before following Clarke towards the drop ship, I needed to get to Jasper before it was too late, and before he was a lost cause completely. Octavia approached Clarke and I as we where on our way to the drop ship.
"It's about time, did you get the medicine?" She asked as Clarke nodded while saying that we had indeed found it.
She looked at me; "What's wrong?" she asked me. "Don't be too upset with him. There was nothing we could do… I would have tried everything if we could." I told her as Clarke shot me a look.
"Come on lets go get to Jasper." Clarke said trying to pull Octavia away with us. She pushed past her and walked over to Bellamy. "What does she mean not be up set with you?" She asked.
"Octavia stay back." He tried to stop her from seeing Atom as she pushed past him and knelt next to his body. She pealed away the jacket they had laid over his face to shield him from the rest of the kids.
"Octavia there was nothing we could—" she cut him off.
"Don't." She said harshly. As she put the jacket back over his face, standing up looking at Bellamy with such rage, such anger.
I understood why she was angry, the past few days Atom had been ignoring her because of Bellamy. She never got to say good-bye to him before the hunt. Never got to do or say anything she literally lost the one guy here who was kind to her because he wanted to not because he wanted something from her.
I wasn't even sure if there was anything I would be able to say to her to make this entire situation better, if I would be able to patch them up. Bellamy was looking at me, I mouthed to him that I was sorry. He knew I would talk to her for him; I would do anything for him. Not that I understood why I was this way about him. Why would I do anything for him, was it love? Where we in love? I couldn't speak for him but I knew no matter what I would be his and go to his side.
Clarke and I had made out way up the ladder in the drop ship. Finn had a bowl of water bowling over the fire. I looked to him and Clarke, "I'm going to need some wet cloth and some soaked clothed, like burning hot soaked cloths." I told them.
"Why burning?" Finn asked.
"She needs the cloth to be sterilized." Clarke said with a soft smile.
I found a make shift cup and began to mix the seaweed into some boiling water. Breaking it up with my hands as I dropped it into the pot, I'd need to soak the clothes in it anyway may as well mix it as a whole. I scooped come of it up into the tin cup as they dropped the cloth into the pot.
Octavia had come up the latter and lifted Jasper's head so that it was on her knees. "Octavia…" I whispered, she looked at me her eyes full of tears. "You know he'd have done anything he could to save Atom." I told her softly.
Clarke nodded, "He was pretty catatonic when I found them." She said, thank god she was helping me. I began to get Jasper to drink from the cup, "you have to drink as much as you can Jasper." I told him as Octavia smiled at me lifting his head to meet the cups edge.
"I really am sorry about Atom." Clarke said again as I felt Octavia take my hand. "I guess we're going to have to get used to people dying down here. Aren't we?" She said her voice cracking. "But not you." She said to Jasper. "You hear me? You're not allowed to die."
She then lifted her head and was staring at Clarke and I searching for answers. Clarke chose to stay silent. "I will try my hardest to not let things like either of these two attacks happen again. We should be getting a second chance." I told her as she smiled at me. She was so attached to Jasper; it was a wonder she wasn't in love with him over Atom. My guess was that he blindly jumped to save her life regardless of the cost of his own.
Clarke soon stood up saying there was something she needed to do, telling us she would be back. We all nodded and watched as she left the drop ship. "You did good." Finn told me. "I wouldn't have done anything if you guys hadn't gone to get me what I need." I told him as we finished re wrapping all of Jasper's wounds with the cloths.
We all sat around passing around a bottle of whisky, Finn had explained he found it in side the glove box of a hundred year old car that was under years of forest growth. There must have been a city once where we where than. This probably wasn't always a forest. "Smooth" Monty said coughing as he swallowed the liquid.
He passed it to Octavia who than took a swig of the drink next, she looked like it was the nastiest thing she'd put in her mouth.
"Disgusting." She said as she examined the bottle. "Love it." She said as she passed it to me. I took a swig of it next, it'd been since my eighteenth birthday since I've had alcohol. I had to trade for it, since its toxic and its against laws to have any.
I let the smooth liquid wash down my throat. "Still burns good." I said as Octavia chuckled, I then passed it back to Finn who was about to take a swig when we heard coughing as we all turned to see Jasper sitting up slightly. "Can I get a hit of that?" he asked us causing us all to nearly jump to our feet and rush to his side.
"How about we start with the soft stuff." Finn joked picking up some of the tea I had made with the seaweed. Jasper rolled his eyes but drank it as it was leaked into his mouth.
"Welcome back buddy." Finn said to him as he stood up from feeding the drink to Jasper. Monty instantly took Jasper's hand in his and the two friends smiled at each other.
"Was I dreaming or did I get speared?" Jasper asked them.
"You'll have a very impressive scar to prove it." Clarke said as she climbed up the latter to join us, "You have Rayne here to thank for making that tea that saved your life." She added as she placed her hand on my shoulder.
"My saviors!" He said with a cheeky grin. "I couldn't have done anything if it wasn't for Clarke, Finn and Wells. They really saved the day." I told him.
"Don't sell yourself short Rayne. We needed you for this." Clarke said smiling at me as Octavia rested her hand on my back also grinning at me.
"Than I guess you're welcome." I told Jasper with a smile.
"Thank you for not dying." Clarke told him, as she wrapped her arm around me pulling me into a hug. "I don't think we could have taken that today." She finished saying.
"You should probably go find Bellamy." Octavia told me poking my leg. "Before he breaks something, or someone."
I nodded; "Make sure he finishes that entire pot of tea… and if you need anything else…find me." I said to them as they all nodded. "And you." I pointed at Octavia. "Find me when you're ready to talk about what happened." She smiled nodding at me as I left the drop ship in search of Bellamy, or Charlotte. Which ever one came first.
"Rayne?" I heard from behind me.